by Michael Shea
Even before my brain had swum clear of nausea and pain, I discovered I was hearing things most deep and hidden and distant—hearing, impossibly clear, the secretest sounds of this world. The smallest whispers from the gulf floor entered my brain as if little rat-mouths were murmuring directly through the ruined gate in the side of my head. Pleadings in a mindless speech of moans; torturing giggles and chuckles from dry throats of bone; babbles of devil-confession; the liquid noise of strange stews; the scuff of hooves, claws clicking—even the silken sweep of deep fins. That gulf and all the canyons beyond said much to me as we pounded through them, and hinted countless things I did not wish to know.
VII
I think that Haldar caught my cue of pity. For after a while, he said, "I will pay next, Lord Guide."
"Then you will pay soon," said the Guide.
We had run for some time through a deep canyon whose walls overhung and whose course was branched and mazy. The light on the river and the wide banks was dim and shadow-crossed. The hounds raged forward, tireless, like a destroying wave that comes pushing through miles of ocean. But the grey chasm mocked our speed by seeming endlessly the same.
We watched for changes at the Guide's hint, but at first saw only familiar things. There were huts with door-curtains of strung teeth still chattering from the denizens' quick hiding. (I alone heard also their rank breathing within, and the groans of their tightly muffled victims.) There were ghoulish smithies too, where toad-bodied giants hammered smoking limbs onto struggling souls stretched on anvils, and other shops as well where similar giants with pipes blew screaming dwarves into being from cauldrons of molten flesh. There were rat-men struggling in thickets of tarantula weed, and there were groves of dung-bearing trees with twisted trunks translucent like gut. Soulcreeps such as Shamblor inhabited these groves, grazing endlessly. Their drear whining said it was not by choice.
I was the first to sense the new thing ahead. I began to hear the guzzlings and growls of ten thousand carrion-eating throats. It was the noise of a great host, tearing and gulping.
My companions were alerted shortly after by the sooty cloud of birds swooping and wheeling beyond the next bend in the river. We flew through the curve. Before us a mammoth dyke stretched to the river from either wall of the canyon. It was a little mountain range of the freshly killed—fifty feet high and a hundred wide, they were piled. Jackals tugged and shouldered and fought all along the fringes of that wall, while its upper slopes were glittery black with birds. Necrophage insects hung thick as coal dust in the air, and I heard with intolerable distinctness the wet working of their mandibles.
On our bank there was a gateway through the heap. It was overlooked by a guard-tower made of bones. As we neared, something big could be seen moving in the tower. We could also see that most of the corpses in that wall were those of women and children. Their torn faces looked out everywhere from the black swarming of wings and jaws and pincers.
The tower was an insane jumble of the reknit skeletons of everything you could think of. In fact it was more a monkey's perch than a tower, and the giant that came swinging down from it moved more like an ape than a man. He bellowed as he came, with thick, fang-hindered speech:
"Skin! You've got living manskin, Guide! I want some!"
The guide reined up, crying, "Hail, War-father. We shall pay your toll."
The ape wore as a helmet the top half of a man's skull—a giant's, you understand, for the ape was as big as the hags and yet the skull's sockets came all the way down over its red eyes. The immortal also wore epaulets of braided human hair, but nothing else. It carried a battle axe with a bit as wide as an infantry shield. It rolled up to us, enlisting its free fist as a foot. Both of the hounds instantly leapt upon it. It pummeled them with vigor, but it seemed a long time before they lay still in their harness.
Haldar leapt down from the chariot. The Guide said: "What piece do you want, starving one?"
The immortal answered decisively. "I want an index finger." It shifted its stance restlessly, poised on feet and knuckles. Haldar held out his left arm, the finger extended.
The ape began an incredible preliminary dance of strokes and feints and flourishes. It hopped and postured in a great, dust-raising circle around Haldar, whooping with every loop it cut in the air. It dodged and ducked and parried and, at the climactic moment, took a soaring bound at Haldar, and brought the axe in an heroic arc down upon his finger.
