MARCH 11, 1997, JAPAN
I feel like someone I wouldn’t let my own daughter fuck, and I feel like someone who, if I was that daughter, I would want to fuck more than anyone else.
UNDATED
I’m so fucking sick of people saying we have T-shirts that say, “Kill your parents and kill a dog.” What the T-shirt actually says is, “Warning: The music of Marilyn Manson may contain messages that will KILL GOD in your impressionable teenage minds. As a result, you could be convinced to KILL YOUR MOM & DAD and eventually in a hopeless act of suicidal ‘rock and roll’ behavior you will KILL YOURSELF. So please burn your records while there’s still hope.” Can’t they see I’m trying to help them. I’ve said a million times that if more stupid people killed themselves over stupid songs, there would be less stupid people in the world. I haven’t even sold that shirt in four years. Besides, T-shirts and music people don’t kill people. Poor upbringing does. If someone wants to blame art, why are kids taught to read Romeo and Juliet in school? Here’s a story about kids killing each other for one very important reason: their parents didn’t understand them.
*MARILYN MANSON WILL COMMIT SUICIDE ON HIS HALLOWEEN CONCERT BY
BLOWING UP THE VENUE AND EVERYONE IN IT.
*MARILYN MANSON HAD THREE RIBS REMOVED SO HE CAN SUCK HIS OWN DICK
*I HEARD THAT HE GIVES HIMSELF A BLOW JOB ON STAGE AND SPITS
THE CUM OUT ON THE CROWD.
*I ALSO HEARD THAT AT A RECENT SHOW THEY CAME ONTO STAGE WITH THE TWO RIBS
THAT HE HAD SUPPOSEDLY REMOVED AND USED THEM AS DRUMSTICKS. IS THIS TRUE?
*I HEARD MY FRIEND SAY THAT MANSON KILLED HIS WIFE BECAUSE SHE WAS PREGNANT,
THEN HE TOOK OUT THE BABY, NAMED LUCIFER SATAN DAMIAN (LSD),
AND PUT IT IN AN ABORTION CRIB.
*MANSON WAS PAUL ON THE Wonder Years
*MANSON WAS WINNIE COOPER ON THE Wonder Years.
*MANSON WAS THE LITTLE KID ON Mr. Belvedere.
*I HEARD THAT MARILYN MANSON WAS THE GUY ON THE Wonder Years
BUT THEN STARTED HIS OWN RUMOR AND SAID HE WASN’T JUST TO THROW PEOPLE OFF.
*DAISY AND ZIM ZUM ARE THE SAME PEOPLE, BUT MANSON THOUGHT IT WOULD
GET HIM MORE PUBLICITY IF HE “GOT A NEW GUITARIST.”
*MARILYN MANSON IS ACTUALLY THE SON/DAUGHTER OF
CHARLES MANSON AND MARILYN MONROE.
*I HEARD THAT MARILYN MANSON IS A MEMBER OF A CANNIBAL GROUP AND
HE REALLY IS BLACK AND HE BLEACHED HIS SKIN.
*MARILYN JUST GOT BREAST IMPLANTS—I KNOW IT’S TRUE, I READ IT IN A MAGAZINE.
*MANSON IS REALLY A WOMAN, SHE DRESSES LIKE A MAN ONLY TO HAVE
SEX WITH OTHER WOMEN.
*MARILYN MANSON STARTED AS A SAIGON KICK SIDE PROJECT.
*MARILYN MANSON CUT ONE OF HIS TOES OFF SO THAT HE COULD
INJECT HEROIN DIRECTLY INTO THE VEINS ON THE STUMP.
*HE GOT HIS PENIS TATTOOED BLACK.
*THE ONLY REASON TRENT PRODUCED MM’S FIRST ALBUM IS
BECAUSE MANSON GIVES SUCH GOOD HEAD.
*A GIRL SAID MR. MANSON HAD SEX WITH A PIG IN ONE OF THE VIDEOS.
NOW, I’VE NEVER SEEN THAT ONE.
*PEOPLE AT MY SCHOOL SAY THAT THE REV. REMOVED PIGMENT FROM HIS
LEFT EYE SO THAT HE COULD SEE BLACK AND WHITE.
*A GIRL THAT I WORK WITH TOLD ME THAT MARILYN MANSON SOLD HIS RIGHT EYE TO
THE DEVIL AND THAT IS WHY HE WEARS RED MAKEUP UNDERNEATH HIS EYE.
