Above the Noise
Copyright © 2014 Michelle Kemper Brownlow
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The characters and events in this book are fictitious. Names, characters, places, and plots are a product of the author’s imagination. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
ISBN-13: 978-0-9914691-1-6 (ebook)
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playlist
one
two
three
four
five
six
seven
eight
nine
ten
eleven
twelve
thirteen
fourteen
fifteen
sixteen
seventeen
eighteen
nineteen
twenty
twenty-one
twenty-two
twenty-three
twenty-four
twenty-five
twenty-six
twenty-seven
twenty-eight
twenty-nine
thirty
thirty-one
epilogue
acknowledgements
One of the greatest talents Michelle has is getting the reader to feel and experience her storytelling and Above the Noise is a perfect example of that. I could feel the music, the atmosphere, the emotions… all of it. Never has music and reading gone better hand-in-hand than with this book and Michelle continues to shine with Above the Noise.
~Jillian Stein, Read-Love-Blog
A beautiful story that will leave you emotionally attached to the characters and fanning yourself with some incredibly sexy scenes. Calon made it very hard to stay faithful to Jake!
~Jenee Gibbs, Jenee’s Book Blog
Calon and Becki’s story is one filled with emotion, passion, and absolutely scorching hot chemistry. Yet another must read from the very talented Michelle Kemper Brownlow.
~Holly Baker, Holly’s Hot Reads
This is a series that will stay with you for quite some time. I love how this group of characters’ lives intertwine.
~Heather Davenport, Naughty and Nice Book Blog
To everyone who makes music.
From those who play alone to those who play for tens of thousands, you’re speaking a universal language that has the power to heal the broken.
Don’t. Ever. Stop.
The Keeper by Chris Cornell
Skeletons by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Lie in the Sound by Trespassers William
American Music by Violent Femmes
Lump by The Presidents of the United States
Tsunami by Dvvbs & Borgeous
Crazy Train by Ozzy Osbourne
All of Me by John Legend
Suds in the Bucket by Sara Evans
Eat for Two by 10,000 Maniacs
Drive all Night by Glen Hansard and Eddie Vedder
Laid by James
Counting Stars by OneRepublic
Lips Like Sugar by Echo and the Bunnymen
What if by Five for Fighting
State of Love and Trust by Pearl Jam
Crash by Sum 41
Criminal by Fiona Apple
The One by Static Cycle
Wings by Birdy
Paralyzer by Finger Eleven
Accident by Emily Wolfe
Arms Wide Open by Creed
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“CHANGE OUR IMAGE? Are you fucking kidding me? This is ridiculous! Guys, Becki, we’re out!” Calon’s voice was sharp, and his stance was on the verge of threatening. It was unusual to see him that way. He’d been nothing but sweet, sensitive, passionate, and gentle since we’d first met. I’d heard him get loud with Gracie when they practiced new songs at Mitchell’s, but that was usually because she held back what he tried to pull from her. That kind of passion was a cool thing to see. The clenched fist thing in Greystar Management’s conference room teetered between passionate and dangerous, which was a first for me.
Mr. Barnes sat with his eyes fixed on Calon but seemingly unshaken by my new boyfriend’s outburst. I sat with the band on an eccentric couch across the room from Mr. Barnes. I looked around at the other guys to see if they were as thrown by Calon’s booming voice as I was. They didn’t seem fazed. Spider leaned back into the couch with his arm up over the back behind Manny, whose elbows were on his knees. Manny rubbed his forehead then turned his head away from Mr. Barnes, looked passed me, and grinned at Bones. Bones nodded, straight-faced, then looked back at Calon. Since it seemed I was the only uncomfortable one in the room, I was the odd man out. I felt like I should stand up to leave, as per Calon’s directive, but no one else budged.
“Mr. Ridge, listen. It’s common practice in this industry for management to help you create an image. Your image is what sells your music, that’s no secret.”
“Funny! I like to think it’s our talent.” Calon wasn’t about to let this go. It was incredibly sexy to watch him take charge and stand his ground, but I would have rather had toothpicks shoved under my fingernails than spend any more time in that meeting.
“Calon, think of the bands you know off the top of your head. You can picture the band members, right?”
“Of course, I can, but that’s not what sells a record, Mr. Barnes. The passion for the craft, the investment in the art of taking an emotion and slinging words around it then folding in just the right beat and melody is what sells, not my hair or the style of my clothes. I don’t even think about that stuff before I go on stage. All I think of is how I’m gonna move my fans. And I sure as hell think they’re longing to be moved… by my voice—not my image.” Calon added air quotes at the end of his rant.
“Honey, what’s your name, again?” Mr. Barnes pointed at me with his pen as he stood and walked around the back of his chair. I hated that he called me that, but I decided to ignore it, so as not to add to the stress level in the room. He nodded in my direction, and that proverbial pin dropping against the silence in the room would have split my eardrums.