Haldar was jolted through by the shock, but stood firm. The finger was clipped off as neat as a daisy at the base, the other knuckles not even grazed.
The ape rolled the finger thoroughly on the ground. "Best with dust," it growled companionably. It popped the treat in its jaws and crunched it with gusto for a long time. I helped Haldar bind his hand. He was drenched with the sweat of pain, as was I. Regretfully, the War-father swallowed the last of the finger and sighed.
"I wish I could take more," the immortal rumbled wistfully. "What do you say, fellow? Let me have one more finger, hey?" It poked Haldar cajolingly in the shoulder.
"No more, beast!" snapped Haldar. "Damn your greed!" The ape stamped furiously, and smote the ground so hard with its axe that the chariot rattled. I helped Haldar back aboard. The Guide stung the hounds, and we surged through the gateway. Our passage sent up a cloud of panicked birds and insects. For a time they hung seething above the dyke, like the black smoke of some great city's sack. Then they settled back down on the hill of torn faces. Soon we were driving for high ground.
VIII
I heard the nearness of our goal before the Guide said anything. I heard wind, wind and fire in measureless, empty places, yet nothing was as dead as the air of this world. Haldar too knew something—he said only that he sensed a chill, but I had seen his shudderings since paying the toll. He had a way of rubbing the skin on his arms as if to erase grotesque sensations, and sometimes he looked with amazement at his hands, as if he expected to find something in them, or crawling over them. I guessed his skin's premonitions matched those my ears received. Then the Guide pointed to a region of rocky outcrops which thrust up from a clay mesa to form a higher and more ragged mesa of stone. "Up there," he said, "are the gates of the Winds of Warr."
It appeared Defalk would be spared the payment of Toll, and it heartened him, I think. He began to stare ironically at the two of us. I said: "You look amused. What sunny ray has pierced your horizon?"
"I was only thinking, friend assassin," he said. I let this pass. "I was thinking how very like Dalissem it would be to show me her contempt by spurning my life. I mean once she'd proven it to be in her hand, for a nature like hers, the mere killing of me would seem too puny a conclusion. She would need a more exquisite gesture of scorn. To spit in my face, perhaps, and then to send me back to my little life—as she would call it. . . ." I thought I saw as much self-disgust as amusement in his smile, but my friend got growling mad. It was easy to understand because Defalk's guess sounded so likely. Indeed, the man was not far off the mark, as things ended.
"How can you bear your own miserable littleness?" Haldar asked him. His body shuddered with a sick wave of sensation that his aroused mind seemed not to notice. "You bank so smugly on her heroism! How gratefully you'd creep away with your face only spat in! If it saved your rat's hide, you'd wear her contempt with joy."
"You're a life-stealing, sneaking dog!" Defalk raged. He was beside himself, and did not even notice that the Guide gave him a dreadful look. "You've practiced skulking and back-stabbing all your scummy life. You swagger and beat your chest about heroism and nobility—" His voice was shrill, and words failed him. It was plain to me that he was as badly infected with high-mindedness as the man who taunted him. Poor Defalk agreed with Haldar in his heart. To my friend's credit, he contained himself. He did not even answer. Perhaps he glimpsed the same truth.
Now, just as the mesas towered quite near, we saw that a last canyon lay between us and them. We were nearly upon it before it appeared. As we spun down into it,
we found a road beneath us, and saw a small city down on the canyon floor. Our road dove down the chasm wall and through the city's heart. Black smoke hung over the rooftops, and there were towers here and there in the streets supporting the braziers that produced it. Even from on high we breathed a reek like a druggist's shop afire. We noticed beyond the city a field of great square pits, where the smoke hung even denser, but our descent was swift, and we only had a moment's vantage of this. Defalk murmured, as to himself, "A pestilence . . . ?"
It was indeed a place of pestilence, but different from all plague-struck cities that I have heard of in being thronged and active. The Guide did not rein up as we tore into the streets, but our team at once began colliding with the citizens of that place.
