“I had fun today,” I told him, resting my face on his chest, listening to his heartbeat below my ear.
“Me too, I can’t wait to do it again.” He smiled, I could hear the smile in his voice. “All of it,” he clarified, his voice husky, as his heart pumped faster. I giggled with delight, I loved our naughty sex in his car and even though we’d done it twice today, I couldn’t wait to do it again. We fell asleep in each other’s arms and I found the walls surrounding my heart, crumbling a little more. This wasn’t good and what was worse was that I didn’t seem to mind as much anymore.
FRIDAY CAME AND IT WAS time for me to go see my family for dinner. Axel stopped by to hang out and have a quick round of hot sex before I left to catch my train.
“Have a good time,” he wished me, dropping me off at the train station before he headed to work.
I greeted Mom and Dad when I got in and helped Mom set up for dinner as usual. Jackie arrived from the beauty school that she’d been accepted to and had recently started.
“How’s class going?” I asked her, genuinely interested.
“Really good actually.” She perked up. Jackie and I weren’t very close and earning any positive reaction from her felt like a reward. “So, what about you Little One?” she asked over dinner. “Any new man in your life?” she quizzed.
“No!” I said too fast, getting curious glances from everyone.
“You need to move on from Chris. That douchebag never deserved you,” Jackie said, surprising me again.
“I never liked him,” Mom added, surprising me even more. I never knew that, I wish they would have told me sooner. Maybe I would have left him a long time ago.
“What really? Why not?” I asked curiously.
“He was always so smug and pompous. He never treated you like you were air,” Mom said, shocking and confusing me at the same time.
“Air?” I asked, not understanding at all.
“Yes, air,” Mom stated dreamily. “The air he needed to breathe. Without you he wouldn’t be able to survive.” I cringed at Mom’s cheesy romanticism.
“He was always a tool,” Jackie concluded, ignoring Mom’s cheesiness. “Anyways, you should find someone new. The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else,” Jackie laughed crudely.
“Jackie!” I scolded, humiliated but everyone else just laughed.
“Not at the dinner table, Jacqueline,” Dad chuckled. My family was really something else.
“What are you doing tonight?” I asked Jackie after dinner.
“Ashley and I are going to go to a bar for a few drinks.” She shrugged.
“Oh,” I said, a little disappointed at not getting to spend more time with her.
“I can give you a lift home, the bar is on the way,” she told me, an unexpected surprise.
“That would be great.” I smiled. “Thanks.”
“It’s no problem.” She shrugged, it meant a lot to me though.
“Where are you guys going?” I asked as she drove me home.
“This bar called ‘Duke’s’,” she said, making my heart stop momentarily.
“Do you go there often?” I asked nervously. She nodded, making me even more uncomfortable.
“Yeah, Ashley has this thing between her and one of the guys who works there, it’s been going on for months.”
I felt my nerves lessen. Thank God, then they probably had no idea about Axel, if Ashley had been seeing someone for months. I’d been seeing Axel for over a month so it couldn’t have anything to do with him.
“Have a good night out,” I called as she drove away from my apartment. Thinking about Jackie and Ashley at Duke’s and potentially finding out about Axel and I, made me all kinds of uncomfortable. I felt shame thinking about my relationship with Axel if they found out. It made me really think it over and re-evaluate our relationship.
I didn’t want to have some meaningless friends with benefits agreement anymore. I was not that girl, sex used to mean something to me. I had started this agreement, it had been fun, new, exciting and God, was Axel amazing in the sack. But I was finding I wanted more now. I liked going out in public with him but not just as his secret fuck buddy. I wanted him to be able to introduce me to the next skanky waitress as his girlfriend. I felt like a hypocrite but it didn’t change the fact that suddenly I wanted more. I didn’t want this to be a secret anymore. It came as a shock to me but it also felt right. As scared as I was to get hurt again, like I had with Chris, Axel wasn’t Chris and it wasn’t fair of me to treat him like he might be. I knew Axel was better than any of the other men I’d ever met.
