by Shana Galen
“I worked for men,” she said.
Henry stopped chewing and stared at her. She continued to look forward, not meeting his gaze. “When my mother and father were gone, I had no way to survive and so I learned to pick pockets. Eventually, I moved on to other rackets, but the one commonality was that the arch rogues were always men. So I watched them. I learned what it meant to be a man. I studied them until I knew their strengths and their weaknesses. Now I think I may be a better man than most men.”
“I’m certain that would have made sense two drinks ago.”
She smiled faintly. “I still have to prove myself, but I don’t overimbibe because I don’t have the need to protect my masculine pride.”
“What about your feminine pride?” Henry asked before he could think better of it. It was better for both of them if he did not think of her as a woman. If he did not remember the way she’d looked in her bedchamber, half dressed and lovely.
“I still have my feminine pride,” she said quietly. “I didn’t think I did. Not until I saw you again.”
Henry turned sharply, but before he could ask what she meant, she hopped off her seat. “Come have a brandy with me.”
“It hurts my masculine pride to admit this, but if I drink anything else, I’ll fall over.”
“Then watch me drink, but a true gentleman doesn’t refuse a lady his company.”
He tried to hop off his stool with as much grace as she had shown, but he had to grab the bar to keep from rolling onto the floor. “I’m not much of a gentleman,” he said when he’d righted himself again.
“I’m not much of a lady.”
To his surprise, she took his hand and led him back to the room where he’d been brought that first night—the library/torture chamber. When they were alone inside, the door closed behind them, he looked at the desk where she’d used the iron bar so ruthlessly.
“Whatever happened to the man you called Hedgehog?”
She blew out a breath. He’d thought she would pour herself a drink. Instead, she wriggled onto the top of her desk so her trouser-clad legs hung down. “I wish you hadn’t seen that.”
“That makes two of us.” He sat heavily on the couch. The room didn’t spin as much when he sat. “But I think I understand why you did it.”
“I doubt that.”
“Why? Because I’m not a crime lord? We’re not so different, you and I.”
“Now I know you are drunk.”
“Hear me out.” He tried to stand—always better to make a speech standing—but thought better of it when the upward motion made his vision blur. Kate was beside him in a moment, her hand on his elbow. He shook it off and continued from where he was. “If one of my servants or my steward steals from me, I let him go without a reference. If I tolerate the theft, what’s to stop others from stealing from me too? If one of your men steals from you, you have to punish him, or others will follow suit.”
She raised a brow. “Smashing a man’s hand is slightly different from refusing to write a letter of reference.”
He shook his head and regretted the movement immediately. “Not really. You ended Hedgehog’s career as a pickpocket the same way the career of a servant is ended if he or she has no reference. But here’s the real question, Kate.”
Her large brown eyes met his.
“Why did you stop at smashing his hand? Why didn’t you kill him?”
“You want me to commit murder?”
“I want you to survive. You won’t survive in your world for long if you’re soft.”
She gave a short bark of laughter. “You don’t know anything about my world.”
“I know that once your secret is out, you won’t stand a chance. I can’t believe you’ve hidden who you really are this long. What’s to stop a man like Hedgehog from going to another gang and telling the—what do you call them? Arch rogues—”
She inclined her head
“—that you’re a woman?”
“Nothing but fear.”
“One of these days, the desire for revenge will be stronger than the fear.”
She nodded slightly, as though she knew all of this. “Everyone dies. Some of us die younger than others.”
“It doesn’t have to be that way.”
“Oh, will you sweep in and rescue me?” Her voice dripped with sarcasm. “Do you think I’m a princess in need of rescue from the fire-breathing dragon? I can save myself.” She stood and paced angrily away.
“Perhaps we can save each other.”
She stilled. He couldn’t see her face with her back turned to him, but he knew he’d caught her attention. “You don’t want this life, Kate. You’re not a monster. You don’t want to hurt people. If you did, you would have killed that man.”