*MARILYN MANSON HAD HIS GIRLFRIEND’S EYE REMOVED SO HE COULD FUCK HER IN IT.
*MARILYN MANSON’S GRANDFATHER USED TO RAPE HIM WHEN HE WAS LITTLE AND
WHEN HE TOLD SOMEONE ABOUT IT HIS GRANDFATHER RIPPED OUT HIS EYE.
*ZIM ZUM JOINED THE BAND JUST TO GET IN BED WITH MANSON
*DAISY AND MANSON WERE LOVERS, BUT MANSON LEFT HIM FOR TWIGGY CUZ
TWIGGY IS “ANATOMICALLY SUPERIOR” TO DAISY.
*I ONCE HEARD THAT REV. AFTER AN INTERVIEW WENT ON STAGE AND PULLED A
COKE BOTTLE OUT OF HIS ASS.
*THE REV. WAS MAKING CUTTING MOTIONS ACROSS HIS NECK WITH A
KNIFE AND ACCIDENTALLY CUT TOO DEEP, SEVERING HIS WINDPIPE. TWIGGY HELD HIS
THROAT TOGETHER FOR HIM SO HE COULD BREATHE UNTIL THE PARAMEDICS GOT THERE.
*MANSON EITHER KILLED OR HAD SEX WITH A CAT.
(I CAN’T REMEMBER WHICH IT WAS. I THINK KILL.)
*MARILYN MANSON ALSO FUCKED A DONKEY UP THE ASS ON STAGE,
THE SAME NIGHT HE SWALLOWED A CAT WHOLE!!
*MANSON WANTED TO RUN FOR PRESIDENT BUT MISSED SOME SORT OF DEADLINE.
*HE CHOPPED THE FEET OFF A HAMSTER.
—RUMORS POSTED BY “FANS” ON THE INTERNET
UNDATED
If I’d really gotten my ribs removed, I would have been busy sucking my own dick on The Wonder Years instead of chasing Winnie Cooper. Besides, I wouldn’t have sucked other people’s dicks on stage, either. I would have been sucking my own. Plus, who really has time to be killing puppies when you can be sucking your own dick? I think I’m gonna call a surgeon in the morning.
UNDATED
Last night, or rather this morning, some skaggy whore in her forties who was convinced she was in her teens and claimed to be Anthony Kiedis’s cousin or Billy Corgan’s sister or Shaquille O’Neal’s mother came onto our bus. She was with some goofy tan girl with braces who looked like she could have been her daughter. Neither of them looked good but they were entertaining because they were so blind to their own white trash qualities. So we let them stay and managed to convince them to snort a packet of sea monkey powder. Strangely enough, it was white and came with a small spoon, not unlike cocaine. I didn’t even have to use false pretenses to persuade them to do this. I actually read them the training manual, explaining that these small creatures are actually brine shrimp and that they will go on to grow inside their bodies for a year. I told them that nothing could be more exciting than having these small creatures flowing through their bloodstream—not to mention the unknown high that might await them. Surprisingly, they did it eagerly. And I shamefully spent the night talking to the skag, who tried to masturbate me while a video of Doom Generation was playing in the background. I wished for a moment the girl in the movie, Rose McGowan, was here, and maybe I would let her masturbate me. I remember reading an interview with Rose about her fucked-up childhood and her father, who was the leader of some religious cult. For some reason, I feel like she would be able to relate to what I’m going through—not at the moment but in general. To nobody’s surprise, Twiggy ended up fucking braceface in his bunk. I’m so ashamed to be a part of this band.
APRIL 6, 1997, NORMAL, ILLINOIS
I’ll kill anyone who thinks this town is anyone’s idea of normal. It lets me know that there’s a lot of work still for me to do. But I’m kind of proud of what we’ve accomplished so far on this tour. I really wanted to do that totalitarian shock-symbol thing, to create a part of the show that resembled a fascist rally, to make a statement about things I’m against like religion and, in some ways, rock and roll, because rock and roll can be just as blind as Christianity. At the same time I wanted to create a giant piece of performance art that said that, despite everything that’s happened with the media ana people trying to ban our shows, “I did this, and I got away with it.” How did Bowie get away with lyrics about “the spies, the blacks … and the faggy bars”? It’s because he’s in character and he’s criticizing a certain type of person. Antichrist Superstar isn’t that at all: It’s what everybody feels in their hearts but is too afraid to say. It’s honest. It’s not picking on any one person, it’s picking on everybody including myself. We’re all hypocrites, but by admitting it, you transcend it and it no longer becomes a personality defect as it is in the people who blindly cling to their own self-righteousness. By knowing all this, you grow from it. I’ve grown from it.
