by Gil McNeil
‘It might. You never know. I should have thought of that before I told him.’
‘So what else is worrying you? What was it with Jack again?’
‘That he’d be stolen from his cot in the middle of the night while I was asleep.’
‘And you rigged up some mad early-warning system with chairs tied to rope, and Nick nearly broke his neck falling down the stairs.’
‘He did not. It was only the two steps down to the bathroom. He made such a fuss you’d think he’d fallen down six flights. And anyway, it was wool, not rope.’
‘He rang me, you know. He was so worried about you going round the twist.’
‘I was fine after the first few weeks, and anyway he was loopy as I was. He kept going into panics about cot death and waking him up just to make sure he was still breathing. We both did a fair bit of that, actually.’
‘I know, darling, and this is the same. Nobody’s going to try to take your baby away from you.’
‘Well they’d better bloody not.’
‘What was the panic-button moment with Archie, the mad-dingo thing?’
‘It wasn’t dingos, it was any dog. Bit bloody ironic really when you think about it, since he’s spent the last few years desperate for one.’
‘But he’s stopped sleeping in the dog basket now, right?’
‘Yes, mainly because it’s in the garage.’
‘Okay, so you’re fine. No mad-dog nightmares, and you can rig up the woolly early-warning thing across the banisters again.’
‘Stop making fun of me. I’ve got serious hormones winging about here. I can’t help it.’
Archie comes in, in a state of high dudgeon because Jack won’t let him watch his Lord of the Rings DVD.
‘I’ve got to go – they’re fighting again.’
‘No problem. Give Daniel a few days and then I’ll send him a lawyer’s letter of my own. Hand-delivered. And Dovetail will be fine, I’m sure he will.’
‘Thanks, Ellen.’
Actually, I’m not sure he will. Maybe I should ring him, only I don’t want any more tense conversations today. But I could just call and fix up a new time for us to do the roast-chicken thing. Keep it neutral but friendly; that might work.
He doesn’t answer his phone so I leave a message on his voicemail, before Mum rings to moan about Dad, and Jack remembers we haven’t done his reading book and stands hopping up and down while I try to get her off the phone.
‘I’ve got to do five pages.’
‘Okay.’
‘But I might do more.’
‘Come and sit down then, love, and Archie, turn the telly off, and go and get your book too. Let’s have a reading half-hour.’
‘And then a snacker?’
‘Maybe.’
It’s Wednesday morning and I’m unloading the washing machine before I go to see Grace. They’re back at home for a week’s break in filming, so I’m going round today at eleven to deliver the wool she’s ordered. I’ve just got time to hang the washing out before I leave. And then just as I’m getting into the car it starts to rain.
Maxine is waiting as I’m parking the car.
‘Sorry I’m late.’
‘You’re fine. How’s it going with the shop?’
‘Okay, I think. We’re open again, only downstairs, but fine so far.’
‘Great, and don’t forget to let me know when you want Grace to do the grand reopening thing.’
‘Probably in the new year, when we’ve got all the work done on the café?’
‘Sure, as long as I get a free ice cream.’
‘It’s a deal.’
‘I should probably warn you: she’s in a pretty foul mood.’
‘Why?’
‘Jean-Luc’s ex-wife has turned out to be not quite so ex after all. They’ve been separated for ages and the divorce is still going through, but that hasn’t stopped her doing a deal with the papers for a four-page exclusive.’
‘God, how awful.’
‘Ed’s sorting it; he’s down doing damage limitation now. He’s loving the car sticker, by the way.’ She nods towards a navy-blue soft-top Porsche, with a rather incongruous Baby I’m Bored sticker stuck in the back window.
‘He says the girls love it.’
‘How annoying.’
‘Tell me about it; he was even trying to get one of Lily’s old car seats in the back of his car last week, said it would improve his chances no end. He says the Divorced Dad thing works every time. Although how the prospect of hooking up with someone who’d already dumped their kids would be attractive is beyond me.’
