Reaching the crowded Capitol Building, Holly and her escorts left the car. A microphone had been set up at the top of the fabled steps, along with a canopy of sorts and a number of folding chairs. Maggie and Howard were nowhere in sight, though there were hundreds of guests milling about in the chill of that day, Secret Service agents moving among them. They were easy to spot, not only because of their conservative suits and their earpieces, but because their eyes moved constantly, searching every face, noting the rise of any arm.
When Howard and Maggie arrived, closely followed by the majority leader, they were surrounded by a bevy of agents, David among them. Like the others, he scanned the crowd incessantly, and Holly shivered, not because of the biting cold but because she knew in that instant that he would lay down his life for the president without hesitation. Just as promptly, he would take the life of anyone who was so foolish as to attempt an attack.
Holly barely heard the swearing-in itself; she was too busy watching David and trying to solve the mysteries he personified. She had every respect for his dedication to his job, of course, but it was very difficult to reconcile this cold-eyed man with the one who had made such thorough, gentle love to her the night before.
Tears of hopelessness began to burn behind Holly’s eyes and ache in her sinuses. Like a fool, despite everything, she had entertained a fantasy or two concerning David Goddard and the future they might have together. Now, standing in the brutal wind, she had reality to deal with; David was always going to be the man who had come into her life as a liar, a pretender, an imposter. He was a man who wore a gun under his jacket, a man who would kill if he deemed it necessary.
Holly shivered again and clapped with numb hands as the new president lowered his right hand and turned to say a few words to the crowd. She didn’t hear a word he said, so intent was she on David’s immobile, watchful face. How could she have considered living with him, loving him for the rest of her life? Even if all the other problems could have been solved, there was still the ominous fact that he could be killed or crippled at any time. His work was dangerous.
“I’d like to leave now,” Holly said to the agent standing at her right side. Without making any verbal response, he took her elbow in a firm hand and ushered her back to one of a dozen waiting limousines.
Safe in her room again some twenty minutes later, after declining an offhand, rushed invitation from Maggie to attend a state luncheon, Holly collapsed onto her bed with a pulsing headache.
Presently, Mrs. Tallington appeared with a tray and a look of sympathy. “Do you need a doctor, Madam?” she inquired.
Holly closed her eyes. She had taken two aspirin before lying down and she hoped they would be sufficient. “No, thank you,” she said. “I’ll be fine if I just rest a while.”
“Eating a little something might help,” imparted the veteran, and then she was gone.
When Holly could sit up without feeling queasy, she inspected the contents of her tray. Beneath aged, mellow silver covers were generous servings of creamed crab, mixed vegetables and warm, crusty bread.
Knowing the wisdom of what Mrs. Tallington had said, she forced herself to eat, though most of the portions were larger than she could have handled even if she’d felt her best.
She slept—her dreams were damnably erotic replays of the night before—and when she awakened there were lengthy shadows in the room and the tray had been taken away. Her blue chiffon, pressed to meet Mrs. Tallington’s impeccable standards, hung from a peg on the closet door.
Holly wished she had the nerve to thrust that gown and all her other clothes into her suitcases and make a dash for the airport. That would be so much easier than facing David again!
But she couldn’t bring herself to do it. The biggest of all the inaugural balls was to be held that evening, and Holly was enough of an adventuress to really want to attend. After all, she would probably never have a chance to do anything like that again.
Holly took another long, leisurely, scented bath, washed and dried her hair, carefully painted her nails. She was wearing only a towel when the telephone at her bedside jangled, startling her so much that she jumped and had to clasp the towel in place again.
“Hello?”
“Holly, this is Howard. The staff tells me that you’re a little under the weather.”
Holly sighed, feeling troublesome and out of place. “I’m fine, Mr. President. Honestly. I think I was just a little tired.”
“‘Mr. President’, is it?” Howard chuckled. “Well now, Holly, I like the sound of that, but I’m still just Howard to you.”
