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  distant at every step.

  And then, when they had just about reached him, the monks suddenly

  stopped in their tracks. Their obscene shouts all at once turned into frightened

  screams of distress. They began to cross themselves feverishly, pointing to

  something in front of him, but all he could see there was the wide open gate

  and the clear night sky stretching beyond it. The gate no longer retreated

  before him, and once again he felt light and fast.

  “Time Gifts.” Written in 1997. Originally published in Serbian in 1997 as Vremenski darovi, Polaris, Belgrade, Serbia.

  © Springer International Publishing AG, part of Springer Nature 2018

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  https://doi.org/10.1007/978-3-319-90551-8_8

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  He was filled with tremendous relief when he reached the arched vault of

  the great gate. He knew they could no longer reach him, that he had gotten

  away. He stepped outside to meet the stars, but his foot did not alight on solid

  ground as it should have done. It landed on something soft and spongy, and he

  started to sink as though he’d stepped in quicksand. He flailed his arms but

  could find no support.

  He realized what he had fallen into by the terrible stench. It was the deep pit

  at the bottom of the monastery walls; the cooks threw the unusable entrails of

  slaughtered animals into it every day through a small, decayed wooden door.

  The cruel priests often threatened the terrified boy that he, too, would end up

  there if he did not satisfy their aberrant desires. The pit certainly should not

  have been located at the entrance to the holy edifice, but this utmost sacrilege

  for some reason seemed neither strange nor unfitting.

  He began to sink rapidly into the thick tangle of bloated intestines, and

  when they almost reached his shoulders he became terror-stricken. Just a few

  more moments and he would founder completely in this slimy morass. Unable

  to do anything else, he raised his desperate eyes, and there, illuminated by the

  reflection of the distant torches, he saw the silhouette of a naked, bony creature

  squatting on the edge of the pit, looking at him maliciously and snickering.

  He did not discern the horns and tail, but even without these features he

  had no trouble understanding who it was; now that it was too late, he realized

  whom the terrified monks had seen. He froze instinctively at this pernicious

  stare, wishing suddenly to disappear as soon as possible under the slimy surface

  and hide there. All at once the blood and stench no longer made him nauseous;

  now they seemed precious, like the last refuge before the most terrible of all

  fates.

  And truly, when he had plunged completely into that watery substance, it

  turned out that it was not, after all, the discarded entrails of pigs, sheep, and

  goats, as it had seemed to be, but was a mother’s womb, comfortable and

  warm. He curled up in it, knees under his chin, as endless bliss filled his being.

  No one could touch him here; he was safe, protected.

  The illusion of paradise was not allowed to last very long, however.

  Demonic eyes, like a sharp awl, quickly pierced through the layers of extrane-

  ous flesh and reached his tiny crouched being. He tried to withdraw before

  them, to retreat deeper into the womb, to the very bottom, but his persecutor

  did not give up. The thin membrane that surrounded his refuge burst the

  moment he leaned his back against it, having nowhere else to go, and he fell

  out—into reality.

  And with him, out of his dream, came the eyes that persisted in their

  piercing stare.

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  He could not see them in the almost total darkness, but their immaterial

  touch was nearly palpable. Suddenly awake, he realized that someone else was

  with him in the cell. He had not heard him come in, even though the door

  squeaked terribly, since probably no one had thought to oil it in years. How

  strange for him to fall into such a deep sleep; the night before their execution,

  only the toughest criminals managed to do that. They were not burdened by

  their conscience or the thought of impending death, and he certainly was not

  one of them.

  He raised his head a bit and looked around, confused. Although he felt he

  was not alone, his heart started racing when he really did see the shape of a

  large man sitting on the bare boards of the empty bed across from him. If not

  for the light from the weakly burning torch in the hall that slanted into the cell

  through a narrow slit in the iron-plated door, he would not have been able to

  see him at all. As it was, all he could make out clearly were the pale hands

  folded in his lap, while his head was completely in shadow, as though missing.

  He asked himself in wonder who it could be. A priest, most likely. They

  were the only ones allowed to visit prisoners before they were taken to be

  executed. Had the hour struck already? He quickly looked up at the high

  window with its rusty bars, but there was no sign of daybreak. The night was

  pitch black, moonless, so that the opening appeared only as a slightly paler

  rectangle of darkness against the interior of the cell.

