by J. Thorn
Mara sent a glare of disgust toward him.
Major pushed back on his chair until the front two legs came off the floor. “I don’t know how we’re supposed to fight through so many of those things, but I do know that if we don’t, the cloud will reach this cabin soon, and the Reversion will take us with it. If there is any hope of survival, we have to get out of here.”
Mara reached out again and placed a hand on Samuel’s arm, while Kole shook his head and snickered under his breath.
***
The fire smoldered over the coals, the heat failing to dispel the chill from the cabin as if the flame itself was losing its will to exist in the locality. Mara stirred a wooden ladle inside an iron pot with a steady, mindless motion while staring at the wall. Kole and Major sat next to each other on their respective chairs, shoulder to shoulder, casting long gazes across the undead landscape. Samuel walked over and stood next to Mara. He inhaled and recognized scent of her hair, and thought that when the Reversion dulled the rest of his senses, he might lose his mind. A chuckle escaped his lips as the term “cabin fever” rolled around in his head.
“What?” she asked.
“Nothing.”
“So you laugh at random times about nothing? Are you psychotic?”
“I remembered a phrase that made me laugh, that’s all,” replied Samuel.
Kole stole a glance over one shoulder and decided that the rotten horde was more interesting than Samuel and Mara’s conversation.
“Do you remember stuff?” Samuel asked.
Mara stopped stirring and let the ladle rest against the side. “More than I care to,” she replied.
“I get snapshots. I see a picture from my past, and the story fills in around it. One second, my past doesn’t exist, and the next, an image brings back a chunk of it.”
Mara shrugged. “If this Reversion is really the end, and those things aren’t letting us out, I’m not sure it really matters. Not sure anything does.”
“I agree,” he replied.
“I don’t think this . . .,” said Mara, with an arm spinning to unfold the cabin, the Barren, the locality, the entire situation. “I don’t think this matters. It’s not in our control.”
“Kind of depressing.”
“Kind of true,” she replied.
Major and Kole remained seated and silent, their eyes following the swaying bodies.
Samuel felt a desire for privacy, a need to have Mara’s conversation all to himself. He looked about the cabin and its four menacing walls, which seemed to creep in further toward the center. He remembered his dream and the conversation with Kole.
“I think I need to rest,” he said to Mara.
She nodded. Samuel balled a rucksack for a pillow and curled up in the corner, while the heat from the fire did little to comfort him.
***
He opened his eyes to a bustle of activity. Glowing orbs of glass hung from a silver cable, warming the room with incandescent light. The strong, bitter aroma of roasted coffee filled every crevice. Burlap sacks that once held beans hung from the walls, decorated with stamps from their countries of origin. A behemoth, silver beast sat in one corner, rumbling as it kept the gourmet ice cream frozen. The machine on the counter whistled, and a barista coaxed the hot air into a frothy mix.
A man with a black fedora sat in the corner, perched atop a three-legged stool like a pigeon on a skyscraper. He wore a maple-bodied acoustic guitar strapped across his torso, and his fingers moved across the frets, spilling blue notes and minor chords into the swirling mix of muted conversation and clanking dishes. Samuel recognized the melody, an old delta blues standard, but he could not place the song. A microphone jutted from the top of a stand, but the guitarist ignored its existence, his head down and swaying along with the swinging beat created by his right hand above the sound hole.
Samuel looked down at a white mug on a table. A book and a folded newspaper sat askew, the newspaper dangling from the edge as if trying to escape. He could see the dark swirls in his chai latte as the steam climbed through the air. He noticed a half dozen other people involved in various solitary acts together. One woman bounced her head in rhythm to the song confined to her ear buds, ignoring the guitarist pouring his soul forth from the guitar. One man sat in the corner, a single chair at a small table facing the wall. He thumbed through a crumpled, dog-eared book. A young couple sat at a table across the room. They both wore safety pins for earrings and patches on their black leather jackets, declaring allegiance to long-dead punk bands. The man had his hands on the table face up, while the woman had hers inside of his, facedown. They gazed into each other’s faces, oblivious to everyone else in the room.
