Lili would be perfect for Amram. But Jochebed?
How would he ever come to love her?
Thunder grumbled in the distance. Jochebed scanned the wide expanse for a trace of promised rain, but the sky—innocent and blue—belied its rare pledge. And then, with a shift in the wind, a wispy cloud appeared, dusting the line between earth and sky. Jochebed inhaled, seeking the scent of rain’s exotic musk. Nothing. How odd, to hear a ripple of thunder during this season.
Pushing the thick waves of her hair to one side, she almost chuckled. Almost. Here she was, trying to comprehend the workings of the heavens when she could not understand her own mind. She sobered.
There was only one thing she knew—she dared not go through with this betrothal. She would dig in her heels and refuse to marry. Marriage was a foreign land with strange customs, strange people—men—and duty or not, she did not want to go there in spite of the tingling in her toes when she thought of Amram’s deep-set eyes.
Jostled from her thoughts by a ewe’s nervous stomping, Jochebed listened to Lili’s voice soothe the bleating sheep. If the way she coddled sheep was any indication, Lili would someday be a tenderhearted mother.
Lili liked scratching the sheep’s chins, running her hands over their thick wool, and searching their pointy hooves for rocks or thorns. The sheep responded to her crooning calls, stretching their necks and crowding around her. Lili talked with the flock and the dog as if she expected them to answer her.
“Gray Ear, no! You did your job and brought them here, so stop nipping at Curly. Jochebed, call that dog away! Little Bit, did you miss me? Come here to Mommy, and let me see your eyes. They’re all better now, aren’t they?”
“Gray Ear, here.” Jochebed snapped her fingers, and the dog wagged its way to her side. Reaching down, she ruffled its long fur.
Jochebed let Lili’s voice slip in with the mosquitoes’ drone, both so familiar she could nod without listening, swat without remembering that she’d moved her hand. Their combined rhythm allowed her an escape to her own reverie. Sultry breezes knotted her hair into tangled webs as she glared at the smoldering sun. She could list her reasons to avoid betrothal from now until forever. She already knew Amram did not want to marry her, so why should he? Stupid kinsmen. Mentally, she jerked the rope tethering her to the future. There must be a way to escape, to loosen the tightening knot.
Feeling her chin beginning to quiver and scalding tears swelling against her eyelids, Jochebed squinted into the sun, furious at herself for crying. Maybe the others would think its brightness reddened her eyes. More likely they would think she did not have the good sense to avoid looking at the blinding desert light. They were right. She did not have good sense, especially not in the chaos of becoming a woman and sorting out her thoughts of him.
Amram. There was something about him…. Was it the blackness of his eyes or the terseness of his hands as he gestured … large hands. With his gentle words and his muscled, stonecutter arms, he was frightening. Images of him quickened her heart, warning her to run—but from him or to him?
As she tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, her thoughts darted and swirled—flurries of gnats uncertain of safe landing. Jochebed waved the air to scatter her pesky thoughts. There! She would forget the possibility of a betrothal with Amram existed. Somehow she would let their kinsmen know he was free to choose Lili. What a fool she’d been to dream about Amram wanting her.
Jochebed straightened her shoulders and flicked away a loose strand of hair. Someday, she vowed, he would wish he had wanted her! He would meet her strolling along the river and their eyes would meet. He would have heard of her wisdom and discernment. She would have matured into a great beauty. He would think, but never say, that if he only had another chance, he would make her his and his alone. She would look down her thin nose, ignore his wistful eyes, tilt her head, and glide forward.
If only.
The swarm of stinging thoughts returned, bearing rumors.
Was it true Death stalked those he loved? Old Sarah said that when his father was sent to the mines and his mother died, he had left this village and moved to the village of his wife’s family. Now they were dead, his wife and son drowned two floods ago. Did the old gossiper speak truth when she said Amram wanted to return to his wife’s village, or would he decide to live here? Would the shadows of his dead wife and son fill their house?
So many questions, and yet none of them was the one beating against her heart. What chance was there Amram would ever willingly seek her as his wife and call himself a lucky man?
None.
Her lips thinned. He would choose Lili.
