“Thank You, God, thank You,” she whispered, and thought even as she prayed that a voice within herself told her that she was really blessed.
“Tomorrow I shall see him,” she said later as she laid her head on the pillow.
She was sure she would be unable to sleep but nevertheless she slept peacefully until the Lady’s Maid who had travelled with them came to call her.“ ’Tis eight o’clock Miss, and the Reverend Gentleman has already gone down to breakfast.”
For a moment, Natalia could not remember where she was, then she gave a little cry of excitement.
“We shall reach the Castle today, Ellen!” she exclaimed.
“Yes, Miss, and very impressed you’ll be with it. They say there’s not a Castle in the whole length and breadth of the country to equal ours.”
Natalia smiled at her. She had already learnt that Ellen had been at the Castle since she was very young and had in fact been born and bred in Herefordshire.
“I shall see His Lordship,” she whispered almost to herself.
“Yes, Miss, and I expect you will find a very grand wedding awaiting for you. When His Lordship organises anything, he always expects perfection.”
“That is what my marriage will be,” Natalia murmured.
She thought Ellen looked at her in rather a strange manner, then the Maid said:
“I hopes you’ll bring His Lordship happiness, Miss. From all I hears he was hard done by in the past, and it’s only right he should be happy the second time.”
Natalia did not reply.
The thought of Lord Colwall’s first marriage was something she had pushed to the back of her mind and which she had not discussed with anyone, not even her mother.
“Cousin Ranulf has been married before,” Lady Margaret had said when she had told Natalia the reason for her intensive education.
“He was married!” Natalia ejaculated.
“For a very short time,” Lady Margaret said.
“What happened to his wife?”
“There was an accident and—she died.” Lady Margaret answered hesitantly.
Natalia had been curious, and yet at the same time something had prevented her from asking questions.
She had not wanted to know. She had not wanted to think that her Knight, the man who was bliss, had ever belonged to another woman.
It had seemed to her as if for a moment some of the light that illuminated the room when her mother had told her of Lord Colwall’s intentions, had been dimmed.
Then she told herself she was being absurd! It had happened a long time ago, he had been very young, and by now he would have forgotten his sorrow.
“Yet would one ever forget someone to whom one had been married?” an inner voice questioned.
Natalia tried to think of herself in the same circumstances and failed.
‘Perhaps,’ she told herself, ‘It is different for a man.’
“There were no children of the marriage,” Lady Margaret was saying, “and I am praying, dearest, that you will have a son, perhaps more than one, and daughters, too, who will enjoy the Castle as much as I did as a child.”
She said reminiscently:
“It is a wonderful place for Hide and Seek with its twisting stairways, turrets and towers! It has all the things which appeal to a child’s imagination.”
Natalia had thought of her mother’s words that night when she had gone to bed.
Yes, she would love to have children. They would play in the Castle, and she would tell them the stories that her father had told to her. Of one thing she was quite certain—she would have more than one!
It had been lonely having no brother or sister to share her games, or, more important, to whom she could confide her dreams of the wondrous characters who in her imagination peopled the woods and the mountains.
“I long to see the Castle,” she said aloud to Ellen. “It is I am sure a very fitting home for His Lordship.”
She said no more but allowed Ellen to dress her hair in what was a more elaborate style than usual.
A travelling gown of dark blue cashmere trimmed with frills of taffeta and small velvet bows seemed to Natalia after her plain cotton dresses to be the zenith of elegance.
She had no idea until she wore expensive gowns what a tiny waist she had, that her skin was so white or her hair the colour of Spring sunshine.
“How do I look, Ellen?” she asked staring at her reflection in the small mirror.
“Very lovely, Miss,” Ellen replied in almost awestruck tones. “You will make a beautiful bride.”
That is what Natalia wanted to hear, that she would look beautiful, really beautiful for the man whom she dreamed about, and who had become already an indivisible part of her life.
The Knight who walked beside her through the woods. The Knight with whom she had raced over the fields when she rode Crusader, allowing him in her imagination to beat her because, as a Knight, he must excel at everything, even at the games they played together.
Then finally as they drove round the Malvern Hills they had their first view of the Castle.
Natalia drew in her breath.
She did not believe it possible for any place to be so magnificent! Or indeed so dream-like.
The last leaves of October were still russet and golden on the trees which surrounded it. The great towers emerged above them, grey and stalwart, and the afternoon sunlight seemed to touch the stone walls with a shimmer of fairy gold.
“Look, Papa. The Castle!”
Natalia could hardly breathe the words, and the Reverend Adolphus, who had been sleeping in a corner of the carriage, raised himself to look out of the window.
“Yes, indeed, the Castle!” he exclaimed. “It is a very fine building, Natalia.”
“It is wonderful! Glorious! I had imagined it, but it is far, far more magnificent than I thought any place could be!”
There was a river running through the valley below and the Castle, visible for miles away, had been built to stand sentinel over the lush and undulating countryside which surrounded it.
