He felt more than heard Zach’s sharp intake of breath and looked up to see a strangely vulnerable look on his face. “Seriously. Now come on and let me clean you up, then I’ll find a T-shirt for you so you don’t feel so exposed, if that’s what you want.”
Zach let David lead him into the bathroom and sat obediently on the closed toilet seat. David ran water on a washcloth and wiped the blood from his face, then said, “Do you want to take a shower?”
At Zach’s headshake, he said, “Do you mind if I do? You won’t sneak out while I’m in there?”
Again, Zach shook his head. David turned the shower on and climbed in for the fastest shower he’d ever taken, just sluicing the blood and sweat and come off. He heard Zach running the water and figured he was taking the opportunity to wash up without David watching, but when he turned off the shower and reached for a towel, Zach was back sitting on the toilet. His T-shirt was spread out on the tank, obviously rinsed and wrung out, and the scars on his chest and belly glittered water, testimony to his hasty cleanup. “I was tempted to flush just to hear you scream, but then I remembered your mom is sleeping,” Zach said solemnly.
“Wise decision, grasshopper,” David said, and toweled himself dry before tossing the towel to Zach for him to use. “Come on, let’s find you a clean T-shirt, and get some sleep.”
“Huh?” Zach frowned.
“Well, I’m too wrung out for sex again, and you look like you’re ready to drop, so I figured we can catch some shut-eye. Mom will wake us at six when she heads out; that’ll get you back to your Army buddy before breakfast. I take it our run will be cancelled this morning?”
Zach, still a little confused, followed him out of the bathroom. It was so easy to fall back into the way their relationship had been years ago, with David as the leader and Zach his adoring follower, despite David being shorter and slighter than Zach now, or having let Zach fuck him. Well, that was the difference, wasn’t it? David had let him fuck him. David was still in charge, would always be in charge. Zach didn’t know quite how he felt about that. For the last two years, he’d been something of a control freak—make that totally a control freak. Why was he so willing to give up control to David now?
Answers didn’t come to him, but he was tired, and took the T-shirt David handed him and pulled it on obediently; then David pulled off the damp quilt, and he crawled onto the warm sheets, laid his head on David’s abdomen, and went to sleep.
ANNIE’S CELL phone rang as she was making her bed; she glanced at the clock, frowning. It was five-thirty and she usually didn’t get to the main house until about six, but maybe Jane needed something. She picked up the phone. Yep, it was Jane. “Hey, Jenny, what’s—”
“Zach’s gone,” Jane gasped. “He’s not in his apartment, and Andrew says he hasn’t left the compound, but he’s not there and he’s not in the gym, and—”
“Calm down, Jenny,” Annie said. “Did you check with his guest?”
“Yes, Mike’s here, he’s up and in the pool, that’s why I went to see if Zach was up but he’s not there.”
“I got that,” Annie said. “David’s not down yet—he usually gets up before me—maybe he and Zach went running early. I’ll check and see if he’s gone, and if so, that’s where Zach is. Calm down, Jenny. He’s not going to do anything stupid.”
“I worry about him drinking when he’s on all those meds,” Jenny said frantically. “He’s not supposed to drink but he does anyway, and God knows what they can do to him and it makes me crazy.”
“Calm down,” Annie said again. “I’ll run up and see if David’s there. I’ll call you right back.” She closed the phone and went to the stairs, listening. It was true what she’d said about David getting up before her—he’d always been a morning person and it wasn’t unusual for him to be in the kitchen frying eggs and making coffee when she stumbled down the hall from the master bedroom. He was usually up by now, but maybe since Zach had company they’d gone running earlier. There was no sound from upstairs, so she went up and knocked lightly on David’s closed door. When he didn’t answer, she opened the door and peeked inside.
David was still asleep, propped up half-sitting on a stack of pillows, as was Zach, who was crammed in next to him on the narrow bed, his head on David’s stomach, one arm thrown over his hips. Zach was fully dressed in his usual jeans and t-shirt except for shoes; one of his white gym socks had a hole in the heel. David had on the Warner Brothers’ Marvin the Martian pajama bottoms his sister Alison had given him for Christmas.
