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by Chrissy Kolaya


  Sincerely,

  Mrs. Albert Steege

  Nicolet Ladies Auxiliary,

  Luncheon and Garden Party Committee Co-Chair

  April 11, 1988

  Mrs. Steege,

  Thank you for your recent correspondence. My husband is away on an expedition and out of contact until next month, when I expect to speak with him briefly by phone from the Lulimbi Research Station. At that time, I will share with him your invitation. Thank you for your interest in his work.

  Sincerely,

  Rose Winchester

  May 24, 1988

  Mrs. Steege,

  Many thanks for your recent invitation to serve as the keynote speaker for the Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary Club’s annual garden party and luncheon. I apologize that my travels have prevented me from responding sooner. I would be delighted to accept your kind invitation. Your suggested date is most amenable, as it will correspond with my next visit home. You may contact my wife Rose to arrange further details for the event.

  Yours in a spirit of everlasting adventure,

  Randolph Winchester

  It was with relief that the editor of the Nicolet Herald-Gleaner included the following article in the next issue, happy to note that it had nothing at all to do with the collider.

  NOTED EXPLORER RANDOLPH WINCHESTER TO ADDRESS NICOLET LADIES’ AUXILIARY

  Noted explorer and local resident, Randolph Winchester, husband of Twelfth Ward Alderman and mayoral candidate Rose Winchester, will be the keynote speaker for the annual Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary garden party and luncheon. Mr. Winchester’s many expeditions have taken him around the world, to Africa, India, Manchuria, and elsewhere. A member of London’s Travellers Club and New York’s Explorers Club, Mr. Winchester’s lively accounts and photographs of his numerous expeditions have appeared in Popular Explorer Magazine, The Explorer’s Journal, and the Royal Geographical Society Magazine.

  Mr. Winchester will share stories and photographs from his many expeditions at the luncheon. Mrs. Albert Steege, co-chair of the event, notes, “We are thrilled to have Mr. Winchester as our keynote speaker for this year’s annual garden party and luncheon. Mr. Winchester’s accounts of his explorations through the wild parts of the world will be a stimulating addition to the afternoon.”

  For more information about the event, please contact the Nicolet Country Club, Ladies’ Auxiliary Committee.

  The shades on the great plate-glass windows of the Nicolet Country Club’s dining room had been drawn, the room lit dimly by chandeliers that hung over each table. Around the room, ladies in pastel suits and floral dresses took their seats as indicated by small place cards.

  A low chatter filled the room. Randolph, Rose, and Lily were seated at the table beside the podium, as were Meena and Sarala, whom Randolph had invited as his special guests. Randolph’s invitation had also been extended to Abhijat, but he had been unable to join them, Sarala found herself having to explain, as he was working through the details of an important new paper likely to occupy him all weekend. She smiled apologetically and surveyed their banquet table, momentarily transfixed by the vast number of plates, glasses, and pieces of silverware that made up her place setting. In the center of the table were still more dishes holding cream, butter, salad dressing, salt, and pepper, all perfectly arranged, all perfectly confusing, a kind of chaos in which, she imagined, some dedicated observer might find order.

  Mrs. Albert Steege took the podium, the room quieting as she leaned, smiling, toward the microphone. “Thank you all for joining us today for the annual Ladies’ Auxiliary luncheon and garden party.”

  From her seat beside Randolph, Rose looked about, noting the conspicuous lack of any garden nearby. She supposed that by “garden party,” Mrs. Albert Steege and her co-chairs intended that at the conclusion of Randolph’s remarks, the ladies might adjourn to the flagstone patio overlooking the golf course, and from there admire the well-maintained fairway.

  Mrs. Albert Steege continued, “We are delighted to have with us here today, as our keynote speaker, noted explorer Randolph Winchester, who has only just returned from his most recent expedition to regale us with tales of his adventures in the wild. Please join me in welcoming our distinguished guest.”

