by Jaime Lowe
Brontë, Charlotte, 51, 52
Brown, Richard, 277–80
brown dwarfs, 213, 216
Browning, Dominique, 103, 104, 105, 124, 126
Burghölzli, 146
Burton, Beverly, 234
Burton, Robert, 35
Bush, George W. (President), 281
butterflies, 126, 245, 261
Byrne, David, 153
Cade, John, 227–29, 230, 234, 262
Caracalla ruins, 256, 257, 258
carbamazepine. See Tegretol
cardiovascular disease, 231
Career Suicide (Gethard), 265
Carraz, George, 234
Casey, Susan, 181
Censor This (First Amendment rights), 130, 132, 133–34, 136, 142, 143
Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), 90–91, 116
Chaplin, Charlie, 178
Charcot, Jean-Martin, 118
cheeking meds, 159, 160
Chianti Hot Springs, 251
“Child Behavior Checklist,” 17–18
childhood, 20–21, 55, 55–67, 58, 59, 62. See also sexual assault
Chile, 218, 219, 222, 256
China, 222
Chopin, Frédéric, 241
Christie, Tom, 144
Chuang, De-Maw, 231–32
Churchill, Winston, 71
circular insanity (“folie circulaire”), 36
Clayton Valley, Nevada, 220, 221
Cobain, Kurt, 46–47, 71
Coca-Cola, lithium version, 227
cocaine, 71, 125
Columbia University, 209, 230, 277
Condé Nast, 102, 103, 104–6, 112, 124, 128, 148
congestive heart patients, 228–29
consequence, 168
coping skills, 172–204
cost of treatment, 235, 281–82
crack polygons, 216
creatinine levels (high), 204, 209
creativity and lithium, 264–67
crystals, 189
curiosity about mental illness, 51–52
cyclothymic, 269
cytoprotective actions, 231
Daily Aggie, 92
Daily News, 104, 186
Dartmouth, 111
dating, 93, 107–15, 125–26, 128, 185, 203
David (stepbrother), 63, 63–64
Dawson, Earl B., 251
DeAntonio, Mark, 18–19, 20, 21, 26, 27, 30, 39, 49, 55, 69, 70, 71, 74, 109, 110, 125, 144, 160, 162, 168, 209, 238
dementia, 228
Depakote, 232–38, 239, 242, 270, 271–72, 273–78, 283–84, 285
depression, 34, 90, 179, 263, 266, 267
depressive episodes, 21, 32, 34, 36, 71, 75, 80, 81, 174, 175, 176, 177, 240, 262, 271, 278, 279, 282
Details, 112, 124
development of brain, 28–29, 110–11
DeVita, Maria, 209–10, 285
diagnosis, 19, 22–23, 31, 35, 36, 46, 62, 67, 68, 70, 79, 80, 81, 86, 121, 122, 187, 215, 261, 268, 282, 285
Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM), 36, 242
dialysis, 204, 210, 277
Dickens, Charles, 71
Digging for Dirt: The Life and Death of ODB (Lowe), 187, 188, 203
divalproex sodium. See Depakote
divorce, children and, 20, 56, 61, 66, 67, 70, 100
Dobschütz, Sigismund von (“Dobie”), 244–45, 248, 249–50, 252
dosages, lithium, 228, 230
“Dr. Gustin’s Lithium,” 226–27
drawings, 6, 71, 109, 157, 162, 264
drinking, 91, 100, 104, 110, 111, 113, 126, 128, 133, 150, 158, 183, 191, 203, 252
Duke, Patty, 54, 71, 80–81, 86, 267
DUMBO, 178, 199
earthquake, California (1994), 84
East Village, 98, 99, 100, 178, 257, 258
Eat, Pray, Love (Gilbert), 190
Eddy, Chuck, 127
Edinburgh, 92, 102
Eight Treatises on the Nurturing of Life (Gao Lian), 35
elephant sanctuary, 201
emergency room, 204, 209
Emery, Enoch (character) essay, 76–77
Eminem, 143, 145, 150, 169, 210
environment and genetics, 20–21, 62, 121
epilepsy, 226, 232, 234, 238, 268, 275, 280
episode 1, 1–93. See also Neuropsychiatric Institute (NPI)
episode 2, 95–204, 210
Equal Justice Initiative, 247
Erich (Opa’s father), 248–49
ESPN, 188, 200
Esquirol, Jean-Étienne Dominique, 118
extended vs. delayed Depakote, 273–78, 285
