“Willow…”
“That can’t happen again.”
“Why not?” He snaps.
“Because, it’s not real.”
He’s silent for a long moment, “Is that what you think?”
“Yes, you took me from my life. I went through hell and yet I’m so madly in…”
“In what?” he growls.
“It doesn’t matter, it’s wrong. I shouldn’t have feelings for you.”
“What does it fuckin’ matter how it started?”
“It’s not real!”
“It is real, what we felt then wasn’t created in your mind Willow. Why don’t you fuckin’ trust your own judgment?”
“I have a weak mind Jagger, my Mother is in an institution because she has a weak mind too. I don’t trust it to lead me down the right path.”
“You think you’re weak? Let me tell you something, you’re the strongest girl I’ve ever laid eyes on. You dealt with things others would never have been able to handle. You made it through and you’re still alive. What you feel is real, and feeling the way you did when you were a kid doesn’t make you weak minded. You’re not like your Mother…”
“You don’t know that,” I whisper, feeling my eyes fill with tears.
“Yes I do.”
“No you don’t…”
“Yes, I fuckin’ do!”
“I have to go.”
“Willow!”
“Please, don’t do that again…”
“You started that, not me.”
“Well I’m finishing it,” I whisper, then turn and leave the room.
When I get to Jenny and Ava’s bed, I crawl in and I crumble. They hold me all night long, while I sob my problems into the pillow.
CHAPTER 13
The morning comes like a rotten cold. I know what I have to face today, and I don’t know how I’ll do it. My home, my life and my friend’s lives have been invaded. I know it’s for our own safety, but I can’t get over the fact that our lives have just been put in danger, and we did nothing at all to deserve it. I hate my Father for that right now.
I get up and slide out of the bed. Jenny is still curled up in the bed, sleeping soundly. I walk out into the kitchen and Ava’s standing with a coffee in hand, staring at the two half naked men sleeping in the lounge. I look over at them, and can’t help but smile. Big bad boys in the daylight, but here and now, they just look like two normal men sleeping.
“I can’t complain about the view and all, but seriously, I can’t believe we have been invaded.”
I laugh softly and pour a coffee. “I know; it’s kind of weird.”
“I ran into Angel last night in the hall way, seriously, smack bang into him and he was…half naked.”
I smother a giggle. “Well, it could be worse; he could be fat and hairy.”
She nods in agreement, “Well, at least I get some nice eye candy while being trapped in my own home.”
“I’m sorry Ava; I know this isn’t the best situation to be in.”
She takes my hand and squeezes. “Like I said last night, you didn’t get a choice. These men were coming after you, either way. I’m kind of glad it was Jagger’s boys and not the other ones. From what you have said any way…”
I shudder. “By the sounds of it, we never want to meet Manchez.”
“Well, I guess we should be grateful then. Have you seen Captain cranky this morning?”
I laugh at her choice of words. “No.”
“Nice of him to enjoy your bed,”
“Yeah, well, I did leave him there.”
“Are you ready to tell me why?”
“Jagger and I aren’t meant to be Ava. It’s dangerous and it isn’t real.”
“How is it not real?”
“I…I’m worried my feelings are based on the fact that he was my sunshine in that darkness, and that they aren’t real.”
“You think you have that Stockholm thing?”
“I think so.”
“No, I think you’re wrong. Jagger took you and it was awful, but what I see between you isn’t fake. He stares at you like he wants to eat you up. Willow, you have to learn to trust your own mind sometime. If you don’t, life’s going to be a long…long road.”
“Yeah, maybe you’re right. I still think it’s a big risk.”
“Do you want to involve yourself with Jagger?”
“Jagger’s life is dangerous…”
“Yeah, maybe so but you can either deal with that or you can’t,”
“I thought you hated him?”
She smiles and shoves me lightly. “I love you, and I want you happy. Jagger might have taken you, and for that I do hate him but now I think about it, he saved you because if that gang had gotten to you first…”
“Yeah, I know,” I whisper.