Or at least she’d thought David was asleep until she saw his fingers gently stroking Zach’s hair. “Davey?” she whispered.
He turned his head to smile sleepily at her. “Hey, Mom. Sorry I overslept.”
“No, honey, that’s okay. Jane just called. Their guest is up and she went to look for Zach and panicked when he wasn’t in his apartment. I thought maybe you two had gone running early today, but thought I’d check.”
“It’s okay. Zach came by late last night and we got to talking. He fell asleep.”
“I see that. I’ll let Jane know, but have Zach call her when he wakes up. She’s so frightened for him, Davey.”
“I know. He’s kind of messed up. But he’s still Zach inside, you know?”
“I hope so, honey.” She hesitated a moment. There was a softness in his face that hadn’t been there yesterday, a dreaminess in his eyes that was more than just mere sleepiness. “Honey,” she said, her heart in her throat, “be careful with him.”
He said in surprise, “I’d never hurt him, Mom!”
“He’s not the one I’m worried about getting hurt, Davey.” She leaned on the doorframe and cocked her head quizzically. “I love him nearly as much as I love you and Alison and Sandy, but Davey, he’s still on the way back and has a long way to go. I don’t want to see your heart get trampled.”
“I know, Mom. I don’t know what’s gonna happen, but I know I want him to be happy at the end of it. That’ll be enough for me.”
“Will it, Davey?” she asked dryly. “It’s easy to say stuff like that at the beginning of a relationship, but a lot harder at the end.”
“I don’t know if this is a relationship or anything. It’s just—well, it’s just me and Zach. I’m not making any assumptions.” He looked down at Zach, his fingers moving over the dark velvety nap over his skull. “I’m not asking for anything.”
“I just want you to be careful,” Annie said.
“I’ll be as careful as I can be.”
“That’s not much of a promise.”
He shook his head. “It’s what I can give right now. We’ll see.”
“I suppose that will do. I’ll call Jane and tell her Zach’s here and that he’ll call her when he wakes up. I made coffee, and there are sweet rolls in the freezer if you want something to eat when you get around to it.”
“Thanks, Mom.”
“Hmm,” Annie said, and closed the door quietly behind her.
ZACH WAS drifting in and out of consciousness; every time he started to wake up, he was lulled back to sleep by gentle fingers and the warmth beneath his cheek and hand. At one point he realized David was speaking in a low voice, but all he got out of it was a soothing rumble—no words, just David’s diaphragm vibrating and a faint susurrus of sound—and he drifted back to sleep again. It was so restful, just floating like this, warm and peaceful and safe.
Eventually, though, he opened his eyes and peeled his cheek away from David’s bare belly. “Ungh,” he said coherently.
David chuckled. “I thought you were going to sleep all morning.”
He shifted and sat up in the narrow bed. “Comfortable,” he said, poking David’s abdomen. “Your fault.”
“Uh huh,” David said skeptically, and sat up, draping his arms over his knees. “Mom stopped by. Your mother’s panicking because she’s lost you.”
“Shit! What time is it?”
“Six-thirty. No biggie—Mom said she’d call her and tell her
you were here. But she also said to call her yourself when you got up.”
“Are we getting up?”
David smiled faintly. “It’s only six-thirty, and it’s Sunday. It’s up to you; you’re the one with the guest.”
“Shit. Mike.” Zach rubbed his face. “I gotta call Jane.”
David reached over and snagged his cell phone from the nightstand and handed it to him. When Jane answered, Zach said, “I’m fine, Mom. I just fell asleep at Taff’s.”
“Annie told me,” Jane said. “That’s okay, honey. I was just worried when you weren’t home. Mike got up and did some laps in the pool, but he said since he doesn’t have to be at his sister’s until tonight, he’d see you when—and I quote—you get your lazy ass out of bed.” She laughed. “He also said he never gets the chance to sleep in so he was going to catch a couple more hours, so you don’t have to rush home.”
“That’s good,” Zach said. “Taff and I were talking into the wee small hours, and I don’t think I got more than a couple hours myself.”