Lili, with her new curves and a string of admirers.
Lili, who had long lashes and little white teeth.
Lili, with her bubbly laugh and easy smile.
Sometimes she hated Lili.
“Jochebed?”
She started and covered her mouth, whirling to face Lili. Had she spoken aloud?
“Did you hear what Deborah said? Tell her, Deborah.”
“She should have listened the first time.”
Jochebed looked away. If Deborah ever said anything of value, she might listen.
Lifting the clay jar, she skirted Lili and Deborah, turned her back, and began to work the rich milk from the nearest ewe. Guessing it would annoy Deborah, she began to hum, although the skin between her shoulders twitched as she sensed the girl’s hatred.
As children, Deborah had shoved her into the mud, trampling on her fingers and laughing at Jochebed’s clumsiness in struggling to stand. The physical mistreatment, rare now, had been replaced with whispered taunts of her papa’s death and his betrayal of the Hebrew people.
Egypt lover.
Traitor.
Why had Papa left? Something must be wrong with her and Mama. They had not been enough for him to stay with them. Humiliation stung the deep, raw places where sadness still clawed through her insides.
Deborah’s slurs shoved her into a place of aloneness. Jochebed had learned to retreat in the face of ridicule because there was no one to back her up. No one like the other girls had—a father or brother or uncle who cared.
Deborah’s angry scorn puzzled her. Only Jochebed and her mama had been shamed by Papa’s death, not Deborah’s family, but Deborah slung rage at her as easily as rocks, insults the size of boulders, killing words.
“Amram told the elders he will soon announce his betrothal.” Lili repeated Deborah’s words, giggling and flaunting her perfect teeth. “Have you noticed how wide his shoulders are? He doesn’t hunch over, and he holds his head up, too.”
Jochebed groaned.
Lili’s love interests changed direction like a little green frog escaping a snake.
This morning Lili had confided, “Joshua said my eyes are the prettiest he’s ever seen, but Caleb is so sweet. I wish he were taller and didn’t waddle like a duck. He’d be perfect. I just can’t decide.”
But last week it was, “Have you heard Adam sing? Joseph can’t sing, but he always makes me laugh and my brother Samuel said he likes me. Samuel is so old, he would know, don’t you think? Do you think Joseph’s lips look like a bird’s beak?”
And a few days earlier, “Daniel came to our house last night to visit with the twins, but instead of talking to Samuel and Zack, he talked with me, and when he smiles he has the most marvelous dimples, and he’s so much more mature than the others, don’t you think? He winked at me twice.”
Jochebed tried to look nonchalant. “When? When is the betrothal?”
“Why do you care? It won’t be to someone like you.” Deborah’s left eyebrow arched. “Amram would probably choose Old Sarah to avoid being tied to you, Egypt lover.”
“Sissy!”
Jochebed frowned at Lili’s use of Deborah’s nickname. When had they become so familiar?
Jochebed took a deep breath. “D–Deborah, why are you here?”
“You question me?”
Lili stood and nud
ged the ewe away. “Deborah is supervising the girls clearing the flax fields.” She rubbed her wrists. “Remember when we had to do that? I still have scars from crawling across those fields, and my knees hurt just thinking about it.”
They turned to watch the little girls kneeling in thick mud, pulling weeds so the young flax, growing so rapidly the plants almost jumped out of the ground, could survive without being choked by other sun-greedy plants. The yearly floodwaters, having disgorged earth and decay, were returning to the banks of the Nile, and perit, the planting season, had begun.
More like torture season. Jochebed grimaced, recalling the bloody calluses ripped open on her elbows and knees, her face swollen with mosquito bites, and her skin stung by the sun. She had not cared if she ever again had linen from the hateful flax.
While considering if she dare ask Deborah how she supervised weeding when talking with Lili, Jochebed saw a familiar figure approach and waved as Gray Ear bounded forward.
“Mama!”
“Egypt lover.” Deborah stalked away.
“Shalom, Bedde, Lili. Did I scare Deborah away?”
“Thank you!” Jochebed grinned.
