Jag

by HJ Bellus

  At this moment, I’m grounded in the man I want to be. Nothing is going to take that away. A hard object whacks the back of my head, causing me to yelp. I reach up and rub out the pain. When I glance up, Cruz is pissed off. He always gets this way when I screw around with Layla. It’s part of the game.

  “Get your dumb ass up and get ready for class. Got all kinds of women terrified that you’re over here beating the crap out of Layla.”

  I shake my head and stand up, extending a hand down to Layla. She grabs onto it, pops to her feet, and pretends to brush her ass off.

  “I’m not scaring them. Just putting your woman here, Layla, in her place.” I smirk.

  Layla hits me with her bitch, don’t you even stare. I ignore it; that was my first mistake. I throw an arm over her shoulder and give her a squeeze. The girl is the closest thing to a sister I’ll ever have. I consider myself a damn good brother considering the amount of hell and torture I put her through. Number one fucking brother, I should say.

  Layla wraps her arm around my waist, giving me a gentle tug of her own. The little shit moves so fast I don’t see it coming. She goes right for my weak spot, and I’m not talking my cojones. Both of her hands go to my nipples, and she squeezes and twists them as hard as she can before I scream and jump back. When a man is working out, his nipples are extra sensitive. It fucking hurts.

  I have no shame. I drop to my knees, howling like a little bitch. The roar of laughter from my teammates echoes around the gym. I rub out the pain and shake my head, ignoring all the jabs about tits.

  I send Layla a glare. I make the stare intense and mean as possible but end up erupting in laughter. I lean back on the counter, cross my feet at the ankles, and sip from the water bottle, waiting for the class to start.

  Layla has brought the community together with this self-defense class, and it is empowering women left and right. It’s no damn cookie cutter class. Hell, it’s far from that, with every type of woman represented from senior citizens right down to tweens.

  Layla calls for everybody’s attention. The chatter in the room dies down as she welcomes new members to the class and ensures everyone signed a waiver form. Then she begins introducing the fighters and other staff from the gym since there are so many new students. Trick blushes like a little schoolgirl when he’s introduced. The man is shy as fuck, which I’ve always found so odd since he’s a savage in the ring. Sometimes he scares the shit out of me with the amount of rage he unleashes on his opponents.

  Right before Layla begins to introduce me, the bell above the door rings, alerting everyone to a newcomer.

  Sunni.

  My jaw drops to the floor when she walks in. A flood of regret from last night and my cock copter show strikes me hard. Fuck, I’m an idiot. The regrets don’t have much time to sink in as she strides up to the rest of the class.

  Holy shit! I stand up a little taller, realizing that it wasn’t last night’s drunken haze remembering how smoking hot she was. Her diner uniform has never done any of this to me. So why now? These last two times I’ve seen her have nearly knocked me on my ass. Sunni tucks a curl behind her ear then continues striding to the center of the group. She sticks out like a diamond in the rough. My cock comes to life just like last night, karate kicking against my boxers. I stifle a groan and move around a bit since gym shorts do nothing to conceal boners, especially the size of my dick.

  She’s wearing tight, tight black yoga pants. I’m fucking jealous of the material hugging her sweet perfection of a taut ass. Her top is the cherry on top of a horny bastard’s sundae. A neon purple tank made of spandex material pushes up her breasts, exposing the perfect amount of cleavage. God bless cleavage. Ample olive, tanned skin is tantalizing and begging for my touch.

  “Jag.” My name is repeated for a third time before I have the nerve and willpower to look away from Sunni. She makes eye contact with me. It’s the light blush dancing on her cheeks that makes me think she’s on the same page as me.

  I find Layla and the whole gym, including Cruz, staring at me, waiting for me to respond. I slick my hand back through my long hair on top and shake my head, waiting on Layla to ask the question again.

  Layla plants a hand on her hip and cocks her head to the side.

  “I introduced you three times, Jag, and asked you to say something about yourself. Is there a problem?”