Still just Howard. Grinning, Holly shook her head in wonder but said nothing, waiting for her illustrious caller to go on.
“I’ve arranged for you to meet with Craig first thing tomorrow morning, Holly. He’s ready to talk with you now.”
Holly’s knees went weak and she sank to the edge of the bed. “C-Craig? He’s here?”
“He’s at Walter Reed for the time being. Do you want to see him, Holly?”
Her throat tightened, memories of another Craig swirling in her mind: a laughing, responsible, healthy Craig. A devoted big brother. “Oh, yes,” she said softly. “Yes, I want to see him.”
“Good. We’ll send you over there in a car, bright and early. In the meantime, young lady, you put on your dancing shoes and prepare to have yourself a good time at the shindig tonight.”
Holly chuckled, though there were tears swimming in her eyes. “Being in the White House, going to an inaugural ball—I think I should wear glass slippers instead of dancing shoes.”
“Can’t dance in glass slippers,” Howard retorted immediately. “You save a waltz for your old third cousin from Oregon, now.”
“I will,” Holly promised, and Howard rang off in his politely abrupt way.
Slowly, she set the receiver back in its cradle, drew a deep breath and went to the closet to find the special, strappy shoes she bought to wear with the blue chiffon. Turning one in her hand, Holly reminded herself that she was not Cinderella and that Howard was certainly not Prince Charming.
No, if Prince Charming attended the ball at all, he would be wearing an earpiece and a look fit to freeze-dry coffee beans.
* * *
The ballroom glittered with crystal chandeliers and silver punch bowls and guests one couldn’t hope to encounter even on The Today Show. Holly spotted David almost immediately and spent the next fifteen minutes trying to ignore him.
The orchestra played and Holly danced with a pudgy, wheezing man a head shorter than she was. An emissary from some country Holly had never heard of, he spoke immaculate English.
Following that, she was waltzed around the enormous room by a man wearing a bright gold cummerbund and a dazzling array of medals. He was an ambassador from one of the Slavic countries.
When Howard and Maggie deigned to make their appearance, there was a hush and all eyes were upon them. Maggie looked every inch the first lady, and despite the unspoken strain between them, Holly was proud of her.
The president and first lady danced together then, the crowd moving back for them, the Secret Service agents looking on as alertly and unemotionally as ever, ready to pounce upon anyone foolish enough to make a wrong move.
Looking at David, Holly despaired. This was not the man who had loved her with such sweet ferocity the night before. This was a stranger, an automaton.
Some minutes later, Holly had her dance with the president of the United States, his last before retiring with Maggie from the festivities. “No glass slippers, I see,” he teased as they waltzed, flashbulbs bursting all around.
Holly laughed. “No. I ordered a pair from Saks, but they didn’t have my size.”
Howard responded with a laugh of his own, but he looked tired. Holly thought of how the next four years would age him and felt sad.
“When you see your brother tomorrow morning, Holly, you tell him I’ll do all I can to see he gets the help he needs.”
“Thank you,” Hol
ly replied softly. “For both of us.”
Howard nodded somberly. “I’m just sorry it had to come to this,” he said. “You’ll be with us a few more days, won’t you?” he added a moment later, deliberately changing the subject.
Holly shook her head. “I’ve got to get home to my nephew and my work, I’m afraid. If I possibly can, I want to leave tomorrow, after I see Craig.”
Howard responded politely, then the dance was over. A few minutes later he left the ballroom with Maggie and their Secret Service entourage, David included. Holly remained at the party for another half hour and then departed, leaving no glass slipper behind.
* * *
It was late and David was exhausted. Like several of the other agents assigned directly to the president, he had worn a tuxedo, and he was eager to hurl the thing into the depths of his closet and forget it existed.
Walt Zigman sat at his desk, as always, oblivious to the late hour. A widower, his children grown and gone, he had nothing better to do, David guessed. He hoped to God his own life would never come down to that.