Samuel turned back to the bluesman. He saw the alabaster skin on his hands and chuckled. Purists claimed the white man could never play the blues like the originators, but he wasn’t a purist. Samuel closed his eyes and let the familiar, twelve-bar pattern soothe his nerves.
“Is this seat taken?”
The question ripped him from his thoughts, and he opened his eyes to find a woman standing before him, holding a steaming mug and a Danish on a plate. The corner of the wax paper beneath the pastry stuck out at Samuel like a preschooler’s tongue.
“No,” he replied.
Samuel felt an immediate sense of connection with the woman, or more accurately the girl. But he also felt a deep sadness. She appeared to be on the verge of womanhood, sparkling eyes, slight hips, and an optimism about love and life that she would share with everyone she knew.
She wore her jet-black hair below the shoulder in wavy patterns that reflected deep, purple hues in the light of the coffee shop. Samuel loved the way it framed her oval face. The woman’s skin shone with a brilliance punctuated by dark eye shadow and glistening, maroon lips. She shed her bulky winter coat to reveal a lithe form beneath. Faded, black jeans clung to her shapely legs and rode low on slender hips. She wore a ragged, gray sweater over a black, nylon top that held her breasts upright. Samuel guessed her to be in her early twenties, but with a vulnerability that made her appear even younger. He made eye contact, trying to avoid being hypnotized by her blue eyes.
“I’m Mara,” she said, extending her hand outward while placing her coffee on the table with the other.
“Samuel,” he replied.
“I never approach guys. Even at the bar. Sorry if this is a bit awkward.”
He smiled and waved off the fumbling attempt at ice-breaking. “It’s fine.”
Mara paused and took a long look. She gazed at Samuel, and he saw electricity pass through her face.
“Oh my god,” she whispered.
Samuel sat still. He lifted his mug to his lips until the coffee singed his bottom lip.
“What am I doing here?” she asked.
Without waiting to confirm her revelation, Samuel explained. “I know I’m asleep. Dreaming. Maybe you are, too. Even if you’re not, I think we can communicate this way. I did with Kole.”
She froze, as if that name had slapped her across the face. She looked around at the bluesman, the punk lovers, the bustling barista.
“I don’t know,” she said. Mara looked at her hands, holding shiny, red nails up to her face. “It feels so real.”
“Most dreams do, until you wake up.”
She nodded in agreement. “How can we— What should—”
Samuel laughed as Mara’s brain struggled to process what was happening. “I don’t know. The dream scenario I had with Kole was, well, not quite as comfortable as this one. Why don’t we enjoy our gourmet coffees and talk?”
Mara looked over each shoulder as if the authorities were about to break down the door in an FBI raid.
“I think we’re good until I wake up. Scone?”
She smiled and leaned back in the chair. “I miss this,” she said, twirling a strand of hair around her slim fingers. “I miss my hair, the fragrance of my body wash, insignificant things.”
“Funny how life’s little pleasures escape your notic
e until you lose it all,” Samuel replied. “I miss my music.”
He turned to face the man in the fedora. The melody had changed. The key had changed. However, the faceless guitar slinger continued to jam those comfortable, familiar chords.
“Tell me about you,” Samuel said.
Mara blushed and passed a hand in front of her face.
“Sorry. That sounded so bad. Didn’t mean to embarrass you.” He shuffled in his seat and moved his mug from one hand to the other.
“It’s okay. I’m not very good around guys.”
“What do you mean?” he asked, leaning forward. “Guys at your school must be tripping over you.”
Mara shook her head. “Dropped out second semester sophomore year and never went back. I commuted, anyways. Didn’t really buy into the whole college experience.”
Samuel left it at that, sensing the scab on that wound had never entirely healed. “I get it.”
“What was college like for you, you know, back in the day?” she asked with a wide smile.
Samuel leaned back and looked at the ceiling. “It was hard carrying all the clay tablets back and forth to class. We didn’t even have the wheel back then.”
“I didn’t mean it that way—”
Samuel took a turn at dispelling the clumsiness. “I know.”