I will never admit this to anyone, but I’ll write it here: The reason I haven’t copped out in an interview and said, “Ye
ah it’s just a character, this is just a concept album,” is because to me it is so much more. But in a sense it is. That’s why when people ask, “Well is it an act or isn’t it?” it’s both. I mean my whole life is an act, but that’s my art.
“THIS IS PERHAPS THE SICKEST GROUP EVER PROMOTED
BY A MAINSTREAM RECORD COMPANY.”
—SENATOR JOSEPH LIEBERMAN OF CONNECTICUT
“FROM WHAT I HAVE LEARNED OF THE CONTENT OF THEIR LYRICS AND MESSAGE AS WELL AS THEIR CONDUCT ON STAGE, [MARILYN MANSON] ARE CLEARLY BENT ON DEGRADING WOMEN, RELIGION AND DECENCY, WHILE PROMOTING SATANIC WORSHIP, CHILD ABUSE AND DRUG USE. THESE PEOPLE ARE PEDDLING GARBAGE. IT’S FURTHER PROOF THAT SOCIETY’S MORAL VALUES CONTINUE TO CRUMBLE.”
—GOVERNOR FRANK KEATING OF OKLAHOMA ON CONCERT
AT THE STATE FAIRGROUNDS
“I THINK IT’S TIME THAT PEOPLE PROTEST [MARILYN MANSON] ALL OVER THE NATION, THIS THING IS THE MOST DEGRADING, IT INCITES PEOPLE TO MURDER, TO RAPE. SAYING THAT DATE RAPE IS NO BIG DEAL IN AN ERA WHERE WE’RE SO CONCERNED ABOUT SEXUAL HARASSMENT … IT’S UNBELIEVABLE! YET THIS IS GOING TO THE TOP OF THE HEAP AND Rolling Stone SAYS HOW CREATIVE THEY ARE. WHAT KIND OF CREATIVITY IS THIS?”
—PAT ROBERTSON, THE 700 CLUB.
“MANY PEOPLE KNOW THE DEBAUCHERY MARILYN MANSON REPRESENTS: SODOMY, SADOMASOCHISM, YOUTH PORNOGRAPHY, SATANISM AND THE LIKE. IT IS CLEARLY DISTURBING, THREATENING AND SICKENING TO MANY MLNNESOTANS. WE DESERVE BETTER AS A COMMUNITY. “WE HOPE YOU WILL ADOPT SOME MORE REASONABLE STANDARDS FOR THE CULTURAL EVENTS YOU SPONSOR IN THE FUTURE. IN ADDITION, WE BELIEVE A PUBLIC APOLOGY FOR SUBJECTING THE TWIN CITIES TO MARILYN MANSON WOULD BE IN ORDER.”
—LETTER FROM THE MINNESOTA FAMILY COUNCIL
TO THE BEST BUY CORPORATION
“WE’RE FIGHTING FOR GOD AGAINST SATAN.”
—FLORENCE HENSELL, LETTER TO UTICA CITY COUNCIL, ON CONCERT AT
UTICA AUDITORIUM
“I DON’T NORMALLY INTERFERE WITH THE FREE-ENTERPRISE STYLE, BUT IN THIS CASE I CAN’T FATHOM ANYBODY BEING ASKED TO PAY FOR TICKETS TO SEE THIS FILTH.”
—ALDERMAN RAY CLARK OF CALGARY ON CONCERT AT MAX BELL CENTRE
“I WAS NOT EVEN AWARE OF A GROUP CALLED MARILYN MANSON UNTIL ABOUT TWO OR THREE WEEKS AGO WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN OUR OFFICE AND MY HOME HAVE BEEN INUNDATED WITH PHONE CALLS WITH CONCERNS ABOUT THIS CONCERT THAT’S PERFORMING THIS EVENING IN WINGS STADIUM IN KALAMAZOO … THEIR MESSAGE IS TO KILL GOD, KILL YOUR PARENTS AND THEN COMMIT SUICIDE. I HANDED OUT TO ALL MY COLLEAGUES AN ARTICLE ABOUT WHAT MR. MANSON CONFESSES THAT HE’S DONE AS FAR AS ON THE STAGE FROM SEXUAL TYPES OF ACTS TO A NUMBER OF VULGAR TYPES OF THINGS THAT PROMOTE VIOLENCE IN OUR SOCIETY, AND I’M VERY CONCERNED ABOUT THAT. SO WITH THAT, WE PUT A RESOLUTION TOGETHER … THAT ANYONE UNDER EIGHTEEN YEARS OF AGE BE ACCOMPANIED BY THEIR PARENTS.... WE’VE RECEIVED ABOUT 10,000 SIGNATURES JUST IN THE KALAMAZOO AREA THAT ARE AGAINST THIS CONCERT.”
