by Paul Levine
"When Chrissy's good, she's very good." She chuckled to herself. "And when Chrissy's bad . . ."
"What do you do, Chrissy?"
"I make scads of money for pouting or cocking a hip or hitting a volleyball on the beach."
"Do you enjoy your work?"
"It's all right." Sounding bored.
"Are you happy?"
No answer.
"Chrissy . . ."
"Sometimes."
"When?"
"When I dream about being married and being a mother."
I liked that. This wasn't just a spoiled, high-paid party girl. Chrissy Bernhardt had dreams of a ranch house with a white picket fence, just like everybody else. At the prosecution table, Abe Socolow was scowling, or was that his version of a smile?
"What do you want from life?"
"I want to eat hot fudge sundaes and get fat."
The jurors smiled. The answers had the ring of normalcy, of truth.
"You mentioned getting married, becoming a mother. Are those goals, too?"
"Sure. But no one's ever asked me. Ever."
"Maybe you haven't met the right man."
"I've met Mr. Wrong a thousand times." The pain in her voice filled the courtroom. "I'm damaged goods. That's what he said."
"Who?"
No answer.
"Chrissy."
"He said I'd always be his, even if I was grown up, even if I was married and a mommy myself, 'cause he was the first. He told me I belonged to him and every other man would know it."
"Is that true?"
"Yes. Everybody knows."
"What does everybody know, Chrissy?"
She sniffled back a tear but didn't answer. I thought of the song that had been playing just before Chrissy shot her father.
Everybody knows that the dice are loaded. Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed.
"I've fucked a lot of men," she said, and one of the women jurors gasped. "But I've only made love to a few. I fucked men because they bought me dinner. I fucked men because I was bored. I fucked men for no reason at all."
Now Socolow leaned back in chair and truly smiled, if that's what a shark does just before swallowing a grouper. Judge Stanger was glaring at me as if I were the circus elephant with loose bowels. I was afraid his gavel would end our little experiment before it had a chance.
"I had dreams," Chrissy said. "For years, the same dreams, snakes curling up my legs, underneath my skirt, getting inside my panties, and then inside me."
She sobbed and pulled her knees tight up against her chest. There was no sound in the courtroom other than the wheeze of the ancient air conditioning and the scratching of pen on paper in the press row.
"Tell me about the men," Dr. Santiago said.
"So many men. Always laughing."
"Why would they laugh?"
"Not out loud. Not so that I could hear them. But they laughed at me. They knew. I could tell by looking at them that they knew."
"What did they know, Chrissy?"
"They knew I was dirty." She curled into the fetal position. "Who would ever want me?"
"What made you dirty, Chrissy?"
"So long ago. So long . . . I don't remember." She seemed to drift off.
"Let's go back to that time. Let me help you remember. I've seen your pictures. You had a ponytail and you rode a palomino. How old are you?"
Silence.
"Chrissy."
"Sugarcane."
"What?"
"I'm eleven and my horse's name is Sugarcane." The little girl voice. "She broke a leg and Daddy had to shoot her."
"That must have made you very sad."
Another sob.
"What else makes you sad?"
No answer.
"Does anything frighten you?"
"The sounds."
"What sounds, Chrissy?"
"At night. In my room."
"What's in your room?"
"He is. The door opens, and he comes in. I can hear the floor squeaking even though he walks on tippy-toes. The bed squeaks, too, but I don't make a sound because he tells me not to. His voice is so rough. He sounds like a pig grunting, and he sweats so much, the bed is all wet. I get scared, 'cause I think he's sick or hurt."
I wasn't breathing. Her anguish cut to my heart. And I was getting what I deserved. After I'd discredited Schein for his methods, he still turned out to be right. Harry Bernhardt had been a slime who raped his daughter. All the fancy footwork and we were right back where we started. Chrissy had the motive, but not the lawful excuse, to kill her father.
"I pull the sheet up over my head so I can't see," Chrissy said, "and I think about an island with green cliffs and high waterfalls. I don't really feel anything until morning, when my peepee hurts. I tell him it hurts, but he keeps coming to my room anyway."
