“No.”
“Fuck no.”
“Don’t you dare.”
They all yell at the same time, causing everyone to fall into a fit of laughter. I’ve never had a family just my horrible mom, but I would like to think this is how it would be. Ever since I’ve been with Young, I have found myself wanting things that I never thought I would. A family bond being one of them not with my mom, with these amazing people. Also, with Young’s parents, I have grown to love them as well. I can’t believe how much I have changed since being with Young, for the better. It is actually a relief to be able to have someone that I can talk to, open up to. If you had asked me even six months ago, I would have said no fucking way would I ever change.
“You alright? You look deep in thought.” Young asks grabbing hold of my hand.
“Yes, just thinking about how lucky I am.” He squeezes my hand causing me to smile. I love that we have grown to know what little things mean so much to each other.
As much as I wanted to get trashed tonight, I am exhausted. I don’t even argue when everyone calls it a night. Young is staying the night, so I’m happy to get to bed anyway. Once we are in bed he pulls me to him and kisses my head. “As much as I would love to make you come, I’m fucking tired. Rain check?”
“Rain check. Good night, Young. I love you.” He squeezes me tightly and moves his mouth to my ear.
“Good night, Maddie. I love you too.” I start to doze off in the comfort of his arms.
I wake up and look at the clock, it’s only nine. I no longer need to jump up and put on makeup. Young makes me feel beautiful even without it. It took a lot of convincing on his part it was the way I was taught to be, perfect. He was patient with me, telling me time and time again that he loves me just as much with my hair and makeup done as he does without. I roll over to see my sexy ass man. He really is fucking hot. He has no blanket on, laying on his back. If that isn’t an invitation, I don’t know what is. Another perk to waking up together, morning sex. Who knew it could be so great.
I carefully make my way between his legs, just the thought of his cock in my mouth has me turned on. I rub one hand on his impressive cock and it instantly starts to get hard. I am biting my lip watching it harden. I free him from his boxers and lick my lips. He is starting to move around so I bend down to lick the tip before he fully wakes up. He moans softly when I take more of him in my mouth. I start to really move up and down on his rock hard cock, using my hand as well.
“Oh, fuck, suck me babe.” He wraps his hands in my hair and starts fucking my mouth. I relax my gag reflex so that I can take as much of him as possible. “Your tight, hot mouth feels so fucking good.” If I had panties on they would be soaked from his words, I love his dirty talk. He is pulling my hair, which is such a turn on and cursing as he picks up his pace. I reach down and start playing with his balls. “Oh yea, fuck. I’m going to come.” His balls tighten in my hand and I know he is going to come. “FUCK!” he yells when he finds his release. I suck him dry, loving every second of it. Once he is done I release him with a pop and climb up his body.
“So good.” I tell him licking my lips. He grabs my ass, squeezing hard.
“Fuck, yes, it was. Don’t think this is done.” He smacks my ass causing me to moan. “Stand up.” I’m so turned on; I don’t even question his request. I stand up and turn to face him. He pulls his boxers off and I notice he is hard again. My man has no problem going again and again. “Take off your shirt and then face the wall.” I pull the tee shirt over my breasts, dragging it slowly over my hard nipples and turn to face the wall. My pussy is so wet with excitement it is starting to run down my legs. Just as I am about to touch myself, my head is yanked back by my hair. “That pussy is mine. Do not touch it.” I moan at the roughness.
“Fuck me, Young.” I can feel his cock pressed against my ass, ready to ram into me.
“Oh, I’m going to fuck you.” He yanks my head back further and smacks my ass. I arch my back and moan. He turns us so that I am facing the bed and bends me over with my ass in the air. He is running is thick cock between my cheeks and smacks me again. I push my ass back against him and whimper. I need him to fuck me; my pussy is aching with need. Next thing I feel is his tongue, licking my ass.
