I sat up in the bed and took deep breaths, trying to regain my composure as jolts of rage surged through me.
“Calm down, Tisha. She’s not worth your anger. Think about Jerrod…think about his love.” I said to myself as I envisioned Jerrod’s sexy, dark chocolate skin, deep dimples, and beautiful hazel eyes.
In no time my breathing returned to normal and I felt my body relax as I laid back in my bed. The last thing I remembered was imagining Jerrod’s face and feeling his lips pressed against mine as we kissed in the hallway at school.
The next thing I knew I was being yanked down to the foot of the bed by my ankles and someone was pulling off my gown. I opened my eyes and tried to focus on the figure hovering over me as the bright light beamed down hurting my eyes. I squinted and used my hand to block the light as I tried to adjust my eyes to see. When my vision finally came into focus, I almost died as I looked into the face of destruction.
Chapter 8
Suddenly Jerome’s big, ashy lips were over my mouth and part of my nose making it difficult to breathe as I pulled my knees up into his chest and tried to peel the fucking skin off of his face with my nails. I couldn’t believe what was happening as I continued to fight Jerome and he continued to put his stinky, cigarette smelling tongue all down my throat. I felt vomit rise up into my esophagus as Jerome touched my uvula with his tongue and moaned out my name.
“Ummmm, Tisha, I finally caught you alone, huh? Too bad I’m not alone…so let’s get this ménage a trios started.” Jerome said as my heart beat a mile a minute and someone suddenly grabbed my arms pulling them over my head as Jerome buried his face in my vagina.
I looked up to see the upside down face of a man about thirty years old with a fat stomach and huge lips. He had on a dirty wife beater and gray, dingy jogging pants that had a huge hole in the crotch. He smiled at me and licked his lips as I screamed and yelled while trying to squeeze Jerome’s brains out with my inner thighs.
“LET ME GOOOOOO! DENISE, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME, YOU BITCH? I DID WHAT YOU SAID, STOP THEM PLEASSSEEE! TERRICKA, HELP ME!!” I screamed and cried as Jerome came up from licking on me with a huge smile on his face, smacking the insides of my legs so hard he left his hand print behind.
I yelled out in pain and tried to kick again as I glared at Jerome with hate. He laughed before putting his knees on my ankles to pin my legs down as he went in his pocket and got a rubber out to slip it on. I spit and cursed at him as he took his penis out, put the condom on, and licked his tongue out at me.
“What the fuck I tell you last time, princess? You doing all this fighting when I’m gonna get it anyway. Now be a good little hoe like yo mama, or else.” Jerome said as he laid his fat, stinky body on top of mine and told the man to let my wrists go.
As soon as he let go of my hands, I went crazy punching and kicking Jerome as hard as I could, trying to get him off of me; however, there was no use. My little licks had no effect on the massive beast who was having his way with me. If anything, it just annoyed him and in a sick ass way turned him on. He quickly smacked me across the face as I continued to scream and fight. The impact from the slap with his big, rusty hand was so hard my ears began to ring as my teeth chattered. I was so discombobulated that I couldn’t do anything as he flipped me on top of him in the bed and the other man snatched my gown off, throwing it on the floor.
Jerome entered me rough and hard, causing me to let out a blood curdling scream as I fought and he held me tightly around the waist. Pain and rage surged through my body as I did all I could to get away from the monster holding me. As I continued to fight, Jerome and he laughed. I could suddenly feel the other man’s hands on the back of my thighs as he ran his fingers up my leg to my ass. I squirmed and tried to knock his hands off of my ass as Jerome continued to thrust inside of me and tears ran down my cheeks. I was trying as hard as I could and praying to God for help, but it seemed no one heard my cries.
