(Spoiler Alert) Sequel to:
Dangerous Secrets of the Heart
My heart was screaming. My chest ached with hurt. Why did I take the agreement? Why did I leave him? There was so much that I needed to discover. Numerous questions I had for him. So much that he needed to confess. I had lost everything; my chances of having a future, the one person I truly trusted, the love of my life and possible someone else I cared about. But, life was simple, quiet, lonely and depressing here in Hawaii. My heart ached as I silently cried his name in my dreams, in my core, in my soul. I desired to see him again. But I had to face the facts; that it was never, ever going to happing. I was never going to be happy again, or so it seemed. Just as things began to improve for me here in my new found home… someone was about to interrupt my happiness with some news to me that would terminate my heart completely. I had return. I had know; was this actually over? And now everything I always assumed was true would be proven incorrect… And once it was over… I would have a heartbreaking choice to make.
Chapter 1
My heart was shattering. My chest burned with hurt. Why did I take the agreement? Why did I leave Jesse? There was so much that I desired to find out. Numerous questions I had for him. But he was with Sarah. They were blissful together and living a picture-perfect life with his son. I had lost everything; my likelihood of having a future with my baby, my mother, the love of my life and possible even my father. I don’t know how things were going to improve. Little did I know; they defiantly were.
It had been two weeks since my almost death and the loss of my baby. I had barely settled in to my new home in Hawaii. I had bought a stunning shack-like seaside house. I could walk out on my deck and be right at the ocean. It was a perfect location for Cody and me. Life was simple, quiet, lonely and depressing. I dreamt of Jesse every night. Most nights were good dreams that turned bad and some started off bad and worsened. I never had a happy dream again. My heart ached as I silently screamed his name in my dreams, in my core, in my soul. I desired to see him again. But I had to face the facts; that it was never, ever going to happing. I was never going to be happy again, or so it seemed.
Although I had Cody to keep me company, I pretty much avoided people. I didn’t want to find any friends because when I have friends, I end up losing them. Everyone I care for either leaves or gets taken away from me. If Bill got wind of me talking to anyone then he would send James to “deal with them.” But the reality was: I miss people. I miss being able to talk about life and feelings. I desperately needed a friend…and that was about to happen.
Today was September 5th. I decided to take Cody for a stroll on the beach. The air was steadily blowing. Hawaii was beautiful. It was full of laughter and excitement. The trees and flowers were beautifully in bloom. I watched as the waves crashed on the shore. Unexpectedly, Cody jumps up in the air breaking my daze. I looked down at him. He had jumped up and caught a Frisbee. A tall, attractive man jogged over to us. He was in his mid-20s. I began to go into a trance as I stared at his shirtless chest running toward us. He had shaggy, golden hair and penetrating, crystal blue eyes.
“Aloha.” He said breaking the trance.
“Umm….Hi….I mean…Aloha… to you to...” I stumbled over my words.
“My name is Austin.” He said to me with a snicker.
“I’m J….Ami….Ami Anderson.” I said. I almost said my real name.
“It’s great to meet you Ami. Do you mind if I get my Frisbee back?” He inquired.
We both looked down at Cody who had torn the plastic Frisbee in half.
“I am so sorry. I’ll pay for another one…” I said.
“No, it’s fine. It was only a dollar at the store.” He said with a chuckle. “How about you come join us?”
“Oh no…I couldn’t. I’m not good at sports.” I admitted I began to walk away.
“You don’t have to play…would you like to watch?” He asked.
I thought about watching him run around. I thought about his bare chest. That would be an enjoyable thing to “watch.”
I hesitated but in a few minutes, bit my lip as I said “Sure. I’d love to.”
“Great!” he exclaimed.
He walked with me over to his friends.
“Jacob, go get another Frisbee. The dog over here had a snack.” He said with a snicker. He bent down a stroked Cody on the head. “Does he have a name?” He asked.
“Yeah, his name is Cody.” I said.