“Anyway, go and kick that fine ass out of your bed and let’s get some ground rules laid down.”
“Uh oh!”
She grins, “Uh oh alright.”
With a laugh, I sneak off down the hall. When I get into my room, Jagger is just stepping out of the shower, butt naked. I gasp and cover my eyes, like that is going to take the gorgeous image away from my brain.
“Did you seriously just cover your eyes? Fuck Willow, are we really goin’ to behave like this?”
“Sorry, I just…”
“Whatever, I’m goin’ out,” he snaps, pulling on a pair of jeans and yanking on a black shirt.
“Jagger…”
He spins around and glares at me. “No, don’t fuck with me Willow. You either want this or you don’t, but don’t you play with me the way you did last night, ever again. I’m not some fuckin’ sex toy, I have fuckin’ feelings too. If you don’t want this, fine, but stay the fuck away from me!”
I stare wide eyed and watch as he storms out the door. Well, I guess I deserved that one. I feel my heart thumping; I didn’t see it like that. I shower quickly, and head back out to the kitchen but Jagger’s gone. Angel is sitting on the couch staring at Jenny and Ava in the kitchen; Mexican standoff much?
“Is all ok?” I ask, wearily.
“Fine,” Angel says, flashing me a grin.
I’ve never really seen Angel smile - or Ace for that matter. Both are extremely attractive men. Angel has this blonde hair, blue eyed thing going on. His body is tall and muscular. He’s covered in tatts, all the members are. I don’t know why his nickname is Angel, but it kind of suits him because he has the fair hair and eyes.
Ace is the shortest of the group, but he makes up for it in muscle. His arms are huge and his chest is even bigger. The man is filled out. He has dark brown hair that’s shabby and messy looking. His eyes are a deep, dark brown. He’s quieter then Angel, but he’s not a bad man. He does as he’s told and keeps to himself.
“Why do they have to stare at us?” Jenny whispers in my ear.
I grin at her and shake my head. “You’re gorgeous, they’re only men.”
“Seriously, I’m going to crazy by the end of this. If Ace keeps looking at me like I’m a piece of meat, I might punch him.”
“Admit it,” I say, pouring a coffee. “You love it.”
She shoves me but I catch her shy grin. Ava laughs and walks out of the kitchen with a book and a coffee. It’s her morning tradition. She sits outside on her old, ragged chair and reads with a coffee. It’s her quiet time. I wonder about Jagger, and think about asking Ace or Angel where he is, but decide against it. He probably needs to cool off.
The morning goes by quickly; Ace goes shopping and fills the fridges and pantry with yummy food and drink. I chat with Angel about my Father, and we all sit down to salad subs for lunch. I still haven’t heard from Jagger by late afternoon, and I’m getting worried. What if something has happened to him? Or maybe he’s just so mad he can’t stand to look at me.
When night falls, I hear a call pull up. Jagger literally staggers in the door, and flops down onto the couch. Jenny gives me a look and I stand in the kitchen staring at him. Ang
el rolls his eyes, and disappears off to the computer room. It’s his little quiet place. I think the man enjoys reading. I suck in a breath, and walk out to face a very drunk Jagger.
“Where have you been?” I ask when he lifts the remote and starts flicking through the channels.
“What are you, my fuckin’ Mother?”
“Ok, I can see you’re still mad.”
“Understatement,”
It’s then I get a waft of perfume, it’s strong and obvious. My heart seizes and I feel my lip tremble.
“Where have you been?” I whisper.
“At a fuckin’ strip club…”
I pick up the remote and I hurl it at his head. He whips around and stares at me, wide eyed and gaping.
“You fucking pig! What sort of game are you playing?”
“Me?” He roars. “You’re the one who can’t get her shit together. What does it matter to you? I’m just a mental attraction that’s not real, remember?”
“That’s low!”
“Yeah, well, deal with it.”
“I’m going out, I can’t deal with this!”
“Bullshit you are.”
“You can’t fucking stop me.”
“Watch me,” he snarls.
