Had Crosbie been right in those remarks of his? Had she been imprudent in her little endeavour to be cordially kind to her old friend? ‘Shall we go into the drawing room?’ she said, feeling that she would be in some degree safer than out among the shrubs and paths of the garden. And I think she was right in this. A man will talk of love out among the lilacs and roses, who would be stricken dumb by the demure propriety of the four walls of a drawing-room. John Eames also had some feeling of this kind, for he determined to remain out in the garden, if he could so manage it.
‘I don’t want to go in unless you wish it,’ he said. ‘Indeed, I’d rather stay here. So, Lily, you’re going to be married?’ And thus he rushed at once into the middle of his discourse.
‘Yes,’ said she, ‘I believe I am.’
‘I have not told you yet that I congratulated you.’
‘I have known very well that you did so in your heart. I have always been sure you wished me well.’
‘Indeed I have. And if congratulating a person is hoping that she may always be happy, I do congratulate you. But, Lily –’ And then he paused, abashed by the beauty, purity, and woman’s grace which had forced him to love her.
‘I think I understand all that you would say. I do not want ordinary words to tell me that I am to count you among my best friends.’
‘No, Lily; you don’t understand all that I would say. You have never known how often and how much I have thought of you; how dearly I have loved you.’
‘John, you must not talk of that now.’
‘I cannot go without telling you. When I came over here, and Mrs Dale told me that you were to be married to that man –’
‘You must not speak of Mr Crosbie in that way,’ she said, turning upon him almost fiercely.
‘I did not mean to say anything disrespectful of him to you. I should hare myself if I were to do so. Of course you like him better than anybody else?’
‘I love him better than all the world besides.’
‘And so do I love you better than all the world besides.’ And as he spoke he got up from his seat and stood before her. ‘I know how poor I am, and unworthy of you; and only that you are engaged to him, I don’t suppose that I should now tell you. Of course you couldn’t accept such a one as me. But I have loved you ever since you remember, and now that you are going to be his wife, I cannot but tell you that it is so. You will go and live in London; but as to my seeing you there, it will be impossible. I could not go into that man’s house.’
‘Oh, John.’
‘No, never; not if you became his wife. I have loved you as well as he does. When Mrs Dale told me of it, I thought I should have fallen. I went away without seeing you because I was unable to speak to you. I made a fool of myself, and have been a fool all along. I am foolish now to tell you this, but I cannot help it.’
‘You will forget it all when you meet some girl that you can really love.’
‘And have I not really loved you? Well, never mind. I have said what I came to say, I will now go. If it ever happens that we are down in the country together, perhaps I may see you again; but never in London. Good-bye, Lily.’ And he put out his hand to her.
‘And won’t you stay for mamma?’ she said.
‘No. Give her my love, and to Bell. They understand all about it. They will know why I have gone. If ever you should want anybody to do anything for you, remember that I will do it, whatever it is.’ And as he placed away from her across the lawn, the special deed in her favour to which his mind was turned – that one thing which he most longed to do her behalf – was an act of corporal chastisement upon Crosbie. If Crosbie would but ill-treat her – ill-treat her with some antinuptial barbarity – and if only he could be called in to avenge her wrongs! And as he made his way back along the road towards Guestwick, he built up within his own bosom a castle in the air, for her part in which Lily Dale would by no means have thanked him.
Lily when she was left alone burst into tears. She had certainly said very little to encourage her forlorn suitor, and had so borne herself during the interview that even Crosbie could hardly have been dissatisfied; but now that Eames was gone her heart became very tender towards him. She felt that she did love him also – not at all as she loved Crosbie, but still with a love that was tender, soft, and true. If Crosbie could have known all her thoughts at that moment, I doubt whether he would have liked them. She burst into tears, and then hurried away into some nook where she could not be seen by her mother and Bell on their return.