“Hello Cody. Nice to meet you.” He said to him petting his head. “Don’t eat this next Frisbee please.” He requested.
I laughed. “Why don’t I take him home? Then you guys can play without him trying to eat it.” I said.
“You don’t have to take him home…” He said.
“No it’s fine. He needs to go back home anyway, it’s his dinner time.” I said.
“Well…I’ll walk with you.” He said.
“Okay.” I said.
He turned around and told his friends that he would be back. He raced to my side and began walking with me back to my house.
“So, you’re new in town?” He questioned.
“Yeah. I just moved here about two weeks ago…how can you tell?” I asked.
“Well, you’re as pale as snow.” He said with a laugh.
“Wow. I need to sun tan and fast.” I said laughing with him.
“You can always hang out with me. My friends and I are always on the beach hanging out after school and stuff.” He said.
“School…?” I asked.
“College…” He said. “I’m 24 so high school has been over for me for a while. I’m a senior at the local community college.”
“That sounds fun. Well, I’m 19. I just turned 19 two weeks ago.” I said. “I graduated about two months ago…from high school.” I said with a laugh.
“Wow, Quick to leave the nest? Where are you from?” He asked.
“I’m from the Niagara Fall’s region.” I admitted.
“Wow, it’s got to be beautiful there. We have a waterfall here but it’s nothing compared to Niagara Falls.” He said.
I laughed disregarding the waterfall comment. “We’re here.” Any thought about a waterfall, I knew, would bring back memories of Jesse and my special spot.
“This is a nice place. Great location…” He said.
“Thanks.” I said as I unlocked the back door and allowed Cody to go inside carrying the Frisbee in his mouth. I shut the door and locked it again.
I walked back down the deck stairs.
“It’s getting dark. Are you guys going to be able to play in the dark?” I asked.
“We’ll play until it gets dark and then we will head over to Jacob’s for a party. His wife cooks all kinds of food, there’s music and dancing.”
“Cool.” I said.
“Everyone brings their girlfriends or wives or whatever.” He said.
“Oh cool. That sounds like fun.” I said as we began to walk back to the spot that we met.
“Hey, I got a great idea….Come with me?” He asked after a few minutes.
“…to the party?” I asked.
“Yeah, it’ll be fun.” He said.
“Don’t you have a girlfriend or wife to go with?” I asked with a laugh.
“No, I’ve never had a wife. My last girlfriend was messing around with another guy. We broke up about a month ago.” He admitted. “How about it… come with me, please?”
I thought about it. I didn’t really know anyone here. It would be a fun night out. “…Yeah. Sure, I’ll go.” I said with uncertainty
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“Great. We’ll have a great time, trust me.” He said. We had finally reached the spot where his friends stood.
“It’s about time man.” One of his friends spoke.
“Ami, this is Dickey, Patrick, Eddie, and Jacob. Guy’s this is Ami, she just moved here from Niagara Falls.” He told the group overlooking his friend’s remark.
Dickey was about my age. He had brown hair and olive green eyes. He was plump and petite.
Patrick was built. He was older than the rest of them. Maybe mid-30’s, he was baldheaded and had hazel eyes. He reminded me of Vin Diesel a little.
Eddie was tall and scrawny. He had short black hair, buck teeth and glasses. He looked about early 20’s as well.
Jacob was bronzed and about the same height has Austin, mid 20’s with spikey black hair and dark brown eye.
“Hello Ami.” They said in unison.
“Hi guys. It’s nice to meet you.” I said.
“Come on. Let’s play before it gets to dark.” Eddie urged.
