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by Laura Langston




  LESIA’S DREAM

  * * *

  Laura Langston

  FOR MY MOTHER-IN-LAW,

  MARY NAZARKO,

  WITH LOVE

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Acknowledgments

  Author’s Note

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Prologue

  January 2003

  Winnipeg, Manitoba

  You come to me young and fresh, full of questions. I sit here, old and weary, full of memories. In that school with all its rooms and teachers and so many pencils that you have no need to share, they have asked you to speak of your roots. Something called your heritage. You are Canadian, you tell them. Born here. Just as your mother and grandmother were born here.

  Before, they say. Before.

  You do not know of heritage. You know only of me.

  You are so tall, though you are only sixteen. At sixteen, my face showed hard lines of worry and my hair, once long and beautiful, had become dull and brittle. But your face is unlined, full of promise. Your hair has the rich, golden shine of the honey we gathered in Shuparka.Your world is different from the one I lived in at sixteen.

  Other babas are sad about this. Some are even mad. But I accept. Because accepting brings me peace.

  You are not of the old world. You are firmly of the new. But you are tied to me. Oh, yes. Tied to me forever.

  Laisha.

  They told me you were named for me. I told them your name is not my name. It is not true to custom.

  But now… now I think your name is beautiful. It is all that is goodfrom me and my time, sprung forth into all that is new and wonderful in your time.

  It is the freedom I dreamed of when I was your age.

  Ach, sixteen. Back then, I carried within me the egg that would become your grandmother, the egg that would become your mother and the one that would become you. Yes, I carried generations in my loins. And even then I carried memories.

  I carried the spring smell of the fruit blossoms in Shuparka.The sound of the wind whistling through the beekeeper’s hut. The feel of Baba’s arms around me as we said goodbye.That first glimpse of the prairie. Especially that.

  The prairie changed me. Just as I changed it.

  I am old. My eyes are failing. My legs are weak. But my memories are strong. And they have been silent for too long.

  Pull up a chair and listen, for soon my body shall disappearfrom this earth. Traces of me will remain, oh, yes. In the prairie I cleared, the wheat I planted, the family I buried. In brown eyes that are thickly lashed and far seeing. In strong, sure hands that are meant for working the soil, for turning thepyrohy dough.You have them both, dear Laisha.Just as your daughter shall have them and, so too, the daughter that follows her.

  I will answer your questions about roots and heritage. And that will satisfy them. But it will not satisfy me. Heritage is like soil. And soil is nothing without seeds. So I give you these memories as seeds. I hope you will honour them and cherish them and pass them along so they may grow and ripen and nourish you, your daughter and her daughters forever.

  Chapter One

  March 1914

  Shuparka Province of Galicia Austro-Hungarian Empire

  Lesia’s day had started before dawn. Turning the landowner’s wet, spring soil had been hard, heavy work.Though her thin arms were strong, after twelve hours of lifting they ached with fatigue. But though the gnawing hunger in her belly usually made her light-headed and grumpy, it didn’t today. Today Master Stryk had paid her well and given her a large bundle of wood besides.

  She could hide another rynsky!

  Clutching the bundle of wood under her arm, she pulled up her skirt and ran through the village. Coins tumbled happily in her pocket. The setting sun cast a golden glow over the thatched roofs of the nearby houses. In a few weeks, the spring air would be filled with the rich, sweet scent of plum blossoms flowering near the beekeeper’s hut in the grove.

  Lesia was so hungry she could taste the plums now. Stewed with honey and linden flowers. And in babka at Easter, if they were lucky enough to have flour by then.

  The fence that had once surrounded their small cottage was gone, burned long ago to keep them warm, but the gate still stood on its posts, swaying in the breeze as it often did. Lesia nudged it shut with her foot, raced down the dirt path, pushed open the thick, wooden door and hurried inside.

  “Mama, Baba, come quick.”

