by Bishop, Anne
*Gray? Should I nip?*
“No,” Cassidy said, dropping the weeding claw and rising from the spot she and Reyhana had been weeding. “You should not nip. Gray, tell her!”
There was a wild look in Gray’s green eyes, a look that hadn’t been there before she collapsed. This wasn’t the boy who had been damaged by torture and frozen emotionally and mentally. And it was more than the man Gray had been becoming since she’d met him. This was a sharp-tempered stranger who was pissed off with her but refused to discuss the reason for his anger.
Well, fine.
No, not fine.
“Gray, I’d like a word with you,” Cassidy said, heading away from the rest of the men who were hovering in the garden, standing guard over her. When he didn’t move, she snarled, “Jared Blaed, attend!”
That got his attention. His eyes blazed hot as he strode to where she waited, and it took everything in her not to back down in the face of what was heading toward her.
Warlord Prince. Most of the time it was easy to forget Gray belonged to that caste of males. She never forgot what kind of man she was dealing with when she was around Theran or Talon or Ranon, but caste hadn’t been the dominant psychic scent when she was with Gray. Until now.
“Do you think using my real name is going to intimidate me into doing what you want?” Gray snapped. “I’m not a child, Cassidy.”
She glanced at the other men. They were all paying attention to this little drama, so she kept her voice low. “I made a mistake, an error in judgment. It happens. I’m sorry it upset you—”
“An error in judgment.” His voice was hard as stone. “You almost kill yourself for no reason, and you think it’s nothing more than an error?”
He started to walk away. She grabbed his arm—then jerked her hand away in shock when he snarled at her.
“Gray, talk to me,” she pleaded.
“I have nothing to say.”
Her temper snapped. She could feel the heat of it rising through her body until she was sure her hair was going to stand on end like a fan of fire.
“If you’re not going to talk to me, then you damn well better talk to somebody because I’ve had enough of your temper and your silence.”
“Fine. I’ll do that.” As he walked away from her, Gray shouted, “Vae! You’re with me.”
“At least that will get both of you out of my hair,” Cassidy muttered as she stomped back to the garden.
Reyhana looked away, wrestled with a weed, and swore politely when the top of the plant broke off, leaving the tap root.
“You can’t pull the tap roots of those weeds out unless you do it after a soaking rain,” Cassidy said, kneeling beside the younger woman. “But you can use Craft to create a slick shaft around the root so you can pull it out.”
“Can you show me?” Reyhana asked.
“I can show you,” Cassidy replied, then added silently, Without those two yapping at me.
Ranon watched Gray head right for him. Prudence and training told him he should shield when another warrior came toward him in a way that screamed aggression. But this was Gray, so he held his ground until the other man took that last step and grabbed a fistful of his shirt.
“You guard her, Ranon,” Gray said, his voice so rough it was hardly recognizable. “You hear me? First Escort or not, Theran doesn’t care enough about her to do what’s right, so you guard her until I get back.”
“Where are you going?” Ranon asked.
Gray’s smile was razor-sharp. “I’m following my Queen’s command. I’m going to talk to somebody.”
*I will take care of Gray,* Vae said, using a private psychic thread aimed at him.
Ranon waited until Gray rounded the corner of the house. Then he rubbed his hands over his face and sighed. After days of observing Gray and Cassidy’s silent argument, he wanted to talk to someone too. But he’d have to wait until Gray returned—or until Talon rose this evening and could take over the watch. Then he would go to his grandfather’s house, and Yairen would make a brew of spiced whiskey and coffee, a drink the old man only made when men needed to speak to other men about difficult matters.
He had no right to interfere between a man and a woman, but Cassidy was also his Queen, and he needed guidance in order to walk this particular knife’s edge.
He crossed the yard and knelt on the other side of Cassidy, who ignored him and continued to explain to Reyhana something about drawing out the full root of a weed.
“Look,” Ranon said quietly, “you probably don’t want anyone with a cock within twenty paces of you right now.”