I took my place over to the side to watch them play. Austin winked at me as he pitched the Frisbee in the air towards Patrick. Patrick caught it and tossed it to Eddie who in turn hurled it at Jacob and Jacob flung it to Dickey. This continued until someone dropped it and they started again. They tried to trick each other and throw it far out so they would have to dive for it. Dickey tried to jump for it and ended up pushing sand all over me, but I didn’t care. I was having the most fun I have had in a while; and it was entertaining to watch them have so much fun. My mind trailed off and began to think about Jesse. I gazed off at the ocean. I thought about his face when we were playing paintball. How much fun we had the week when we were “just friends.” Playing cards with him on my bed, swimming in the river, underneath the waterfall, everything we had done was so fun and magical. I missed him greatly. I didn’t know I could be joyful again, but as I sat on the warm sand observing these good looking guys joke and have fun, I felt normal again. I felt whole again. I didn’t want this sensation to go away.
“Ami?...Ami?” A hand touched my shoulder and transported me out of my train of thought.
“Yeah...?” I asked.
“Are you ready to go? It’s getting dark and we are supposed to be at Jacob’s shortly.” He said. I had notice that he had put a shirt on. I looked around and the others were already gone.
“Yeah. Let’s go.” I said. He held out his hand to help me up off the sand. I took it. I felt a jolt of electricity hit me just like it did with Jesse. He pulled me up. I rested weightlessly in his arms gazing into his eyes. His grin broke my trance on his eyes. “Sorry.” I said pulling away.
“Shall We?” He asked ignoring my awkward moment.
“Yeah, let’s go.” I said I let his hand go and strolled beside him as he led me to Jacob’s house.
The house was lit up and music was pouring out of the windows and doors. I followed Austin in to the house, greeting everyone that Austin introduced me to.
“Are you thirsty?” Austin asked me in my ear but loud enough to hear him over the music.
“Sure.” I said back to him and shook my head yes. He took me by the hand again. I felt the feeling of electricity again as he guided me through the crowd towards the kitchen.
It was quieter here in the kitchen. The aroma of chicken wings and pizza rolls occupied the air around us.
“You want a beer?” He asked me.
“No, I’m okay. I’ll take a soda.” I said.
“Aww. Your new girl doesn’t wanna drink?” A female voice came from behind me. We turned around to face her. She was a skinny, suntanned, blond girl. She was in her early 20’s.
“Crystal, what are you doing here?” Austin asked.
“I’m here with Timmy. You know; my new boyfriend.” She said with a chuckle. “Come here baby.” She called out to the crowd. A dark, African American male broke out of the crowd and came to her side. He placed his arm around her.
“Timmy…Pleasure to finally put a name with a face.” Austin said and shook his hand. “Thank you; she’s your problem now.” He said sarcastically.
Crystal let out a loud disgusted sound but was quickly interrupted from the side of us.
“Crystal, you’re not welcome here anymore.” Another female voice spoke. “Leave before I call the police.” She warned. I turned to her. She was a woman in her mid-20s. She had long wavy blond hair and was curvy; not skinny and not fat.
“Fine, keep your panties on Judy. We’re leaving. This party blows anyway.” Crystal said. She grabbed Timmy’s hand and marched back into the room of crowded people.
“Hi, you must be Ami?” She said extending a hand to me. “I’m Judy. Jacob told me that you would be coming. Welcome to our home.” She said snatching me for a hug.
“Hi, it’s nice to meet you Judy.” I said pulling away as I smelt a strong odor of alcohol on her breath. “Okay. Well you guys go dance, have fun, I gotta find my man.” She said in a flirty, erotic way and walked away.
Austin offered me a can of soda. I used my nail and opened it and took a drink.
“Don’t mind her. She gets plastered early.” He acknowledged.
I laughed “It’s okay. I had a friend back home that acted just like her. I actually caught her in the car, having sex with my boyfriend at the time.” I said. I was talking about Kellie.
“Wow that had to be painful to see; your best friend and your boyfriend in a swaying car.” He said bring back the memories of the night with Kellie and Kevin.
“Yeah…it was.” I admitted sluggishly as a flash of memories came over me. I swiftly shook it off.
“I know…I had it happen to me before too.” He admitted to me. “We’ve got a lot in common.” He said.