"How many times has this happened, Chrissy?"
"I don't know. Lots of times."
"Who does this to you?"
Another sob.
"Chrissy, who comes into your bed at night?"
A sniffle caught in her throat and she coughed.
"Chrissy, is it someone you know?"
"Yes."
"Someone in your family?"
"Yes."
"Is it your father?"
"My father?"
"Is it your father who comes to your bed and hurts you?"
"No, of course not. Daddy would never do that."
What? In the courtroom, time was frozen. No movement except for dust motes floating in the shaft of an overhead spotlight. A moment of crystal clarity, of blinding intensity, a moment carved into the soft metal of my memory with the forged steel blade of the truth.
"Who does it, Chrissy?"
She didn't seem able to answer.
"Who comes to you in the night? Who frightens you? Who hurts you?"
Unconsciously, Chrissy wiped away a tear with the back of a hand. A little girl's gesture. Sweet and innocent and so painful as to sear the soul.
"My brother," Chrissy said. "Guy hurts me. It's always Guy."
33
Physician, Heal Thyself
Granny was grilling shrimp on the barbecue in my backyard. Fat and juicy, marinated in beer. The shrimp, not my granny, though she was half pickled in her home brew.
Granny was still embarked on a plot to fatten up Chrissy. In the kitchen, duck-and-sausage gumbo was simmering on the stove next to a pot of black bean soup with bell peppers and bacon. Bowls of rice and chopped onions warmed in the oven.
"That girl's gotten skinnier," Granny had whispered to me as she carried the victuals into the house. "I gave her a hug and her hipbones jabbed me like bamboo sticks. It's no wonder she's always fainting, the way she eats."
Granny was right. Charlie Riggs had told me that Chrissy was borderline hypoglycemic and should be eating several times a day, and not just a little tofu. At the moment, Chrissy was curled up on the sofa, purring in her sleep. I checked on her, gently stroked a strand of blond hair from her eyes, and walked to the kitchen where Charlie was making cocktail sauce for the shrimp. I opened a Grolsch, and Charlie hummed show tunes while mixing Worcestershire with vinegar.
In the Florida room, Kip was watching . . . And Justice for All on cable. Defense lawyer Al Pacino, half crazed by a legal system run amok, was prancing in front of the jury box while his client, John Forsythe, a judge charged with rape, watched in astonishment. "The prosecution is not going to get this man," Pacino sang out, "because I'm going to get him. My client, the Honorable Henry T. Fleming, should go right to fucking jail! The son of a bitch is guilty!"
I've had clients like that. Most, in fact. But I never gave the speech. And now I had a client I would have done anything to help.
"I did the homework you requested," Charlie said. "Nothing new in the autopsy report, and there won't be if I read it another ten times. I did find something, though. The morgue has started saving ocular fluids from cadavers' eyes. Just freezing them for possible testing later. I'
ve got Harry Bernhardt's."
"And?"
"Toxicology tests are negative. I'll get the electrolyte readings first thing in the morning. Plus, I've got a cardiologist, Dr. Eric Prystowsky, taking a fresh look at the EKG. He's the best rhythm-disturbance man in the country, and if there's something funky there . . ."
Did Charlie really say "funky"?
"Good work," I told him. "I had Cindy check the business directory. There are three possibilities, so we subpoenaed them all."
Charlie wiped his hands on an apron I could swear came from the morgue, but maybe the stains were catsup and molasses. "Were my eyes deceiving me," he asked, "or was that Larry Schein in the front row of the gallery today?"
"That was him. Socolow and I stipulated to waive the witness exclusion rule. It makes sense if I'm going to ask Schein about Chrissy's in-court hypnosis."
"I caught sight of him after your client dropped the bombshell. He turned a grayish yellow, kind of like a beached amberjack."
I took a pull on the beer. "I saw. Complete and utter shock. He didn't know his old buddy Guy was the rapist, I'm sure of it."
"And you're surprised?"