‘Me too, although I’m guessing the Porsche would probably help.’
‘The way he fusses over the stupid thing it might as well be a baby. We stuck one of those scratches on once. Sam did it, and it looked so realistic, a great big scratch right down the side; it was fabulous. He got into such a state we thought he was going to pass out.’
We’re both laughing as we walk upstairs, but she goes straight back into professional PA mode as we approach the door to the upstairs sitting room.
‘Great, you’ve arrived. Max, get me a juice and some tea, would you, and can it be hot this time?’
‘Yes, of course. Jo, what would you like?’
‘Tea, please.’
She winks at me as she goes out.
Lily’s getting bored and starts throwing pieces of plastic fruit around the room until Grace takes her downstairs for a swim with Meg. I’m looking at all the toys and pondering the advantages of motherhood on a major budget: I wonder how it feels when one of your options with a narky baby is taking them down with the nanny for a swim in your heated pool. Bloody brilliant is my guess.
Maxine comes back in with a tray with a glass of some kind of revolting-looking green juice on it, and cups of tea. She hands a carrier bag to Grace and then stands by the door.
‘This is from me and Lily. You made such lovely things for her when she was born, so I wanted to do the same.’
There’s a beautifully wrapped parcel inside, swathed in tissue paper and ribbon; she’s knitted a cream cashmere blanket and a rabbit with floppy ears. And there’s a cheque, for £1,000.
‘Oh Grace, thank you, thank you so much, that’s amazing. I don’t know what to say.’
‘It’s nothing really; it’s for your maternity leave.’
‘I didn’t realise I got maternity leave.’
‘You don’t.’ She smiles.
‘Right. Well, thanks so much; it’s really generous of you, and the knitting is beautiful.’
‘My pleasure.’
Maxine smiles.
‘I’ll go down and check with Ed, Grace. Is there anything you want me to ask him?’
‘Yes, what the fuck is he doing about the magazine thing? I’m not giving them Lily’s birthday party, so he’ll have to think of something else.’
‘Sure.’
She sips her juice as Maxine closes the door.
‘I had a visitor at the weekend.’
‘Oh yes?’
‘Daniel.’
‘Oh yes?’
‘I think your pep talk really hit home.’
‘Did it? Sorry about that. I know you said not to mention anything, but when I saw him I couldn’t resist. What did he say?’
‘I’m not really sure.’
She smiles.
‘That sounds like Daniel. His type always like to be enigmatic’
‘No, it was good, actually, I think. He was talking about the baby and how he wants to be involved, only he hasn’t worked out how yet.’
‘So he wants you to sort it all out for him?’
‘Kind of.’
‘And are you?’
‘No.’
‘Good. Last thing you need is another child to look after.’
‘I think he’s a bit worried about how Liv will react.’
‘I don’t blame him. She’s definitely a girl who likes to be the centre of attention. Speaking as one who knows the typ
e.’
I put my cup down.
‘Grace, I know I’m probably being stupid, but you don’t think she’d suddenly decide she wants the baby, do you?’
‘Not her style, darling; earth mother to the world is far too serious for her, but if there’s any hint of it let me know, and I’ll sort you out with the right lawyers. By the time they’ve finished with her nobody will let her have a budgie, let alone a baby. Okay?’
‘Thanks.’
‘Christ, men are so useless: if they’re not forgetting to tell you they’ve got a baby on the way, they’re forgetting to tell you about their ex-fucking wife, who’s not actually an ex. I wonder why we bother sometimes, I really do. More tea?’
‘Please. How’s the filming going?’
‘Taking for ever as usual, but looking good so far. And Jean-Luc is going to be top of everyone’s wish list next year, that’s for sure. He’s in London, seeing his lawyer at the moment.’
‘Maxine mentioned something about that. I’m sorry, it sounds awful.’
‘It’s his own fault, but I don’t want it becoming a story, so it needs sorting. Jesus. I thought the French were supposed to be discreet. Still, that’s his problem, not mine. I’ve got more important things to worry about, like Lily’s first birthday.’
