by Nicole Maggi
Dedication
For the teenage me, who needed books like this to escape into and
For Irene, without whose support and perseverance this series would not exist
Published 2016 by Medallion Press, Inc., 4222 Meridian Pkwy, Suite 110, Aurora, IL 60504
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Acknowledgments
It has been a long and winding road to the end of this trilogy, and there were many people along the way who lent support, love, encouragement, chocolate, and wine.
To my agent, Irene Goodman, to whom this book is also deservedly dedicated, for her tireless championing of this trilogy and my writing as a whole. Without you I’d be scrawling words on a wall in crayon and chewing my hair.
To my editor, Emily Steele, for her kindness, compassion, and thoughtfulness throughout the four years we’ve been working together. Whenever I hit a wall, you were there to help me see the doorway.
To the entire Medallion team for nurturing and supporting all three books, especially Brigitte Shepard, Paul Ohlson, and Heather Musick. To Jim Tampa and Michal Wlos for the beautiful covers and design.
To the Los Angeles writing community for cheering me on and holding me up when I wanted to lie down. Special thanks to Mary McCoy for championing my books through the Los Angeles Public Library system, in addition to your wonderful friendship. To Tracy Holczer for your love and constant willingness to drink with me (tater tots and cocktails at the Griffin next week, okay?). To the Los Angeles contingents of the OneFours, Fifteeners, Lucky 13s and Apocalypsies for showing up at all the launch parties and for all the fun we have after the bookstores close . . . I don’t know what I would do without you all.
To the Scribblers: we may not meet every other week anymore, but our critique group lives forever. To Anne Van and Will Frank for your invaluable contribution to this trilogy’s early days. To Lizzie Andrews for your eternal support, for our weekday writing dates in search of not just inspiration but also great hot chocolate, and for your unabashed love for Heath. To Romina Garber: I just don’t think there are words to express how grateful I am for your friendship and your bottomless ability to talk me off any ledge I might be on. You are my soul sister. Wonder Twin Brains, activate!
To Tracy White, for your boundless enthusiasm for my books. You can be my first reviewer anytime. To Jason Polunci, for flying across the country to be at my first-ever book launch and for being a true bosom buddy.
To my sister, Tanya, for your infectious joy at seeing your baby sister finally realize her dream. To my parents, for encouraging my writing from the time I could hold a pencil. A very special thank-you to my stepmom, Dot, who bought me the books that made me want to be a writer: The Song of the Lioness series by Tamora Pierce, which still occupies a prominent place on the shelf reserved for my very favorite books.
And lastly, but most importantly, to Chris and Emilia. With your love, all things are possible.
Prologue
My mother tells a story of my birth.
There was a freak ice storm, and the closest hospital was forty miles away. The only midwife in the small northern Italian town was called to my mother’s bedside. My grandmother bathed her forehead with cool cloths, and my father whispered loving encouragement into her ear.
My grandfather, who thought men did not belong in this world of women’s work, was down the street at the bar, drinking Peroni.
The midwife hauled my mother up to a squat and ordered her to push. The pain was so great that my mother thought she would split in two. And for a moment, she lost reality. The room fell silent and frozen as the earth outside. Everything went dark, and all she could hear was the sound of great wings beating hard against the air. “I thought it was Gabriel, come for me,” she tells me.
But out of the darkness came a magnificent falcon, its massive wings pumping the air as it flew right for her. She screamed, and at the same moment the falcon collided with her, the light came back on. The midwife shouted with joy, my grandmother clapped her hands, my father lowered his head in awe, and I slipped out into the world.
My mother looked down at the bundle in the midwife’s hand, covered with a slick, shimmering veil of translucent blue. “Born with the caul,” the midwife breathed. “A sign of great fortune.” She carefully broke open the amniotic sac, and I let out my first cry.
As the midwife placed me in my mother’s arms, my mother knew. She knew that I would be a Walker. That the great Falcon she had seen was my soul, coming to join my body. “Walkers are born separate,” she says, “and I had the blessing of seeing you become one.”
Was it great fortune, or was it a curse? For that, my mother has no answers. “Only you know that,” she tells me. “The only thing you can control is your own destiny.”
Chapter One
The Connection
Alessia
The dark Panther stalked toward my cage of light, his emerald-green eyes glowing in the dimness of the underground room. All I could see were those eyes, that gaze fixed on me. I fluttered to the ground. Through the glittering bars of the cage, he and I stared at each other.
Behind me, Heath—the Wolf—growled so deeply that his white fur vibrated. In front of me, the Panther snarled too, and the combined rumble of his and Heath’s voices was enough to make an earthquake. Caught in the middle, I thought I would break into pieces.
The bars of light surrounding me, Heath, and Nerina shimmered with tantalizing transparency. Could the magic of my aura be strong enough to break through? Before anyone could tell me it was a bad idea, I gathered myself and flew straight into the light.