“I may yet have to kill him.” She turned, and her eyes were liquid with unshed tears. “I didn’t choose this life, but it’s all I have. Don’t pretend we can be any more to each other than we are in this room.”
“And if I asked you to marry me?” He did not know if he would have said that if he hadn’t been drinking, but the drink had made saying what he wanted so much easier.
“Then I’d tell you no and expect you to thank me. I no more belong in your world than you do in mine. What do you think would happen if you married me, even if no one knew I was the Duke of Vauxhall? The truth would still come out. I was a thief, a criminal, a whore.”
“You’d be my wife.” His voice rose now because he wanted to block out her words. None of them described the Kate he’d known or the Kate he saw standing before him now.
“I’d be an outcast, and so would you. You don’t want that. If you cared nothing for your title and your duty, you wouldn’t be chasing after Prinny’s approval.”
“I could give it up.” But could he? What about his title? He hadn’t wanted it, but it had existed for hundreds of years and would exist for hundreds more. Who was he to taint it? What about his family? What would they say? Could he stand strong against their censure? Against the censure of all of London? His servants would give notice, the merchants he frequented would not sell to him. In short, he would be anathema.
And he would pass his low status on to Kate and their children.
“I wouldn’t ask you to give it up,” Kate said, as though she could read his thoughts. “Tomorrow is the fight, and then you’ll be rid of me for good.” She moved closer to him. “For good, Henry. It’s better this way.”
“Funny that I can’t see that at the moment.”
“You will.”
“No. All I see is you, Kate.” He took her hands. “You’re all I want to see, all I think about night and day. Even if it means digging holes in Vauxhall Gardens, I cannot wait to be with you.”
“I worry about you, Henry.” Her voice was soft. “If digging holes is all you have to look forward to.”
He pulled her gently onto the couch beside him. “I hope it’s not all I have to look forward to.” He leaned forward, but stopped just short of kissing her. If she wanted him, she’d have to move to kiss him. If she didn’t want him—well, he’d rather she not smash his head in.
She took her time deciding. At least, it seemed so to him. He didn’t dare move or breathe. He barely dared to blink. And then finally she closed the distance between them, her warm lips brushing over his. She was iron covered in silk, the strength of her always there and shielding her inner softness. He knew she could be soft, and he felt it now in her kiss, in the silkiness of her lips as they trailed over his.
He pulled her into his arms, shifting back so she sat on his lap and he could tangle his fingers in her short hair. His thumbs brushed along her cheeks as he deepened the kiss. And then he did not know if it was the drink or her lips, but he was falling down and down and down into a world of sensation where nothing but her body and her lips and the sound of her breathing existed.
“Kate—” he began.
“Shh. Don’t talk. Just kiss me.”
He complied, saying what he wanted with his h
ands and his mouth. I want you. I love you. I’ve always loved you.
He couldn’t get enough of her, and when he bent to kiss her neck, she shrugged out of her man’s coat. His hands slid up her back, now clothed only in the thin linen shirt. It felt strange to loosen a neckcloth not his own, but he did so easily, then kissed the skin he’d exposed. She was warm, and she smelled clean and pretty—but not feminine. No roses or lilies. She smelled of soap and linen and a hint of mint.
He thought she would stop him when he freed the buttons on her shirt. It would have taken nothing more than a nudge with one of her hands, but she made no move to resist. Instead, she unfastened her cuffs and lifted her hands willingly when he pulled the garment over her head. She straddled him now, her torso bare but for the bindings that pressed her breasts flat. He could see where the linen had been knotted, and he kissed the knot, which elicited a quick inhalation of breath from her.
Using his teeth, he opened the knot, then began the arduous process of unwrapping her. He’d unwound yards of fabric before he caught a glimpse of her skin through the thin linen. And then, as the fabric loosened, her small, round breasts began to take shape, and he could see the outlines of her nipples, pressing against the material. Finally, the last strip of cloth fell away, and she was bare from the waist up. Her skin bore the marks of the tight material, and yet he’d never seen anything more beautiful.
