"Thank you for the advice. You could write a book and call yourself A Gentleman of Distinction."
"Stop watching him," he growled low.
"I'm studying his technique. He's good, isn't he?"
"How would you know?" He swung her farther away. "You've never seen anyone waltz before in your life."
"Switch!" Tris called.
Not to be outdone by Juliana, Alexandra rushed to grab one of the little cakes before meeting him. Her sisters laughed, but the smile Tris gave her made her knees turn to jelly.
Yet when his arm came around her, his sure guidance kept her twirling in perfect rhythm. She felt giddy, lightheaded. As their gazes held, she wondered whether to attribute that to the motion or to him.
Him. Definitely him.
Wishing he'd never let go, she searched for a neutral topic of conversation. "If you never go out in society, when did you learn how to waltz?"
"Directly after my uncle died, when I first inherited the marquessate."
Before the scandal broke out, then. "Did a dancing master teach you?"
"No." When she just looked at him, he added, "A woman taught me."
If she hadn't turned green before, she surely did now. "A woman? Who?"
It was possibly the rudest question she'd ever asked.
"It doesn't signify," he said, somehow managing to sound both evasive and blithe. "Just someone who hoped to dance with me at many balls."
He spoke in past tense, Alexandra consoled herself. Quite obviously, that woman's hopes had ultimately been dashed. But she hated her, regardless.
Even though she couldn't remember hating anyone before.
"Switch!" Griffin yelled, sounding so annoyed she was glad her next partner was Boniface instead of him.
She gave the butler a big smile. "You're surely improving, Boniface."
"Thank you, my lady." He stumbled. "Pardon me."
"No, no, you're doing fine." Since he didn't seem to be leading her, she led him instead. "Just think, you'll be able to waltz at the next servants' ball."
"I think not, my lady. I don't believe waltzing is my forte."
"Oh, bosh," she said, although she agreed. "You're doing just fine."
"Switch!" Tris called.
Griffin started twirling her with a little more gusto than necessary. "What were you two talking about so intently?"
"Boniface fears that waltzing is not his forte."
"Not Boniface. You and Tristan."
"Goodness, Griffin. That was a good two minutes ago. I cannot remember the conversation, but I'm certain it wasn't anything significant."
"He was holding you too close."
"No, he wasn't. You're not holding me close enough. There's a reason some people think the waltz is a scandalous dance, I'll have you know."
"Switch!" Tris called. While Alexandra headed to fetch him a chocolate cake, he added, "You're all doing splendidly."
"Good," Griffin said. "Because we're all finished."
Alexandra turned to protest, her gaze swinging past her brother and over to Tris. As she met his eyes, she felt that connection slam into her once again.
Her knees started shaking.
Sweet heaven, Griffin was right. Tris had been holding her too close. And she'd been encouraging him, not to mention flirting and acting jealous.
All wrong, so wrong. Tris was wrong for her, wrong for her family, wrong for her sisters.
She took the plate of remaining cakes and held it before her like a shield. "I'll go put these in the dining room," she said, keeping her tone as casual as possible. When Tris gave the sweets a longing glance, she released a tense laugh. "Don't worry; we'll save them for you. They'll go well with your port after dinner."
She didn't breathe until she'd escaped, leaving the sweets on one of the dining room's side tables and her heart in the great hall.
NINETEEN
WITH ONLY A day and a half left before the ball—and less than that before Tris departed—Alexandra was finding it hard to sleep. Still lying awake in her bed well after midnight, she sighed and lit a candle, leaned back against her pillows, and slid a copy of Mansfield Park off her night table.
Then sat with it unopened on her lap.
Unless one could count fleeting glances, she hadn't seen Tris in the two days since the dance lesson. He'd ordered his meals brought to the workshop, where he was building the second pump. But his rush to finish didn't really explain his avoidance.
Nor did it explain why, the few times she'd caught sight of him, she'd walked the other way.