“Well, go back to sleep for a while and come home when you’re ready. Therapy’s not ’til ten-thirty, so that should give you time for a nice snooze.”
“Okay.” Zach hesitated, then said, “I love you, Mom, you know that, don’t you?”
There was silence a long moment, then Jane said, “Yes, honey.” Her voice sounded funny, but Zach didn’t know what else to say, so he just said, “Okay, then. I’ll see you later,” and disconnected the call.
David was watching him, his eyes thoughtful.
“What?” Zach asked defensively.
“Nothing,” he said. “So. Sleep? Shower?”
Zach ran his tongue over his lips and tasted. Ecch. Morning breath. “Shower and mouthwash,” he decided.
“Okay. Go ahead. I can lend you some boxers if you want clean UnderRoos.”
Zach snorted. “Underwear?”
David raised an eyebrow, but said only, “It’s your ass. There are some disposable toothbrushes in the cabinet; Sandy feels compelled to supply all and sundry with as many opportunities for brushing as possible. One of the problems with having a dentist in the family. On the other hand, I haven’t paid for toothpaste in years.”
Zach chuckled and went into the bathroom, closing the door. He brushed first and tried David’s citrus-flavored mouthwash—not bad, better than that crappy mint stuff, or the mediciney stuff—then with a worried glance at the closed door, stripped out of his clothes and climbed into the shower, making sure the curtain was inside the tub so that the water wouldn’t splash out onto the floor.
He was rinsing his hair when he heard the bathroom door open. “Taff?”
“You were expecting someone else?”
“No.”
“Just brushing my teeth,” David assured him. “I won’t flush and make you scream. I owe you that from last night.”
“And I’m grateful,” Zach said. He heard the water go on in the sink and the sound of splashing.
There was a full-length mirror set in the back of the bathroom door; through the space left by the shower curtain Zach could watch David brushing his teeth, bending over to spit in the sink, the thin cotton of his pajama pants stretching over his round ass. Zach’s mouth went dry and his hand slid without volition to his rising cock. Then David turned off the water and slid his pajama pants off. Zach’s breath stuck in his throat.
“Zach,” David said, and looked up into the mirror over the sink to meet his eyes. Too late, Zach realized David could see him watching, reflected from the other mirror. “Zach, I’m coming in there.”
“No!” Zach breathed. “No, Taff….”
But the shower curtain was sliding back, its rings chiming musically on the rod, and David was there, facing him, the water sluicing over his tanned body. He pulled the curtain closed again and, before Zach could speak, put his hands on his face the way he had last night. “I’m here,” he said softly, “looking at you,” but never taking his eyes from Zach’s. “I’m looking at you,” he said again, and his mouth found Zach’s, his tongue questing for entrance, and Zach let him in, let David’s hands slide from his face to his neck, down his arms to draw them up and around David as he stepped closer, his body coming to rest against Zach’s.
A moan broke from Zach’s throat as he pulled David in tightly, his hands curving over the taut muscles of David’s ass. David sighed into Zach’s mouth and rubbed his pelvis lightly against Zach, his erection hard and hot.
Zach’s fingers, still slippery with shampoo, slid over David’s ass and down into the tight crease. His fingertips stroked the puckered opening and David bucked, his cock thumping against Zach’s. He reached down and grabbed both his and Zach’s cocks in one hand.
Zach froze.
“Sorry,” David murmured, and reached past Zach to grab the bottle of shower gel. Pouring some into his hand, he reached down and smoothed the gel over both of them before taking hold again. “Better?”
“What the fuck are you… agghhh….” Zach trailed off, staggering back against the tub surround and closing his eyes at the phenomenal feeling of David’s cock against his. “Fuck.”
David chuckled, and leaned in to lay his lips on Zach’s throat, running his tongue over Zach’s Adam’s apple until Zach shivered. “Never done this before?”
“Shit, no,” Zach gasped. He reached for David again, pulling him in as tight as he could, trapping David’s hand between them. David eased him back to give himself room, but compensated by finding his lips again. Zach moaned into his mouth, his hands gripping David’s shoulders for balance, letting David take control again. But it felt so good, so natural, David’s hand on him, on them….