I lean down and scoop up his car keys and run towards the door. Angel is just coming out of the room, with a confused expression and Ava has rushed out into the kitchen after hearing our arguing. I open the front door just as Jagger leaps to his feet. Luckily for me, he’s drunk. I run as fast as my legs will carry me out to the car. I manage to get inside and lock it, before Jagger reaches me.
“You ain’t goin’ anywhere.” He yells, slapping the window with his hand.
“Go away! You pig!” I cry, and fumble with the key. Damn key, it’s all new and flashy and I don’t know how to use it.
Jagger walks over to the hood and leans on it, resting his elbows down and putting his chin in his hands. He smirks at me through the windscreen and I want to reach out and slap his arrogant face.
“Fuck off Jagger, or I’ll run you over.”
He digs through his pockets, only to produce another set of keys. I curse and snarl as he unlocks the car and slides in. I glare at him, crossing my arms and frowning.
“Are we goin’ to talk about this?”
“No, you’re fucking around so whatever. I guess it’s finished with.”
“I didn’t fuck anyone.”
“You smell like a cheap whore!”
He shrugs. “Lap dance, it happens.”
“Like that’s any better!” I cry, covering my face.
“What does it matter Willow, you made it perfectly clear you don’t want me.”
“I was wrong,” I whisper.
“I’m sorry, speak up, I couldn’t hear you?”
I glare at him. “You heard me.”
“Humor me.”
“I WAS WRONG! I do want you, with everything I have. It’s wrong, incorrect in so many ways but I’m done fighting it. All I do is fight it. My life is how it is, but I don’t want to be without you again.”
He grins, wide and triumphant before gripping my face and pulling me into a deep, sizzling kiss. I slap his arm and shove at him, but I can’t help the little smile that creeps across my face.
“I hate you,”
“Do not.” He grins.
“I’m hurt,” I pout prettily.
“I didn’t do anythin’,”
“You let some whore grind against you.”
He grins and leans closer, taking my face in his hands. “Didn’t even lay a hand on her and all I was doin’ was thinkin’ about you.”
“You’re an asshole.”
“I know.”
I give him a sly smile. “Good, I hope you remember it too.
“I’m sorry ok? For what it’s worth, I felt nothin’ in that club. All I wanted was you but I was so pissed off that you thought I was some mental attraction. I know what I did Willow, I took you and I screwed up your life. I don’t deserve anything from you, but that doesn’t mean I can just turn off this attraction. It’s in me now, I can’t get it out.”
“Why me?”
He leans in to kiss me again, this time he slides his tongue across my lip.
“Why? Because you’re my little ray of darkness and you fit me perfectly.”
CHAPTER 14
We spend an hour hashing out our differences and decide to take it slow and give it a shot. I want Jagger and he wants me, for now that’s the best we have. So many people will disagree with our choice, but we have to try, there’s just too much between us not to. When we’ve finished talking, I insist he takes a shower to wash off his ‘whore scent.’ He laughs the entire way back inside, and everyone gives us strange looks when we disappear into the room together.
Now, we’re in the shower and I’m on my knees, cock in hand, ready to make him beg. I want to taste him. I want him in my mouth, hard and hot while he groans above me. His head falls back onto the tiled wall as I side my tongue around his throbbing cock. His groaning is erotic, and I love to tease him. He deserves it after tonight.
“Fuck baby, suck me.”
I snake my tongue out and lick the glistening head of his cock, he growls and thrusts his hips forward but I don’t take him in my mouth.
“Fuck, don’t play with me.”
“Say please.”
“No.”
I lick him again, causing a ragged groan to escape his lips.
“Please Jagger, say it…”
“No…God, fuck…”
“Say it and I’ll suck this beautiful cock.”
“Fuck, suck me Willow, please baby, please.”
With a grin, I take him into my mouth and I suck, I torment him with my lips and my tongue until he’s arching and thrusting his cock upwards. I take his balls into my hand and I gently roll them around, which only adds to his desperate pleas. I stop and start, teasing and taunting until he’s cursing and gripping my hair, thrusting his cock into my mouth.