He ran a hand lightly over the angry red marks. “Does it hurt?” he asked.
“No,” she said. “I’m used to it. They fade.”
He could already see her skin pushing against the indentations, plumping back out and filling in where it had been suppressed. He lifted one breast with his hand and ran his thumb over the distended nipple. She drew in a quick breath and closed her eyes. He repeated the gesture with the other breast, then touched his tongue to her skin. In response, her body slid closer to his, her bottom pressing harder against his erection. He took her into his mouth, suckling gently and teasing the nipple until it swelled and hardened against his tongue.
Her hands fisted in his hair, and her breathing grew faster. “I didn’t know that could feel so good,” she said on a moan as his mouth moved to her other breast.
She felt good in his arms. She felt as though she belonged there, her skin against his. He couldn’t claim that he had much experience with women, but he had always been observant. Kate’s responses made it clear what gave her the most pleasure.
“There are other ways to make you feel good,” he said against her soft flesh. He allowed his hand to drift to her belly and slide downward. If she’d been wearing a skirt, he might have slid his hands beneath and showed her how he wanted to touch her. But she was wearing trousers, fitted trousers. Seeing her in men’s clothing was strange and arousing. His hand dipped to the waistband, and he opened the fall. But of course he would have to remove the trousers to touch her where he wanted. He looked up at her face, seeking permission or compliance.
Slowly, she rose up onto her knees.
Chapter Six
WHEN SHE ROSE ON HER knees, he slid her trousers over her hips, but they would go only so far with her legs spread on either side of him. She would have to climb off and remove her boots, then slip the trousers down and off.
And then what would happen? Would he take her? Was that what she wanted, here on the couch in this room where she’d done all of the dirty work of the Duke of Vauxhall? Maybe Henry was the man who could make her forget all of that for a little while. Maybe with him she could be Kate Dunn once again, not a lord of the underworld.
Henry’s hand slid down her bare back and over the swell of her exposed hip. He was so gentle. She hadn’t known that men could be gentle. She hadn’t known that they could tease and suckle with their mouths. She’d known only that they could take and hurt. Now he pressed his warm mouth against her belly, sending tingles between her legs. His hands slid down and over her bottom, then up the fronts of her thighs. One hand cupped her between the legs, and she could not stop herself from rocking against the pressure he gave, demanding he press harder.
He complied, his eyes, now more blue than gray, on her face. He had beautiful eyes, and she loved how he looked at her, as though he thought she was the most desirable creature he had ever seen. She wasn’t. Her hair was short, her face was barely pretty, and her body was too slim and straight. She’d never had trouble passing for a boy, even when she hadn’t tried hard to disguise herself.
But she never felt like a boy with Henry. His hands seemed to find her every subtle curve and stroke it. As he touched her, she felt lush and voluptuous, her skin humming with tension and need. His hand moved where she pushed against it, his thumb circling and circling until she inhaled sharply.
He smiled, looking very much like a cat who had a bird in his sights. His thumb moved lazily now, circling that sensitive spot over and over until her legs wobbled and her knees she rested on threatened to buckle. She braced herself, placing her hands on the back of the couch, and he lifted his head and teased her aching nipple with his tongue. She bent to give him better access and gasped when he took it into his mouth. The twin pleasure of his thumb stroking her between the legs and his tongue laving her swollen nipple heightened every sensation until she was no longer certain what she was feeling or how to control it.
She was dimly aware she rocked against him, dimly aware of his free hand holding her up, and she knew he would catch her. He would not let her fall.
The novelty of trusting him—a man—to keep her safe and to give her what she needed was part of the excitement of being with Henry. It had been so long since she’d trusted a man, any man, with any part of herself.
But she surprised herself by trusting Henry—at least for now, in this moment.