Axel
I’D BEEN SEEING LEAH REGULARLY, for over a month now and only her. A first in a long time for me and it was going great. It was silly but this was the longest relationship I’d had in years. Our date could have gone better, if Stacy, one of my previous fuck buddies, hadn’t been our waitress, that had been uncomfortable but other than that it was smooth sailing. The only real problem was that I had fallen for this girl, she had me completely wrapped around her little finger and she didn’t even have a clue.
To make matters worse, it was completely one-sided, she didn’t want anything more from me and seemed perfectly content with our situation. I wanted to solidify our relationship but I was afraid if I brought the topic up, she’d run like a scared colt. She was skittish whenever things became intimate and I had her total douchebag of an ex to thank for that.
I was still dumbfounded how even Mathers, a complete fuck face, could be stupid enough to cheat on a girl as incredible as Leah, she was amazing, more than amazing and she didn’t even know it. I understood why she kept her heart at bay and could see that she was still hurt over the betrayal of her last relationship, something I was trying to help her through. Chris continued to come into the bar regularly, leaving with a different girl every time, only now I didn’t fake pleasantries. I had a problem with him and he knew it. I was just waiting for the day he slipped up, so that I could either nail him or ban him completely.
I dropped Leah off at the train station in the afternoon, to go visit her family and was secretly hoping for an invite that never came. What was I expecting? She had been perfectly clear about our arrangement, just as I had been with countless girls. I kept hoping she’d suddenly see how great things were between us and want more as well, instead it seemed we had become friends and that was as close as I was getting emotionally to her. Karma was a bitch. I was lost in my own thoughts, when I heard a familiar squeal.
“Axel!” I looked up to see Ashley coming to me, in only a crop top and a pair of mini shorts, leaving nothing to the imagination. She was with her usual tag-along, Jacqueline, a curvy brunette, who had her own reputation of being easy as well.
“Ladies.” I nodded, taking their cash for the entrance fee. They paid but made no attempt to continue into the bar, clearly coming just for me.
“It’s been too long, Axel,” Ashley said, giving me sex eyes. “You must know I’m here for you,” she whispered, only for me to hear. My eyes widened as I cringed at her admission. She must know how pathetic and desperate she looked.
“I’m at work,” I said dismissively.
“I’ll be here late.” She winked and finally entered the bar with Jacqueline at her side. I’d be gone before she got the chance to corner me again, that girl was seriously nuts.
“So bro, do you want to go to Ronnie’s for poker night this Monday?” Julian asked me.
“Nah, I can’t make it,” I told him.
“What gives? It’s been like a month,” he complained.
“I’ve been seeing a girl.” I shrugged. Julian slapped my arm grinning.
“No way, Axel Peters is settling down!” he chided. I shook my head, now disappointed. “Then why the fuck are you blowing us off for some fuck?” he said, pissed now.
“I like her,” I admitted, getting his harsh expression to soften.
“Hope she’s worth it, the guys are getting pissed,” he informed me. I didn’t care too muc
h if they were pissed, she was worth it.
“She is,” I said. If only they knew how worth it she was to me.
I was leaving for three weeks to go back home to see my family for the holidays in a week and was nervous to leave Leah. She was going on her school break as well and I would have loved to spend the time off with her. I only had a week before I left. I wished I hadn’t booked the trip before we’d started seeing each other. But how could I have known that I’d find my mystery girl?
“One week,” I said, as I lazily stroked her arm as we lay naked, tangled in her sheets after some hot sex.
“I know,” She frowned. “However will I pass the time?” she joked, softly poking me in the chest.
“You could come with me,” I said out of nowhere, surprising her and myself. I’d thought about it a few times but never had intended to ask, she sat upright her eyes wide and skittish. I knew I shouldn’t have said anything.
“Axel, I can’t go see your family for Christmas.” She laughed, relaxing once more, thinking that I must have been joking.