“Oh, yes, please, Young. I need you to fuck me.” He goes lower and begins to suck and lick my aching pussy. It feels so good that I begin rubbing my pussy on his face. He growls and smacks my ass. “Yes.” I scream into the covers. He runs his hand up my back and grabs my hair again, yanking my head back. I am whimpering because I need to be fucked. He doesn’t make me wait any longer. He slams into me with such force that I feel like I will split in two. He yanks my head back further and keeps up his punishing rhythm. We are both moaning, grunting and cursing. It feels so fucking good. He continues to smack my ass as he pounds into me. I am starting to feel my body get that familiar feeling and I know I’m going to come. My toes are beginning to curl on the carpet, I’ve got a hold of the comforter, and my head is being held back with his grip in my hair. “I’m so fucking close, Young.” I pant out.
“Fuck, yes.” As impossible as it seems he picks up his pace, his balls are slapping against me and he is grunting. He smacks my ass before reaching around to rub my clit. That’s all it takes, I explode.
“Oh, Young, fuck.” I moan. He slams into me a few more times before he growls out his release. We both collapse on the bed, him on my back, trying to catch our breath. After we both begin to breathe normal, he rolls over and turns us so that we are face to face.
“Best fucking way to wake up, ever.” I can’t help but laugh at him, even though I completely agree. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
After we lie in bed talking for a while, we decide it is time to get up for breakfast and coffee. I throw on my yoga pants and black tank. He has on his low hanging sweats. I make us pancakes and bacon, while he makes the coffee. We go into the living room and enjoy our delicious breakfast.
“Damn, babe, that was fucking awesome.” He carries our plates to the sink and comes back with a fresh coffee for us both.
“Thanks. So what are the plans for today?” He sits down and pulls me to sit in between his legs, resting on his chest.
“I’ve got nothing. I say we lounge around then all go out to the bar tonight.” I smile because it is the perfect plan for a Saturday night. Becca comes in the door with Kenz, Campbell, and Dick not far behind.
“I made breakfast; it’s still hot if you guys want any.”
“She had sausage in bed first.” I almost choke on my coffee.
“You are such a pig, Young. I don’t know how Maddie deals with it.” Becca says as she sits down on the couch with us.
“She loves it. She likes to have my pig in her blanket.” Everyone is sitting around laughing at him at this point. He even laughs at himself. We start talking about what time we are going to leave tonight when there is a knock at the door. We all stop talking and look at each other with puzzled faces.
“Who the fuck could that be? Do we have anymore friends I don’t know about?” Dick says as he gets up to answer it. I look at Becca and Kenz, lifting my shoulders because I have no idea who the hell it could be. Dick opens the door and it is like someone punched me in the stomach, knocking the wind out of me.
“Well, hello there. I’m Lydia.” I feel like I may be sick, I’m so nervous and pissed.
“What the fuck are you doing here, Mom?”
Mom? What the fuck? As soon as Dick opened the door, I felt her entire body tense up. Whatever it is that happened between these two is worse than I even thought. Her mom is a stunning woman. Her hair, makeup, and clothes are perfect, exactly how Maddie used to be. She walks into the apartment taking it all in, looking at everything as she makes her way over to Maddie. I’ll be damned if I’m going to let go of her. I can actually feel her heart pounding in her chest.
“Maddie, how are you?” She is looking back and forth between her and me. S
he looks pissed. That just has me tighten my hold on my girl. I promised her no one would hurt her that includes her mother.
“What the fuck are you doing here? How did you find me?” Find her? She didn’t even know where her own daughter was? I have so many questions, but right now is not the time. She keeps looking at me, Campbell and Dick, which is making me feel like she is checking us out. I should have put a fucking shirt on.
“Don’t forget who you are speaking to, you will not talk that way to me. I need to speak with you about something, but considering you seem to be hiding out in this…apartment ignoring me, I had no choice but to find you. Now, would you like me to speak in front of your…friends or would you like to speak in private?” Who the fuck does this lady think she is? She is talking about this apartment and us like we are scum. Well fuck that.
“Seeing that you only introduced yourself to Dick, I’m Tyler Young, Maddie’s boyfriend.” Maddie’s entire body goes still when her mother whips her head toward her with wide eyes.
“Boyfriend?” she says with disgust. I squeeze Maddie to let her know I’m right here. Everyone else is just quietly watching the scene unfold.