For a second, I just gave up as Jerome moved me up and down on top of him and licked on my breasts while the other man put his entire face in my ass. That was the worst moment of my life as I laid there defeated, motionless being violated in ways no human, let alone a child, should ever experience. I felt a piece of me die that second as the man who was licking my ass licked all the way up to my ear before kissing and licking my neck. I gagged and dry heaved as the shitty smell of his breath hit my nose and he grabbed the back of my hair to pull my head back.
“Little bitch, you in no position to act siddity. I paid good money so I expect a good nut, now act like the good little hoe I heard you are. I got 10 inches of hard dick I know you will like.” The stanky, foul mouth bastard on my back said, holding my hair as he licked my neck again before ramming his penis into my anus.
The pain I experienced that second was like no other pain I had ever felt. Suddenly, my eyebrows were burning, I couldn’t breathe, and every muscle in my body was stiff. I felt like I died at that second as he ripped open the one hole on the human body never intended to be an entrance and proceeded to thrust and gyrate his hips. I gasped and clawed at Jerome’s eyes as the man on my back slowly slid himself deeper inside of me and Jerome squeezed my waist as he pumped faster.
My head began to spin and I think I blacked out or went into a trance for a second because the next thing I knew Jerome was screaming out in pain. I suddenly broke out of his embrace and planted my knee right in his nuts as I punched and clawed at his eyes. My quick actions knocked the man on my ass to the floor as Jerome continued to scream and I tried to get up to run. When I lifted up on my knees, they felt weak and there was excruciating pain in my ass and the top of my thighs.
I could feel the warm blood running down the back of my legs as I put one foot on the floor and prepared to get the fuck away. The only problem was before I could even put my other shaking, weak leg on the bed, Jerome sat up and punched me in the stomach so hard vomit spewed out of my mouth all on the wall and floor. I fell forward on the bed gasping for air as pain shot up through my stomach to the top of my head. It felt like Jerome had broken every bone in my body with that punch because I could feel it rattle in my soul. In seconds Jerome was up on his knees in the bed, pinning me down to the bed by my neck as he punched me in my side and back.
“Bitch have you lost yo fucking mind. You little bitches have no manners, so I guess I gotta teach you the same way I teach Roxxy when she don’t wonna please daddy! Stupid Little bitch!” Jerome yelled into my ear as he punched me over and over again as I gasped for air.
I thought he was going to beat me to death as I squirmed under his grip, getting the worse of the punches he was throwing in my arms as I blocked. After a couple of more punches, the pain became unbearable and I passed out, falling limp on top of Jerome.
When I opened my eyes, I almost forgot where I was at until I felt the pressure of someone’s hand around the back of my neck pinning me to the bed as they thrust inside of me from behind. I squirmed and tried to scream as Jerome moaned and the man with him yelled out his name.
“JEROME…nigga, I’m outta here. I didn’t sign up for beating and fucking unconscious young hoes. Nigga, you gone go to jail by yo muthafucking self.” The man said as he left out of the room leaving the door open.
I screamed and stretched my neck as far as I could to see into the hall once the man left. When I was finally able to see outside the room, I could do nothing but scream as I watched my mother walk passed the door smoking a cigarette and smiling at me before going down the steps and leaving the house. I felt my heart stop when I heard her slam the door behind her so hard that the windows shook. My body began to shiver and I cried from my soul as I learned that love really didn’t love nobody, especially not me. My mother had tricked me into showing her love again, and in return she spit in my face. My heart was broken as I laid there beneath a woolly mammoth sobbing.
“Aww lil Tisha, it’s gonna be okay.” Jerome whispered into my ear laughing as he continued to thrust deep
and hard inside of me from behind.
“It’s okay because I gotcha. Don’t nobody want you or care about you but me. You my lil hoe now. I gotcha since nobody else does.” Jerome said laughing as he stuck his tongue in my ear and thrust inside of me.