"I was at first. I'd always put Guy and Schein on the same team, but I was only partially right. Guy wanted his pop's money and couldn't care less about Chrissy. Look what he did to her as a kid. He knows Schein hates his old man, blames him for Emily's death. So he tells Schein he's always suspected Dad abused Chrissy. It would explain a lot, and it would make it easier for Schein to take part in something he never would have done otherwise."
"Program Christina to commit murder."
"Exactly. Schein implanted false memories all right, but he thought they were true."
"How does it affect your closing argument?" Charlie asked.
I gave him a preview. "When we began this trial, each of you raised your hand and swore 'a true verdict render,' " I chanted in my speechifying voice. "Now you must be true to your oath. Chrissy Bernhardt is charged with killing her father with premeditation. In just a few moments, Judge Stanger will instruct you that premeditation means 'killing after consciously deciding to do so.' But Chrissy didn't decide to kill Harry Bernhardt. Lawrence Schein did. She tried to kill a man who didn't exist, a man with the head of a goat and cloven hooves, a man-beast invented by Lawrence Schein, a devil of his imagination, a man he hated, a man he consciously decided to kill."
Charlie nodded his approval. "Let's take inventory," he said while spooning minced onions into a mixture that now included chili sauce, hot peppers, plus a secret ingredient I hoped didn't come from the building with walk-in coolers on Bob Hope Road. "You proved your client really is a victim, first of her brother, then her psychiatrist. That'll win sympathy from the jury, but where are you legally?"
"Simple. The evidence is that that Chrissy was defrauded into forming an intent to kill her father. She killed someone who didn't exist."
"Sounds like manslaughter to me," Charlie said.
I drained the Grolsch and looked in the fridge for one of its brothers. "Socolow thinks so, too. On my way out of the courtroom, he offered me a plea. Eight years. Says he'll go below double digits 'cause we're such old friends."
"Which means she'd be out in six years and a few months with gain time," Charlie said, dipping a finger into his cocktail sauce, then tasting it. "Mmmm. So much better than tired old catsup and horseradish."
"I turned it down."
Charlie raised his bushy eyebrows.
"I can win, Charlie. I can win this case."
"Manslaughter's a win. You said it yourself. She killed a man. Regardless whether she was tricked into believing he had raped her, she killed him. The jury will have to find her guilty of something, and manslaughter's a lot better than first- or second-degree murder."
"They like her, Charlie. I can feel it. You're getting too hung up on the law, on technicalities. They're looking for a reason to acquit. I can feel their emotion."
"Theirs," Charlie asked, "or yours?"
This time, Dr. Lawrence Schein was ready. Pale, baggy-eyed, and haggard, but ready. He had brought a lawyer, who sat in the first row of the gallery. I liked that. This isn't Los Angeles, where everybody from Rosa Lopez to Kato Kaelin (whose English isn't as good as Rosa's) brings a lawyer, an agent, and a publicist to court. Jurors, blessed with common sense, distrust anyone who needs a mouthpiece. I planned to hang a neon sign on the lawyer at the first opportunity.
Schein took long pauses, weighing each question before answering, his eyes flicking to Jonas Blackwell, an aging medical malpractice defense lawyer who knew his way around a courtroom.
"You understand that my client has repudiated your conclusion that she was sexually abused by her father?" I asked.
"It was not my conclusion, it was hers," Schein said smugly.
"Under drug-induced hypnosis?"
"If you want to call it that."
"And suggestive questioning by you, Doctor?"
"I wouldn't characterize it that way. But I will concede this. Recovered-memory therapy is as much an art as a science. I quite correctly diagnosed your client as having been raped as a child."
"Unfortunately, you nailed the wrong perpetrator."
"Had I been right, we'd likely be here to discuss the murder of Guy Bernhardt," Schein fired back.
Ouch. A finely scripted answer, the handiwork of Jonas Blackwell, I was sure. I could have objected and moved to strike the nonresponsive answer, but that would have simply underlined it. Instead, I plowed ahead.
"Prior to yesterday's testimony, did you have any idea that Guy Bernhardt was the person guilty of raping Chrissy?"