‘You must let me know what she’d like.’
‘Pretty much anything tacky that makes an annoying noise. She’s got terrible taste, like her mother.’
‘Grace, you’ve got impeccable taste.’
She smiles.
‘I thought I’d invite a few kids round, for an old-fashioned tea party. What do you think?’
‘How many?’
‘Fifty-three, so far.’
‘Fifty-three one-year-olds? Dear God.’
She laughs.
‘Some of them will be older – your boys – and a few others, but most of them will be under two. What sort of help will we need?’
‘Armed assistance might be good.’
‘I thought a Winter Wonderland theme. Fairground rides, and a magic show, with rabbits – she’s very into rabbits.’
‘That sounds lovely, but you’ll need to think about allergies. Some of the kids are bound to have a problem with fur.’
She picks up the phone.
‘Max, check out allergies, would you? If too many of them have got them cancel the rabbits. And I was thinking earlier, let’s find out about snow – she’s never seen snow. No, tell him not to leave until I’ve spoken to him.’ She turns to me.
‘Hang on here a minute, would you, Jo – I’ve got to go and talk to Ed. Max, tell him I’m coming down, and you come up and talk to Jo about the party. Get all her top tips.’
Maxine sits down and pours herself a glass of water.
‘What’s the green stuff Grace was drinking?’
‘Vitamins and grass, basically.’
‘Really?’
‘Special grass, you understand. Special film-star skin-boosting grass.’
‘Does it taste nice?’
‘Absolutely disgusting, and if I told you how much it cost you’d probably faint.’
‘Would ordinary grass do?’
She laughs.
‘No, or we could make a bloody fortune.’
‘Where have you got to so far on the party?’
‘Pass.’
‘I’m happy to help.’
‘She wants a Big Production.’
‘Okay.’
‘I mean Epic’
‘Right.’
‘I’ve got quotes for the fairground, and entertainers, and inflatables for the pool, but I still need to source lifeguards. And now she wants snow.’
‘Anyone under two will only try to eat it … I might be able to help on the lifeguards front though. We’re having a swimming party for Jack’s birthday on Saturday. Come, if you like – I think I mentioned it to you ages ago. Lots of screaming and yelling and everyone gets soaked.’
‘Yes … think I’ll pass on that one, thanks, but I’ve got a present for him downstairs.’
‘Oh, Max, you shouldn’t have.’
‘No problem.’
‘I’ll ask them about renting lifeguards, if you want –’
‘Could you? That would be brilliant. And food-wise – Sam and I were thinking a traditional English tea, with canapés for adults, and champagne.’
‘Sounds lovely, but just do the usual stuff. The kids won’t eat anything too fancy and their parents will be too busy trying to make sure the kids don’t break anything.’
‘Most of them will be bringing nannies so they can circulate. I’ve already had emails asking about arrangements for arriving by helicopter. So apart from the normal ones like you, and the make-up woman from the film – Grace really loves her – they’ll all be nightmare high-maintenance types.’
‘God. Just don’t have anything with nuts in.’
‘I think we’re way past the point of no return on that one.’
It’s Saturday morning and I haven’t heard a peep from Daniel, or Martin, come to that. But it’s Jack’s birthday party today, and somehow I’ve managed to land myself with Fiona and James and the girls coming to lunch, so I’ve been concentrating on that. I spent most of yesterday getting the house tidy, ready for Fiona, who seems to have appointed herself as some sort of annoying Family Liaison Officer. I think Nick’s mother is still sulking about the baby. I’m guessing I was meant to spend the rest of my life wearing black as a testament to her marvellous son, which is fair enough, I suppose, but she’s such a terrible old snob I’m sure her real problem is what the snooters at the Golf Club will think of her son’s widow being seen with a new baby, and no new wedding ring.
When Fiona rang on Thursday to announce they’re popping in with a present for Jack, she hinted something about us visiting Nick’s grave, like that’s my top way to spend Jack’s birthday weekend, when he’s only just stopped having his bad dreams and the dry skin on his elbows is almost healed up.