He laid his identification card and the earpiece down on the desk.
“You told me you’d stay until inauguration week was over!” Walt blustered, his jowls quivering, his cigar bobbing between his teeth.
“I lied. I’m out, Zigman. Gone.”
Zigman swore. “I knew it. I damned knew it.”
David sighed and stuffed his hands into the pockets of his trousers. “I suppose Ranford gave you a full report on last night,” he said, his eyes linked with Walt’s.
“We didn’t get it on tape, if that’s what you’re talking about, Goddard. Tell me something, though. What is it about this Lewellyn woman that makes her different from all the others?”
David had a headache; he rubbed his temples with a thumb and forefinger. “If I knew that, Walt, I might be able to put two sane thoughts together.”
“She feel the same way you do?” Walt was apparently in a fatherly mood. His eyes were averted, though, and he was cleaning his fingernails with an unbent paper clip.
David had been struggling with that question all day. It had distracted him, making it hard as hell to keep his mind on the president and the endless crowds at the swearing-in and at the ball he’d just left. Holly had certainly responded in bed the night before, but come the rueful morning, her aquamarine eyes had been full of doubts. Misgivings. And a grudge that just might last a lifetime.
“It will be a long time before she trusts me completely, if she ever does.”
There was a short, reflective silence.
“I’m sorry about this whole thing, Goddard, for what it’s worth. I should have sent someone else.”
“You didn’t know I was going to fall in love with Holly,” David said, his jaw growing taut of its own accord and then relaxing again. “I didn’t either.”
Walt reached out and collected the earpiece and the identification badge. “You keep in touch, Goddard. If things don’t work out out there in Podunk, Washington, you come back here.”
David had no answer for that. If things didn’t work out in Spokane, he didn’t know where he would go or what he would do. The only thing he could be certain of was that he was never going to come back to this job.
Leaving Walt’s office, he squared his shoulders. Things would work out with Holly, dammit. He was going to make them work out.
12
Holly was delivered to Walter Reed Hospital first thing the next morning, as promised. She was, of course, flanked by the usual Secret Service set of two, but at least they stayed outside of Craig’s room, exchanging toneless rhetoric with the FBI man who guarded the door.
Craig sat alone in the room, wearing a striped bathrobe that was too big for him, his gaze fixed on the panoramic view offered by a huge window.
Holly lifted her chin and gave herself a silent order not to cry. Her brother looked so broken, so small and in so much trouble. “Craig?”
He turned, his eyes sunken and circled. His face, stubbled with a new beard, looked gaunt; he might have been a hundred instead of just thirty-six. “Hello, Holly,” he said, and his voice was as hollow as his eyes.
“Are they treating you well?” she asked, and the words sounded stiff, stilted. Talking to this wasted remnant of a man was not the same as talking to her brother.
Craig shuddered and executed a rueful parody of a smile. “They’re not shining lights in my face and telling me they have ways of making me talk, if that’s what you mean.”
Holly had no plans to ask about the cocaine habit that had brought him to this pass; the ravages of his withdrawal, which would probably go on for some time, were clearly visible in his face.
She forced herself to go to him, to lay one hand on his thin shoulder. Touching him seemed to work some magic—he became Craig again. Tears stung in her eyes and ached in her throat as she bent to kiss the top of his head.
“Oh, Craig, how did this happen?”
His shoulder stiffened beneath her hand. “The way it always happens, Holly,” he said brokenly. “You try cocaine and you’re on top of the world. You can do no wrong. You’re Superman, you’re James Bond. And then one day you find out that you’ve gotta have the stuff and there aren’t any choices anymore.”
Holly swallowed hard and reached up with one hand to surreptitiously wipe away her tears. Her falling apart was not going to do Craig any good; she had to be strong now. “Is there anything I can do?” she whispered. “Special doctors, anything like that?”