“That is correct,” Cassidy said, still not looking at him.
“If you promise that you’ll do nothing to hurt yourself because you’re upset with Gray, I’ll leave you in peace.” Soon after she’d come to Dena Nehele, she’d worked her hands into a bloody mess because she was distraught over something Theran had done. The court had learned a hard lesson that day, and he wasn’t about to let it happen again. “Cassidy?”
“Why would she hurt herself over a man?” Reyhana said, bristling with challenge.
His temper sharpened. Reyhana wore Purple Dusk; he wore Opal. He couldn’t allow a challenge to go unanswered, even if the girl was a Queen. Especially because the girl was a Queen.
“Sister, you’re being disrespectful,” Cassidy said.
“But—”
“No,” Cassidy said. “Prince Ranon has reason to ask the question, and as one of my First Circle, he is within his rights to challenge me if he believes I am acting in a way that will cause me harm.”
“Oh,” Reyhana said in a small voice.
“Are you asking as one of my First Circle?” Cassidy asked, finally looking at him.
He shook his head. “I’m asking as a friend.”
Emotions flashed in her hazel eyes, which turned tear-bright for a moment—and he wondered if anyone in her previous court had given her more than duty.
“In that case, I give you my word as a friend that I won’t act imprudently because of this quarrel with Gray.” She hesitated, then added on a psychic thread. *This quarrel with Gray upsets me, but it hasn’t hurt me.*
He nodded to indicate he understood the difference. “Then I’ll leave you Ladies to your work.”
When he turned toward the boardinghouse, he froze for a moment before he strode across the lawn. With the exception of Talon and Theran, the rest of the First Circle was waiting for him.
“Is the Queen all right?” Powell asked when he joined them.
Ranon nodded.
“Is there anything we should do?” Archerr asked. “Powell, you’ve read those Protocol books more thoroughly than the rest of us. What do you say?”
“She gave her word that she wouldn’t do anything to hurt herself,” Ranon said quietly—and felt some of the tension ease in the other men.
“Can we scrounge a couple of chairs and a small table from somewhere?” Shaddo asked.
“For what?” Archerr asked.
“I noticed flagstones under the big tree,” Shaddo said. “They’re grown over some, but I think that area used to be a place for people to sit out under the shade.”
“Ah.” Powell smiled. “Chairs, a small table, cold drinks, and something to nibble. A subtle invitation to balance work and rest.”
“If we start cleaning up the flagstones and hauling furniture out to the tree, won’t it be obvious what we’re doing—and why?” Archerr asked.
“Yes,” Ranon said. “But sometimes a suggestion made by actions instead of words is more easily heard—and also less likely to offend.”
EBON ASKAVI
*High Lord? High Lord!*
“Now what?” Saetan muttered. Setting aside the book and just-warmed glass of yarbarah, he pushed out of the comfortable stuffed chair. Didn’t anyone remember that he had retired from the living Realms? “Come.”
But it was Gray, not Vae, who walked into the room. One look at the young Warlord Prince’s face, and Saetan kn
ew the reason for this particular visit.
“Lady Cassidy said I need to talk to someone,” Gray said.
I’ll bet she did, Saetan thought. Noticing the way Gray eyed the furniture and seemed ready to burst, he sent a thought to Draca, the Keep’s Seneschal. *I need some firewood in one of the courtyards now and refreshments in about thirty minutes.*
*I thought ass much,* Draca replied. *It iss already prepared.*
*You don’t have to sound so amused,* Saetan grumbled. Taking Gray’s arm, he said, “We will talk, but first things first.”
Sun and shade, Saetan thought as he marched Gray out to the courtyard. Being in sunlight would have given him a vicious headache this late in the morning, but staying in the shade would give him enough time to deal with Gray before he needed to retire.
“Watch,” Saetan said. He picked up a piece of the firewood, held it over a large, wooden half barrel, released one tiny blast of Red power through his hands—and turned a piece of firewood as big as his thigh into wood chips.