I closed my eyes as tears ran across my face, ready to give up and just face my fate as a hoe. I was ready to be defeated and let every nasty thing people in the hood had ever said about me come true. I was on the verge of just jumping into the dark side and letting go until I heard the words of our Salvation Song in my mind, telling me to hold on. I could hear my sister singing the lyrics too and willing me to hold on because she was on her way. All of my pain seemed to disappear in that moment as I opened my mouth and began singing the lyrics to the song, throwing Jerome off.
“Nothing is forever what we’re hoping for,
No more pain so don’t you cry anymore.
Hold your head up high and dry yo tears,
Let me help you through and erase yo fears.
We’ll overcome it all if we stick together,
We just gotta believe nothing lasts forever (nothing lasts forever).”
I sang from my heart as tears streamed down my face.
Suddenly, as I continued to sing and Jerome was frozen on top of me just staring into my face, I got a glimpse of my sister as she slipped into the room behind Jerome. She was holding the same metal bat my mother broke her hand with. I held my breath as I watched my sister raise the bat up high over her head and knock the fuck out of Jerome’s nasty, rapist, pedophile ass. The impact from the blow with the bat was so loud when it hit Jerome’s skull it sounded like a basketball hitting concrete.
Jerome fell off of me and on to the floor immediately as Terricka dropped the bat and rushed over to help me up to my feet. I felt a little more strength and was able to move my legs better as I stood up and grabbed my gown to put it back on. Terricka helped me pull it over my head and as soon as it was down, covering my body and I could see, I realized we had fucked up. Jerome was up on his feet standing right behind Terricka with the ugliest look I had ever seen on his face. He grabbed Terricka by the back of her neck with both hands, lifting her up off her feet as I screamed and ran over to the bed.
I reached under the mattress searching for the knife my uncle Scooby gave me as I watched my sister squirm in the air and claw at Jerome’s hands as her eyes rolled in the back of her head. I found the knife in seconds and quickly flicked it open like my uncle taught me before lunging at Jerome and sticking him in the left side of his lower stomach. I stuck the knife in as hard and deep as I could, causing him to drop my sister and grab his abdomen. Terricka got up on her feet and ran over to me as we stood there frozen for a few minutes while Jerome yelled and growled as he pulled the knife out, throwing it on the floor. We screamed and ran for the door just as he grabbed Terricka in the back of her hair slanging her to the floor.
Jerome was like a wild animal as he slung my sister around the room and I jumped on his back. He drug Terricka over to the wall as he turned around to pin me against it using his body. I felt out of breath from his massive weight against my little petite body and welcomed the relief that came when he finally walked away, leaving me to slide down the wall. I laid there out of breath for a second as Jerome carried my sister over to the bed and began pulling her clothes off as she fought him. I gathered my strength and jumped on his back screaming, only to have him flip me over his head on to the bed, pushing Terricka to the side as he straddled me. He put both of his hands around my neck and squeezed as I felt my eyes bulge out of my head and spit run from my mouth.
Just as everything began to get blurry and I was about to lose consciousness, I felt Jerome suddenly stop moving. I watched as his eyes popped out of his head and he opened his mouth but no words came out. I looked around him and saw my sister standing there behind him with the knife in her hand as she stabbed him over and over again, fast and with precision. After about four good stabs, Jerome released my neck and stood up with his arms out, wobbling from side-to-side. My sister remained beside him wherever he went, grunting as she held the knife in his gut. Terricka screamed and yelled telling Jerome how much she hated him as she twisted the knife in the wound. He yelled out in anguish as my sister let go of the knife and I ran over to her before we both burst out of the door. On the landing, we both stood frozen contemplating what we should do.
“We gotta go get Sha.” I said to Terricka just as we heard our mother come into the door downstairs, talking loud and laughing.
We both knew that the meds had completely wore off and that our mother was back to her old ways again. That meant that it wouldn’t end well for us when she saw what we had done. Terricka and I turned around to run to Sha’s room just as he opened his door and motioned for us to hurry up. As we ran passed our open bedroom door, I got a glimpse of Jerome dragging himself to the door, leaking all over the place. I knew that it would only be a few minutes before he got to the top of the steps and called for help. That meant my sister and I had to move fast.