It seemed silly and childish—and wrong somehow—and each time it happened, she swore to herself it would be the last. But after all, it took two to play the game. She suspected that, like she, he'd been surprised by the strong connection they'd felt while waltzing. Surprised and dismayed. For both their sakes, nothing like that must ever happen again.
If only things were different.
According to Griffin, although the incessant rain had delayed completion of the new pipeline, the pump was ready, and Tris would be leaving after they installed it tomorrow. A full day before the ball, just as planned. Griffin was jubilant, but her feelings on the matter ran to melancholy mixed with relief.
Well, she told herself sternly, staring into space wasn't going to change anything. With another sigh, she opened her book. But she hadn't read two paragraphs when her attention was claimed by the prolonged creak of a slowly opening door.
Apparently she wasn't the only one finding sleep hard to come by this night.
She heard furtive footsteps, followed by a soft knock and murmured conversation. Her sisters, she was sure of it. Puzzled, she waited for them to fetch her too, but instead their voices receded down the corridor, leaving her feeling very much alone.
In the next quarter hour, she read the same page of Mansfield Park countless times while wondering what Juliana and Corinna were up to and why they hadn't invited her to their middle-of-the-night rendezvous. Now hurt warred with all her other emotions. Only pride kept her from seeking them out.
Until she heard movement in the dining room, which was directly below her chamber. A thud, as though perhaps someone had stumbled. And other muffled noises.
Curiosity overcame pride.
Without thinking too much, she set her book aside and climbed from her blue-draped bed. She tied a wrapper over her nightgown and, taking the candle, tiptoed from her room past her sisters' open doors and downstairs.
Walking through the picture gallery toward the dining room, she considered what she should say when she found Juliana and Corinna. Should she act wounded or surprised? Disapproving or conspiratorial? Would she join them or suggest they return to their beds?
She'd play it by ear, she decided, depending upon their attitudes. Hopefully, they'd all have a good laugh. That could go a long way toward releasing some of her tension.
Anticipating a little sisterly mischief, she rounded the corner into the dining room.
And stopped short, bobbling the candle in her hand.
Her sisters weren't there. Instead, Tris stood with his back to her, barefoot, wearing a long dressing gown of rich burgundy brocade belted loosely around his waist.
Though he was more than decently covered, the sight of him in such intimate clothing made her mouth go unnaturally dry.
Standing by a gothic mahogany side table, he was devouring what remained of the little chocolate cakes she'd left there yesterday morning. The embroidered cloth she'd laid over them sat crumpled on the floor.
He had yet to notice her. Recovering her composure, she laughed softly and walked closer, determined this time not to flee in the opposite direction. "Sneaking sweets, are you?"
The last cake in his hand, he turned to her. "Alexandra."
Placing the candle on the side table, she knelt to retrieve the cloth. "We missed you at the last few meals. But you could have asked if you wanted more." She straightened, setting the cloth on the table, too. "I'd have sent them to you in
the workshop."
He tilted his head, giving her a look so calculatedly innocent—his smile vague, his eyes deliberately blank—that she laughed again. "I'm going to tell everyone you're a sweet thief."
The cake fell from his fingers and landed with a little plop on the carpet. "Alexandra," he repeated and reached for her, dragging her into his arms.
Though stunned, she went willingly. Her heart seemed to roll over in her chest as his mouth came down on hers. His lips were soft, but also demanding, insistent. His tongue sought hers in a gentle dance of desire, and a shiver of pure want rippled through her.
Although she hadn't thought it possible, this kiss was even more thrilling and intimate than their first one. It wasn't new to her, so she didn't hesitate this time. Instead she allowed herself to sink into the experience, responding to his desperate tenderness with breath-stealing explorations of her own. His mouth felt like hot, wet silk. He tasted of sugar and chocolate and Tris, a blissfully sweet combination.