Far away in the distance there were the Welsh Mountains, their barren peaks high in Heaven, purple and mysterious as the mountains at Ullswater.
Now that the moment when she would meet Lord Colwall was near, Natalia for the first time felt nervous.
Supposing, after all, he did not like her? Supposing he had changed his mind in the three years since he decided that she should be his wife, and had found someone else he loved more?
Then she told herself she was being ridiculous.
After all, if he had found someone else, he would not have sent for her. The summons had come immediately after her eighteenth birthday, so perhaps, like her, he had been counting the days until he considered her old enough to be his Bride.
“Do I look ... all right, Papa?”
The words were a little frightened and the large grey-green eyes in the small face which was lifted towards the Reverend Adolphus were troubled.
“You look very beautiful,” her father replied. “Not as beautiful as your mother was when I first saw her! No-one could be as beautiful as that! But lovely in your own way.”
“Thank you, Papa,” Natalia gave him a little smile, and then bending forward she laid her cheek for a moment against his arm.
“I shall miss you, Papa, and I shall miss more than I can tell you, our talks, our discussions and the clever way you explain everything to me.”
“Your husband will talk to you now,” the Reverend Adolphus said. “You are not only beautiful, my dearest, but you are very intelligent. It is unusual amongst women, and because God has blessed you, especially as regarding your talents, you must not hide them under a bushel.”
“I will try not to do that, Papa.”
“At the same time,” the Reverend Adolphus said quickly, “no man wants a woman to be assertive, dictatorial, or—shall we say?—bossy. You must be subservient to your husband in everything and do what he says.
“But I would no
t wish you, Natalia, to waste your powers of intellectual perception, and I feel sure that in the life that lies ahead of you, such qualities can be utilised.”
“If in no other way,” Natalia replied with a smile, “I should have to be intelligent before I could run a place as big as the Castle!”
“I am sure His Lordship has a very adequate staff,” her father replied.
Then he added:
“But you are right, my dear. There will be many things you can do to help your husband to keep the background of his life running smoothly. At the same time, I am sure you can persuade him to use his influence to help those unfortunates about whom we have so often spoken.”
“The children, the labourers, the chimney boys,” Natalia exclaimed. “There are so many of them!”
She gave a little sigh.
“You cannot expect to work miracles overnight,” her father warned. “But a man who loves his wife listens to her. I cannot help feeling that the more people speak out, especially in the House of Lords, against the many injustices and indeed the atrocities that are perpetrated in this country at the present moment, the sooner we can bring to those who suffer both mercy and justice.”
“I will do my best, Papa,” Natalia murmured in a soft voice.
“I know you will, dear Child,” her father answered.
As if he knew Natalia was feeling nervous, he took her hand in his and held it.
Now the horses had reached the valley behind the Malvern Hills and they were proceeding to climb again up the hill on which the Castle was situated.
Because the leaves were still on some of the trees, they only had glimpses of its magnificence through the branches.
They passed through the impressive wrought-iron gates with great heraldic stone lions on either side, and drove up a long avenue of ancient oak trees rising all the time until finally, when they reached the top, there stood the Castle in front of them, a truly awe-inspiring sight.
Built originally on the site of an older Castle which had been erected soon after the Norman Conquest, it had been the focal point of defence for the West of England against the onslaughts of the Welsh.
Its towers and thirty-foot-high Keep stood dramatically on a great conical mound of earth which had been part of the original plan, while other towers had been erected in the succeeding centuries.
For a moment Natalia felt that it was too magnificent, too over-powering! Then she remembered it was in fact the perfect background for her Knight.
‘Where else should a Knight live except in a Castle?’ she asked herself. ‘How many deeds of chivalry, how many great battles against injustice have been planned within these walls?’
It seemed to her that there was an army of servants waiting to assist her and her father from the carriage.
A Major-Domo in resplendent livery stepped forward to say:
“May I welcome you, Miss Graystoke, on behalf of His Lordship, to Colwall Castle, and you too, Sir.”
“Thank you,” Natalia replied in a shy voice.
She had expected Lord Colwall to be waiting for them in the Hall which, with its Grand Staircase and high Gothic ceiling, was extremely impressive.
Slightly to her surprise, she was immediately escorted up the stairs past the coloured heraldic beasts on each turn of the marble stairway to a bed-chamber on the first floor.
There an elderly woman whom Natalia felt sure was the Housekeeper, and two other maids were waiting for her. They curtsied and explained that they had prepared a bath and a change of clothing after her journey.
“Thank you. That will be very pleasant,” Natalia said gratefully.
It was consistent, she thought, with the consideration she and her father had been shown ever since they left home, and she was glad that she was not to see His Lordship until she looked her best for him.
‘He thinks of everything!’ she told herself once again.
She allowed the Maids to help her undress and enjoyed her bath which had been placed in front of a warm fire. She was aware that the bathwater was scented with roses and the soft towels with which she dried herself smelt of lavender.