I’m calling Ellen for moral support, and trying to tidy the living room at the same time.
‘What time are they arriving?’
‘Around twelve, I think.’
‘Give them a sandwich, thanks for the gift, bugger off. You can turn them round in an hour tops.’
‘Ellen, I can’t bundle them out of the door that quickly – it’s a long drive.’
‘You didn’t invite her. It’s her own fault.’
‘I know, but I don’t want her going home saying it was all a shambles.’
‘So this is about her telling the old bag mother-in-law that you’re doing brilliantly then?’
‘Kind of.’
‘Get over it. It’s not going to happen.’
‘I know.’
‘How’s Dovetail?’
‘I haven’t seen him. Elsie says he’s got a big job on, in Birmingham.’
‘Never mind, darling – I still love you. Try to be cool about it. You’re too pregnant now to let things get to you.’
‘I know, but if one more person tells me I’ve got a lot on my plate I think I might slap them.’
‘I’d love to see you giving Fiona a good slap. Damn, I’m supposed to be in sodding Cardiff later, or I’d be down there like a flash.’
‘Cardiff?’
‘Don’t ask. Part of our Isn’t Our Country Great bollocks. So tell me more about this plate thing?’
‘People keep saying you’ve got a lot on your plate, and smiling, like they’re being friendly, which makes me feel like I must look like a total gibbering wreck or they wouldn’t keep saying it. Like I don’t already know exactly how much I’ve got on my sodding plate, thank you very much. Actually, it’s more of a full dinner service.’
‘With salad plates?’
‘Yes.’
‘Bastards. Aren’t you supposed to be flooded with happiness hormones around now, ready for the birth?’
‘Not yet I’m not.’
‘Tell Fiona to piss off. Say you’re not in
the mood.’
‘Or I could heat up the lasagne I’ve made and play nice.’
‘Top plan. Lull her into a false sense of security, and then the first time she says something, pop her one. Is your gran going to be around?’
‘Yes, she’s coming to lunch with Reg.’
‘No problem then. Anyone trying to disparage you and yours will be in big trouble.’
‘That’s what I’m hoping.’
‘It’s a dead cert, darling. So you just have a great party with Jack, and I’ll look into the hormone thing for you.’
‘Great.’
‘Testosterone’s supposed to be good. Marina, my friend in New York, her mother’s on it, I think. All sorts of old bags are taking it over there. It’s mainly for post-menopause, but I bet it works for any age. You grow a slight beard, but it’s worth it. Might perk you up?’
‘Thanks, but I think I’ll pass.’
Actually, all I really need right now is to start growing a beard.
Jack’s helping me set the table for lunch.
‘I’m really helping, aren’t I, Mum?’
‘Yes, love, you are.’
‘That’s because I’m eight now.’
‘Is it?’
‘Yes. When you’re eight you’re much more grown-up. And then after lunch it’ll nearly be time for my party, won’t it?’
‘Yes, nearly.’
I’m wearing my boots today, which I can’t quite zip up, due to extra pregnancy calfage. My long stretchy black skirt is still okay, though, with one of Nick’s old jumpers that I knitted for him years ago. It went all baggy and I used to wear it when I was pregnant with Archie. I’m really hoping I look like a mother who has Got Things Under Control, and I’ve rather brilliantly arranged the swimming bit of the party so I won’t actually have to appear in my swimming costume, thank God. Polly and Gemma will be in the water with the kids, and I’m paying them £10 each as an extra incentive not to let anyone drown.
Fiona’s knitted herself a rather lively jumper, which she’s clearly very proud of; it’s a complicated pattern of fruit and leaves and autumn berries, which must have taken her hours. There are so many different colours it makes you feel dizzy if you look at it for too long. And she’s had a problem with the shoulder seams, so she looks like she’s mid-shrug all the time.
‘It’s lovely, Fiona.’