  I sink my teeth into my bottom lip. I don’t miss the sparkling gleam in Layla’s eyes. She’s been eager and overzealous about setting me up with someone. I’ve been able to dodge her efforts with my manwhore ways. She knows me better than most and knows exactly what has me so flustered right now. I shake my head and turn back to the crowd.

  “Like she said, my name is Jag. I’ve been fighting since I was thirteen years old. I’m one sexy motherfucker, and I like to get down as often as I can.”

  There’s a few gasps, a lot of giggles, and one thwack to the back of the head. I don’t have to look to know it was Boss. My hand goes to the pain point, rubbing it.

  “He does get down quite well.” Bev struts up to me in a velvet gym pants and gold rings adorning each of her fingers. This woman is my damn idol; I can only hope I’m half as cool as her when I grow up.

  “Ah, my favorite student. I know I shouldn’t have favorites, but damn woman.” I hold my arms open for her.

  Bev flattens her front to my chest. Her gray hair, curled to perfection and cemented by hairspray, pokes my face. She faces the class after a few seconds.

  “Ladies, this one is mine.”

  “Sure am, Bev.” I glance down and wink at her.

  “He loves my cookies,” she announces, pursing her bright red lips.

  “The best around.” I wink again.

  I make eye contact with Sunni to find her holding her hand over her mouth as if she’s hiding her laughter. Her eyes give it all away, though. The corners of my lips tilt up in a smile, imagining how crazy this looks with me embracing a seventy-five-year-old woman. I’m betting the fact laying claim to Bev’s cookies is what has Sunni about to erupt in laughter.

  Layla clears her throat, getting the class’ attention. She divides the women into five groups. Of course, Bev and her naughty friends are in my group the first rotation. They spend more time manhandling me and petting the goods than listening and learning. At first, I tried like hell to keep them on task. That lasted about a whopping fifteen seconds before I gave in.

  I watch Sunni as she makes her way through the stations. My jaw ticks and blood boils as each one of my teammates grabs Sunni by the hips, showing her the moves. Fucking Trick is on my shit list. He played it up the most, making sure his hands were all over Sunni. Jesus, was I that obvious when she waltzed in this gym? Apparently.

  I throw down the punching bag in my arms and march over to Trick, who has his arms wrapped around Sunni. His front pushes into her back. There’s absolutely no fucking need for this. He hasn’t done it with any other damn student.

  “Enough,” I growl between clenched teeth. My jaw cramps from the anger boiling inside of me.

  The smug bastard grins at me, then dares to wink. “Not your turn, Jag. Teaching Sunni how to throw a jab here.”

  “You. Are. Done.” I grab Sunni’s wrist and tug her to me.

  She flinches for the briefest of seconds before willingly coming to me. I don’t say another word before stomping back to my station with Sunni in tow.

  “Jag.”

  I ignore her and don’t stop until we are at my station. I drop her wrist and drag my hands through my hair, feeling like I’ve leaped off the fucking deep end.

  “Um. Jag, I wasn’t finished and have two more stations until yours.”

  “Can’t see that shit.”

  “What shit?” She plants her palms on her hips.

  “Them.” I throw my arms up in the air.

  Before she has a chance to respond, Layla whistles, getting everyone’s attention. She changes up the stations to a whole class session. She’s a quick one, and I’m
sure she picked up on my temper tantrum. Sunni walks to the center of the gym, joining everyone else. I can’t watch this shit show anymore with my emotions all over the goddamn map. I slam the door to the locker room and take a well-needed shower. I was damn well ready to leave before this class.

  Chapter 4

  Sunni

  “Is he…um…okay?” My right sneaker bounces on the mat.

  The majority of the women have left after our last session. The class was amazing. The knowledge I gained is invaluable, and it was also quite a workout as well. I guess I should say a workout for everyone except the grandmas hot for Jag. I can’t blame them. The man is sex on a stick. Even his movements in the gym screamed of finesse and sex.

  “What’s that, Sunni?” Layla gives me her full attention.

  “Jag.”

  Layla bites down on her bottom lip as if she’s stifling in laughter. When she doesn’t answer, I can’t keep my mouth shut.