Terricka and I hurried into Sha’s room before he slammed the door and locked it, pushing his dresser back in front of it. I went straight over to the second floor window and opened it wide before turning around to face my brother and sister. Terricka nodded her head yes and pushed Sha forward as he shook his head no and resisted. Sha was scared of heights and at that second I knew it would be impossible to get him to go out of the window, slide down the side of the roof, and then jump off. Even if it wasn’t that high, I knew my brother would never do it.
“I can’t do that, Tisha, y’all just go without me. It’s y’all that they want not me. I’m just gonna hide until he police come and then I’ll go to social services. At least I’ll be safe for tonight and y’all will too. Now get out of here. I love you, Tisha… I love you, Terricka.” My little brother said through his tears as we both ran over to hug and kiss him.
Before we could finish our heartfelt, emotional moment, the shrill cry of a wounded Jerome filled our ears. Sha pushed us towards the window as we heard our mother and the other people downstairs yell up to Jerome asking what happened. We didn’t wait to see what his response would be because before I knew it, Terricka and I had both climbed out of the window and slid down the side of the roof in our flimsy clothing. I still had on the thin, ripped pink, cotton gown I wore to sleep with nothing underneath it and my sister only had on her white t-shirt and black panties after Jerome had ripped her pants off.
Terricka and I were both almost naked when we jumped off that roof and into the bushes in front of our apartment. We didn’t give a fuck about that though. We had tried an escape from prison and successfully pulled it off, that’s all that mattered. We timed our jump just right too as we both landed on our feet and kept running. I could hear the boys across the mall from us yelling and asking us what was wrong as we sped around the building towards Lisa’a house. Their questions were followed by the sound of my mother screaming our name and saying that she was calling the police on us. Her threats didn’t matter much to us at that moment because all we wanted to do was get the fuck away.
By the time we made it to Lisa’s building, both Terricka and I were out of breath and our bodies shook from the surge of pure adrenaline. I quickly knocked on the door and listened as Lisa and Tank argued loudly on the other side. I looked at Terricka and we both sighed knowing that it was one of those times Tank was whooping Lisa’s ass and she wouldn’t want us around. After another knock on the door by Terricka, I could her Lisa dragging her feet as she slowly walked to the door snatching it open and pressing her face against the screen of the security door.
The alcohol on her breath hit me with force from several feet away and I quickly realized things weren’t about to go as planned. That and the fact that she was still standing there on the other side of the door without opening it while sucking her teeth let me know that something was about to go down.
“Let us in, Lisa, maine for real. Some bad shit j
ust went down. Jerome raped Tisha and I had to stab him. Denise fina call the police on us and lie, we need somewhere to hide. Let us in please.” Terricka pleaded with Lisa as she grabbed the handle of the screen door and Lisa shook her head no.
I couldn’t believe what was happening as I stood there with tears in my eyes and blood, cuts, and bruises all over my body as Lisa refused to let us in. I couldn’t understand why the one person who always showed us loved was turning her back on us when we needed her the most. I couldn’t understand it as I stood there looking my godmother in her eyes, but I was about to find out.
“Naw lil mama’s, y’all can’t come over here and kick it no more. Y’all funky ass mammy fucked my nigga in my house and left her filthy ass panties in my butter dish with a note saying she won. Yeah, she won alright. She won this major ass whooping whenever I see her junky ass. And to top it off this bitch came back and broke in my muthafucking house after my nigga wouldn’t let her suck his dick again. That bitch has violated me for the last time and I’m dragging that hoe as soon as I see her. SO, I guess to answer y’all question the answer is HELL NO! I can’t hide y’all or fuck with y’all at all no mo. Now get the fuck off of my doorstep!” Lisa yelled before slamming the door in our faces and leaving us standing there.
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