“Fuck, going to come, fuck.”
I feel the pulsing and then moments later I taste the salty liquid as he spurts hot and hard into my mouth. I groan and swallow, sucking until he has nothing left. When he pulls away, I peek up at him through my lashes. He keeps his hands in my hair and raises me gently, bringing my lips to his. I wrap my arms around his neck, kissing and sucking on his lip, not caring that I taste like him.
“Grosse,” he groans, biting my lower lip. “I taste like crap.”
I giggle, “A little.”
“Come on hoover, let’s go to bed.”
I laugh as he attempts to pull me out of the shower. He still has a real swagger about him, and I know he will pass out fairly quickly when we hit the sheets. I dress and dry, and then we slide into bed together. He rolls me so his chest is pressed against my back and his arms are wrapped around me.
“So, I bet you’re glad I came back now?”
“Maybe…”
He tickles my ribs and I squeal with laughter. “Alright, I’m glad!”
“Did you miss me?”
“No.”
He tickles me again. “Ok, ok, you brute! I missed you.”
“You know I’m dangerous, don’t ya?”
“I laugh in the face of danger, ha ha ha ha!”
He snorts a laugh and pulls me close.
“You’re changing everything I taught myself over the years.”
“Yeah well someone has to change you, you’re an ass.”
He pokes me and then begins stroking my arms until my eyelids are heavy and drooping. For the first time in weeks, I fall asleep completely content.
~*~*~*~*
“You animal,” Ava whispers to me as I pour myself a coffee the next morning.
I stare at Angel sitting in the lounge flicking through the television while Ace snores lightly on the floor. Big tough men my ass. Jagger’s still asleep, and Ava’s giving me the ‘You dirty troll’ speech. She heard us early this morning, I can’t h
elp it; Jagger knows how to make a girl scream. That mouth of his, my God.
“I’m not dirty,” I say, sliding my butt onto the bench. “We have a connection.”
“Yeah, it’s call his dick in your…”
“I can hear you!” Angel yells, smothering a laugh. I smile at Angel’s new personality. Living with him is bringing out the fun side to Angel. I didn’t know he had one.
“Sorry Angel,” I giggle and lower my voice. “Seriously though, I know it’s crazy to you but I like him Ava, he makes me happy.”
“He’s an angry ass, but if he makes you happy...”
“He does and besides, if he hurts me, I’m sure you’ll kick his ass.”
“Damn right I will,” She grins, putting up her fists. “But seriously, if you’re going to bang him, keep it down.”
I choke on my coffee and kick her lightly. “Wear earplugs.”
She rolls her eyes just as Jenny walks into the kitchen, pouting.
“There’s a fucking skid mark in my toilet.”
Ava and I burst out laughing, causing Ace to bolt upright from his spot on the floor. Jenny frowns at us, but moments later she’s laughing too.
“I can’t believe we have to live with three men!”
“They aren’t so bad.” I grin, shaking my head.
“Well, at least they’re nice to look at.” Ava mutters, staring at the two men.
Angel stands, wearing only boxer shorts. When he smiles, he has a killer grin. It’s quite nice to look at. Ava flushes when he stares at her and winks.
“Did he just wink at you?” I giggle.
“Don’t even go there, I was walking to the bathroom last night and I slammed into him AGAIN. This time though, he was naked…and hard. I’m sure he’s doing it on purpose,” she whispers, flushing.
“Oh my God, you copped a feel of Angel’s dick.”
“Shut up Willow!! This is all your fault!”
Just then Jagger walks in, his hair all ruffled and his body hard and firm. We all stop talking and stare as he runs his hands through his hair in an attempt to straighten it up.
“Take a picture ladies, it lasts longer,” he mutters.
We all burst out laughing. He grins and walks over to me. He nestles himself between my legs and pulls me in for a kiss so hot Ava groans and makes a gagging sound. When I pull back, flustered and hot, Jagger turns away.
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