It was a bad idea.
Electric shocks fractured across my body, singed my feathers. I cried out and fell hard onto the concrete floor. For an instant the sickening scent of cooked bird filled the air. Pain coursed through me; I tried to breathe but each inhale was like a stab to my lungs. I closed my eyes. The dark behind my eyes was all-encompassing—no hint of light from my aura. It was going out, like a dying candle. Like my life source was being pulled out of me.
Something wet and cold pushed against me. Alessia!
I opened my eyes a sliver. Heath’s blue eyes bored into me. Are you all right?
No, I wanted to say, but I couldn’t summon the energy to respond. Nerina bent over me. Tear tracks ran down her usually impeccably made-up face. “Alessia? Can you move?”
I closed my eyes again and concentrated hard on my wings. After a moment, they twitched.
Nerina squatted beside me. She laid a gentle hand on my feathered belly. “The bars have magic from Angel Falls in them. She may have damaged her aura.” Nerina moved her palms over me. Warmth emanated from her fingers. “What the hell possessed you to fly into them?”
I thought m
aybe . . .
Never mind that. Can you help her? Heath interrupted me.
“I hope so. I’m using Redwood magic.”
On the other side of the barrier, the Panther growled and scratched the floor. “Shut up,” Nerina snapped. “Haven’t you done enough?”
He’s not . . . He’s worried about me . . .
Nerina ignored me and kept gliding her hands over the length of my Falcon form. My aura began to seal together its cracks, smoothing itself into a whole. The pain ebbed, fizzling into a dull ache.
I opened my eyes wide and turned my head to the barrier, to the Panther on the other side of it. He—the Panther, Jonah—lay on his belly, his nose almost pressed against the bars of light, his deep green eyes looking only at me. A low, keening whine came from his throat, setting my feathers on edge. An answering call escaped from my own mouth.
Nerina jerked back. I thought I heard her say something, but my whole mind was focused on Jonah. I could feel Heath trying to break in, trying to warn me, but I pushed him out. I could not tear my gaze away from Jonah. Everything slowed—my heartbeat, my breath, even the world around us. All I could see was the green of Jonah’s eyes; all I could hear was the sound of our breath, inhaling and exhaling in unison. It filled my mind, bigger than the ocean, until all the spaces inside me were empty. All I could see or hear or feel was Jonah.
His breath, his gaze, his being, filled me with more strength than Nerina’s healing had. I lifted away from the floor and came to settle right in front of him, so close that the only thing separating us was the thin sheen of magic keeping me in and him out. A bubble seemed to surround us, shutting out everything beyond us. In that bright, beautiful space, I heard a voice. Alessia.
I shuddered with shock. Jonah?
Are you okay? That looked like it really hurt.
I feel . . . I blinked. There wasn’t any pain, just wonder. How is this happening? I thought Malandanti and Benandanti—
—couldn’t telecommunicate? I thought so too.
Then how—?
I don’t know. It’s happened before. I heard Bree at the Waterfall the other night.
We blinked at each other. Somehow it seemed vitally important that we not break eye contact. I could feel his emotions inside my head, his fear just below the surface of his words. I stretched my neck just a fraction of an inch, careful to avoid getting shocked again. I wanted so badly to touch him. We took a breath together and let it out at the same time.
I think it has something to do with connection, Jonah said. My connection to Bree because she’s my twin. My connection to you—
My connection to you—
Our connection—
We didn’t finish. We didn’t need to. We let the unspoken words hang there in our minds for a long moment, the size of them covering everything else. I had always assumed that the Benandanti and the Malandanti couldn’t talk to each other this way, but it seemed I was wrong. I remembered the few times that we’d been together, transformed, I’d heard a crackle in my mind. That ability had always been there; it was just that Benandanti and Malandanti never needed to speak to each other as Jonah and I did. Why would they want to? Had there ever been as twisted a tale as mine and Jonah’s in the history of this war?
I have to get you out of there, Jonah said, breaking the brief reverie that we had fallen into.
If your Concilio comes back to find us gone, they’ll kill you.
And if they come back and you’re still here, they’ll kill you. He drew himself up and paced back and forth in front of the barrier. Do you know anything about this magic?
No. Bree would know, but . . . no. I fluttered my wings. Jonah—
We’ll have to make it look like you broke out, Jonah said, cutting me off. And that I fought you.
That’s all well and good but we still have to find a way out.
Jonah stopped and sniffed the bottom of the bars, as though he could somehow smell an escape route. I followed him along the length of the cage. Jonah, I’m sorry. For getting Bree involved in this.
He raised his head, his eyes soft on my face. It’s all right. It wasn’t your fault.
It was. If it wasn’t for me, she never would’ve gotten hurt.
Alessia, if there’s one thing I know about Bree, it’s that she doesn’t do anything she doesn’t want to do. He resumed his pacing. You didn’t force her into anything.