Eymard, Pierre, 234
Falret, Jean-Pierre, 36
family history of mental illness, 21–22
fantasies, 83, 84–85
father (Stephen), 5, 6–7, 7–8, 9, 10, 17, 22, 44, 45, 55, 56, 58, 59, 60, 61, 65–66, 84, 85, 106, 139, 141, 142, 143, 148, 165, 174, 247, 264, 268
Faulkner, William, 76
Fels, Anna, 251
female illnesses, 34–35, 118–20
Fieve, Ronald, 230–31, 235
Film Threat magazine, 98
fire at Seventh Avenue apartment, 137, 137–40, 141, 141, 152, 174, 175, 176, 178, 181, 267
Fisher, Carrie, 71, 267
Fluff (former boxer), 184–85, 186, 272
Flying Cholitas, 214–15, 215–16
Fontes, Monserrat (Monsy), 67, 75–76, 85
Food and Drug Administration, 229, 235
Foote Mineral, 222
France, 227, 230, 234, 277
French, Marilyn, 97
Freud, Sigmund, 109, 118, 228, 261
friends, support of, 18, 40, 41, 42, 46, 47, 51–52, 57, 64, 65, 66, 67, 69, 72, 74, 77, 83, 86, 92, 100, 108, 125, 128, 134, 158, 160, 193, 200, 232, 237, 282, 285
Fromm, M. Gerard, 247
frontal lobe, 53
Futures Without Violence, 116
G., Dr., 42–43, 66, 70, 109
Gage, Phineas, 52–53
Gao Lian, 35
generational trauma, 247–48
generator pipes, 24–25, 26, 27, 49, 87, 264
genetics and environment, 20–21, 62, 121
Germany, 200–201, 230, 234, 235, 244, 245, 248, 277
Gershon, Samuel, 230
Gethard, Chris, 265
Ghana, 280
Gilbert, Elizabeth, 190
Gilman, Charlotte Perkins, 37, 117, 226
Giraldi, Paolo, 260
Girl, Interrupted (Kaysen), 159
Givens, Robin, 183
Glamour, 179
Gleason’s, 172, 178, 183, 184, 187, 188, 203, 272–73, 274
Goethe, Johann Wolfgang von, 241
Goldfield, Nevada, 223–24
Goldman Sachs, 220
Good Morning, Midnight (Brooks-Dalton), 92
Gore, Tipper, 133, 151, 152
grandeur, 79, 81, 133, 140, 162, 217, 262
gray matter and lithium, 226
Greeks, 32–33, 34–35, 218, 225, 252, 258
Grof, Paul, 262
group therapy, 70, 74, 82, 83, 233
guinea pigs study, 228
Hammond, William, 226
“Handbook of Rights for Mental Health Patients,” 1, 47
Handel, George Frideric, 71
Harlow, John, 53
Hartigan, G. P., 229
H (boyfriend), 203, 210, 211, 216, 232–33, 237, 245, 268, 273, 280
head chakra, 189
healing waters (lithium), 217, 223–24, 226, 227, 232, 241–42, 243–45, 250, 251–54, 258, 259, 269, 283
Healy, David, 117–18
Heinz, H. J., 251
Hemingway, Ernest, 71
Herodotus, 226
Hidden Life of Trees, The (Wohlleben), 199
Hildegard of Bingen, 119–20
Hinano’s, 164
hippocampus, 227
Hippocratic era, 32–34, 119, 263
Hofmann, Samuel, 250
holistic issue, mental illness, 261, 268, 282
Holmes, Larry, 181
Holocaust, 6, 26, 68, 245, 246, 247
Homer, 37
Hotel Lowinsky, 248, 249
House & Garden, 102, 103, 104–6, 105, 112, 124, 138, 178
humor and tragedy, 178–79
hyperreligiosity, 6, 13, 29, 32, 87, 125, 148, 151, 160, 168, 172
hypomania, 32, 140, 261–62
hysteria, 34–35, 117–20
Ilgren, Ed, 256
Iliad (Homer), 37
“imprinting” experiences, 28
inhibition (lowering), bipolar disorder, 32
initial symptoms of bipolar disorder, 74
insanity, 33, 36, 37, 51, 52, 70, 82, 118, 143, 282
intergenerational trauma, 245
International Review of Psychosis and Bipolarity, 259–63, 260, 266, 267–70
Iraq, 242, 243
Iron Knights of Newark, 184, 189
“Issue of Tolerability in the Long-Term Treatment of Bipolar Disorders,” 259–60
James, Lisa, 116
Jamison, Kay Redfield, 91, 266–67
Jane Eyre (Brontë), 51, 52
Janet, Pierre, 118
Janus, Samuel, 178–79
Japan, 201
Jaskula, Brian, 222