  He knew they would not take him to the stake before dawn, so he stared at

  the immobile figure uncertainly. Why had he come already? Would they be

  burning him earlier, perhaps, before the rabble gathered? But that made no

  sense. It was for this senseless multitude that they organized the public

  execution of heretics, to show in the most impressive manner what awaited

  those who dared come into conflict with the catechism. The sight of the

  condemned, his body tied or nailed to the stake, writhing in terrible agony

  while around him darted fiery tongues of flame, had a truly discouraging effect

  on even the boldest and most rebellious souls.

  Or maybe this was a final effort to get him to renounce his discovery. That

  would be the best outcome for the Church, of course, but he did not have the

  slightest intention of helping it; on the contrary, had he come this far just to

  give up now? If that was what was going on, their efforts were in vain.

  “You had a bad dream,” said the unseen head.

  The voice was unfamiliar. It was not someone he had already met during the

  investigation and trial. It sounded gentle, but this might easily be a trick. He

  was well acquainted with the hypocrisy of priests. His worst problems had

  been with those who seemed understanding and helpful and then suddenly

  showed their pitiless faces.

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  “Why do you think that?” asked the prisoner, stretching numbly on the

  dirty, worn blanket that was his only bedding.

  “I watched you twitch restlessly in your sleep.”

  “You watched me in the total darkness?”

  “Eyes get accustomed to the dark if they are in it long enough, and can see

  quite well there.”

  “There are eyes and eyes. Some get accustomed to it, others don’t. I ended

  up here because I refused to get accustomed to the dark.”

  The fingers in the lap slowly interlaced, and the pris
oner suddenly realized

  that they looked ghostly pale because he was wearing white gloves. They were

  part of the church dignitaries’ vestments, which meant that the man in the cell

  with him was not an ordinary priest who had been sent to escort him to the

  stake. So, it was not time yet.

  “Do you think that you will dispel the darkness with the brilliance of your

  fiery stake?” The tone was not cynical; it sounded more compassionate.

  “I don’t know. I couldn’t think of any other way.”

  “It is also the most painful way. You have had the opportunity to witness

  death by burning at the stake, isn’t that right?”

  “Yes, of course. While I was at the monastery they took us several times to

  watch the execution of poor women accused of being witches. It is a compul-

  sory part of the training of young monks, as you know. There is nothing like

  fear to inspire blind loyalty to the faith.”

  “Yes, fear is a powerful tool in the work of the Church. But you, it seems,

  have remained unaffected by its influence?”

  The prisoner rubbed his stiff neck. He could still somehow put up with the

  swill they fed him, the stale air and the humidity that surrounded him, and the

  constant squealing and scratching of hungry rodents that he’d been told were

  liable to bite the ears and noses of heedless prisoners. But nothing had been so

  hard in this moldy prison as the fact that he did not have a pillow.

  “What do you expect me to answer? That I’m not afraid of being burned?

  That I’m indifferent to the pain I’ll soon be feeling at the stake? Only an

  imbecile would not be afraid.”

  “But you are not an imbecile. So why didn’t you prevent such an end?”

  “I had no choice.”

  “Of course you did. The only thing you were asked was publicly to

  renounce your conviction and to repent, which is the most reasonable request

  of the Court of the Inquisition when serious heretical sins are involved. If you

  had done that, you would have kept your title of royal astronomer and been

  allowed to continue teaching students.”

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  “Who would attend the lectures of a royal astronomer who had renounced

  his discovery out of fear?”

  “There is a question that comes before that. Why did you have to announce

  it in the first place? What did you want to achieve by that?”

  “What should I have done—kept it a secret, all for myself?”

  “You were aware that it goes counter to the teachings of the Church. You

  should have expected her to take measures to protect herself.”

  “Of course I expected that. But I was relying on her hands being rather

  tied.”

  “It doesn’t look that way, judging by the sentence you were given.”

  “Oh, you know perfectly well that the stake is not what the Church wanted.

  It was a forced move after all attempts to talk me into cooperating failed.”

  “Based on your condition, I would not say that they tried all possible means.

  You do not look like someone who has been given the Inquisition’s full

  treatment.”

  “Well, I’m not a witch. They didn’t have to force me to agree to some

  meaningless accusation. I did not deny my guilt. That is why the whole

  investigation proceeded like some kind of friendly persuasion, even though,

  probably just to impress me, in the background stood the power of all the

  devices to mutilate, quarter, cut, break, and crush. But I was not even

  threatened with one of them, let alone put to any device. You do not torture

  someone who is valuable to you only as an ally. What good would it be if the

  royal astronomer were lame or blind?”

  “Not even after the alliance has been irrevocably called off? The Inquisition

  can hardly boast of the virtues of forgiveness and compassion.”