—SENATOR DALE SHUGARS OF MICHIGAN
UNDATED
Just got a phone call from my father. He was watching Real Stories of the Highway Patrol and said that on the show they caught a guy they had been chasing across Ohio. When they pulled him over, they found a trunk full of guns. He was a twenty-five-year-old Christian fanatic with missing teeth, and he said he was going to Florida to kill the Antichrist. The episode had been taped the same week we just played in Florida.
APRIL 1997
I am enclosing the napkin on which I drafted a statement I had to make on MTV about our show being canceled against our will in South Carolina:
“Once again the so-called servants of God have proven my point with their hypocritical and hostile behavior. And once again they have illustrated their lack of separation between church and state and their disgusting similarities to Nazi Germany. Unfortunately everyone suffers: We suffer, our fans suffer, the constitution of the U.S.A. suffers, and the pious right-wing politicians of South Carolina suffer because everyone now sees them for the fascist idiots they are. What do we expect in a state that still flies the Confederate flag? You want a revolution? You’ll get it!”
MAY 10, 1997
Just found out that one of my roadies, Sean McGann, died last night. He had been drinking and was trying to rappel down the catwalk. But he forgot to attach the ropes. I know it’s not my fault, but I can’t help feeling that it somehow is, because if it wasn’t for me he’d still be alive.
Maybe I’ve lived a sheltered life, because outside of my dog Aleusha this is really the first person close to me who has died. It makes me wonder what I was thinking years ago when I tried to kill Nancy and our old bassist, Brad. Trying to kill them would have been pointless. Nature takes its own course. It’s Social Darwinism. People get what they deserve. But did Sean really deserve that?
MOTHER’S DAY, BACK LOUNGE, 6 A.M.
I called my mother today, and realized really for the first time how shitty I had acted as a kid and how much abuse I had given her. If it weren’t for her tolerance and unconditional love and support, I wouldn’t have gotten this far. I told her I loved her, and she said she already knew that. If she didn’t, her pride would have convinced her of it anyway. I’ve been seeing a lot of my father lately, too. He comes to a lot of the shows. He seems to enjoy the attention more than I do. He goes around telling people that he’s the father of the God of Fuck. I think now that we understand each other, our relationship has become so much better than it was when I was a kid. I guess when people began to accept what I did, my parents began to accept it as well.
MAY 29, 1997, PARIS
I talked to Snoop Doggy Dogg today. Well, I’m not sure if you could really call it talked because I could hardly understand a word he was saying. But I think what he was trying to communicate was that he wanted to work with me in some sort of capacity and something involving marijuana.
JUNE 15, 1997, NEW YORK
With the help of our civil rights lawyer Paul Cambria, we won our case against the state of New Jersey and we were able to perform on the OzzFest at Giants Stadium today, despite the objections of the stadium’s management. (It’s funny because I saw the Larry Flynt movie the other day and my friend, Edward Norton—Courtney’s boyfriend—played a composite of Paul and several other lawyers who worked on the Hustler case.) Despite the fact that the story was on the news every five minutes, I’m not sure the crowd knew or even cared there was a case. We smashed everything, including ourselves, out of frustration at their apathy. I ended up slashing myself pretty badly, and paramedics won’t stitch ybu on the spot for insurance reasons. They wanted me to go to the hospital, but I stayed backstage and got drunk with Pantera. We talked about the first time I hung out with Dimebag Darrell, who in addition to playing guitar in Pantera is actually the creator of Tony Wiggins. He took Twiggy, Pogo and me back to his house in Dallas. After visiting a series of strip bars and doing other things that people who have rebel flag bumper stickers would do, I vaguely remember someone putting acid in my mouth and waking up in a litter box trying to keep a pig from shitting on my face.