A second set of fingers settled on his balls, stroking and tugging gently; he whimpered in response. “Too much?” David whispered, and he shook his head, desperate for the feelings to go on. It was so different from fucking, different from the few times he’d dared let himself get blown. It was like jerking off, but so, so much more satisfying, with David’s warm, wet hands and David’s warm, wet body and David’s warm, wet mouth.
Sensations more intense than he’d ever felt shot up his spine; he stiffened, cried out, and came in those warm hands. “Yes,” David murmured against his throat, “just like that,” and his mouth tightened on Zach’s skin, sucking up a bruise as David himself came against Zach’s belly.
They held each other up as the water washed them down. Zach found himself breathless, panting as if he’d run miles. David laughed weakly and kissed Zach just behind his ear, then bit the lobe gently. “Liked that, did you?”
“Uh huh,” Zach acknowledged, reduced to grunts.
David reached behind himself and turned off the shower. “Come on,” he said, “let’s go back to bed. For a while, anyway.” He kissed Zach’s mouth again, tenderly this time, and climbed out of the tub. He tossed Zach a towel and got one for himself before padding back out into the bedroom.
Zach leaned back against the tub surround, drying himself off slowly. He could hear David in the bedroom opening drawers, then a wad of fabric flew in through the open bathroom to land on the floor beside the tub. “Clean T-shirt and sweats,” David announced. “I’m not eager to get dressed just yet and your damn jeans are hell on my fragile, delicate skin.”
“Pansy,” Zach called back and put on the sweats.
David was sitting on the bed in his Marvin the Martian pajama bottoms and a red T-shirt that didn’t match, that proclaimed “I’m with Stupid” with an arrow pointing upward. “Nice,” Zach said. “Sandy give you that?”
“No, Maggie. The women in my life see it as their mission to totally destroy any self-confidence I might have.”
“Is it working?” Zach sat down beside David, who immediately took his hand and laced their fingers together.
“No,” David said, grinning. He didn’t do anything else, just sat there, his hand in Zach’s, smiling.
“So,” Zach said after a few moments of silence, “what is this?
We going steady or something?” Nerves put an edge to his voice, and David’s grin faded.
“It doesn’t have to be anything,” he said neutrally, and started to release Zach’s hand. Zach tightened his grip.
“I just want to know,” Zach said hoarsely. “I’m kind of out of my depth here, Taff.” To his acute embarrassment, his voice shook. “I don’t know what you expect or anything, and I’m kind of afraid of fucking this up—whatever ‘this’ is, assuming it’s anything. I mean—Jesus. I sound like a girl. Fuck.”
David was quiet a moment, then said, “It’s hard for me too, dweeb. I keep forgetting that you don’t really know anything about sex or relationships. Just fucking. And that’s the least part of it—the easy part. The part that doesn’t require risk, or involvement. You should have learned about it the right way, relationships, emotions.”
“Yeah, well, I didn’t, did I?” Zach said, and let go of David’s hand. Standing, he rubbed his neck and went on. “I don’t know jack about relationships, Taff. I told you at the beginning that I was fucked up. Guess you know now just how fucked up I am.”
“Sit down,” David said quietly.
“Why? Come on, Taff, you know as well as I do that this is gonna go nowhere.”
“You’re fucking it up.”
“What?”
“You said a minute ago that you were afraid of fucking this up,” David said. “Well, if you don’t sit down and kiss me, you will be fucking it up.”
Zach rubbed numb palms on his thighs. Shit, he thought. Not now. Not now. “I gotta go,” he said.
David frowned. “Jesus, Zach, you’re sweating. What’s the matter?”
“I gotta go,” he repeated, and went hastily into the bathroom to retrieve his jeans and still-damp T-shirt from last night. David got up and followed him, grasping his arm when he went to push past him out the bathroom door.
“Slow down, Zach! What’s going on?”
He jerked free. “I have to go,” he said fiercely. “I have to go.”
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