One of his hands cradled the back of her head while the other splayed flat against her back, pressing her against his hard body. She wrapped her arms around him, scandalized to discover he wore nothing beneath the dressing gown—nothing besides skin so warm it radiated heat through the fine fabric. She skimmed her hands over his back, feeling muscles earned by the hard work of a man who was much more than an idle aristocrat.
Much too much for her.
Reluctantly, she pulled away. "We cannot," she whispered.
The look he gave her was so odd and intense, it seemed to go right through her.
"I—I need to go back to my room," she stammered. When he didn't reply, she added, "I'm sorry," even though she wasn't sure what she was apologizing for.
He nodded, his lips curving in a sad almost-smile.
"We should both go back to our rooms," she said more firmly. "Good night."
"'Night," he echoed and turned to exit the far end of the room.
Almost against her will, she followed him to the doorway and watched him slowly traverse the long length of the torchlit great hall, standing there until he disappeared into the dark corridor that led to the guest chambers.
He didn't look back.
She released a long, shuddering breath before retrieving her candle and starting upstairs. All the way down the picture gallery, the little flickering light reflected off the canvases on the walls—all her solemn, disapproving ancestors.
She shouldn't have allowed Tris to kiss her again.
But now that he had, all she could think was that she wanted more.
She didn't remember actually going upstairs, didn't remember walking through the high gallery or down the corridor past her sisters' rooms. She was settled beneath her covers before she realized their doors had been closed and they must be safely back behind them.
So much for some sisterly mirth to release her tension and help her relax. She blew out the candle and listened to the rain, wondering if she'd ever sleep well again.
"THERE'S OUR thief!" Alexandra proclaimed loudly when Tristan arrived late for breakfast the next morning.
Spreading marmalade on toast, Juliana tittered. "What can you mean?"
"Do you see the plate of chocolate cakes that isn't on that sideboard? Tris sneaked in here and finished them in the middle of the night."
Though Tristan was weary and distracted—thinking about how to fix the pump he'd discovered damaged this morning—he vaguely wondered why Alexandra was suddenly so friendly and cheerful when they hadn't so much as talked in a day and a half. He dropped onto the chair a footman pulled out. "I did what?"
"Don't try to act the innocent," she accused gaily. "I caught you red-handed. Or perhaps I should say brown-crumbed."
"You did?" He raised a hand to his mouth and absently wiped away nonexistent crumbs. "Very well, I confess. I cannot resist your sweets."
Her sisters both laughed. Griffin frowned. And Tristan wracked his brain.
Despite his "confession," he had no memory of leaving his room in the middle of the night. While plastering a smile on his face, he groaned inwardly, more distressed by this news than he'd been by the broken pump.
Apparently, he was sleepwalking again.
All of his life, Tristan had been an occasional sleepwalker. For years, he'd suffered through mornings where people informed him of his own doings the night before—often comical doings, none of which he ever remembered. After some of these episodes, his schoolmates—Griffin included—had teased him mercilessly.
As he'd grown, the episodes had become fewer and farther between—eventually far enough between that he was able to discern a pattern. He was most likely to sleepwalk when under pressure of some sort. As an adolescent and even more so as an adult, the infrequent occurrences seemed to be brought on by emotional stress.
After several years of peaceful nights, he'd decided he must have outgrown the odd habit. But now it was back. Since he wasn't personally affected by Griffin's irrigation problems and had no great concerns of his own, that could mean only one thing…
He was more attracted to Alexandra—and frustrated by his inability to do anything about it—than he'd allowed himself to believe.
He needed to install this pump and go home. For good. Social isolation had its drawbacks, but it had afforded him a peace he could only hope to reclaim.
"You rose late," Griffin commented.
"To the contrary, I've been awake for hours." Tristan held out his cup for coffee. "I've been in the workshop. We won't be installing the pump today."
"Why not? It operated perfectly during the test last night—"
"Well, someone—or something—bent the shank. The valve no longer works. I don't expect you have any wild animals about the premises?"
"Nothing capable of—"
"Juliana and I are finished," Corinna interrupted. "May we be excused? Madame Rodale has arrived for our final fittings."
