‘Who’s we?’
‘Me, Jacqueline, Lucy, Auntie Ethel and James.’
‘Well, aren’t we having quite the little gathering?’
‘I’ll see you at Auntie Ethel’s. Bye.’ Damien felt a perverse amount of satisfaction in hanging up on his mother.
‘Sorry about lying and putting you on the spot, Auntie Ethel.’
‘No worries, I completely understand. You don’t need her coming here and raining on your parade, right?’
‘Thanks. You’re really are the best, you know.’
‘How ’bout you take me to the pub for tea to prove it?’
‘Good idea, we should at least celebrate your move,’ Lucy said.
‘We’d better get cracking if we’re to beat her home,’ Ethel said.
*
‘I’m off to book into the motel. I’ll save us a table,’ James called to Damien and Jacqueline as he got into his car outside Ethel’s.
‘Okay, see you soon,’ Damien called.
‘Good luck.’
‘Thanks.’ He walked inside holding Jacqueline’s hand. He hadn’t wanted to let it go at all since she’d shared her news, but driving a manual vehicle had made things a little difficult.
They’d barely got in the door when the doorbell rang. Damien, Jacqueline and Lucy went through to the dining room while Ethel answered it.
‘Hello, Jacqueline, lovely to see you,’ Tina said curtly as she joined them.
‘And you, Tina.’
‘Tina, would you like to sit, or are you happy to stand there making the place look untidy? Cup of tea, maybe?’ Ethel said.
‘No thanks, I can’t stop.’
‘Mum, don’t you owe Jacqueline an apology?’ Damien ventured.
‘What for?’
‘Are you kidding me? How about for nearly ruining her career.’
‘Damien, I’m sure Jacqueline is mature enough to see it as a little misunderstanding made by a mother and concerned citizen doing her duty.’
‘You don’t see what you could have done, do you?’ Damien was aghast.
‘Damien, stop being melodramatic. It’s not my fault Jacqueline did the wrong thing, broke the rules. I’m sure it will all turn out just fine, if it hasn’t already.’
‘It already has, no thanks to you.’
‘See, all’s well that ends well. What did I tell you? Now, I need to talk about the farm. Geoff and I are back together so there’s no problem. Nothing will change. Isn’t that wonderful?’
‘What?’ Damien frowned and blinked. ‘But he’s been cheating on you, Mum, he’s a …’
‘No, he’s assured me that’s in the past.’
‘God, Mum, open your bloody eyes for once,’ Lucy said. ‘He’s a creep.’
‘Oh Lucy, just because you don’t get along, there’s no need to slander the man’s name. He’s got a good heart. He makes me laugh and he’s very good to me.’
Damien blinked again. Where the hell had his mother gone – the strong version who was only just the other week declaring the man a lying, cheating prick?
‘It’s not just me, Mum,’ Lucy said calmly.
‘Yes, I know all about your little vendetta. Geoff’s told me. You should be ashamed of yourself, Ethel, for being hoodwinked by two silly girls.’
Damien almost exploded. He could feel the heat of rage burning his face and neck.
‘I think you’d better leave, Tina,’ Ethel said quietly.
‘Fine, I’m leaving. Anyway, I only came to say that the farm is fine and …’
‘You’ll have to get someone else to run it, then,’ Damien said.
‘What?’
‘I’m out. I told you. I’ve moved everything down to the block.’
‘But …’
‘Yes. And I hope you’ll be reasonable in dividing up the bank account and insurance. Here’s what I’ve come up with,’ he said, pulling a sheet of figures from his pocket and handing it over.
Tina snatched it up and stuffed it in her handbag without looking at it. ‘Well, so much for holding onto the farm all these years so you have a job. Where’s your loyalty?’
‘And where’s yours – to Lucy? You’ve been dreadful to her over the years.’
‘Oh for goodness sake, Damien, Lucy has always had a very vivid imagination.’
‘Excuse me, don’t talk about me as if I’m not here.’
‘Sorry,’ Damien said.
‘Not you,’ Lucy said, glaring at her mother.