  “Is he pissed at me?”

  She pats my back. “Oh, honey, if I were a betting woman, I’d guess he’s the furthest possible from pissed at you.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “Madré. Madré.” A chubby toddler blinged out from head to toe with a tutu waving around her waist races up to Layla.

  My heart squeezes in a tight vise, threatening to burst into shattered pieces. The little girl’s chubby cheeks and curly black hair make her angelic. The love her mother has for her weakens my knees. I have to get out of here now.

  “Hey, Sunni,” Layla calls out.

  “Yeah.” I turn to see her with the precious little girl on her hip. “See you next week?”

  “Um, sure,” I answer fast. It’s a lie, but I have to get out of here before a panic attack sets in.

  “See you then.” Layla waves. Her sweet little girl mimics her mother’s action.

  My hand trembles on the metal door handle. I push it open and let the fresh Washington air soothe my face. Inhale. Exhale. It’s what I’ve taught myself to do. It’s the way I survive after everything I’ve been through. I collapse back on the brick wall, focusing on my breathing. My hand covers my heart, rising and falling with each inhale.

  My vision begins to blur at the corners. No. No. I refuse to allow my past to control me anymore.

  “I didn’t do it,” I whisper over and over again, focusing on each word and the meaning behind them.

  “Sunni?”

  My eyes fly open to see Jag standing in front of me. He drops his gym bag. I focus on the vibrant teal devil embroidered on his bag instead of looking into his gorgeous, caring eyes.

  “Are you okay?” He brings a hand to my cheek. His fingers glide over my skin until he cups my face.

  “No.” The truth is out before I can stop it.

  “What can I do?” Jag steps closer until his rock-hard chest brushes mine.

  “Nothing can fix it.” I squeeze my eyes shut, berating myself for letting this much out.

  “Do you not know who I am? Hell, woman, you’ve seen me helicopter the shit out of my dick. I can fix anything. I’m a damn modern-day John Wayne mixed with Hulk.” He leans forward until I feel his lips brush against mine with the next words. “Lay it on me. I got you.”

  My core flinches with his lips grazing mine. I suck in a breath, overwhelmed by the sensation. This man. I open my eyes, smile, and let a giggle escape my lips. I grab his forearm and squeeze it.

  “I was worried about you last night. I mean, it was entertaining and all.”

  “It’s not about me right now. What can I do for you?”

  Oh, boy, now is that ever a loaded question. There’s no way in hell I’m going to tell this man I’ve imagined climbing his body while licking and kissing every square inch of him. Not going there. I came to this city to blend in and hide. Being with someone like Jag is as good as being blasted on a flashing billboard.

  “I’m good. Just got caught in my own head for a few moments.”

  “Liar.”

  “Excuse me?” I tilt my head.

  “Don’t lie to me, Sunni. It’s one thing I can’t stand.”

  I snort and then recover quickly, because this man can never know the layers of lies my life teeters on.

  “Bad memories.” I purse my lips. It’s not a lie.

  “Tough nut to crack, I see. I like it.” He leans in, presses his lips to mine for the briefest of seconds. A woodsy, leather, and downright sexy scent hugs me. It’s all Jag. I let myself feel safe with his body pressed up against mine. I could get lost in the sensation.

  “How about dinner? I’m fucking starving.”

  “How could I turn down an invitation like that?”

  Jag takes a step back, still eyeing me and waiting for an answer. “They don’t call me prince fucking charming for nothing. I make everyone’s fairytales come to life.”

  “Do you ever stop?” I ask, taking a step toward him, and before I know it, we are walking down the sidewalk side by side.

  He shrugs. “When I sleep, but I’m still a damn wildcat even then.”

  “Jag, you are too much,” I manage to get out between bouts of laughter.

  “Pizza, tacos, or steak? Just warning you, though, I can put the food back like a tiger in heat.”

  I slap his shoulder. “I know this. Remember I’m your favorite waitress?”

  “Good point.”

  “Tacos,” I answer.