The bed-chamber was a fine room. There was a huge four-poster bed hung with embroidered curtains which Natalia learnt had been worked by the ladies who lived in the Castle during the reign of Queen Anne.
There were French Commodes which she knew were priceless and the ceiling had a cornice of brilliantly painted heraldic devices. The carved Medieval fireplace was surmounted by a huge Coat of Arms picked out in gold.
It was difficult to take in everything at once and Natalia was at the moment concerned only with looking her best for Lord Colwall.
There was no need to unpack the bags that had come with her on the journey, for when the Housekeeper opened the wardrobe, it was filled with gowns of every possible material and colour.
“These all came from London, Miss,” she explained.
“They are lovely, very lovely!” Natalia said in awe-struck tones. “What must I wear now?”
‘It will soon be time for dinner, Miss. I have chosen, if it meets with your approval, a white gown trimmed with Venetian lace.”
“You are sure that is the most becoming?” Natalia asked, a worried expression in her eyes.
“I am sure you would look lovely in anything, Miss,” the Housekeeper replied. “But I felt that this particular gown was most suitable for this evening. There will be His Lordship and Sir James Parke to dinner besides yourself and your Reverend father.”
Natalia smiled. It was perfect that they should be such a small party and she was sure that the reason Lord Colwall had arranged it this way was so that they could have a chance to get to know each other.
But then the Housekeeper went on:
“After dinner, there will be a number of people from the Estate arriving whom His Lordship will present to you. The Agent, the farm managers and some of the more important tenants.”
“Of course I should like to meet them,” Natalia answered.
She suppressed a feeling of regret that she would not after all be able to talk alone with her future husband.
“Your wedding, Miss, will be exactly the same as the one which took place here in Medieval times,” the Housekeeper continued. “His Lordship discovered the details in a book. The food will be the same, the Orchestra will use the same type of instruments that were played here in the Castle hundreds of years ago.”
She looked at Natalia’s surprised face and said:
“His Lordship is a great one for tradition, Miss. I heard him say that he had searched through all the archives of the family history to find a previous occasion on which a marriage of an owner of the Castle had taken place here.”
Natalia did not know why, but the idea that it was all being copied from the past and was not something planned just for her was a little depressing.
Then she told herself she was being nonsensical.
This is why Lord Colwall had wished her to journey to the Castle. It was unthinkable that with his vast possessions and great importance he should be married at Pooley Bridge!
It was completely right and fitting that she should come to him, that their marriage should be traditional and would become in the years that lay ahead another item in the history of the Colwall family.
‘I must get His Lordship to tell me all about the previous weddings that took place here,’ Natalia thought.
Then with a feeling almost of dismay, she found herself unable to prevent the question which she knew she should not ask.
“Was His Lordship ... married from here ... before?”
“No indeed, Miss, of course not,” the Housekeeper replied. “He was married from Lady Claris’s own home. ’Tis not far away. Only the other side of the hills.”
Then as if she felt she had said too much, the Housekeeper turned away abruptly to give an almost sharp order to one of the housemaids to hurry up and remove the bath.
With her hair arranged once again in the more sophistica
ted manner that Ellen had tried out for the first time that morning, and with her full skirts rustling silkily, Natalia descended the stairs.
Now for the first time she could appreciate the exquisitely moulded arches of the staircase, although the marble itself felt cold beneath the touch of her hand.
The huge tapestries hanging on the walls she knew must be of great antiquity and she realised that they depicted battles. Battles in which, she told herself, the Lord Colwall of the day had fought as a Knight.
There were also faded flags hanging on either side of the chimney piece and swords and shields on two walls.
There were a number of footmen on duty in the hall. Their claret-coloured livery seemed very ornate in Natalia’s eyes, and their powdered wigs were splotches of white against the dark panelling.
The Major-Domo was waiting to take her down a long Gothic-arched corridor which was lined with suits of armour, some early English and some French. He threw open the door of a large Salon.
Natalia had a quick glimpse of walls covered with pictures, of a ceiling of carved mahogany, of gilded furniture, of sofas and chairs in tapestry and damask.
There were three Gentlemen standing by the great carved mantel-piece but she had eyes for only one!
A Gentleman so outstanding, so handsome, that he seemed, even as he had done in her mother’s small Drawing-Room, to dominate the whole room.
Lord Colwall had not changed!
If anything, she thought, he was more handsome than she remembered.
And because she was so pleased to see him, because everything in her life had seemed to move towards this dramatic climax, she forgot everything, formality, good manners and even her own shyness as she ran towards him.
Her voice seemed to ring out in the silent room.
“You are here! I am so glad, so very ... very glad to see Your Lordship again!”
CHAPTER THREE
Natalia reached Lord Colwall’s side.
She stood looking up at him; her eyes were very large and shone like stars in her small face, her fair hair seemed to gleam like a halo in the lights from the chandelier.
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