Gray looked inside the barrel and frowned.
“Now you do it,” Saetan said.
“Why?”
He stared at the youngster until Gray picked up a piece of firewood.
“I don’t know how to do that,” Gray said.
Yes, you do. Placing his hands below Gray’s, he taught the boy how to destroy an object using power. Nothing Gray couldn’t do just by following instinct. But unleashing power and letting it destroy whatever was in its path wasn’t the same as unleashing it with control and purpose.
Once Gray had the sense of how much Purple Dusk power to use in order to blast the firewood into wood chips of an acceptable size, Saetan settled in the shade and watched Gray drain away the anger that had grown to the point of needing a target.
The barrel was half-filled with wood chips before Gray paused and said, “Why am I doing this?”
“Can you afford to replace furniture if you blast it into pieces?” Saetan asked mildly.
“No.”
“That’s why you’re doing this. Chopping wood and using muscle instead of Craft works too, as long as you remember to shield before you pick up the ax. There is no reason to be careless or stupid just because your mind is chewing on a problem. In this case, you’re working off some temper by changing firewood into wood chips.” Saetan paused, then added, “Which, I’m told, are an excellent mulch in a garden.”
Gray’s mouth fell open. Then he began sputtering. “Garden? I’m making mulch for a garden?”
“Ironic, isn’t it?”
Gray huffed. He paced. He blasted a few more pieces of firewood into wood chips.
Finally he growled, “I guess Cassie is going to have plenty of mulch for her gardens.”
“I know several Queens who always have plenty of mulch for their gardens,” Saetan said.
Gray stared at the barrel and sighed, the sign Saetan had been waiting for to indicate that enough of the boy’s temper was spent.
“There’s some water on the table over there,” Saetan said. “Pour a glass for yourself. You could use it by now.”
There was more than water on the table. There was a basin of warm water, soap, and a towel; a plate of fruit, cheese, and small sandwiches; and a ravenglass goblet filled with yarbarah.
He watched Gray as the boy washed up before pouring a glass of water and drinking it. Strength and scars—and the temper that made a Warlord Prince a law unto himself. And a little something more.
Gray refilled the water glass, hesitated a moment over the plate of food, then picked up the yarbarah and brought it to him.
A simple choice, but it confirmed for him why Jared Blaed Grayhaven had made the journey from Dena Nehele to the Keep in Kaeleer in order to talk to him instead of talking to Talon or anyone else in Cassie’s court.
Gray had come for the same reason Khardeen, Aaron, Chaosti, and Elan had come to him when they needed to talk out frustration caused by a woman who was a lover as well as a Queen. He had been the Dark Court’s honorary uncle as well as the Steward, even before the court had officially formed. Those young men had come to him because they trusted his advice. They hadn’t always liked it, but they knew they could trust it.
Using Craft, Saetan floated the plate of food over to the bench where Gray sat, drinking water and staring at the flagstones.
“Do you want to talk or listen?” Saetan asked.
Gray shrugged.
Not a surprising response. Now that the anger had dimmed, unhappiness was settling in.
“Everything is supposed to be fine now,” Gray muttered.
“In other words, Cassidy is tired of you being angry with her.”
“Yeah. So I’m not supposed to be angry anymore.” Gray’s hand tightened around the glass. “Well, I am angry.”
“You’re entitled to your anger,” Saetan said quietly. “And it’s your choice how long you hold on to it. But people make mistakes. Most of the time, mistakes can be forgiven. Some mistakes do enough harm to break what two people feel for each other. Sometimes the anger doesn’t go away, and that means you need to walk away.”
“Walk away from Cassie?” Gray looked shocked. “No!”
“Then you have to accept that she made an error in judgment.”
“Because she doesn’t care enough about us to take care of herself.” Saetan drank the yarbarah and let chilling silence fill the courtyard. Gray eyed him and wisely offered no other comment.