  We walk three more blocks mainly in silence. Jag stops before we enter the hole-in-the-wall restaurant. With his bag slung over his shoulder, he grabs both of my shoulders until I’m facing him.

  “Don’t know what that was back there or what you were battling, but know I’m here for you. We’ve all got our own shit we are fighting.”

  I nod. The concept is foreign. I can’t remember anyone ever telling me they’ve got my back. This man, who is a mere acquaintance, has no problems and doesn’t even flinch when he tells me.

  “Thanks,” I manage to croak out. “Jag, I’m a really broken person. You want honesty, and I’ll give you what I can. I’m running from my past. That’s it.”

  What he does next shocks the hell out of me.

  “Thank you.” His lips crash to mine. This time it’s not a chaste kiss either. His tongue darts out, trailing along my lips until I open to him. Jag is in complete control, roaming all over in my mouth, lapping me up like I’m a sweet nectar. His hand goes to the back of my neck, gripping it with gentle pressure while deepening the kiss.

  A car honks, breaking us apart, and like the words he spoke earlier, his kiss was the same. Nobody has ever kissed me with so much heat, intensity, and passion. I have a feeling Jag is going to destroy the pieces left of me.

  I expect him to apologize for the brazen gesture, but he doesn’t. I’d bet Jag doesn’t apologize for much in his life. He turns to walk into the restaurant. I stop him, grabbing his hand and lacing my fingers in his. It takes me a few ticks to muster up the courage to ask him a question. I squeeze his hand and go for it.

  “Why were you at the bar last night?” I wait for him to answer. I know there’s a damn good one because I’ve never seen him in there before.

  “Bad memories.” Jag raises an eyebrow.

  “Well played,” I respond. “Same goes for you. I’m here for you.”

  The waves of anxiety roll low in my belly. My head goes warm and fuzzy from the fact I’m putting myself out there. It’s been four years since I escaped my personal hell, vowing to never let anyone else in my life. And I just opened the gates to Jag.

  “Aren’t we just a pair of washed-up jock straps?” Jag waggles both eyebrows this time.

  I burst out laughing, the tender sound echoing up and down the near vacant street. My stomach aches; my soul flies with the feeling.

  I am so screwed.

  ***

  “How in the hell can you possibly want ice cream after shoveling a dozen tacos down?”

  Jag pulls the door open to the ice cream shop with a grin from ear to ear. �
�You know what they say about men with a big appetite, right?”

  “Lord, do I even want to know?” I brush my hand across the glass case holding all the ice cream.

  He jerks his chin, runs his hand down toward his crotch, then leans in to whisper in my ear. “They have a big appetite.”

  Jag’s tongue darts out, tracing the shell of my ear. I shiver, unable to step away from the seductive heat of his mouth. This damn man has brought me back to life over damn tacos and now ice cream.

  We are interrupted by an over-exuberant teen before I can respond or Jag can go any further. He straightens, steps behind me, and wraps his arms low around my waist. Jag rests his chin on my shoulder, viewing the ice cream flavors.

  “I’ll take three scoops of your Cowboy Crunch in a chocolate-dipped waffle cone.” Jag turns his head, kissing my neck quickly before turning his attention back to the teen. “Oh, and sprinkles, please. Lay it on thick. Don’t pussyfoot around with them.”

  The poor girl behind the counter blushes a bright red. Jag has such a way with women it should scare me. He could charm the panties off Hillary Clinton if he put his mind to it.

  “And you, ma’am?” The girl brushes at her cheeks.

  “Just a regular cone and one scoop of vanilla, please.”

  She sets off to making our cones. Jag tugs me back into his chest, his chin still resting on my shoulder.

  “Vanilla, eh?”

  I spin in his arms, immediately missing our prior position. “There’s nothing wrong with plain vanilla.”

  Jag glances down until I follow what he’s looking at. “My dick ain’t getting the memo you’re vanilla, sweet girl.”

  “Oh my God, Jag!” I slap my hands over my mouth at the obvious dick imprint pressing through his gym shorts.

  “Why I had to pull you to my chest to hide my excitement.” Jag grips my hips, pulling me back to him.