“Bedde!” Her mother frowned at her and shook her head. “Amram and Lili’s brothers are coming this direction.”
Lili shoved Gray Ear away from her aunt. “Move, dog. Really, Aunt Elisheba? The twins are with Amram? Zackary and Samuel?” Lili clapped her hands. “I can hardly wait to see them. They must be coming to announce Amram is my betrothed.”
Jochebed watched as her mother turned a kind eye on Lili.
“Lili, Amram is not your betrothed. He will pledge himself to someone else.”
“No! Who? How do you know? Oh, Aunt Elisheba! I would be the best choice for him. I love him.”
“Lili, you hardly know him.” Jochebed heaved a sigh.
“And you do?”
“I’m not saying that, but I do know—”
Gray Ear barked a warning, and Elisheba turned. “Excuse me, girls. I need to speak with Deborah. I can see the men now, so lower your voices unless you want them to think you ill-mannered.”
The bickering stopped, and the two young women watched as three men trudged through black mud to reach the drier grazing fields. Red-haired Zackary and his shorter twin, dark-haired Samuel, walked on either side but slightly apart from Amram. Jochebed knew the distance between each man was to make him less of a target from an Egyptian arrow.
“Shalom, LiliBedde,” the twins chorused, the name chain most villagers used in referring to the two girls.
“Shalom.” Amram’s warm voice melted in Jochebed’s ears and trickled down her spine.
Lili tossed her straight, silky hair over her shoulder, smiling as Jochebed hid her face and breathed in the ewe’s musky scent. Amram had looked at her and smiled when he greeted them. Did Lili notice? “Shalom,” she whispered into the sheep’s wool.
A fading echo jarred the air, and the sheep stamped their feet. Flicking their ears in the direction of the sound, they arched their necks and tilted their heads, crying their dislike of anything unexpected. Observing the sheep, the men tensed and studied the land surrounding them. Sharing a look, they turned so they could each watch a different direction.
“Amram is here to select a ewe as a gift,” said Zack.
“And bring bad news,” added Samuel.
Amram stepped closer, glancing over his shoulder before he spoke. Strain hoarsened his deep voice. “There is evidence the conscription will increase double-fold.”
Lili gasped. “Again?”
Jochebed’s throat tightened. Conscription, indeed. It was slavery, plain and simple!
Egyptian farmers only worked conscription when they could not tend their Nile-drenched fields. They built temples and tombs for the pharaoh during those three months, but for the Hebrews, it was becoming a never-ending duty. Already there were months when their men could not work at their own crafts nor care for the flocks and fields necessary for survival. And now they’d be gone twice as long?
Was Pharaoh trying to kill them all?
Lili let out a wail. “Bedde, what will we do? It isn’t fair. Why does Pharaoh do this to us? Why does the Lord punish us this way? Do we not suffer enough that He must add to our misery?”
Jochebed scooted closer, kneeling to lean her head against Lili’s. She sighed. “Hush now, Lili girl, the Lord hears our cries. While it is still dark, He is at work, and someday we will leave this slavery. We just don’t know when. Mother says…” She swallowed. Did she believe the words she was about to speak? “We have to trust even when we don’t understand the Lord’s plan.”
Glancing up, Jochebed realized Amram and the twins were listening. She flushed and shrank back. Why did Amram stare at her? She should not have spoken so boldly. She should not have spoken at all.
Lowering her head, she busied herself with crumbling off the mud crusted on a ewe’s belly, but soon, tail twitching, the sheep wandered away. As Jochebed waited for Lili to finish milking, she pulled a handful of grasses and wove stoppers for the jars of warm, foamy milk. Finishing, she clicked her tongue to catch Gray Ear’s attention and cleaned his eyes with the hem of her tunic. At least the men had turned away, no longer staring at her, only gesturing emphatically and speaking in low, urgent tones.
Then the talking ceased.
Pharaoh seldom wasted his time on regret, but he couldn’t deny a fleeting pity for the Egyptian soldiers who died on foreign soil. They would never again know Egypt or experience the afterlife. They were simply … dead. Gone. Gnats smeared between two fingers.