Eames went on his way, walking very quietly, swinging his stick and kicking through the dust, with his heart full of the scene which had just passed. He was angry with himself, thinking that he had played his part badly. accusing himself in that he had been rough with her because she had declared to him that she loved Crosbie better than all the world besides. He knew that of course she must do so – that at any rate it was to be expected that such was the case. Yet, he thought, she might have refrained from saying so to him. ‘She chooses to scorn me now,’ he said to himself; ‘but the time may come when she will wish that she had scorned him.’ That Crosbie was wicked, and, and selfish, he believed most fully. He had some slight doubt whether he would marry her, and from this doubt he endeavoured to draw a scrap of comfort. If Crosbie would desert her, and if to him might be accorded the privilege of beating the man to death with his fists because of this desertion, then the world would not be quite blank for him. In all this he was no doubt very cruel to Lily – but then had not Lily been very cruel to him?
He was still thinking of these things when he came to the first of the Guestwick pastures. The boundary of the earl’s property was very plainly marked, for with it commenced also the shady elms along the roadside, and the broad green margin of turf, grateful equally to those who walked and to those who rode. Eames had got himself on to the grass, but, in the fullness of his thoughts, was unconscious of the change in his path, when he was startled by a voice in the next field and the loud bellowing of a bull. Lord De Guest’s choice cattle he knew were there, and there was one special bull which was esteemed by his lordship as a great value, and regarded as a high favourite. The people about the place declared that the beast was vicious, but Lord De Guest had often been heard to boast that it was never vicious with him. ‘The boys tease him, and the men are almost worse than the boys,’ said the earl; ‘but he’ll never hurt anyone that has not hurt him.’ Guided by faith in his own teaching the earl had taught himself to look upon his bull as a large, horned, innocent lamb of the flock.
As Eames paused on the road, he fancied that he recognized the earl’s voice, and it was the voice of one in distress. Then the bull’s roar sounded very plain in his ear, and almost close – upon hearing which he rushed on to the gate, and, without much thinking what he was doing, vaulted over it, and advanced a few steps into the field.
‘Halloo!’ shouted the earl. ‘There’s a man. Come on.’ And then his continued shoutings hardly formed themselves into intelligible words; but Eames plainly understood that he was invoking assistance under great pressure and stress of circumstances. The bull was making short runs at his owner, as though determined in each run to have a toss at his lordship; and at each run the earl would retreat quickly for a few paces, but he retreated always facing his enemy, and as the animal got near to him, would make digs at his face with the long spud2 which he carried in his hand. But in thus making good his retreat he had been unable to keep in a direct line to the gate, and there seemed to be great danger lest the bull should succeed in pressing him up against the hedge. ‘Come on!’ shouted the earl, who was fighting his battle manfully, but was by no means anxious to carry off all the laurels of the victory himself. ‘Come on, I say!’ Then he stopped in his path, shouted into the bull’s face, brandished his spud, and threw about his arms, thinking that he might best dismay the beast by the display of these warlike gestures.
Johnny Eames ran on gallantly to the peer’s assistance, as he would have run to that of
any peasant in the land. He was one to whom I should be perhaps wrong to attribute at this period of his life the gift of very high courage. He feared many things which no man should fear; but he did not fear personal mishap or injury to his own skin and bones. When Cradell escaped out of the house in Burton Crescent, making his way through the passage into the outer air, he did so because he feared that Lupex would beat him or kick him, or otherwise ill-use him. John Eames would also have desired to escape under similar circumstances; but he would have so desired because he could not endure to be looked upon in his difficulties by the people of the house, and because his imagination would have painted the horrors of a policeman dragging him off with black eye and a torn coat. There was no one to see him now, and no policeman to take offence. Therefore he rushed to the earl’s assistance, brandishing his stick, and roaring in emulation of the bull.