“Becki.” My name came out of my throat like it’d been dragged across sand paper first. I hated that this cocky man had me so worked up.
“Becki, you’re Alternate Tragedy’s manager.”
I nodded. “Yes, sir.”
“Which means you must be a fan of their music, correct?”
“Of course.” I nodded again and rubbed my hands on my knees to try and keep my body from shattering from the nervous energy that ran through it.
“Are you also a fan of their look?” He raised his eyebrow at me and slowly turned his head to Calon as if he was drawing an imaginary line between us, challenging me.
I took a slow deep breath and gathered my thoughts before I spoke. I stood and walked toward a bookshelf where a framed photo of Mr. Barnes and the members of his company sat. Mr. Barnes blinked a couple times as though I caught him off guard with my decorum. I made it obvious that I would use that photo as a
means to turn the table on him. I nodded in the direction of the well-dressed, exclusively male executive team posed around a boardroom table in the frame.
“Mr. Barnes, image sells, you’re right. So, we can agree that people may not take your company seriously if your trademark photo had been taken on a beach and you were all shirtless and in Hawaiian swim trunks. Correct?”
“Sure.” He remained behind his chair, an obvious comfort zone. He only looked a little nervous. But I told myself I made him nervous as I tried not to pass out.
“There is no doubt in my mind that women will fall in love with these guys, as they have for years, for their music and what it does to them while they listen. I’m sure they’ll each have their very own groupies.” I heard a loud slap and looked over my shoulder at Spider, who threw a dirty look at Bones then rubbed his arm. Bones looked up at me like a scolded child. Dork.
“That’s exactly what—”
“Excuse me, I’m not finished making my point, Mr. Barnes.” I nodded when he motioned with his hand to continue, and I walked back over and stood behind the guys on the couch, next to Calon, who’d stepped out of my way when I stood up to go head to head with Mr. Barnes. “As an avid music fan and former ‘groupie’ myself, I have to stand behind my clients and support Calon’s concerns. There needs to be an authentic match between appearance and music. If there’s even a slight shift, it will appear orchestrated and unnatural to the fans, who’ve followed them for years, just as it would if the professional reputation of your company was challenged by a beach bum photo. Do you see what I’m saying, Mr. Barnes?”
Mr. Barnes folded his arms across his chest and reached up with one hand to rub his chin. He walked around the front of the table and sat on the edge.
I took my phone from my pocket and scrolled through my music while I struggled to keep my trembling under control. I pressed play. The acoustic guitar that sprung forth would not only prove my point, it would help to calm my nerves immediately.
“Mr. Barnes, you know this artist.” The guys instinctively kept the beat with their feet on the expensive oriental carpet under their shit-kickers.
“Chris Cornell.”
“Yes. When you close your eyes and picture him performing this song ‘The Keeper’ live, can you feel the vibe he has?”
“Of course. The man’s an icon.”
“But that’s not why you can picture him. You can picture him easily because he wears his music. Everything about who he is, what cuts his soul, how deeply he loves, and how passionate he is about his fans is externally evident in his image. If I saw Chris perform in anything other than his signature combat boots, jeans, and t-shirt it would be a distraction. If he walked out on the stage in a pair of Justin Bieber’s saggy leather dance pants, a flat brim hat, and a wife-beater I wouldn’t appreciate what he had to offer that night. It would seem contrived. I would feel cheated out of what I should’ve received from him in the form of an artistic experience.”
I looked at Calon for approval of my calm rant. He smiled his crooked smile that never failed to cause the bottom to drop out of my stomach. But he tried to hide it by scratching his forehead. Then he nodded.
“Mr. Barnes, what you see in front of you, how these guys dress and how they wear their personalities, is what you get on stage. Calon couldn’t take a handful of short hair in his hands to show the ache in the words he’s singing. Spider couldn’t throw it down on the drums the way he does if he wasn’t comfortable in his own skin. Manny and Bones light up the stage with those guitars if you asked them to morph into something they aren’t. They wouldn’t suck the crowd in like they always have. Listen, it’s smart marketing. You can look at a photo of Alternate Tragedy and know the kind of music you’re getting, just like you can with Chris Cornell. Asking them to become something they’re not, would be cheating everyone out of what they have to offer. And, in my honest opinion, that would be a huge mistake for you and this tour.”
Mr. Barnes looked a bit stunned, but kept his eyes locked on mine. He wasn’t going to admit that I’d just put him in his place. “Becki, you raise a good point. Let me mull this over, and we can get together tomorrow to discuss my thoughts. Sound good?”
“Sounds great.” Calon’s voice was calm and relaxed. However, I was about to throw up, but I plastered a classy smile across my face and nodded. We all shook hands and left Mr. Barnes’s office in a single file line; Calon right behind me, bringing up the rear. We walked silently to the elevator, and once we were in and the doors closed, all four of them let loose. Whoops and yells that I’m sure could be heard two floors away were showered down all around me. All I could do was laugh. My very first official day as Alternate Tragedy’s manager, and I rocked it like nobody’s business.