All went thickly muffled—double hooded, with even hands and face wrapped. At a glance it seemed a drowsy place, for people sat or sprawled in doorways, and on the cobblestones with their backs to the walls. We even saw them lying in the raingutters under upper-story casement windows. The foot traffic usurped even the middle of the lane, for everyone walked quickly and gave everyone else a wide berth. The hounds snarled and bit, and the Guide plied his serpent on the heads of the people who blocked us. The drivers of other vehicles treated obstruction just as high-handedly, but our dire team made the other carters and wainsmen rein up. The wains were full of the dead, tied up in their sheets.
So we moved in surges through the streets, parts of which were narrowed by improvised spitals which were scarcely more than cots under canopies. The doctors who sat in these were coweled, and the limbs that poked from their sleeves were like barbed and jointed sticks. They did nothing, and seemed to watch eagerly while things like crablice, but big as cats, crawled from cot to cot laying eggs in the patients' open sores.
More than one man, in the extremity of sickness, ran raving through the crowd, trailing bedclothes. One such seized a mother who was hastening her child along; he tore her scarves aside and kissed her wetly. He did the same to the child, not relaxing his grip even as the woman hammered him to his knees with a stone. Another man who ran in delirium was chased by several apothecaries. He was nude, straight from his bed, and as he fled, huge swellings in his groin and neck split open. Wet young wasps the size of doves crawled out of them and clung to his body, waving their wings to dry them.
Meanwhile, above the street level, women in boarded-up houses conducted business from upper windows. Some used broomsticks to roll the night's dead off their eaves and down into the waiting wains. Others traded with cart-men below. We saw one lower a bucket to a man with a covered grocery cart. As she fished in her purse for coins, the man thrust his hand into his doublet and pulled out a handful of struggling cockroaches. He threw these into the milk he'd filled her bucket with, winked at me, and covered it.
For Defalk the worst spectacle came as we put the town behind us. It was the gate that stood before the field of smoldering pits outside the city. Our road lay through this gate, and a giant figure, all wound with foul bandages, sat in our way. It was weeping, and cradling a swaddled object. Past the gate, a second bandaged figure emptied a wain into a smoking pit, using a pitchfork that speared up three men at a stroke. The mourning giant sprang up. Its voice told the female sex which its pus-stained wrappings hid.
"Guide!" she sobbed. "He is so hungry and ill, our poor babe! Manflesh is what he needs. Give our starving babykins manflesh, please!" The worker—her husband by his greater size—was already out of the wain and running toward us. "Yes!" he shouted. "Manskin for our little sweetling, Guide!"
"Hail, Parents of Plague!" the Guide said. "Step down to them, courtier. What piece of him will you have, great ones?"
The parents fell into a doting conference with their precious one. They teased aside the swaddling rags, and questioned their child with twiddlings of their fingers:
"What does be want then? What does Babekin wants at all, at all?"—until the mother raised her head, and crowed: "An eye! Sweetkins wants an eye, he does he does he does!"
Defalk had stepped down and stood forth, and steady enough, too. But at this he reeled back. Faster than he moved, the Plague-father shot forth his hand. His black, gnarled fingers seemed to fumble against Defalk's face. Defalk shouted and his knees gave, and then the Plague-father held something teasingly above the swaddled bundle. "See? See? Does he wants it, hmmm? Does he wants it?"
The mother opened the swaddling wider, revealing not a face, but a boil of bugs, teeming and scrambling in the fetid caul.
"See? See? Does little lord love-kins wants it at all at all?"
Then the black fingers opened, and an eye fell, trailing red strings, into the anthill turmoil. As if floating on some liquid it bobbed there a moment. Defalk clutched his face and bellowed. The insects foamed over the bright ball, and it sank amid them. Defalk howled again. He held his face less in pain, it seemed, than in the way of one who tries not to see something.