  The room filled with the Ladies’ Auxiliary’s quiet, polite applause. Randolph stood, smiling, and clasped Mrs. Albert Steege’s hand in a gentle, two-handed embrace, somewhere between a bow and a proper handshake.

  “Ladies,” Randolph began, taking his place at the podium. “I am honored by this opportunity to speak to you today. I hope you will be kind enough to indulge the stories and photos of an old adventurer long past his prime.”

  Rose imagined a few of the women already falling in love at the sound of his voice, deep and velvety, his careful British English peppered here and there with a curious cadence acquired, they might guess, somewhere exotic. Looking out over the country club dining room from her seat, she thought of how the whole affair looked a bit like a wedding if not for the podium and projector screen set up beside it.

  Rose looked out at the members of the Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary. These were the wives of farmers—or rather, former farmers, who, years earlier, when the Lab campus had been “acquired,” had sold (or, in some cases, had been forced to sell) their farmland. People who had expected to live their lives as members of a small rural town, consuming casseroles in church basements at golden anniversary parties, not with the hulking mass of the National Accelerator Research Lab’s twenty-story Research Tower looming over them, and—as she had so often heard her fellow townsfolk saying—God-only-knows-what zooming around in those tunnels under the soil.

  Now, though, these ladies had arranged themselves around ten-top tables draped in white linen, peering over the centerpieces at Randolph, who stood at the front of the room in a tweed jacket, dress shirt open at the neck, his beard, which had grown wild during his recent travels, once again trim and distinguished.

  “My first great adventure, years ago, led me on foot through the mountains of the Hindu Kush,” Randolph began, “and I remember distinctly how at home I felt, a sense that I might look forever at the wild world around me. I knew that before me lay a life of exploration and of wonder.”

  Sarala, watching from her seat at the table, smiled at the rapt attention with which Lily watched her father. She tried to imagine herself and Meena in the audience as Abhijat delivered one of his papers, or sitting, attentive, in his office at the Lab as he explained the symbols and equations that decorated his chalkboard wall.

  “I must begin by telling you that I do not think of myself first and foremost as a photographer,” Randolph continued. “The images I present today are merely a grasping—always futile, in the end—at capturing the experience. And of the peoples you will see represented here…” He paused a moment for dramatic effect. “It is useful to remember that they are as curious about us as we are about them.”

  It was Randolph’s habit to begin his lectures with a favorite image, that of a man squatting before a campfire ringed with stakes upon which human heads had been impaled, empty eye sockets peering out through the smoke of the campfire and into the lecture venue. This image he projected onto the screen for a long moment before he began again to speak, waiting for the gasps and murmurs he could now, after years of experience, time almost exactly as they reached their crescendo.

  “To begin, I must tell you that my work is rife with peril.” Randolph’s voice was low and serious, causing the ladies in the audience, Rose noticed, to lean forward a bit in their seats, ice tinkling as they set glasses of water with lemon down on the tables, the better to regard him with their uninterrupted attention. “Not the peril one might imagine at first—that of cannibals—” here Randolph gestured at the image on the screen “—or man-eating animals, but rather, the perils of inauthenticity.”

  Sarala caught herself taking a reassured breath and she looked around to see how many in the audience were doing the same.

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�It is my firm belief,” Randolph continued, “that the only worthwhile way to explore the world is to live among its people—to eat as they eat, to sleep where they sleep, to travel as they travel.”

  He had come to understand that pictures of landscapes, buildings, and their surroundings held an audience’s interest for only so long. What they wanted to see were the people among whom he had lived. He gestured once more at the image on the screen.

  “It is imperative that one photograph the natives in their natural setting, with as little disturbance to their way of life as one can effect. One must at all costs avoid posing a photo. Rather, one must watch patiently as the natives go about their daily tasks, performing their rituals.”

  Here, Sarala thought back to her first months in Nicolet, how she had watched so carefully to learn and understand the ways of her new home.