Passing the boundary marker into Egypt, and thus assured his eternal life was once again secure, Ramses, ruler and commander of the Two Lands of Egypt, inhaled a deep breath. Egyptian air. Egyptian land.
Home.
Even if he died now, he would live forever, his body tended by the finest embalmers so his three souls could be reunited in the afterlife and his spirit ushered into eternity through the underworld’s direct entrance, the west bank of the Nile.
Ramses surveyed his army through billowing dust-whipped air. Too numerous to see them all, the division of five thousand troops spread around him, their lives forfeit should he suffer an injury. In the distance, the heralds’ silver and copper trumpets glinted as they led a full regiment of infantry.
It was midday when waves of shouts rolled through the troops as the scorched Red Land of Egypt softened into the Black Land’s rich greenness. This year the Nile had flaunted her bounty far into the dry Red Land. Already the black fields shimmered with bright green foliage. Cradled by river breezes, the plants rustled with promises of wealth and feasting. Egypt’s splendor multiplied with every year—a glorious nation, a beautiful land. His.
In response to the cheers around him, Pharaoh lifted his powerful fist high—the sign of victory. Soon his prowess at the Battle of Kaddesh would be inscribed on temple walls and city gates, spreading the news throughout the world.
Satisfied all was as it should be, Ramses flicked sweat beads from his brow—perit was usually cooler—and considered which battle commanders deserved the military distinction of “Golden Fly of Valor.” Which of them had the determined and annoying abilities of the fly, persistently and repeatedly attacking the enemy, and thus demonstrating outstanding valor by befuddling the enemy into believing there were more warriors than truly existed?
The pharaoh focused his mind on the battle they’d won and so at first gave little notice to the sagging mud huts trailing along the river. Hebrew hovels did not interest him, nor did those who lived within them. He had seen their drab rat holes each year when his family summered in the delta, and again on every campaign since he was a youth of eight accompanying his father, Seti.
Hundreds of years ago, the foreign nomads had settled in the Egyptian province of Goshen. Now the delta overflowed with them and their unpleasant flocks. The head-clogging stench of a sheepherder—he grimaced, curling his lip. Someday he would return and deal
with this gaping sore on his land.
Disgusting.
In silence heavy with listening, Jochebed realized there was no birdsong, no insects stirring the hot air—even the grasses stilled as if aware of danger. The dog’s single ear stood at attention, his nostrils quivering. The only sound was the uneasy bleating and stamping of sheep.
A stinging breeze spurred the flock into action. Charging as one, the sheep fled into the mud, flailing as their feet became mired. Gray Ear darted after them.
A thousand wings drummed and darkened the sky as birds abandoned fields and trees to fly straight into the wind and evade some unseen snare. Puzzled, Jochebed looked at Lili and then to Amram.
He flexed his hands and stiffened his shoulders, as if ready to fight. Peering into the distance, he squinted and then spun. “Jochebed, run! Gather the girls! Get them out of the fields—to the tree line! Now! Go! Deborah, move! Lili, look out!”
He stumbled across the field’s thick mud to snatch two of the tiniest girls in his arms, bellowing for the others to flee. “Sam, Zack, warn the boys!”
Jochebed knocked over the jar of milk as she raced with Lili to gather the children. The little girls fled to an edge of the field, crying out as the ground shuddered, its tremors steady, intense. Pulling the children close, Jochebed hid their faces against her body.
Breezes strengthened then shifted, whipping red sand across the fields. A dusty haze slid across the sun. Coughing, Jochebed squinted through a fog of swirling dust. What was happening? A storm?
The rumble stumped closer. She shielded her eyes and blinked in disbelief.
Warriors.
Taking the reins from his driver, Ramses steered the chariot to the outside edge of his army. Cresting the low rise, he scowled at the fouled landscape. Clusters of huts surrounded by crumbling walls littered the riverbanks.
How many of these people were there? They must multiply like rats—or flies. Ramses grimaced. Outside the Hebrew houses, their children—by all the gods, what a horde of them!—played in the mud. Filthy creatures … their unshorn heads probably crawled with lice. These Hebrew brats clogging the fields would grow up and produce more brats.
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