  Mama was nowhere to be found, but Baba was low on her heels, poking at a pot over the fire. “What is it, child?” The old woman stood up and frowned. The skin of her face collapsed into prune-like folds. “What’s wrong?”

  Lesia giggled. “Nothing’s wrong!” She shoved the bundle of wood at her grandmother. “Here.” She reached into her pocket. “And here.” She held out seven rynskys. The eighth stayed in her apron. Guilt tugged at her conscience. She knew what she was doing was right, but it still felt wrong.

  “Bozhe! Bozhe! A bundle of wood and seven rynskys.” Baba’s smile slipped. She squinted suspiciously. “How come they give you so much?” Baba had been furious four years ago when Lesia had turned eleven and had gone to work in the landowner’s fields. Serfdom was over, her grandmother had said angrily. Lesia should go to school. But there was no school in the village. Besides, earning money for wood and food was more important than an education.

  Lesia grabbed the old woman’s hands. The wood tumbled to the floor. “Because I work hard, so very hard.” Grinning broadly, she swung her grandmother back and forth. “And tomorrow they have asked me to assist with the bees.”That was her favourite thing to do.

  She stopped mid-step. Something smelled wonderful, and it was more than the potatoes they’d been living on for weeks. “I must be dreaming,” she said slowly “I smell bread.”

  “There.” The old lady pointed to a crusty loaf cooling in the corner.

  When Lesia’s eyes widened, Baba patted her cheek. “Ivan and Papa are home. They brought flour.”

  Lesia’s heart jumped. “Where are they?”

  “Out back.” Baba started to cough.

  Lesia flung herself out the back door.”Papa! Ivan!”

  There was Papa, wearing the same black pants he’d worn nine months ago when he’d left home to search for work. His moustache was greyer and his eyes were tired, but he offered her the same crooked smile, the same open arms.

  “Lesia!” His whiskers tickled her cheek as he kissed her. “I’ve missed you, moye sonechko.”

  My sunshine. Oh, how she’d yearned to hear that phrase! “And I’ve missed you too, Papa.” His sheepskin coat smelled faintly of tobacco; it was smooth and cool against her face.

  “Well, sister, I hope you’ve taken good care of the bees while I was away.”

  “Ivan!” She swung around to greet her brother. He hadn’t returned for Christmas like Papa, and Lesia had missed him. He was standing near the bee skep. It had been golden brown when he’d left, the colour of flax before it flowered. Now, it had weathered to a soft do
ve grey.

  Lesia stared. Ivan was older, thinner.With his new clothes and moustache, he looked more like Papa than ever. “You look so different.”

  “It’s been three-quarters of a year. I’m an old man of seventeen now, you know.” He shuffled his feet and pretended to walk with a cane.

  They all laughed, even little Sonia, who clapped her hands and excitedly bobbed her head up and down, up and down.

  “Did you find it?” Lesia demanded. “The big money we talked about?”

  “Lesia!” her mother chided. Sonia was squirming and clapping. Mama put her down. “That’s silly talk.”

  But Mama didn’t know about Lesia and Ivan’s plan.They’d told no one. Not even Baba. “Did you?” she demanded again.

  Ivan’s eyes gleamed with excitement. He nodded. “We’re almost there, Lesia. How about you? Did you manage to save?”

  “A little.” She nodded. “Twenty-four rynskys so far. After today, twenty-five.”

  Papa looked at Mama. Mama looked at Papa.They both looked confused. “What are you two talking about?” Papa asked.

  She grinned at Ivan. “You tell them!”

  “Lesia and I are going to Canada,” Ivan said. “We want you to come with us.”

  “Canada!” Mama looked shocked. “That’s halfway around the world.We cannot afford to—”

  Ivan interrupted her. “We’ve been working and saving, Mama.We have over six hundred rynskys.”

  Lesia smothered a gasp. Ivan had obviously done well in his travels.

  Mama clutched her throat and turned the colour of an eggshell. Papa’s eyes widened in disbelief. “Six hundred rynskys?” he repeated.