“Why not?” I asked, a little more disappointed than I ought to be. Now that it was out there, I really wanted her to come.
“Because my family is here and I have to see them, besides how would you even introduce me?” she asked, quirking her eyebrow up. I hesitated, the answer on the tip of my tongue but afraid to let it slip out. “Let’s just enjoy the time we have together instead,” she said suddenly, changing the topic. I nodded, feeling defeated.
AXEL HAD FINALLY CONVINCED ME to go to his place and sleep over. I had been avoiding it for weeks but since he was leaving in a few days and had lots to do to get ready still, I thought it was only fair. He had gone as far as promising to pick me up and drive me to class the next morning to convince me to come over, not that he needed to.
I walked into his apartment and gasped at how nice and big it was. There was a huge living room, with a big flat screen TV and large dark leather couch and massive solid wood coffee table. It all screamed masculinity but it was sexy, just like him. There was a huge balcony off the living room but what really won me over, was his gorgeous kitchen with all stainless steel appliances and an island with granite countertops.
“Wow, this is incredible,” I told him in awe. He just smirked at me. “Why have we been staying at my shoe box, if your place is so nice?” I asked, still in shock at how nice his place was. I really hadn’t been expecting it. He looked at me, his eyes softening.
“Because of you,” he said, taking my breath away once again. “And the fact that I’ve been pulling teeth just to get you over here.” He smirked, getting us to both laugh knowingly, I could be so hard-headed sometimes, it was a wonder he put up with me.
“Well, I think we’ll be staying here more often.” I laughed, earning myself an even brighter smile. It was those smiles that made my heart stop. I loved when I was the one who was getting those smiles from him.
“Good.” He smiled brightly, moving closer to me. Axel wrapped his big warm hands, around my waist and lifted me effortlessly. I loved how small and safe he made me feel.
He pushed me so my back was against the wall and devoured my mouth hungrily with his. I kissed him back just as passionately and ran my fingers through his soft, short hair. He pinned me to the wall and lifted my shirt off, cupping my breast through my bra. I could feel his thick erection through his jeans. I moaned deeply as he playfully bit my neck and then kissed it thoroughly. He carried me over to the island and placed me on top of the counter, unclasping my bra while kissing me simultaneously. Axel took his time kissing me and making love to my mouth with his, before he pulled down my pants and spread my legs. He plunged into me right there in the middle of his kitchen, pounding me hard like he’d never done before. It was my first time having sex in a kitchen, much less on an island and it was an incredible turn-on.
“God, you feel so amazing Leah!” he growled out, as he deeply penetrated me. “So, fucking tight and wet!” he said through clenched teeth. My moans and screams bounced off the walls around us as we came together in what had to be the hottest sex yet. I stared at him, as I panted through the tingles coursing through my body. Axel kissed me deeply and then lowered his head to my wet pussy, parting my lips with his tongue, I cried out in pleasure at the feel of his magical tongue circling my clit. He then inserted two fingers while sucking and licking my clit. The man was amazing; I’d died and gone to heaven. He then pulled his fingers away and removed his face. I was about to protest in complaint when he rammed his bare cock back into me.
“I can’t get enough of you,” he grunted, thrusting into me. “Especially not with your sexy moans,” he rasped out. I was flying so high as he brought me to yet another climax. I sat bare-assed on his cool granite countertops, unable to move in fear I’d fall on my face if I did, my knees were too weak from all the pleasure that was still coursing through me. I was so hot but the cold granite countertops cooled me down.
“I actually can’t walk, I’m too light-headed from all the orgasms,” I told him breathlessly. He smiled a million-dollar smile and laughed.
“That’s what I like to hear.” He chuckled, picking me up easily and carried me out of the kitchen and to his bedroom. Axel placed me gently on his huge king-size bed. Wow, was it ever comfortable, I thought as I sank in. I had no idea how he’d had the energy or strength to do that after the sex marathon we’d just had. I got comfortable in the bed and rolled into his arms, putting my head in the nook of his neck.