  “For some,” Randolph continued, “the only way to photograph them is to sneak up upon them in their sleep. They fear the camera as a kind of witchcraft.”

  Meena, flanked by her mother on one side and Lily on the other, found herself thinking of the startled, frightened, and perplexed faces in the images from The Secret Museum. She could imagine the people in the photos wondering who this strange man was, and what he was pointing at them. She had read, once, about the superstition that the act of being photographed could steal one’s soul, and for a moment, she felt she could understand this fear.

  Randolph projected the next image onto the screen.

  “Here,” Randolph continued, “you will find women laboring in the fields, sleeping infants strapped to their backs. They are of a sturdy stock, not averse to hard work.”

  Meena watched the Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary as Randolph spoke, pocketbooks hanging from the backs of their chairs, half-finished glasses of iced tea on the tables before them, every once in a while, one of the women quietly buttering a dinner roll and consuming it in a way she imagined to be unobtrusive, tiny bites like a bird.

  “And here is shown a vigorous race.” Randolph projected onto the screen an image of barefoot natives, spears at their sides. “Theirs is a wild life, given to savagery and brutality meted out to surrounding tribes who encroach upon their territory or resources. One might well imagine their war chants,” Randolph continued, “drums thundering through the bush.” He moved closer to the screen, pointing. “These patterns of white chalk on the skin are seen by the native as a protective charm, a talisman against harm in warfare, and once thus ornamented, warriors seem to fear nothing. They are a violent people, bent on the destruction of their enemies, whether by murderous plots, cowardly sneak attacks in the dead of night, or by driving them into the inhospitable desert to certain death.”

  Meena wondered how these same people might have described themselves to this curious audience, who peered up at their images on the screen from half a world away.

  Randolph moved through the pictures, holding the audience in quiet, rapt attention as he spoke. He advanced the slide projector with a click. This was, Randolph explained, “a Nuer man,” who now stood before them, projected onto the screen, naked but for a string around his waist. The Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary seemed to draw a collective breath. Some looked away. Some held their linen napkins up to their mouths, looking, to Meena, like small children peeking out from behind a favorite and comforting blanket.

  Randolph exchanged a barely detectable smile with Rose. It had always amused him how infrequently groups of ladies like these were shocked by the naked female body—in the course of his lectures, he’d shown plenty of the standard images of naked-to-the-waist women, breasts hanging flat against their ribcages, to no noticeable fanfare—and yet, conversely, how predictable were those same ladies’ responses to an image of a naked male.

  The windows around the room looked out over the rolling hills of the golf course so that, while lunching, ladies might spot their husbands on the ninth tee, taking one swing and then another, and might thus anticipate whether they were likely to finish the round in a foul temper. Today, though, the curtains were drawn (thankfully so, thought Mrs. Albert Steege, who shuddered to imagine what someone might think were they to see the shocking image projected onto the screen beside Mr. Winchester as he spoke).

  Randolph projected a new image onto the screen—a line of young men and women caught by the camera in a fleeting moment of their dance, feet hovering above the dusty earth as though levitating. How like the images from The Secret Museum, Meena thought.

  “Here we find a group of revelers in their comely festival attire of paint and feathers,” Randolph continued.

  One member of the audience raised her hand timidly.

  “Yes?” Randolph invited, favoring her with a broad, charming smile.

  “I’m sorry to interrupt,” the woman said. “But that man in the background. Is he wearing…a White Sox T-shirt?”

  Randolph turned toward the screen. “Yes. It would appear that he is,” he said, sounding, for a moment, surprised by the revelation. “These items of our modern society,” he explained, “do occasionally make their way into these parts of the world, much as I would prefer to allow these cultures to continue on in their virgin state.”

  Meena thought for a moment—but wasn’t Mr. Winchester himself, his articles and photos in Popular Explorer, part of exposing these cultures to the modern world? She looked around, wondering if anyone else was thinking the same thing. Beside her, though, Lily had not taken her eyes off her father, and Meena chose to hold her tongue on this matter.