"No, of course not."
"You find it hard to believe, even now, that your friend Guy is a rapist, don't you?"
"I believe the testimony is credible, but yes, it comes as a complete shock."
"Whereas you had no trouble believing that Harry Bernhardt, a man you hated, was guilty?"
"I thought he was guilty. Apparently I was wrong."
"When Chrissy was in your care, did Guy Bernhardt ever tell you he suspected his father of abusing Chrissy?"
He hesitated. "No."
Of course not. He'd already testified he hadn't discussed the therapy with Guy. He couldn't contradict that lie by telling the truth now.
"Who's that you're looking at?" I said, my voice just a notch below a holler.
"What?" Startled now.
"There, in the front row, the man in the suit taking notes." I pointed toward Jonas Blackwell as if he were a purse snatcher.
"That's my lawyer," he said softly.
"A law-yer!" Making it sound like a loathsome disease. "If you've sworn to tell the truth, why do you need a lawyer?"
"Objection, argumentative," Socolow said.
"Sustained," the judge said. "Mr. Lassiter, you know better than that." He turned toward the jury. "A witness is entitled to have a lawyer present in court, and you are not to infer anything regarding the witness's credibility from the fact that he does have a lawyer."
No problem. I'd already made my point.
"At any rate, Doctor, you now acknowledge that Chrissy Bernhardt was not raped by her father?"
"Yes, that's correct."
"But last June, you believed he was the worst kind of criminal, a man who would rape his own child."
"Yes, I believed that."
"Just as you believed he was responsible for the death of his wife, Emily, the woman you loved?"
Schein blinked. "Yes, he destroyed her life. Your client would agree with that."
"So as you drove to the hospital on June sixteenth, you were convinced that Harry Bernhardt deserved to die?"
"Objection, irrelevant," Socolow said. "The doctor's not on trial."
Not yet.
"I'll tie it up, Your Honor," I responded.
"Then I'll overrule for now."
"I'm not God," Schein said. "I don't determine who should live and who should die."
"Let's back up a
bit, Doctor. At eleven-oh-five P.M. on June sixteenth, you left the Hotel Astor, rushing to get to the hospital, correct?"
"Yes, I believe I testified to that."
"And you arrived at the ICU at eleven-forty P.M., where you encountered Nurse Gettis?"
"That sounds about right."
"You drove up Alton Road to get to the hospital?"
"Yes."
"And it took thirty-five minutes to get there?"
"It was a Friday night. Traffic was heavy."
"If I told you a test drive we've done the last four Friday nights, never exceeding the speed limit, averaged twelve minutes, what would you say?"
He didn't say anything and neither did I. If I really had time to do test drives, all my exhibits would probably be in color-coded binders, too.
"Where did you stop on your way to the hospital, Dr. Schein?"
"Nowhere!" The answer was too quick and too loud. It surprised even me, but I was beginning to discover that the doctor was a bad liar. Most basically honest people are.
"I'm going to ask you again, Doctor, and if you want to consult with your lawyer before answering, I have no objection."
In other words, if you're going to lie, at least do it right.
"I don't need to consult anyone," he said, eyes flashing toward Jonas Blackwell, seeking support.
At the prosecution table, Abe Socolow watched intently. He loved to win, but deep down, he was a lot like me. He loved the truth even more.
Chrissy sat at the defense table, dressed in a short mint-green jacket with silver buttons over a matching A-line dress, her hands folded together in front of her. She chewed at her lower lip. Scared, confused, trusting me with her life. She didn't know where I was going. I hadn't told her. Early this morning, she had asked what I was doing as Cindy and I pored over a stack of prescription forms just delivered to my house from three pharmacies. Playing lawyer, I had told her. Now Cindy sat in the row of straight-backed chairs between the defense table and the bar separating the lions from the Christians. Her fingernails were painted black and embedded with silver stars like the nighttime sky. Toenails, too, judging from the planetarium view of a big toe sticking out of a straw sandal.
Thanks to Cindy, I had the ammunition, and it was time to start throwing hand grenades.