‘Was there anything else you needed to say before you left, Tina?’ Ethel asked calmly.
‘Yes. Geoff and I are moving to Adelaide. He wants a fresh start. And I agree.’
‘Get your head out of the sand, Mum. He needs to leave, otherwise he’ll be run out of town.’
‘Oh Lucy, you’ve had your head buried in too many novels. People don’t get run out of towns – it’s the twenty-first century! If Geoff’s having any trouble in town it will be down to your vindictive little crusade. Whatever that was in aid of, I’ll never know. Ethel, you really should stop meddling in things that don’t concern you.’
‘These kids do concern me. And you wonder why Lucy has so little to do with you. Yep, you’re a self-centred, manipulative, emotionally blackmailling bully all right.’
‘Well, it takes one to know one,’ Tina said haughtily and strutted out with her chin held defiantly high.
‘What is she, twelve?’ Damien asked when they heard the front door slam behind her. ‘“Takes one to know one”? For God’s sake.’
‘Wow,’ Lucy said. ‘Thanks for saying that and defending me.’
‘You know I only speak the truth, Lucy, dear,’ Ethel said, sitting down and patting her hand.
‘Sure you want to be a part of this?’ Damien said, putting an arm around an obviously stunned Jacqueline. She hadn’t said a word, had sat calmly and stony faced.
‘She’s certainly a piece of work. Classic narcissist behaviour,’ she added, as if to herself.
‘I’m sorry she didn’t apologise to you,’ Damien said.
‘Damien, you need to understand that no matter what she says and how cruel she is, she’ll never apologise, even if pulled up on it. A narcissist will never believe they’ve done anything wrong. Any problem perceived is the fault of others, not them. It’s best to avoid interacting with them, or at least limit your exposure. Lucy, you probably did the right thing by leaving. Mother and daughter relationships are known to be difficult at the best of times, but when one person is a narcissist, it can make life hell.’
‘So what Tina is has a name? Interesting,’ Ethel said.
‘Any magic cure, then, doc?’ Damien asked.
‘I’m afraid not. You can’t help anyone who doesn’t want help or doesn’t see a problem. And with a narcissist …’
‘They don’t think there’s anything wrong with them,’ Damien cut in. ‘I get it. God. These last few weeks sure have been an eye opener.’
‘You could escape inside your tractor or header and get enough peace before, I guess.’
‘You’ve got nothing to be sorry about. I needed to know. I don’t want her treating Jacqueline badly.’
‘Oh, don’t you worry about me,’ Jacqueline said. ‘I’m a big girl.’
‘Well, thank God I know she’s moving to Adelaide,’ Lucy said. ‘I’m definitely not going to consider moving there now!’
‘Are you seriously thinking about moving back?’ Damien asked.
‘Sort of. Maybe. But I’m scared if I give Mum an inch, she’ll try to take a mile, and then next thing I know she’s phoning every day for a chat and popping around for coffee.’
‘Yes, and if you work from home it’ll be all that more difficult,’ Jacqueline mused. ‘People tend to think those working from home aren’t really working, certainly not keeping strict business hours.’
‘Especially narcissists, right?’ Damien said.
‘Yes, especially narcissists.’
‘And I wouldn’t mind betting if
you’re living in Melbourne or Sydney she’ll see that as free accommodation for week-long shopping trips,’ Ethel chimed in.
‘There is no way in hell I’m having my mother stay with me!’
‘Well, better start practising saying no, sis, while you’re deciding what to do with your life. You’d be welcome to stay with me, if I had the space.’
‘The spare room here’s available for as long as you want it,’ Ethel said.
‘Thanks, I really appreciate it. I don’t know what I’m going to do. But for one thing, I’m glad I came back. It’s been good to see it’s not just me who has issues with her. And she’ll never change. I just have to manage our interactions as best I can, right, Jacqueline?’
‘Yes. Exactly.’
‘It’s sad,’ Lucy continued. ‘I love her because she’s my mum, but I really don’t like her very much.’
‘Hmm,’ Damien agreed.