“I’m all sexed out, I need a nap,” I told him sleepily. His chest reverberated with laughter and he kissed the top of my head sweetly.
“Okay babe, get some rest,” he said quietly. “I’m not done with you yet, I have plans for tonight,” he said, his voice wicked. I giggled excitedly and drifted off to sleep. Oh, and plans he did have.
All too soon Axel left to see his family in Germany, leaving me with my heart feeling heavy and sad. I clearly let myself get too attached. I hated this feeling. I thought I wouldn’t have to feel this way with our no relationship status but something had changed. It didn’t matter that we were just friends with benefits, the feelings were exactly the same, and there was no hiding or avoiding them. It was pointless. I decided I needed to be honest with him and bite the bullet, I couldn’t keep the charade up anymore and it had gotten harder every day.
As soon as Axel got back, I was going to tell him just how I felt. He’d either say he wasn’t interested in me that way and I’d have to end things between us but what I really hoped though was that he’d say he felt the same way. I had to believe he felt the same as I did, he was so kind and thoughtful towards me. More so than anyone else had ever been and things had gotten so intimate between us. You can’t get that intimate and be immune to feelings. Could you? I certainly hoped not because otherwise I was royally screwed and I really didn’t want to lose Axel. I had completely fallen for him and unlike Chris, I knew I’d never be able to get over him, there was no going back.
Because it was my winter break, I decided to go home and stay at my parents’. I needed the distraction from Axel’s absence and having no school work to fill the void. It didn’t help that Jenny and Anne had gone home for the holidays as well. At least Jenny would be back in less than a week. It was nice being home with my family; decorating the tree together, baking goodies with Mom, and watching all the Christmas classics. Even Jackie joined in a bit, which made it all the more special.
“Lee,” Jackie called, getting my attention. I looked up to see her waving me to her room. I walked over, entering her pink abyss of a room. From the pink on her walls, to the bedding and curtains, even her rug was pink. It was like someone threw up different shades of pink everywhere, it couldn’t have been any more girly. I sat on the corner of her fuchsia pink bedspread, across from her. It was rare that she willingly invited me into her room and I couldn’t imagine why.
She took out a bottle of vodka from her night table and smiled mischievously. “Ashley’
s coming over for a few drinks and I was thinking maybe you’d like to join us,” she offered. Is this my Christmas present? I wondered in glee.
“I’d love to!” I enthused. I’d dreamed of this day for so long throughout my childhood and it was actually happening, Jackie wanted to hang out with me. Jackie laughed at me and my excitement.
“On one condition,” she said, her face serious now. She held one finger in the air ready to take it all back. Anything, I wanted to shout out but kept my lips together tight and nodded expectantly. “You can’t tell Mom or Dad.”
“Never,” I promised, returning to excitement. I ran downstairs and grabbed a bag of chips and some cranberry juice and cups while Jackie set up some music and movies in her room. I returned with our refreshments in record time. We decided to have a few drinks while we waited for Ashley to arrive. Jackie and I were just talking, laughing and actually having a good time together when Ashley walked in.
“Hey girlies!” Ashley cried out, pouncing on the bed, joining us. I laughed, having a nice buzz going on as she made all the chips rattle in the bag. We made room for Ashley and handed her a cup.
“How’s your break going Lee?” Ash asked me with interest.
“Good, just relaxing. All my friends have gone home.” And my lover, but I was going to keep that to myself. “How about you? I’m surprised you girls are staying in,” I stated. Ash and Jackie were notorious for going out and partying hard, it was no secret.
“Well usually, we would be out but my man just flew home to see his family and I’m kind of bummed so I thought I’d switch it up,” Ash explained.
“Aw, that sucks.” I empathized with her. I was sad that Axel was gone and missed him too. “Is it serious between you two?” I asked her.
“Well, we’re not official but feelings are there.” I knew exactly where she was coming from and it really sucked.
“When does he get back?” I asked, feeling for her.
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