Yes, but I made her feel guilty—about you, about Mr. Foster. When I asked her to be our spy, she couldn’t really say no.
Trust me, she could have. He swung his head back to me, his green eyes narrowed. Wait, did you say your spy? I thought she was just your mage.
She spied for us first. That’s why—
She wanted the internship at my dad’s office, he finished for me. Of course. He shook himself, his fur bristling. I wish I didn’t know that. It’s one more piece of information about her—about you—that they can torture out of me.
I shuddered, cold fear rippling over my feathers. I won’t let them, I said, my words fiercer than my conviction. I don’t care if I get hurt, if they find out who I am. I’ll protect you—
Jonah froze in front of me and once again that bubble surrounded us, my mind filled with every thought and emotion tumbling through him. I could tell from the way his whole body shook that it was the same for him, that he could hear everything that was inside of me, too. It was not like this with the other Benandanti—I only heard when and what they wanted me to hear. With Jonah, it was as if a great channel was open between us, as if the depth of our connection was a conduit through which our very souls flowed to each other. Alessia, he said. His voice reverberated deep inside me. That won’t happen. Because you are the light, and I am the dark, and I will lay down my life for you if I have to.
I had never wanted to be human so badly. I wanted to wrap my arms around him, bury my face in his neck, and never let go. Jonah, we’ll get you out. Bree says there’s a way—
“Are you—talking to him?”
Nerina’s voice jolted me out of the bubble. I spun to look at her. She stood at the far side of the cage, her face twisted with disgust. “Alessia,” she said. Her voice shook with a rage that I had never seen from her before. “Answer me right now. Are you talking to that Malandante?”
I didn’t know if she could hear me in her mind since she was not transformed, so I nodded at the same time I thought Yes. Heath started, his blue eyes wide.
Tell her I want to help, Jonah said.
He wants to help, I echoed to Heath and Nerina.
“Stop it,” Nerina muttered. She pressed her hands to the sides of her head, her expression teetering on hysteria. “Stop talking to him. Stop it right now!”
Why didn’t you tell me I could talk to him? I demanded. Why didn’t I know Malandanti and Benandanti can communicate?
They can’t, Heath said. I don’t understand this—
Obviously we can because I’m doing it right now.
“They can, but they must not.” An uncontained wave of horror rolled off Nerina, threatening to consume me. I had never seen her this unsettled, she who was always immaculately put together, she who always took charge and knew exactly what to do.
She stalked toward me, her stilettos so sharp on the concrete that I lifted myself into the air, away from her. “It is forbidden. Do you hear me, Alessia? It is unnatural, the ultimate taboo—”
Nerina, you don’t understand. He’s not like the others.
Nerina stomped her foot hard on the ground. “If you say one more word to that Malandante I will punish you in the name of the Concilio!” Wisps of red smoke spiraled around her shaking fingers, her magic loose and uncontained.
I froze, hovering unsteadily at the top of the cage. I had never seen anyone but a mage with magic like that, had forgotten that Nerina was just as powerful in her own right. Nerina. Please. We love each other. I thought you knew that.
“I thought it was over!” Nerina shot her gaze between me and Jonah. “This m
ust stop. You cannot be together. You are enemies. The Malandanti will come back and kill us, and he will be part of it. He has no love for you.”
You don’t understand—
“I understand better than you think I do.” Nerina’s voice was like barbed wire. “He is using you to weaken us.”
He is not! Do you really think I’m that stupid? That I would do anything to hurt the Clan?
“You are stupid where he is concerned!” Nerina shrieked. “You cannot be trusted around him!”
Please let me explain—
“No!” Her voice made the bars of light jitter and dance. “There is nothing to explain. The only good Malandante is a dead Malandante!”
Jonah roared so loud the world seemed to tilt. I shot toward Nerina, claws out, but Heath reared up onto his hind legs and shielded her from me. I buffeted up to the top of the cage. Heath forced Nerina to the back wall, his head pressed to her hip. I could tell he was speaking to her, but whatever he was saying, he’d blocked me from hearing. Nerina bent her head, her shoulders tense as she listened to Heath. Finally, she raised her gaze to me. “But we cannot trust him,” she said hoarsely.
Jonah growled and struck his paw against the light barrier. Though his body shuddered with the jolt, he didn’t look away from Nerina. Tell her, he said to me. Tell her that I asked you to help me get out.
I fluttered a few inches into the air between them. The heat of their anger at one another was thick and stuffy. He wants out, I said, making sure Heath could hear me too. He asked me to help him get out of the Malandanti.
Heath snapped his gaze to Nerina. She stood as still as ice, her hand pressed to her heart. “It’s . . . impossible,” she breathed, her lips barely moving.
There is a way. Bree told me—
“An impossible way,” Nerina cut me off. She sliced her hand through the air. “That’s not important right now. How do we know we can trust him?”