‘Well, they say you can choose your friends … I need a serious drink after Tornado Tina’s visit,’ Ethel declared. ‘Poor James will be wondering if we’re ever going to turn up.’
‘I’m really proud of the way you stood up to your mother,’ Jacqueline said quietly.
‘Thanks. I can’t believe how clueless I’ve been for so long. She’s well and truly played me over the years,’ he said, shaking his head.
‘Don’t be too hard on yourself. Narcissists are prime manipulators.’
‘Oh well, better late than never, I guess. And she won’t be bothering me much if she’s six hundred kilometres away. And I’ll have you to steer me right. She can do her worst, as long as I have you. Ah, Jacqueline, it’s been a great day,’ he said with a contented sigh.
‘The best,’ she said, pulling him that bit closer to her.
Chapter Thirty-nine
Jacqueline wished she and Damien could just go across the road to her cottage and make up for what they’d missed out on these past few weeks. Oh, to be alone with him. She didn’t feel like being sociable, bumping into clients, smiling and nodding politely, pretending she didn’t know any of their private business. She was starting to feel very weary now all the tension she’d been holding onto had been released. She felt as if she could sleep for a week, given the chance. But James was waiting for them and Ethel was keen to go – it was the least she could do after all her friend had done for her, not to mention all the meals she’d cooked for Jacqueline and her parents. She really was a very special person and Jacqueline was so lucky to have her to call her best friend. What a rollercoaster her life had been since she moved to Wattle Creek. At least she could look forward to good times ahead.
‘Right, all ready to go?’ Ethel said as she pulled her front door shut.
Damien, Lucy and Jacqueline murmured their agreement. Jacqueline was pleased she wasn’t the only one feeling a little unenthusiastic.
‘Don’t worry, you two, you’ll get to be alone together soon. I know you’ve got a lot of catching up to do.’ Ethel’s tone caused Jacqueline to blush. Oh, yes, the whole town would most likely know what she and Damien would be doing later, though she was fast running out of steam. She’d be asleep before nine o’clock, the rate she was going.
Ethel and Lucy strode off ahead while Damien and Jacqueline ambled along behind, arm in arm. They were mostly silent, no words necessary for either of them.
‘No matter how close I am, it still doesn’t feel close enough,’ Damien said at one point, taking the words right out of Jacqueline’s mind. ‘God, I’ve missed you – us,’ he added with a long sigh.
‘Me too. I can’t believe it’s actually over. I know it’s only been days – a couple of weeks – but it feels like we haven’t seen each other for months.’ She squeezed his arm.
‘Jacqueline, I’m really sorry for being so hard on you – for drawing such a deep line in the sand. I just …’
‘Damien, I understand. I really do. And for the record, I love and respect you all the more for it,’ she said and then gulped as intense emotion gripped her. She was shocked at the force of what she was feeling. She almost gasped, and reached out to gain support from the brick fence they were passing. She felt like sitting down and having a long, hard weep. Everything still felt so raw, so new.
Damien stopped and sat on the wall and pulled her into him. They faced each other, smiling. Damien’s smile was warm, but as Jacqueline stared at him, a shot of fear caught her heart that the smile could have been one of sadness just as easily as contentment or happiness. He kissed her on the nose and then held her a little away from him.
‘I love you so much, Jacqueline Havelock. Marry me. Not this year and maybe not next, but promise that when I’ve got everything sorted and can provide for us, you’ll marry me.’
‘And I love you too. So, so much.’
‘So …?’
‘Yes. Oh Damien, yes!’ She threw her arms around his neck and hugged him. And then the tightness in her chest erupted and she cried, great racking sobs rushing from her in a torrent. He held her to him, his face buried in her hair.
‘It’s over now, let it all out,’ he whispered while stroking her hair with one hand and rubbing her back with the other.
A moment later Jacqueline felt his shoulders begin to shake and then tears dampen her neck. Gradually all the pent-up emotion from the stress and uncertainty of the past few weeks left her, draining to her feet and into the ground. She didn’t want to let Damien go. She didn’t want him to let her go. He was her rock. Together they could do whatever they needed, whatever they wanted to do.