“Or the fact that we both have exes that are filthy sluts that can’t keep their pants on. But I don’t consider that as “a lot in common.”” I said with a laugh.
He chuckled back.
A slow song began to play on the stereo.
“Wanna dance?” He requested sheepish.
I thought about dancing with Jesse. I thought about when we danced on my birthday in my mother’s dress. I wanted to be furious at him but perhaps there was more to the story. I needed my answers to that. I wanted to know what happened to my father. But I brushed it off for the time being when I seen that Austin was staring at me for a reply.
“Sure.” I said as I took his hand and placed my soda on the counter.
He led me to the dance floor and placed his hand on the small of my back. He pulled me in closer as he took my other and in his and held it up. He began to sway with me to the music. I rested my head on his chest as we danced.
Meanwhile
Bill, Jesse, James and Sarah had gone back to the house in Niagara Falls.
Sarah tenderly placed her lips against Jesse and kissed him. He pulled away.
“Sarah…I’m so glad you came back but as I told you before….I just can’t be with you.” Jesse told Sarah as they sat in my room on my bed.
“That’s good Jesse because I have a few confessions to make.” She said. “That kiss was just a goodbye kiss.” She confessed. “I’m in love with James… and JJ isn’t your son.”
“What? Then whose son is he?” He inquired.
“He’s James’ ” She admitted. “And there’s more…Bill brought me back here to hurt you…He took Jamie and placed a camera in your hotel room. He was showing her us…When we kissed in the hotel.” She hesitated “I’m so sorry I never told you…I still don’t know what he did to her.” She admitted.
“Well…this would have been great to know that day before I kissed you. I would’ve never done that if I knew she was watching us.” He said bluntly. “And you said that he forced her watch us…”
“I don’t know how much she seen. I’m hoping she seen it all. Maybe she’ll know you love her and not me.” She confessed. “I don’t know anything else. All I know is that they deliberately hurt her by bringing me back into your life.
Bill thinks that you and I are together…” She said. “But James and I have decided to break the news to him, as soon as James gets back. We must to tell Bill that we are a couple and JJ is actually James Jr.” She admitted.
“Where did he go?” He asked not caring about anything else she was saying.
“…I’m not sure. He said it was a business trip.” She said.
“Do you have any information about where Bill took her?” He asked focusing solely on me.
“I don’t…if anyone knows then its James…talk to him…see if you can’t get something out of him.” She said as she walked out of my bedroom door. Jesse placed his head on my pillow and hugged it. It was killing him that I had gone missing but I had no clue.
Back in Hawaii
Austin and I had completed our dance and went back to the kitchen.
“It’s getting late. I better get home.” I said. “Thanks for the dance.”
“You’re welcome Ami. Maybe we can do it again sometime.” He said with a smile.
“Possibly…well good night.” I said as I turned around to walk away.
“Wait…perhaps I should walk you home. You don’t know the area very well and I don’t want you walking by yourself.” He said to me.
“Okay. Thank you Austin, you’re very thoughtful.” I said to him.
I laced my arm into his as he moved us through the crowd and out the door. I continued to hold on to his arm as we walked on the sandy beach. I had removed my shoes and was carrying them. The sand between my toes felt wonderful. I hadn’t been to a beach since I was 13. The breeze felt amazing as it rushed towards us.
“So, what’s your favorite color?” He asked.
“I love sky blue.” I said.
“What about yours?” I asked.
“Mine’s red.” He said.
“That’s cool.” I said and smirked up at him.
We continued to walk mostly in silence, only breaking the silence when we had a question about the other, until we reached my little shack. I walked to the door and got my keys out of my pocket.
“Thank you for a wonderful day. And for walking me home.” I said.
“You’re Welcome Ami.” He said as he placed his hand on my neck and rested his palm on my cheek just like Jesse did. He guided my face towards his, licked at his lip and kissed me.
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