And so she could finally let go. When she did, pleasure spiraled upward, hitting her so hard she cried out and jerked. And even that was not enough. The climax ripped through her, making her back arch and her breath catch. Henry held her, his thumb pressing against her, then easing, then pressing again, as though he knew exactly what her body needed.
When the storm passed, when she could breathe again, she looked down at Henry’s smoky eyes and didn’t know what to say. He’d stripped her armor away, broken her shell, and she felt vulnerable and exposed. It wasn’t her nudity that made her feel so. It was the way he seemed to look at her and see her, Kate Dunn.
No one had seen Kate Dunn in a long, long time. Not even Kate herself.
“Henry,” she said, her voice low and husky. “I don’t know what to do now. I don’t know what to say.”
“Shh,” he said with a smile. “Don’t talk. Just kiss me.”
She knew her own words, and she was glad of them. She bent and kissed him, pressing her body against the heat of him, the wool of his coat scratching her tender breasts. She wanted the coat gone. She wanted nothing between them, his skin sliding against her skin. She pushed the coat off his shoulders, and then a short, quick knock sounded on the door.
“Duke.”
“Go away,” she said, but she knew even as she said it that the moment was broken.
“We have a problem,” Red said from the other side of the door.
There was always a problem. She looked at Henry, and he gave her a rueful smile then handed her the shirt she’d been wearing. “Give me a minute,” she told Red.
She disentangled herself from Henry, stood, and fastened her trousers. Not bothering with the bindings for her breasts, she pulled the shirt over her head and grabbed for her coat. Henry stood as well and straightened his own clothing, an easier job since his hadn’t been removed.
“I should go,” he said. “It’s late.”
She did not want him to go, but asking him to stay was an even worse idea. They should end this now. They would do their jobs tomorrow and say good-bye. She couldn’t afford to develop feelings for him. A voice inside warned her it was too late for that, but she pushed it down.
“Will you be safe on the journey home?”
she asked.
He frowned at her. “I don’t need you to take care of me.”
“I wasn’t—” she started. “The gin...”
“My head is clear now,” he interrupted. “You have business. I’ll see you in the morning, Kate.” He bent and kissed her hand, the gesture so far from what she’d expected that she didn’t even pull her hand back when he released it. Instead, she stared at her hand for a long moment even after he’d left the room.
It wasn’t until Red stomped in that she lowered it and remembered she wasn’t a lady.
VAUXHALL GARDENS WAS lit like a mansion in Mayfair. Kate had never seen it so bright. Every lamp was ablaze, and additional men walked about with torches to light the way of the guests entering. The men and women were brightly dressed, their yellows and oranges contrasting sharply with Kate’s sober black coat and black trousers.
“I thought we told him to run out of oil for the lamps,” Red said under his breath. He was at Kate’s side as they walked past the Grove, where an orchestra played for a small audience.
“We did.” Kate was seething, annoyed at the lights and feeling exposed. “He said it was taken care of.” She shouldn’t have trusted him. She should have sent Scrugs or Davey with him to make sure everything was done as she’d asked.
“Let’s hope he got rid of the constables,” Red muttered.
Kate was not feeling hopeful. She’d known Henry couldn’t call off the Bow Street Runners. They’d be in the gardens until the whole of the prince’s celebrations were over, but they’d prepared for a half-dozen Runners. She was not prepared for a score of constables too.
“Let’s head toward the dark walks,” Red said.
“It appears all we have to do is follow the crowd.” Kate nodded at the line of men making their way toward the darkest corner of the gardens. The bare-knuckle fight between Storm aka Emperor and King was the worst-kept secret in London at the moment, and Kate wouldn’t have had it any other way. The more people paying to walk through the doors, the better. Others would take home the lion’s share of the spectators’ fees, but Kate and her gang were handling the betting. That was where the real blunt was. No matter who won, the Duke of Vauxhall would make a pretty profit.