  Randolph returned to his presentation, projecting a new image onto the screen: a group of women standing before a dwelling of dried-mud walls, its roof thatched with wide leaves. “The people of this tribe are rather shockingly dependent upon superstition—magic, witchcraft, secret societies—decorating themselves and their homes with protective charms and amulets.”

  Sarala thought of her own home on Patriot Place. She wondered what Randolph would make of the framed blessing that hung in their foyer, of her mother’s box of recipes—for when you wish to call a child into this world, for when one must remember to be joyful.

  On the screen two men appeared carrying canvas-wrapped bundles on their backs. “Here are two of my porters,” Randolph continued. “I engaged these gentlemen on the advice of a fellow traveler and found them to be fine, loyal, honest young men willing to bear a heavy load for long, challenging days of walking.”

  A tall, thin man in a long, loose-fitting robe looked out into the room from the screen, his wild hair held down by a headband he wore like a crown around the top of his head.

  “Now, this fellow is a camel breeder, and it was from him that we acquired our means of locomotion through the desert. Here, I adopted Arab dress, finding it far superior to the clothing with which I had arrived.”

  Behind the camel breeder, in the background of the image, Sarala could see the animals processing in single file over the sand dunes toward the horizon line, the sky rising up above them.

  “We started out across the desert at midnight,” Randolph went on, “darkness all around us, caravan bells ringing as we went, the moon watching our slow progress, and the stars brighter than I have seen in all my travels. Aside from the sound of the camels’ hooves and the tinkle of our caravan bells, it was the most silent night I have spent on this great earth. Along an age-old and well-worn road, there I went into an ancient land, full of mystery.”

  On that trek across the Sahara, he had learned to wrap a proper turban. He had trekked slowly up mountains of shifting sand by moonlight, learned to train hooded falcons, with their bells and hoods of kangaroo leather.

  The screen showed a street filled with shoppers leaning over blankets lined with pots and market wares, inspecting the offerings, and overhead, balconies from which hung brightly colored, hand-woven carpets.

  “Here you will find picturesque streets and bright, vibrant markets where the local tea merchants brewed for me a strong, dark tea one drinks in clay cups fashioned by hand from th
e earth that runs beside the river.”

  For Rose, watching from her place at the table, the pictures conjured up memories of her own travels with Randolph—the ornate, latticed windows through which the women watched the world passing by, the bustling markets and bazaars, rugs and vegetables and butchered animals all lying side by side, streets shaded with panels of fabric hung between buildings, slivers of sunlight peeking through gaps, making a pattern on the ground. There, the shops opened up onto the street, proprietors sitting among their wares, luring pedestrians with a compliment or a promise of an excellent bargain for all manner of things near priceless according to them, their goods hung out into the street—cloth, clothing, dishes, and tea. She remembered how the small Arab boys in their long flowing robes had looked to her so much like miniature men.

  “Here, I lived for months in a houseboat,” Randolph continued, his voice bringing Rose back to the room, to the members of the Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary and the drawn curtains, beyond them the long green fairway, and beyond that their home—her home with Lily. Randolph continued “Up the river we traveled in our little steamer. Along the shores, children waved to us from their huts and dwellings near the water. So completely had I fallen in love with this land, with its people and their customs, that I could scarcely imagine returning home again.”

  For a moment, Rose’s breath caught in her throat. She took a sip of water.

  “In desert country,” Randolph continued, “the eye grows hungry for trees. In the heat, for cool. In the cold, for warmth. But in all these hungers, these desires, one finds adventure.”

  And with that, Randolph turned toward the audience, the lights coming up to indicate the end of his lecture.

  “Thank you very much, Mr. Winchester,” said Mrs. Albert Steege, rising to take his place at the podium. There was, again, the polite applause of the Nicolet Ladies’ Auxiliary. The ladies in the audience began to collect their handbags, and, as Randolph had come to expect, a number of them approached with questions at the ready.

 

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