  “Yes!” Ivan said triumphantly. “Just a little more and we’ll be ready to leave for Canada.”

  “We are not going anywhere.” Papa repeated the words he’d said so many times before. “The Magus family belongs in Ukraine just as the great Dnister crests its banks in spring. I will not give up on this land.”

  Lesia’s stomach flipped nervously. Her grin faded. “We have nothing here, Papa. In Canada we’ll have wood and land and food. We’ll be rich beyond belief!”

  Wordlessly, Papa shook his head. She’d been so sure he would change his mind once the money was saved. Dejected, her stomach sank to her toes.

  Mama looked sad. “You dream, my darling Lesia. You think you’ll be a tsarivna and live in a grand palace too one day.”

  “That’s not it at all!” Impatiently, Lesia brushed away a fly. “How much heartache must we suffer? How many more deaths must we witness?” She couldn’t stop the words. “Think how different our lives would be if we’d gone five years ago!”

  Mama gasped. If they’d left back then, Slavko would still be alive. Maybe even her beloved Geedo. “Nothing can be done to change things,” she murmured. “As God ordains, so it shall be.”

  Lesia stared at the ground. It was Mama’s usual response.

  “We’ve talked about this.” Papa rubbed his moustache wearily. “More than half the village has given up and left, and look at what we hear back. Some say Canada is the land of milk and honey. Others say it’s the frozen land of Hell. We don’t know who to believe.”

  “We are visitors in our own land,” Ivan said grimly “First the Russians oppressed us, now it’s the Austrians and the Poles. Slavery ended over fifty years ago, but we’re not really free. They’ve taken away our right to have a Ukrainian nation. They won’t even let us call ourselves Ukrainians. We have to call ourselves Ruthenians instead.”With a twist of his lips, he stared beyond the small patch of black soil Baba had prepared for planting, beyond the cherished bee skep, to the house on the rise where the landowner lived.

  Ivan turned back to Mama and Papa.”Most of our land has been taken, and we’re being taxed to death. We have no wood for fuel and almost nowhere to grow food. We’re practically starving.” He paused and looked at Lesia. They were both thinking the same thing. Slavko. And Geedo.”It’s time to get out!”

  “It’s those people you associate with,” Papa muttered. “Teaching you to read and write. Putting strange ideas in your head.” Mama was close to tears. “Look at the trouble you caused handing out books, holding meetings and encouraging Ukrainians to join together against the state.” Papa’s voice slipped to a whisper. “You take great risks, Ivan.”

  It was true. Ivan did take risks. And Master Stryk had been livid when he’d learned of Ivan’s activities. But then Slavko had died, and everything had changed. After that, Ivan had become more careful, secretive almost. And he and Lesia had made a vow. They would do whatever it took to get out of Ukraine.

  “You know the law,” Lesia said. “Ivan will be eighteen soon.They force all Ukrainian males to join the army. He’ll never be able to leave then. We must get out while we can!”

  Mama and Papa were silent.

  “You are right about one thing, Papa. This is our soil.” Ivan stomped his foot against the earth and a small puff of dirt rose into the air. “And I would lay down my life for it. But there is going to be a war. I won’t be able to fight for Ukraine. I’ll be caught between two enemies, fighting for the Austrians or the Poles. Maybe even the Russians, if they invade.” His eyes darkened. “No matter whose side we’re on, they’ll take what little land we have left. Our only hope is Canada.Their door is wide open. If we don’t go now, we’ll never have another chance.”

  Sonia was toddling between Lesia’s legs. She lurched back and forth and then, with a thump, she fell backwards onto the ground, letting out a wail. Lesia picked her up.

  “War?” Mama looked at Papa.

  Papa stared into the distance, beyond the house on the rise, to where the sun was setting in streaks of golden pink.

  Lesia waited. Ivan told the truth.