She felt him gently take her by the arms and ease her from him. He studied her face for a moment before cupping it in his hands and kissing her passionately. She responded, and it became a kiss the likes of which Jacqueline had never known, had never thought existed. They’d kissed before, and it had been wonderful, but it had nothing on this. Never would she have thought it possible to feel your soul actually join with another’s at a particular point in time. But if asked to describe what she’d just experienced, that was what she’d say. As naff and clichéd as it sounded, she really did think they – and their pact – had been sealed with that kiss. It was such a powerful thing, perhaps even more intimate than making slow, sensual love. A little buzz went through her as she thought of what still lay in store for them. If kissing could do this to her, well …
They eventually broke away and half-sat, half-stood against the low wall, gazing into each other’s eyes.
‘Come on, you two, enough canoodling,’ Ethel called. They looked up, startled, to find Ethel and Lucy waiting for them at the corner about a hundred metres away.
‘Oops, sprung,’ Damien said, grinning, took Jacqueline’s hand and resumed their walk. Jacqueline beamed and felt like swinging her arms and skipping. But she restrained herself to just a quiet, ‘Wow!’
It turned out to be not at all the quiet meal and early night she’d been hoping for. The hotel dining room slowly filled up and Jacqueline was stunned when Doctor and Nancy Squire arrived and sat down beside her. From Ethel’s greeting, it was clear she’d invited them. That was nice.
Jacqueline was even more surprised when people started coming over to her and Damien in the corner and uttering congratulations and smiling at them approvingly, while saying what good news it was. She nodded and thanked them very much while hoping her confusion didn’t show. How could anyone possibly know of their engagement when it had happened less than an hour ago and they hadn’t told a soul? Even Ethel’s radar wasn’t that good!
But Damien was strangely silent beside her. Did he think they weren’t talking to him? And then some words she’d recently read came back to her slowly and it all started to make a little more sense. In the board’s letter to Doctor Squire they’d mentioned something about the community. Had the townspeople known of her plight? How embarrassing. She frowned a little, unsure if she was pleased or deeply concerned. She felt herself go pale.
Jacqueline looked down, feeling a hand on hers. Doctor Squire squeezed gently.
‘Don’t worry, my dear, no one knows why they were asked to provide letters and sign a petition of support. Your secret is safe.’
Jacqueline looked up at him and almost cried again. He was looking at her so kindly.
‘Thank you. Thank you so much for everything. I won’t let you down,’ she said, willing the tears to stay unshed.
‘I know you won’t,’ he said, and patted her hand before removing his to resume eating.
The rest of the evening passed in a bit of blur for Jacqueline. At times it was noisy, verging on raucous, and often she felt herself fading out and her attention leaving the dining room and returning to the doctor’s words. People wrote letters in support of me, signed petitions, even though I’m new and they’re not too sure about seeking help or talking to an outsider? She felt warmth and comfort flow through her. It didn’t matter where she lived – hell, she’d live in a tent if she had to to be with Damien – what mattered was the people around you, the support. She’d seen this banding together of communities, but to be the cause, to be at the centre of it, well, this was something else entirely. Feeling incredibly honoured, Jacqueline thought she could now see why farmers and their families battled the elements, struggled through floods and droughts and low wool, lamb and grain prices year after year. She knew they weren’t quick to embrace newcomers, yet they’d embraced her. She was hit with another wave of emotion, which she only just managed to swallow down in time. She was so grateful to everyone, especially Doctor Squire for taking a chance and bringing her to Wattle Creek.
This was home, she felt that with every fibre of her being.
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Jessica warmed Prince up just behind the starting line. She’d studied the plan well and walked the cross-country course twice today and three times the day before. She had all the twists and turns and best places to steer Prince into the fences memorised. He wasn’t as light and quick on his feet as most eventers, so if she had any chance of capitalising on her good dressage score, she’d have to keep him to a tight line. Thankfully the course was dry – a damp, slippery track made for a treacherous, slower round.
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