Jeff (stepfather), 8, 9, 56, 58, 64, 85, 162, 164, 167, 168, 268
Jensen, Frances E., 29, 74
Jerusalem, mental illness hospital in, 35
Jews, 8, 32, 178–79, 200, 244, 245, 246, 247, 249, 250, 258–59
journalism, 20, 43, 67, 72, 75–76, 80, 103, 181, 200. See also music articles; publishing; writing
Jung, Carl, 146, 261
Juzwiak, Norma, 275
Kaelin, Kato, 90
Kelsoe, John, 62
Kennedy, Patrick, 281
khellin and valproic acid, 234
kidney damage from lithium, 204, 209–10, 215, 242, 256, 257, 258–59, 268, 270, 272, 273, 277, 279, 285. See also side effects of meds
Kinetz, Erika, 118
King, Rodney, 43–44
KissSalis, 253–54, 259
Klawitter, David, 222
Klein, Pam, 102–3, 144
Kline, Nathan, 229, 230
Klonopin, 144
Knitting Factory in TriBeCa, 186
Kocsis, James, 225
KROQ, 41–42
Kyrgyzstan, 132
Lake Thompson, Maine, 19, 58, 131
Lamictal, 238, 271, 279
Lancet, 252
Lane, Matthew, M.D., 204, 239, 285
Lange, Frederik, 226
Lantos, Jeff. See Jeff (stepfather)
Lantos, LeeAn. See mother (LeeAn)
La Paz, 214, 215, 216
LA Weekly, 92–93, 98, 102, 124, 144, 178
lawsuit (frivolous), 188
Lenox Hill Hospital, 209
Lieberman, Joe, 133
life expectancy, mental illness, 267
Lincoln, Abraham, 71
“Lithia-Beers,” 227
lithium. See also bipolar disorder; psychopharmacology; third element
batteries, 36, 182, 218, 219, 220, 232
brain and, 225–26, 227, 231, 232
creativity and, 264–67
Depakote, 232–38, 239, 242, 270, 271–72, 273–78, 283–84, 285
dosages, 228, 230
episode 1, 13, 14, 25, 29–30, 32, 36, 40, 47, 49, 50, 52, 68, 71–72, 80, 87, 90, 91, 93
episode 2, 110, 121, 124, 125, 126, 127, 128, 129, 140, 142, 144, 157, 158, 160, 169, 174, 179, 182, 188, 189, 199, 203
history of, 225, 226–32
honoring, 283–84
kidney damage, 204, 209–10, 215, 242, 256, 257, 258–59, 268, 270, 272, 273, 277, 279, 285
mining, 219–23
reckoning, 259–63, 260, 266, 267–70
soaking in lithium waters, 217, 223–24, 226, 227, 232, 241–42, 243–45, 250, 251–54, 258, 259, 269, 283
transition, 206–85
“Lithium” (Cobain), 46–47
“Lithium Problem, The,” 212, 213
Lithium X, 221
Llangammarch, 252
llareta, 217–18
Lochart, James, 177
loons, 8, 19, 132
Los Angeles, 57, 64, 84, 99, 124, 133, 142, 143, 144, 149, 160, 171, 172, 174, 183, 187, 201, 202, 230, 246, 257
Los Angeles Center for Enriched Studies (LACES), 64, 66
Los Angeles Unified School District (LAUSD), 64, 66
Louis C.K., 179
Lowe, Jaime Rose, vi, 55, 58, 59, 63, 88, 97, 101, 107, 123, 129, 131, 141, 149, 156, 159, 171, 172, 208, 271, 287. See also bipolar disorder; mental illness
Digging for Dirt: The Life and Death of ODB, 187, 188, 203
Lowe, Marilyn. See Marilyn (stepmother)
Lowe, Matthew. See Matt (brother)
Lowe, Stephen. See father (Stephen)
Lowe, Walter, 249
Lowell, Robert, 266–67
Lowinsky, Else, 248, 248, 249–50
Lowinsky, Rosamunde, 248, 249, 250
Loxitane, 22
Maine, 8, 19, 58, 58–59, 97, 98, 131, 131, 169
Manhattan Psychiatric Center, 186
manic depressive, 19, 46, 49, 80, 183, 231, 262. See also bipolar disorder
manic episodes, 32, 33–34, 36, 49, 54, 55, 69–70, 71, 75, 80, 81, 84, 118, 125, 140, 142, 144–48, 152–55, 162, 172, 179, 183, 228, 232–33, 262, 271, 282, 284
“manicomelancolicus,” 36
Mann, John, 209
Marie Claire, 132
Marilyn (stepmother), 6, 20, 56, 58, 59, 63, 65–66, 85, 106, 136, 148, 168, 264, 268
Maron, Marc, 179
Martin, Demetri, 179
masks, 4, 5, 6