IX
When we'd topped the first mesa, and reached the foot of the smaller one, the Guide reined up. He drove his staff in the earth and hitched the hounds to it, under the Snake's guard. With a gesture, he told us to follow him, and began to climb the rocks.
Defalk's worst agony had barely subsided. He no longer raved aloud, but he kept wiping his hand across his face and jabbering rapidly, in the barest whisper, like a man speaking spells he doesn't want overheard. He scarcely had his legs under him, and the rockface was hundreds of feet high and not far off vertical. There were deep seams and chimneys to climb in, and we kept him between us, but I thought a dozen times he'd topple out, and waste all our toils in a single plunge.
But I'm damned if his giddiness came of fear or a slack will. The man was fighting off the drunkenness of pain and shock. He was in a fierce hurry to clear his head, and soon he was shaking off our hands when we reached to help him. He got steadier as he struggled. Hate and remorse drove him, I suppose. Rack me, Barnar, if I didn't admire poor Defalk then. I even stopped feeling sorry for what I'd had to do to him—I'd brought him his finest hour, you see. He meant not to be dragged before Dalissem. He meant to walk up to her like a man. So he clawed and clutched his way upward, like a daw with a torn wing fighting its way into the sky. I suppose actually he was like a draggled jag, with his fine clothes all rumpled. As for his face, it was something very different now. The soft, self-loving man was gone. What was left was a gaunter face, a vision-troubled face, a bit like a prophet's or a seer's. A smudgy line of blood ran from his puckered lids down to his jaw.
Visions no doubt he was having, images of the place we were now so close to. For I know I was hearing it as we climbed. The cleanness and simplicity of that sound!—the sound of fire and wind. And there was something else, fleeing through that roar, obscured within it, but recognizable. It was a multitude of voices. Voices, I say, not the croaks and chuckles of soultrash, but bursts of thought and passion. I was hearing speech from entire and vital souls celebrating some cryptic, furious triumph. The space and clarity in that sound was intoxicating here in this world of foul, drear pain. I saw Haldar rub his arms and smile with a kind of recognition. Defalk climbed with growing vigor. When we reached the top, and stepped out onto the plateau, he was as firm on his legs as we.
I mean to say we expected to step out onto a plateau. In fact, what we'd had premonitions of was closer than we knew. It's a rare shock to put a gulf behind you, rise up, stride forward, and find a gulf a thousand times as deep before you, and you on its very edge. Plateau there was none. We'd mounted the rim of a giant crater.
Just for a moment, as you looked down into it, you thought that the crater's bottom was covered by a glittering black lake. But the wind that came dodging up out of it, and the roll of echoes through chambers past measuring, taught you to see better. The lake was a hole broken in the crater's bowl. Beneath was a dark cavern system, endlessly deep, where powerful winds drove clots of fire like a blizzard underground.
A flight of stairs cut from the stone descended the wa
ll of the crater—it was a long flat-arching flight, and the steps were narrow. The Guide was halfway down it already, and be waved us after him impatiently. We started down.
There's no conveying how light and breakable you feel, stepping into a dim cauldron of gales like that, and on such a slender track. It was like following an icy goat path crossing the Imau Mountains in a winter storm. But here the winds wrestled and surged and blew in constant contradictions. You scarcely dared brace yourself against them for fear of leaping off with the next shift.
Our downward progress did not reveal much within the gulf. The infinite traffic of fire there showed you flashes of ragged vaulting, or tunnelmouths. The fire itself seemed like a fabric. It flew in mighty banners or was caught in crosswinds and torn to tatters, and we had glimpses of the pit's inhabitants whenever their flight was entangled with the flames. They were too swift and deep to be more than wheeling shapes, smaller than moths to the eye.
Some half-dozen of the last steps marched past the brink and formed a ramp down into the void. The Guide stopped well above this point, and bade us pass him.
"It is for you to call her—stand down."
We eased past the immortal—Haldar was first, Defalk between us. My friend stepped down the last steps, and I thought he moved with an uncanny assurance, a steadiness that did not dread this depth.