  “War is possible,” Papa finally admitted. “I’ve thought about that too. Leaving is a risk. But with another child coming and only three morgens of land to split among all of you, staying is also risky.Yet Master Stryk is a kind man.”

  “He may be kind,” Ivan agreed, “but if there is a war, he will be helpless.”

  Lesia wasn’t interested in Master Stryk. “Another baby?” She jiggled Sonia on her hip. It seemed like only yesterday her younger sister had arrived!

  Mama patted her stomach. “By fall,” she said softly.

  No wonder Mama hadn’t made it up the hill to work the last few days. Lesia remembered how tired Mama was carrying Sonia.

  “We have just three morgens of land here.” Ivan was still talking to Papa. “Remember what the land agents said. In Canada, the government provides immigrants with 113 morgens, 160 acres!” He shook his head from side to side in awe.”And it’s almost free for the taking.”

  “Not free,” Papa said cautiously. “And travel is expensive.”

  “We’ll need close to eight hundred rynskys, which is about three hundred Canadian dollars,” Ivan said in a rush, “but we’re almost there, Papa.”

  Papa was silent. Then he said, “Someone told me Canada expects immigrants to bring in a little extra money. Insurance money almost, so they aren’t a burden while they get established.”

  Mama looked stunned. Lesia couldn’t contain her grin. Papa was changing his mind!

  “We’ll have to sell our holdings to Master Stryk.” Ivan looked triumphant. “Raise more money. Perhaps borrow some.”

  Papa frowned. “I will not go into debt.”

  “I cannot believe you would give up on Ukraine.” Mama’s eyes shimmered with tears. She turned to stare at the small white cross that marked Slavko’s grave.”My heart tells me to stay. And decisions of the heart are never wrong.”

  Lesia swallowed the lump in her throat. Her younger brother had died two years ago at the age of eleven. He’d been too hungry and too weak to resist the virus that had swept through the village. Geedo had died the year before. Baba still grieved for her husband.”We cannot live in the past, Mama.We must go forward. It’s the only way we’ll survive.”

  “Lesia
and Ivan are going to Canada,” Papa said firmly. “We belong together. And Lesia’s right. We must go forward. It’s time for change.”

  Finally, what she and Ivan had dreamed was coming true! “We aren’t giving up, Mama,” Lesia said. “We’ll make a new home for ourselves in Canada. We’ll live rich We’ll live free!”

  Mama looked doubtful. Gently, Papa reassured her. “There will be time to get used to the idea, Ahafia. It will be many months before we have enough money to travel.”

  Lesia and Ivan exchanged glances. Papa was wrong.

  Chapter Two

  It was dark when Lesia rose from the narrow bed she shared with Sonia. Tiptoeing past Ivan and Baba, she let herself outside and raced up the hill. She and Ivan had talked late into the night, and they had both reached the same uneasy conclusion. If Lesia didn’t succeed at their plan, Canada would be lost forever.

  Though it was early, the older villagers were already trickling into the landowner’s manor. As one of the younger servants, Lesia was supposed to wait outside in the cold for her list of chores. But today she moved swiftly through the kitchen, making sure to hide from Kasia, the kitchen boss, who liked to lord it over the poor peasants. Lucky for her, the heavy-set woman was barking out orders and didn’t see Lesia slip past.

  Down the hall she went, stopping at the landowner’s ornate wooden door. It was closed. Jan Stryk was an early riser, and he often put in several hours of work before breakfast. She hoped he was at his desk today.

  She raised her fist and knocked.

  “Yes?”

  Answering would have been the proper thing to do, but there was nothing proper about any of this. Instead she turned the handle, pushed the door open and walked bravely into his study.

  Master Stryk was bent over his red ledger book. A small lamp with a white shade cast thin shadows onto the wall behind him. “Yes?” he repeated impatiently, continuing to write.

  Lesia’s heart raced. Papa would be furious if he knew what she was about to ask. But if Master Stryk said yes, there would be little Papa could do.

 

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