Mara sipped from her mug. Samuel loved the way she cupped her long, slender fingers around it on both sides. If she had a scarf, she could be on the cover of one of those trendy catalogs for European kitchen gadgets.
“You’re kinda cute for an older guy.”
Samuel blushed. The bluesman had stopped playing. He was shuffling through a handful of papers while holding the guitar on his lap.
“Tell me your story,” Samuel said.
“Can’t we just sit here and drink coffee and leave it at that?”
He sensed reluctance in her voice, but felt a pressure to force the issue.
“I don’t think that’s why we’re here. I think I’m getting these dream opportunities for a reason. It must have something to do with the Reversion.”
The last word made her shudder. It pulled the curtain back on the coffeehouse façade, which Mara had convinced herself was the new reality.
“Fine,” she said, a new coldness emanating from her face.
Samuel waited. He drummed his fingers on the table as the notes spewed forth from the guitar again. The punk rockers brushed past with a mixture of leather, espresso, and jasmine incense.
“We didn’t have much. My dad worked the factory. He turned a nut on rods, or some bullshit like that. We never really knew exactly what he did, but it kept him at sixty to seventy hours a week. He’d work a full, eight-hour shift on Sunday and be home by noon.”
She let the statement hang and gave Samuel time to do the math.
“Didn’t leave much quality family time. My mom babysat, which made me and my brother feel even less special. On any given day, there would be ten or twelve kids running through the house. My dad would come home after a twelve-hour shift and the chaos would eat at him. I swear you could see it in his face.”
The guitarist shifted into a down-tempo shuffle that reminded Samuel of “Stormy Monday.” He thought of the dark cloud propelling the Reversion forward, and the title of the song, before pushing it from his thoughts.
“I’m telling you this because it had a lot to do with me leaving school. My mom got sick and couldn’t watch kids anymore, and the factory started losing contracts to overseas companies, which meant my dad lost hours and eventually his job. I took over parenting for my younger brother, and I couldn’t do that and keep up with my studies at the same time.”
“I wonder how many other women have been in that same situation.”
Samuel meant the comment as a token of empathy, understanding, but Mara simply shrugged and continued.
“Tommy, my little brother, was late that night. I was going to pick him up from hockey practice because my dad was already asleep and my mom had taken too many of her ‘little sleep helpers’ to even consider getting behind the wheel. I remember thinking how crazy it was for a twelve-year-old kid to be at hockey practice until eleven o’clock on a Friday night. They don’t call Detroit ‘Hockeytown’ for nothing.”
Hearing the name of the city ignited a synapse in Samuel’s dream brain. He felt an ache behind his forehead, trapped in a place where it would gnaw and fester.
“I think it was December. It had already been dark for like seven hours and a heavy, wet snow had been falling for the past two. Detroit was in dire shape. They couldn’t afford to put police offers on the street, let alone rock salt or sand from a plow. If you live there, you accept it.
“So I was on my way to get Tommy, cranking some killer metal on the car’s CD player.”
Samuel nodded. Then he held up his hand, flashing Mara the devil horns, an international sign for heavy metal.
“I don’t think Dio started that, but it’s fine if history thinks so.”
Samuel raised his eyebrows and smiled. His mind flashed to a Judas Priest concert he had attended as a teenager, and he couldn’t remember any fans that even remotely resembled someone like Mara. He would have gone to many more if they had.
“Yeah. So the car is really warm and the music is really loud, two things that wouldn’t be happening in our house. My time in the car was as much of an escape as I could manage. I guess it’s why I never complained too much about chauffeuring Tommy around. It gave me time alone to think and listen to metal.
“He was waiting for me on the curb with his stick held like a sword in one of those high-fantasy movies. I remember him being the only kid sitting out there on top of his hockey bag. He came running over to the car toward the trunk. I pulled the latch, and it rose like the opening jaws of a monster. He swung all of his weight around to get the bag to clear the bottom of the bumper. He pushed the rest of it in and then shoved the stick on top. I heard the muffled thump of the trunk shutting. Tommy yanked on the handle of the passenger side door, and I shook my head. He was a skinny kid and not heavy enough to sit in the front, you know, with the airbag laws and stuff.”