Matt (brother), 19, 27, 42, 49–50, 51, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 59–60, 61, 62, 63, 66, 73, 76, 79, 81, 84, 85, 89, 91–92, 98–99, 139, 141, 153, 169, 170, 201
Maxim, 112, 124, 128, 143, 145
Mayo Clinic, 32, 121
McInerney, Jay, 124
Medical University of Vienna, 251
“Medico-Philosophical Treatise on Mental Alienation” (Pinel), 118
meditation, 188–89, 190
melancholy, 32, 33–34, 35, 36, 119–20
Mellaril, 22
Men’s Journal, 179, 181
Mental Health Parity Act, 281
mental illness. See also bipolar disorder; brain
biological explanation, 227–29, 230–31
breaking and waiting, recovery, 29
cost of treatment, 235, 281–82
curiosity about, 51–52
genetics and environment, 20–21, 62, 121
health insurance, 134, 148, 235, 279, 281–82
history of, 31–37, 117–20
holistic issue, 261, 268, 282
insanity, 33, 36, 37, 51, 52, 70, 82, 118, 143, 282
life expectancy, 267
luck and, 79, 240, 277, 284–85
measuring, 261–62
physical illness vs., 279
Mentally Ill Anonymous (MIA), 233
Merck Manual, 155
methamphetamines, 36
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Middle Ages, 119
Migliaccio, Antonio, 193, 198
Mike (soul mate), 138, 139, 140, 141, 142, 143, 148, 149–50, 151–52, 153, 154–55, 158, 159, 162, 169, 170, 172, 173, 174, 176, 179, 180, 210, 267
Minera Exar, 219
mining lithium, 219–23
Mirman, Eugene, 179
Mitchell, Silas Weir, 37, 226
Mood and Anxiety Disorder Program, 231
Moonwork, 178, 179, 193
Morales, Evo (President), 219
mother (LeeAn), 8, 9–10, 19, 20, 45, 56, 58, 60, 61, 62, 65, 70, 72, 73, 138, 139, 144–45, 154–55, 156, 157, 158, 160, 167, 168, 169, 170, 174, 202, 237, 268, 273, 284
Mount Sinai Hospital, 204
Muldowney, Shirley, 182–83
“multiple psychosocial stressors,” 19
Murru, Andrea, 260
mushrooms (curative), 279
music, 35, 41–42, 45, 46, 49–50, 60, 62, 85, 92, 93, 151, 170, 191, 202, 239
music articles, 92, 127, 128, 134, 146, 179, 182, 186. See also journalism; publishing; writing
Musk, Elon, 220, 221
National Alliance on Mental Illness, 80, 227, 281
National Coalition Against Censorship, 130–31
National Enquirer, 179
National Hot Rod Association, 182–83
National Institute of Mental Health, 32, 80, 121, 231
National Institutes of Health, 231
Nazis, 5, 7, 9, 248, 250
neurodegenerative disorders, 231
Neuropsychiatric Institute (NPI), 10–13, 17, 18, 21, 24–25, 36, 39, 49, 55, 68, 127, 162, 264. See also episode 1; UCLA
Nevada, 219, 220–24, 232
“New Avenue for Lithium: Intervention in Traumatic Brain Injury” (Chuang), 231–32
Newhouse, Si, 105
New Scientist, 212
Newton, Isaac, 71
New York, 61, 66, 98–101, 101, 104, 106, 108, 109–12, 123, 136, 146, 148, 149, 155, 162, 171, 172, 173, 174, 181, 188, 190, 202, 203, 259, 281
New Yorker, 102, 127, 129, 132
New York Post, 104, 186
New York State Psychiatric Institute and Columbia Presbyterian, 230
New York Times, 90, 116, 174, 251
New York Times Magazine, 251, 256
New York World, 52
Nicaragua, 6, 27
night terrors, 20, 56
Nirvana, 46
Noodle Pudding, 191, 193–99, 258
“Nothing New Under the Sun? An Update on Current Treatments for Bipolar Disorder and Beyond,” 259
nuclear fusion and lithium, 221
nudity, 57, 253
nurses, 25, 26, 27, 39, 47, 68, 69, 79, 264
nurture and nature, 28
Nutt, Amy Ellis, 29
Obama, Barack (President), 281, 282
occupational therapy, 40
Occupy protests, 202
O’Connor, Flannery, 76–77