“She cares, Prince,” Saetan said. “If you think otherwise, then you haven’t been paying attention.”
Gray hung his head. “I know she does. I just don’t understand why she let the Craft go on so long that she hurt herself.”
“The whip that drives Cassie was shaped before she arrived in Dena Nehele. It left scars.”
Gray raised his head and looked at him.
No, Saetan thought, not Gray. Jared Blaed. Two sides of one person. Gray was the man who loved Cassie and gardens. Jared Blaed was the Warlord Prince committed to his Queen.
“Who?” Jared Blaed asked too softly.
“She’s of no importance,” Saetan replied. “Neither are the men who chose her over Cassidy. What is important is that the hurt still festers inside Cassidy.”
“She’s trying to prove to us that she has something to offer?”
“I think so. That’s why a simple thing that Queens do all the time in Kaeleer almost turned into a tragic error.”
“Just a mistake,” Gray said softly.
“Yes.”
“Because she cares so much.”
“Yes.”
Gray sighed.
Crisis over, Saetan thought, draining the goblet. Until the next time. “Eat. Then go home and smooth things over with Cassie.”
Gray gave him a sideways look. Assessing. Measuring. “It would smooth things over a lot faster if Cassie and I could have sex.”
Saetan said dryly, “Boyo, we’re pretty sure Marian is pregnant, and she’s very queasy today. Daemonar senses there is something wrong with his mama and is acting out, and Lucivar is ready to chew stone trying to deal with his misbehaving boy. Today is not the day to ask him about sex.”
A pause. “If we had your permission . . .”
He laughed softly. “Not a chance, puppy. Lucivar had good reasons for setting firm boundaries for what you and Cassie can and can’t do, and he’ll be the one who decides when you’re ready for the next stage.” It didn’t sound like Gray needed as much emotional protection as he’d needed a few weeks ago, but that didn’t mean he had the maturity yet to be a Queen’s lover.
Still, the fact that the boy was starting to question those boundaries was a good sign that Gray was growing into a healthy man instead of remaining a wounded boy. Knowing how firmly the leash needed to be held while a young Warlord Prince made the transition to adult male, Saetan added, “And from where I’m sitting, boyo, those reasons still apply.”
“Oh.” Gray looked disappointed, but only for a moment
. Then he gave his attention to the plate floating beside him and ate every bit of food with a young man’s enthusiasm.
Vae appeared on the edge of the courtyard. *Gray? Gray! Draca says it is time to go home. The High Lord will open the Gate for you. Then he needs to sleep because this is his sleep time.*
Gray sprang to his feet. “I’m sorry, sir. I didn’t mean to keep you from your rest.”
Saetan hesitated. In some ways, what he was about to do was a small thing, a simple choice. But the offer, and all of its underlying significance, would ripple through Dena Nehele if it was accepted. “You can call me Uncle Saetan, if you like.”
The words were absorbed. The significance was understood. And one more inner layer of defense that had protected Gray the boy but hobbled Jared Blaed the man was sloughed off.
On the walk through the Keep to the Dark Altar and the Gate, Gray talked about the Shalador village and the people he’d met there. It was clear that Ranon was becoming a good friend and that he and Gray were settling into a working relationship that was typical of a strong, healthy court where the males liked and respected each other—the kind of working relationship he’d seen in the Dark Court.
What wasn’t clear was how Theran was responding to any of the drama taking place in Eyota.
TERREILLE
Theran tried to ignore the sick feeling in his gut—and tried not to think about the last time Gray had disappeared. Judging by the tight expression on his face and the grim look in his eyes, Talon was trying not to think about that too.
“You’re sure he’s not in the village?” Talon asked for the third time.
Ranon shook his head. “We’ve looked. I even checked the house that accommodates unattached males. He’s not here.”
Mother Night. “Should one of us go back to Grayhaven?” Theran asked. “That’s the only place he knows in Dena Nehele.”
“He might have gone back to the rogue camps in the Tamanara Mountains,” Talon said.