Craig shook his head. “Forget I was ever born,” he said hoarsely, looking at the view again. “That’s the best thing you can do for yourself and for Toby.”
There was nothing to say to that. If and when Craig overcame his cocaine problem, he might still be faced with a long prison term.
“You’re still all tangled up with Goddard, aren’t you?” Craig’s question was so direct and so unexpected that Holly gaped at him for a moment, unable to answer. “He’s bad news, Holly. For your own sake, walk away.”
“That’s going to hurt,” she managed to say, at length.
Craig gave a humorless chuckle. “Lots of things hurt in this life, Holly. Too many things hurt. But Goddard used you and I don’t want you to forget that. He’d use his own mother, if the Service asked him to. Believe me, I know.”
Holly wound a finger in one of Craig’s lank curls—once they had been so springy that she had teased him about them—and waited for him to go on.
“Find yourself a flesh-and-blood man, Holly,” he complied after some time. “Goddard is a robot, like me. Like all the rest of them. He’s nothing more than a hit man on the right side of the law.”
Holly shivered. David wasn’t a hit man! He wasn’t!
“Lift your hand or a camera or a comb in the same room with the president or his lady sometime, Holly, if you don’t believe me. You’ll find yourself facedown on the floor with your hands cuffed before you catch your breath.”
“There is a reason for that, Craig!”
He looked up at her. “Yes. But can you live with it, Holly? Can you live with guns and subterfuge and international intrigues that would curl your fingernails? Believe me, he knows things that he can’t share with you, but they’ll make him hell to live with all the same.”
I love David, screamed some forlorn part of Holly’s heart, I love him! “You needn’t worry,” she said aloud. “Anything that David and I might have had was over the moment I found out that it was you he wanted, not me.”
They were silent again for a while, lost in their own thoughts, their own griefs and regrets.
“I’d better go,” Holly said finally. “I’ve got a plane to catch.”
“Right.”
She came around to look into his face. “Is there anything I can send you, Craig? Books? Magazines? Anything?”
“Books,” he said, and for a moment there was a hint of the old Craig, an inveterate reader, in his eyes. He even chuckled. “Nothing about spies, though
, okay?”
Near tears again, Holly bent to kiss his forehead. “No spies,” she promised, and then she hurried out lest she break down in front of him.
* * *
It was a relief to board the airplane, to leave the White House and the Secret Service and everything else behind. Everything except David.
Holly buckled her seat belt and pretended to listen as a flight attendant explained the mysteries of oxygen masks and No Smoking signs. She wondered if she should have called David and said goodbye. Said something.
Vigorously, she shook her head in answer to her own questions. It was better this way, better to make a clean break and forget all about Agent Goddard and his novel investigating techniques.
The plane was barreling down the runway; Holly closed her eyes and braced herself for the lurching leap it would take when it left the ground. She hated that part of flying, along with the full reverse thrust of the engines upon landing; it always made her feel as though the craft would go tumbling end over end.
A hand closed over her fingers, which were clutching the armrest with painful force. She opened her eyes just as the plane lunged into the air and the landing gear ground into place.
David. David was sitting in the seat beside hers, big as life.
Holly blinked her eyes, certain that she was hallucinating, but he was still there when she looked again. Wearing tan corduroy slacks, a brown cashmere turtleneck and a cocoa-colored leather jacket.
“It’s me, all right,” he said calmly.
“What are you doing here?”
He peeled her fingers from the armrest and soothed them between his own, lifting her hand and inspecting her nail polish with a slight frown, as though he didn’t quite approve of the shade. “Take a wild guess,” he said.
Holly finally gathered the presence of mind to wrench her hand free. “Just go and sit in some other part of the plane. Or better yet, why don’t you jump out over Kansas?”
David chuckled and settled into the seat with a comfortable sigh. “I’ve never liked Kansas. Besides, we won’t be there for a while yet. We’re probably over Maryland.”
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