Samuel nodded. The more Mara talked, the more he shifted in his seat. The delicate strumming of the bluesman started to erode his patience.
“Tommy climbed into the backseat and started immediately yapping about practice. I turned the music down to let Tommy have his say. It’s not like Mom or Dad was going to ask him about practice when we got home.
“I made a right out of the parking lot and eased on to Route 24. The four-lane cut right through our hometown. Strip malls and used-car lots straddled it with an occasional stoplight thrown in to allow greedy idiots out of the big-box stores with their plastic crap.”
Samuel smiled. He wiped a bead of sweat from his forehead and began shooting glances about the room. The patrons continued on their individual pursuits, and the notes coming from the guitar strings felt like death by a thousand cuts.
“Like I said, it was December, dark and cold. With snow. But that wasn’t really a factor in it.”
A wheeze escaped Samuel’s lips.
“I passed through a busier section of 24, closer to the stretch with the car dealerships. They were all closed at this time, but there was an Italian restaurant across the street from one that always served dinner late. We were driving at about forty-five, keeping the limit. We had some old-school Metallica jamming. Pretty sure it was Ride the Lightning, probably “Fade to Black.” Tommy and me, we loved that song. The dynamics are brutal.
“There weren’t many cars on the road, but enough to keep the headlights dancing in the mirrors. Tommy shifted into the center area of the backseat, finding some way to do that while keeping the seatbelt fastened. He knew I’d friggin’ flip if he didn’t have it on.”
Mara shifted in her seat and drew a breath. She had doled out as many of the inconsequential details as she could, and now it was time to tell Samuel what he wanted to know.
“There wa
s a car in front of me, maybe a hundred yards or so, and nobody behind. We were in the left lane with nothing but faded lines on asphalt to separate us from the traffic going the other way. The people had complained to city council and the mayor a dozen times. They tried to get a cement median, you know, one of those walls. But the owner of the Italian restaurant, local dude that probably had his fingers in numbers and low-level drug dealing, fought it every time. He argued that folks coming eastbound on 24 would have to drive an extra half a mile to the next stoplight and make a U-turn to come back to his restaurant going westbound. He said it would kill his business.”
Mara emphasized the word “kill”. She could no longer look at Samuel. Her vision clouded from the tears oozing from the corner of her eyes.
“So anyway, the car in front hits the brakes hard. I see the flash and think that he probably wanted a lasagna and passed the parking lot going forty-five or fifty. But then I got that feeling in my gut, the kind that probably comes from evolutionary instinct, if you believe in that kind of thing.
“The car fishtails, and by now I’ve closed the distance and I’ve taken my foot off the accelerator. Dad always got pissed when I used the brake to slow down on the highway. He said if you remove your foot from the gas, you’ll slow down and won’t scare the shit out of the people behind you.
“I see the side of the car, some featureless sedan. And as soon as it crosses to the right into the slow lane, I saw it.”
The blues player stopped strumming. The barista stood with a dirty dish rag in one hand and an empty mug in another. Everyone inside the coffee shop stopped and stood like motionless creatures trapped in a dying world. Samuel’s eyes shifted from one to the next as their skin, hair, and clothing morphed into a grayscale curtain of despair. He watched as teeth fell out and eyes turned to obsidian voids. The oppressive silence of the Reversion swallowed the hustle of the coffee shop. The smell of incense and roasted coffee disappeared as well. Samuel watched the lights dim, and the walls dropped their adornments like a tattered robe, allowing the crooked and rotten planks to show through.
“The headlights looked like eyes,” Mara said. “I know that’s a corny cliché, but it’s true. The car looked like an angry beast. I remember starting to swerve the wheel in the midst of Tommy yelling. Time sped up and then slowed. I watched as the filaments in the headlights exploded on impact. That was the last thing I could see. I remember thinking that I wasn’t even going to see the face of the other driver. Was it a man? Woman? Were they drunk, lost, disoriented? Were they courting death, like me?