Calon turned his body to mine and crowded me into the corner of the elevator. He pressed his hips into me and slid his face next to mine until his lips touched my earlobe. I could feel his hot breath on my neck as he spoke. “That was the hottest thing I’ve ever seen, Becks.”
“Oh, here they go again. Good grief, get a room, would ya!” Bones was always the one to complain about me and Calon. The other guys didn’t seem to mind all that much, and it’s not like we were all PDA all the time. We’d been stuck in a van with all of them since we left Knoxville for Los Angeles. Calon hadn’t gotten anything from me in all that time except a few stolen kisses.
“Becks?”
“Yeah.” It was the breathiest word I’d ever spoken, but the sexual tension between the two of us turned me inside out.
“I can’t wait until we have our own room.” Calon spoke loud enough for everyone to hear.
“We can’t wait either.” Bones’s voice was harsh. “God, you’re making me horny. Would you put your dick away, man? All this sexiness is really starting to be a problem for me.” He grumbled something else under his breath. Calon chuckled and turned toward Bones in the cramped space.
“Bones, man, I’m sorry my dick is such a problem for you.”
“Shut up, jackass.”
The elevator erupted into celebratory laughter. When the doors opened on the ground floor of the posh LA office building, we stepped into the glass atrium and the late afternoon August sun stung our eyes. Manny spoke the words forming in the back of my mind.
“Let’s go get some drinks.”
THE FIRST TIME Calon and I drank together was after one of their shows when he walked me back to my dorm. The guys didn’t usually drink during a show, but a big storm rolled in that night just as their first set started. The atmosphere inside Mitchell’s unexpectedly turned from a slamming rock sound to an acoustic vibe when the lights went out. Gracie ran around and gathered as many candles as she could from the back room, and we all helped her light them and place them on the silent speakers all around the stage. Calon and the guys enjoyed beer after beer and did a show like I’d never seen from them. It was rustic with a little folk-funk. The bar’s patrons sang along in the glow of about forty container candles of all different sizes. Calon sat center stage on a stool and sang away the hours with his guitar resting on his thigh. The whole night was ethereal and quaint and very fucking sexy.
He asked if he could walk me home again, which was exactly what I’d hoped for. When we crossed the road right outside of Mitchell’s, Calon grabbed my hand, and we ran for the opposite sidewalk that led across campus and up to my dorm. Electricity ran through the hand he held, I was sure he could feel it because he didn’t let go.
He told me groupie stories for the entire length of our walk to my room. I was laughing when I pushed my door open. Being a little tipsy, I tripped and fell into him, pinning him against the open door. My hands landed on his chest, and, in an attempt to keep up both upright, his strong hands grabbed my hips. My mind shot back to the thoughts I’d had earlier while watching his deft fingers move on the strings of his guitar.
His t-shirt was damp from sweat, and his curls tickled my forehead when he laughed. It was one of those moments you see in movies
when the couple finds themselves in a compromising position and they freeze; chests heaving, mouths agape, and hearts racing. His eyes searched my face, but for what I didn’t know.
I pushed off his chest and, a bit shaken, walked to the mini fridge and grabbed the bottle of vodka from the top freezer portion.
“Shots?” I spun around and took in all of him; dark curls, sultry green eyes, an intense stare, and lips I could entertain for days.
“Absolutely.” He let the door close, plopped down on my bed, and leaned back against the wall, his legs so long they hung at a weird angle not quite touching the floor. He had a hole in his jeans just below his front pocket, which puckered when he sat. I had a hard time diverting my attention from it.
I was completely oblivious to what my heart was capable of at that point, so the alcohol was an attempt to loosen up before we started making out. This was the token third time he’d been to my room, and that’s just how it typically worked. The guy comes back the third time after not getting laid the first two, you know they want it, or they’d have given up after the second night of blue balls.
We did a couple shots and laughed about random shit, and then there was the uncomfortable silence; it was deafening. I decided to make the first move before it got really awkward. I turned on the twinkling lights that hung above my bed and turned off the overhead fluorescents. I climbed onto the bed on my knees facing Calon and reached for his face to pull him in for a kiss. He stopped me and held me still by the wrists.
“Becki, I’m not here for that.” He loosened his grip on my wrists, and I dropped my hands in my lap.
“Oh.” Fuck. He wasn’t interested. It was one thing to be turned down by the conceited freak from my study group, but to be turned down by a hot rock star who probably hits every piece of ass offered to him sliced a little deeper. I brushed it off like it didn’t bother me, but it did.
“No, no. Listen.” He took my chin between his thumb and finger and pulled my face a little closer to his. “I am extremely attracted to you, Becki. I love your personality, and you’re gorgeous, so my comment wasn’t a rejection.” He smiled, and I felt like a complete idiot, a slutty idiot.
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