CURRENTLY BEFORE THE COURT IS AN APPLICATION TO ENJOIN THE NEW JERSEY SPORTS EXHIBITION AUTHORITY (“NJSEA”) FROM PRESENTING THE OZZFEST CONCERT, WHICH INCLUDES PERFORMER “MARILYN MANSON,” FROM BEING HELD AT GIANTS STADIUM ON JUNE 15, 1997. MARILYN MANSON IS A HEAVY METAL BAND THAT THE NJSEA HAS DEEMED OBJECTIONABLE. MARILYN MANSON’S RIGHT OF PASSAGE TO PERFORM AT GIANTS STADIUM IS NOW IMPEDED BY ROADBLOCKS CREATED BY THE COLLISION BETWEEN WELL-ESTABLISHED CONSTITUTIONAL AND CONTRACTUAL PRINCIPLES....
ON APRIL 18, 1997, THE NJSEA ISSUED A NEWS RELEASE ENTITLED “STATEMENT OF THE NEW JERSEY SPORTS AUTHORITY MANAGEMENT REGARDING MARILYN MANSON AND THE OZZFEST CONCERT.” THE ANNOUNCEMENT INDICATED THAT MARILYN MANSON WOULD BE PROHIBITED FROM PERFORMING AT GIANTS STADIUM AND CANCELED THE OZZFEST EVENT DUE TO THE INCLUSION OF MARILYN MANSON....
THE NSJEA HAS INDICATED THAT IT EXCLUDED MARILYN MANSON FROM THE CONCERT BECAUSE OF THE BAND’S “ANTICS.” ACCORDING TO THE NSJEA, THESE ANTICIPATED “ANTICS” MAY [CREATE]
SECURITY RISKS AND MAY [TARNISH] THE NSJEA’S REPUTATION AND ABILITY TO REMAIN A LUCRATIVE FORUM FOR CONCERT EVENTS....
THE CLAUSE ON WHICH THE NSJEA RELIES FOR ITS AUTHORITY TO EXCLUDE MARILYN MANSON FROM THE SHOW CONFIRMS THE MOTIVATION OF THE NSJEA UNDER THE NSJEA’S PROPOSED CONTRACT, IT MAY EXCLUDE A PERFORMER FOR: “GROUNDS OF CHARACTER OFFENSIVE TO PUBLIC MORALS, FAILURE TO UPHOLD EVENT ADVERTISING CLAIMS OR VIOLATION OF EVENT CONTENT RESTRICTIONS AGREED TO BY BOTH PARTIES AT TIME OF COMPLETION OF THIS AGREEMENT.” THE ONLY ASPECT OF THIS CLAUSE THAT THE NSJEA RELIES UPON IS THAT MARILYN MANSON’S PERFORMANCE IS ANTICIPATED TO BE “OFFENSIVE TO PUBLIC MORALS.” THIS APPEARS TO BE THE QUINTESSENTIAL ESSENCE OF CONTENT BASED REGULATION.
THE NSJEA HAS ARGUED THAT SAFETY CONCERNS PROMPTED ITS REFUSAL TO ALLOW MARILYN MANSON TO PLAY AT GIANTS STADIUM. BUT THE NSJEA HAS PUT FORTH NO EVIDENCE THAT ITS PROFFERED SAFETY CONCERNS ARE LEGITIMATE RATHER THAN PRETEXTUAL. TO THE CONTRARY, NO UNLAWFUL OR VIOLENT ACTIVITY HAS OCCURRED ON MARILYN MANSON’S CURRENT TOUR. AND IT APPEARS THAT THE PLAINTIFFS HAVE COMPLIED WITH NSJEA’S REQUESTS FOR CONCESSIONS INTENDED TO BOLSTER SECURITY....
THE NSJEA ALSO ARGUED THAT THE INCLUSION OF MARILYN MANSON WOULD TARNISH NSJEA’S REPUTATION AND ABILITY TO EARN REVENUE. BUT, THE NSJEA CONCEDED AT ORAL ARGUMENT THAT THE DECISION TO EXCLUDE MARILYN MANSON WAS NOT BASED ON THE ECONOMICS OF THE SHOW IN QUESTION; THE SHOW WAS ANTICIPATED TO EARN SUBSTANTIAL REVENUE. RATHER, NSJEA ARGUED THAT THE INCLUSION OF MARILYN MANSON WOULD SOMEHOW AFFECT NSJEA’S FUTURE ABILITY TO USE THE STADIUM. THE NSJEA’S ARGUMENT IS INSUFFICIENTLY CONCRETE TO BE PERSUASIVE AND THERE ARE NO WRITTEN GUIDELINES DEFINING WHAT MIGHT ENDANGER NSJEA’S REPUTATION. CONSEQUENTLY, THE COURT IS NOT PERSUADED.
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