When the animal saw with what unfairness he was treated, and that the number of his foes was doubled, while no assistance had lent itself on his side, he stood for a while, disgusted by the injustice of humanity. He stopped, and throwing his head up to the heavens, bellowed out his complaint. ‘Don’t come close!’ said the earl, who was almost out of breath. ‘Keep a little apart. Ugh! ugh! whoop, whoop!’ And he threw up his arms manfully, jobbing3 about with his spud, ever and anon rubbing the perspiration from off his eyebrows with the back of his hand.
As the bull stood pausing, meditating whether under such circumstances flight would not be preferable to gratified passion, Eames made a rush in at him, attempting to hit him on the head. The earl, seeing this, advanced a step also, and got his spud almost up to the animal’s eye. But these indignities the beast could not stand. He made a charge, bending his head first towards John Eames, and then, with that weak vacillation which is as disgraceful in a bull as in a general, he changed his purpose, and turned his horns upon his other enemy. The consequence was that his steps carried him in between the two, and that the earl and Eames found themselves for a while behind his tail.
‘Now for the gate.’ said the earl.
‘Slowly does it; slowly does it; don’t run!’ said Johnny, assuming in the heat of the moment a tone of counsel which would have been very foreign to him under other circumstances.
The earl was not a whit offended. ‘All right,’ said he, taking with a backward motion the direction of the gate. Then as the bull again faced towards him, he jumped from the ground, labouring painfully with arms and legs, and ever keeping his spud well advanced against the foe. Eames, holding his position a little apart from his friend, stooped low and beat the ground with his stick, as though defying the creature. The bull felt defied, stood still and roared, and then made another vacillating attack.
‘Hold on till we reach the gate,’ said Eames.
‘Ugh! ugh! Whoop! whoop!’ shouted the earl. And so gradually they made good their ground.
‘Now get over,’ said Eames, when they had both reached the corner of the field in which the game stood.
‘And what’ll you do?’ said the earl.
‘I’ll go at the hedge to the right.’ And Johnny as he spoke dashed his stick about, so as to monopolize, for a moment, the attention of the brute. The earl made a spring at the gate, and got well on to the upper rung. The bull seeing that his prey was going, made a final rush upon the earl and struck the timber furiously with his head, knocking his lordship down on the other side. Lord De Guest was already over, but not off the rail; and thus, though he fell, in safety on the sward beyond the gate. He fell in safety, but utterly exhausted. Eames, as he had purposed, made a leap almost sideways at a thick hedge which divided the field from one of the Guestwick copses. There was a fairly broad ditch, and on the other side a quickset hedge, which had, however, been weakened and injured by trespassers at this corner, close to the gate. Eames was young and active and jumped well. He jumped so well that he carried his body full into the middle of the quickset, and then scrambled through to the other side, not without much injury to his clothes, and some damage also to his hands and face.
The beast, recovering from his shock against the wooden bars, looked wistfully at his last retreating enemy, as he still struggled amidst the bushes. He looked at the ditch and at the broken hedge, but he did not understand how weak were the impediments in his way. He had knocked his head against the stout timber, which was strong enough to oppose him, but was dismayed by the brambles which he might have trodden under foot without an effort. How many of us are like the bull, turning away conquered by opposition which should be as nothing to us, and breaking our feet, and worse still, our hearts, against rocks of adamant.4 The bull at last made up his mind that he did not dare to face the hedge; so he gave one final roar, and then turning himself round, walked placidly back amidst the herd.
Johnny made his way on to the road by a stile that led out of the copse, and was soon standing over the earl, while the blood ran down his checks from the scratches. One of the legs of his trousers had been caught by a stake, and was torn from the hip downward, and his hat was left in the field, the only trophy for the bull. ‘I hope you’re not hurt, my lord,’ he said.
‘Oh dear, no; but I’m terribly out of breath. Why, you’re bleeding all over. He didn’t get at you, did he?’
‘It’s only the thorns in the hedge,’ said Johnny, passing his hand over his face. ‘But I’ve lost my hat.’
‘There are plenty more hats,’ said the earl.