Looking distracted, Griffin waved a hand. "Go." When Alexandra didn't follow, he turned to her. "Aren't you going with them?"
"I'll join them in a moment," she said quietly and looked to Tristan. "Are you feeling quite well this morning?"
He noticed she was wearing his cameo again and wondered about that. "As well as I expect one can when one's work has been destroyed." Not feeling hungry, he put down his fork. "The piece will have to be recast, and the entire pump taken apart to reinstall it. This will set us back a day, if not more. I've thought of going home and returning, but…" He trailed off, not wanting to sound selfish.
"That would cost you another two days of your life," Griffin finished for him. "Besides, I promised Rachael the job would be finished."
"Then you'll be here for the ball," Alexandra said, looking dazed.
Tristan hadn't attended a ball in four years, and he didn't intend to start now. "I may still be here at Cainewood, but I won't be attending." He rose and turned to Griffin. "You might think about placing a guard at the workshop when I'm not there—being a lumber room, it has no proper door. However this came about, we'll want to make certain it doesn't happen again."
In a dark mood, he headed off to the foundry.
TWENTY
IN CONTRAST to Tristan's mood, the atmosphere in the drawing room was jubilant. The rain had finally stopped, and summer sunshine streamed through the windows; if the weather held but a day, they'd have a beautiful evening for the ball.
Madame Rodale and her two assistants swarmed about, making last-minute tucks here and tiny adjustments there. While Alexandra slipped into her new dress, Juliana and Corinna chattered excitedly, admiring each other's choices.
"You look beautiful." Corinna tweaked one of Juliana's short, puffed sleeves, which were decorated with knots of pale pink ribbon. "That blush color is so becoming on you."
"A Lady of Distinction would approve." Juliana grinned. "Now, as for your bright jonquille…"
"I adore it." As Corinna twirled, her skirts belled out, pearls shimmering all over the sheer top laye
r. Entwined with strings of yet more pearls, a drapery of lace went all around the bottom. "Doesn't Alexandra look lovely, too?"
Trying to smile, Alexandra settled her skirts into place. The dress certainly wasn't blue; shimmering in the morning light, the pinkish-purple amaranthus hue looked almost shocking. The hem was embellished with white velvet roses and a wide rouleau of amaranthus. Below that, a row of dangling white tassels alternated with sparkling white beads, nearly skimming the floor.
She'd never felt so pretty. But she could no longer hold her tongue.
"You two did it, didn't you? I heard you leave your rooms last night, so don't try to deny it."
"Deny what?" All innocence, Corinna adjusted her tiny, tight yellow bodice.
"That you ruined Tris's new pump." Alexandra didn't wait for confirmation. "And all for naught, as it turns out. He's determined to avoid the ball, and nothing you do will convince him otherwise. You ought to be ashamed of yourselves."
Though Juliana didn't try to play coy, she didn't look ashamed, either. "We did it for you. We thought if Tristan attended—"
"Our other guests won't welcome him. Stop dreaming, will you? I'm not going to marry him, and nothing you do will change that." Nothing Tris could do would change that, either. Not even middle-of-the night kisses that made her melt. "Now, Griffin is paying for this ball for the express purpose of finding me a husband. I'm planning to do my best to have a proper attitude and make the most of it."
The sound of applause came from the doorway. "I missed the majority of that speech," a voice came from behind them, "but I heartily approve of the last part."
They all turned to see Griffin.
At the sight of them, his eyes all but popped out of his head.
"Aren't our dresses exquisite?" Performing a few happy waltz steps, Corinna turned in a circle.
"Um, yes. Pull your sleeves up, Juliana, will you?"
She tugged at them, but the dress was designed to be off the shoulder. "They won't go."
One by one, he eyed their dresses' waistlines—as high as possible to enhance pert young busts—and their low-cut, cleavage-baring necklines—if one could call them that, since they weren't anywhere near their necks.
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