“Why are you here?” Maddie whispers not even looking at her.
“We need to talk. Where?” Maddie starts to get up and I stand with her.
“Where ever you want.” I say grabbing Maddie’s hand. Her mother looks at our hands then at me.
“This does not concern you.” Oh, this bitch doesn’t know who she’s dealing with.
“Actually, anything to do with Maddie concerns me.” I’m trying to control my temper but she is pushing me.
“Maddie, you come with me now!” Maddie starts to pull away from me and I pull her back. I turn her to look only at me.
“Babe, I’m right here don’t push me away.” She is searching my eyes, I don’t know what she is looking for, but I hope to hell that she finds it.
“I’m not pushing you away; I don’t want her to be spewing her poison around.” She is sweating and looks like she is going to be sick. How the fuck can I just let her go?
“Just let me come, I’ll just be there for support. There is nothing she can say that would poison my love for you.” She searches my eyes again and pulls away.
“I can’t. I’ll be right out.” She turns to her now smiling mother. “You have five minutes, starting now.” She walks to her room with her mother hot on her heels and slams the door.
I turn and look at everyone. “What the fuck is going on here?”
“She never talks about her mom; I have no idea what is going on.” Red says looking as upset as I feel.
“Maybe this is something they need to for closure, Young. Calm down.” Dick tries to talk me down, but it’s impossible. I make my way to her bedroom door and listen. I can’t clearly hear everything, but I can hear enough.
“Maddie, I need your help. I’ve got ‘friends’ that are asking for you, you specifically. Things are slow and I need you.”
“No. I don’t do that anymore. I have a boyfriend and we love each other.” She doesn’t do what anymore? I’m getting a sick feeling thinking of all the possibilities.
“Maddie, I’m disappointed. I’ve taught you better than this. I should never have let you go out on your own. This boy will only use you until he is done with you and tosses you aside, that’s what men do. I’ve told you this over and over.” I see red, who the fuck does she think she is. Just as I’m about to push the door open, Campbell and Dick pull me back.
“Don’t do it, Young. Think about what this will do to the trust you have built. Let her try to handle it on her own, trust her to do that.” Fuck, I hate when Campbell makes sense. I pull away from them and go back to listening.
“I’m done. Get the fuck out of my apartment, away from my family. I don’t want to ever see you again. I’m happy.”
“You think you are happy now. The only thing that makes you truly happy is sex and you know it. Just come home for a few weeks, it’s the least you can do after all I’ve done for you.”
“You think I should thank you? What you do, what you made me do, is illegal. I am no longer a little girl you can force to do things. I’m an adult and I want nothing to do with you or your ‘business.’ I want you to leave before my family realizes what a piece of shit you are.” I actually hear the slap and I burst in the room. I won’t stand by any longer.
“Your daughter asked you to leave. Now, I’m telling you.” I walk over and pull Maddie into my arms while she clutches her face.
“When you are done with my daughter, come see me.” She throws a card down on the bed and walks out of the room. I hold Maddie for what seems like hours, she doesn’t say a word. When I ask her if she wants to talk about it, she shakes her head “no.” When I ask if she is alright she nods “yes.” I don’t know what to make of the whole situation, but I know that woman is bad news. She made Maddie do things she didn’t want to do and if my thinking is right, it makes me want to puke.
She finally starts to pull away from me, I let her back up a bit, but I won’t let her go. “Talk to me.” She tries to plaster on that fake smile.
“I’m good, Young. She’s gone now.” I close my eyes trying to remain calm.
“Maddie, we need to talk about this sooner or later.” She runs her hands up into my hair and kisses me.
“Later. Now let’s go figure out dinner and what time we are going out tonight.”
There is nothing I can do; I need to let her tell me on her own time. I grab her hand and we make our way to the kitchen to plan our night.
“Another shot!” Maddie is trashed. We decided to all go out for sushi then hit the bar. She has been throwing drinks back one after the other. I’ve had two beers, I feel like I’m fucking babysitting her. I know she is just trying to block out what happened today, but if she would just talk to me, I could help her.