‘I think I’ll have a try for it,’ said Johnny, with whom the means of getting hats had not been so plentiful as with the earl. ‘He looks quiet now.’ And he moved towards the gate.
But Lord De Guest jumped upon his feet, and seized the young man by the collar of his coat. ‘Go after your hat!’ said he. ‘You must be a fool to think of it. If you’re afraid to catching cold, you shall have mine.’
‘I’m not the least afraid of catching cold,’ said Johnny. ‘Is he often like that, my lord?’ And he made a motion with his head towards the bull.
‘The gentlest creature alive; he’s like a lamb generally – just like a lamb. Perhaps he saw my red pocket-handkerchief.’ And Lord De Guest showed his friend that he carried such an article. ‘But where should I have been if you hadn’t come up?’
‘You’d have got to the gate, my lord.’
‘Yes; with my feet foremost, and four men carrying me. I’m very thirsty. You don’t happen to carry a flask, do you?’
‘No, my lord, I don’t.’
‘Then we’ll make the best of our way home, and have a glass of wine there.’ And on this occasion his lordship intended that his offer should be accepted.
CHAPTER 22
LORD DE GUEST AT HOME
THE EARL and John Eames, after their escape from the bull, walked up to the Manor House together. ‘You can write a note to your mother, and I’ll send it by one of the boys,’ said the earl. This was his lordship’s answer when Eames declined to dine at the Manor House, because he would be expected home.
‘But I’m so badly off for clothes, my lord,’ pleaded Johnny. ‘I tore my trousers in the hedge.’
‘There will be nobody there beside us two and Dr Crofts. The doctor will forgive you when he hears the story; and as for me, I didn’t care if you hadn’t a stitch to your back. You’ll have company back to Guestwick, so come along.’
Eames had no further excuse to offer, and therefore did as he was bidden. He was by no means as much at home with the earl now as during those minutes of the combat. He would rather have gone home, being somewhat ashamed of being seen in his present tattered and bare-headed condition by the servants of the house; and moreover, his mind would sometimes revert to the scene which had taken place in the garden at Allington. But he found himself obliged to obey the earl, and so he walked on with him through the woods.
The earl did not say very much, being tired and somewhat thoughtful. In what little he did say he seemed to be specially hurt by the ingratitude of the bull towards himself. ‘I never teased him, or annoyed him
in any way.’
‘I suppose they are dangerous beasts?’ said Eames.
‘Not a bit of it, if they’re properly treated. It must have been my handkerchief, I suppose. I remember that I did blow my nose.’
He hardly said a word in the way of thanks to his assistant. ‘Where should I have been if you had not come to me?’ he had exclaimed immediately after his deliverance; but having said that he didn’t think it necessary to say much more to Eames. But he made himself very pleasant, and by the time he had reached the house his companion was almost glad that he had been forced to dine at the Manor House. ‘And now we’ll have a drink,’ said the earl. ‘I don’t know how you feel, but I never was so thirsty in my life.’
Two servants immediately showed themselves, and evinced some surprise at Johnny’s appearance. ‘Has the gentleman hurt hisself, my lord?’ asked the butler, looking at the blood upon our friend’s face.
‘He has hurt his trousers the worst, I believe,’ said the earl. ‘And if he was to put on any of mine they’d be too short and too big, wouldn’t they? I am sorry you should be so uncomfortable, but you mustn’t mind it for once.’
‘I don’t mind it a bit,’ said Johnny.
‘And I’m sure I don’t,’ said the earl. ‘Mr Eames is going to dine here, Vickers.’
‘Yes, my lord.’
‘And his hat is down in the middle of the nineteen acres. Let three or four men go for it.’
‘Three or four men, my lord!’
‘Yes – three or four men. There’s something gone wrong with that bull. And you must get a boy with a pony to take a note into Guestwick to Mrs Eames. Oh dear, I’m better now,’ and he put down the tumbler from which he’d been drinking. ‘Write your note here, and then we’ll go and see my pet pheasants before dinner.’
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