“Young, are you alright? You are never this quiet.” Red asks with raised eyebrows. I look over at Maddie, who is throwing back another shot and dancing in her seat.
“Not really, Red. I’m worried about her.” She rubs my hand giving me that sad smile.
“Me too. Maybe she will talk to you about it tomorrow; she just needs this right now.” I just nod and turn my attention back to Maddie. I need to get her ass out of here soon before she is unable to stand.
“Are you guys ready to call it a night? I think I need to get her home before she gets any worse.”
“Yea, man. Let’s get out of here. We’ll help you get her home.” I don’t know what I would do without Dick and Campbell. After we all finally convince her that we are all leaving, we head home.
I get her into bed; she is giggling and trying to pull my shirt off. “Come on, Young. Fuck me.” I ignore her and try getting her to lie still. She keeps pulling at my shirt and trying to unbutton my jeans. It is a struggle trying to talk myself out of it. She is actually turning me on.
“Maddie, don’t you think we should wait until you are sober?” She pays no attention and continues to try to unbutton my pants. I’ve already gotten her out of her clothes, so seeing her in her bra and panties is not helping. I drop my pants and climb on top of her. “Maddie, the only way we are doing this is if we make love, no fucking.” Maybe she will open up to me if I give in to her.
“That’s nice; my man wants to make love. Well, make love to me, sexy.” I slowly bend down to kiss her. I do everything slowly, gently. I kiss her slowly, I touch her softly, and when I finally push into her, I do it gently. “Oh, Young. You feel so good, go faster.” I don’t I keep up my slow movements.
“Not this time, babe.” I kiss her gently and softly touch her hardened nipples. I pick up my pace, just a bit, but enough to have her arch off the bed. “That’s it.” I can feel myself getting close to blowing my load so I reach down and rub her clit.
“Yes, I’m going to come.” Her pussy clenches around my dick and I come with her. She is moaning and riding out her aftershocks. I am still rocking
slowly before I pull out and kiss her again. I want her to know how much I love her, that no matter what happened today, I will always be there for her. I pull her to me and run my hand up and down her side.
“So sweet, baby girl.” I go to kiss her head and she jumps out of bed holding the sheet around her.
“Get out.” What the fuck? Drunk sex is never a good idea, I should have known better.
“Maddie, come back to bed. You are still drunk.” She is shaking her head wildly with wide eyes.
“Get the fuck out. NOW!” Holy shit, I think she is serious. I stand up and look for my sweats, thinking I may be able to get her to calm down. She is pacing the room whispering to herself, “She told him. She told him.” I have no idea what she is talking about, but I know for certain, it has to do with her mom.
“I’ll go, Maddie. But I will be back tomorrow and we are going to talk about this.” I pick up my clothes and head to my apartment with a sinking feeling in my heart.
It is ten o’clock in the morning and I haven’t closed my eyes. When Young called me baby girl, it threw me back in time. I felt violated, cheap, and dirty. My instinct was to protect myself, and I made him leave. I am all over the place with what I’m feeling now. I feel guilty for throwing him out, I feel disgusted with myself for what those simple words brought back. I’m scared that I am going to pull away from Young now because I am going to defend my actions even if I don’t really support them. This is all my mom’s fault for showing up and fucking with my head. She begged me to come home and help her. I have never felt so repulsed with myself. Plus, the way she reacted to my apartment, my clothes, and Young, she had me building that wall back up. Making me question what I’m doing and if it’s all good enough. I fucking hate her for doing that to me again. It’s taken years to get out of the invisible hold she has over me, now I feel it blanketing me again.
I roll over and stare at the ceiling. I don’t know what I’m going to tell Young. He’s going to come demanding answers, answers I don’t want to give. Maybe my mom is right, I should pull away before he kicks me to the curb. She always told me that would happen, but it was never something I worried about because I never intended to be committed to anyone. Now that I have Young, the possibility of heartbreak is huge. “Ugh.” I pound my fists into the bed; I don’t know how to handle everything. Yesterday at this time, we were fucking, now I feel like I’m losing him and myself.
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