  “That is why it is renowned for its patience and acumen. The sentence was

  passed, but I have not been burned yet. There is still time. Attempts to win me

  over to the Church’s side will continue to the very end. In any case, that is why

  you are here, isn’t it?”

  There was an indistinct commotion from the end of the hall, followed by

  the sharp sound of a key unlocking a door and someone groaning painfully as

  he was thrown into a cell like a bag of potatoes. The Inquisition’s investigators

  did their work primarily at night. The main interrogation room was in the

  basement; in spite of the thick walls, horrible screams could be heard period-

  ically, weakening the last remains of will and resistance in the other prisoners

  awaiting their turn to be taken down there. As they moved off after closing the

  door with a bang, one of the guards muttered something to the other, making

  him laugh raucously. For a long time his burst of laughter echoed like thunder

  through the stone hallway.

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  “But you, of course, will not relent?” asked the voice from the darkness after

  the echo finally died out.

  “Of course.”

  “What is the real reason for that?”

  “What do you mean?”

  “You certainly are not a simpleminded idealist who has gotten involved in

  all this because you don’t understand how the world works, what forces set it

  in motion. On the contrary, everything you have done from the beginning

  seems to have been carefully planned. You have lit a fire that only you can put

  out. It takes great resourcefulness to turn the tables on such an experienced

  service as the Inquisition, to tie its hands, as you say. And it takes the courage

  of a fanatic that is always lacking in idealists at the crucial moment, the

  readiness to go all the way, no matter what the cost. You, naturally, shy

  away from the pain that awaits you at the stake, but you will go to your

  execution nonetheless just because that will harm the Church the most. What

  is it that she has done to you?”

  The prisoner started to rise into a sitting position on the hard bed, feeling a

  stab of pain run all the way down his stiff back. As he did so, a scene from his

  dream suddenly rose to the surface of his memory. It was very vivid, although

  fixed, like some sort of ugly picture: the twisted faces of the monks lustfully

  reaching for his tiny, helpless body.

  “Isn’t it still early for my last confession?”

  “I’m not here to listen to your confession.”

  “Oh, yes, I almost forgot. You are here to prevail upon me to change my

  mind. But if you truly believe what you just said, it must be clear to you that

  it’s impossible.”

  “It is clear to me.”

  “Then why are you wasting your time?”

  There was no immediate reply from the other side of the cell. A hand rose

  and reached for something that was lying unseen on the wooden bench. A

  moment later it returned to the flickering shaft of light from the torch in the

  hall. It was now holding a slender black cane with a carved white figure on

  the top.

  “I have more than enough time.” The voice seemed to become muffled,

  more distant.

  “But I don’t. My hours are numbered.”

  “That’s right. Soon they will come to take you to the stak
e, but before that

  you will be given one last chance to accept the Church’s offer. But, as we

  know, you will refuse. Although it makes no difference, really.”

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  “It does make a difference. If I accept, everything I did will have been in

  vain.”

  “No, it won’t. The damage was done the moment you announced your

  discovery, and it cannot be undone. The fluttering of the butterfly’s wings

  should have been prevented before it initiated the storm. Even if the Church

  made a sincere ally out of you, it would only slow down the harmful

  repercussions.”

  “Do you really think that this is sufficient to make me change my mind? I

  expected you to come up with something more convincing.”

  “I have no intention of dissuading you. But that is the way things stand

  nonetheless. Heresy has been sown on fertile ground. Neither the stake nor

  repentance will turn your students away. They will start to spread forbidden

  knowledge, to add to it. Once set in motion, this course cannot be stopped,

  even though the Inquisition will take every measure to obstruct it. You have let

  the genie out of the bottle, and he can no longer return to it. The Church will

  finally realize this inexorability, but it will be too late then.”

  The prisoner strained to make out the hidden face in the impenetrable

  obscurity, but without success, even though his pupils were completely

  dilated.

  “Isn’t it unbecoming for a man of God to have so little faith in the future of

  the Church?”

  “Why do you think I am a man of God?”

  A shroud of silence suddenly descended on the cell. Several long moments

  passed before the prisoner realized what was wrong. He had spent many nights

  alone in this place, and he could always hear some sort of noise: moaning from

  one of the neighboring cells, the screech of rusty hinges, the murmur of the

  guards, muffled cries from the basement, the rustling of mice and rats, the

  creaking boards on which he lay, distant sounds of the outside world. Now all

  of that had mysteriously disappeared.

  “Who are you?” he said, finally mustering the courage to break this tomblike

  silence. The darkness did not answer; suddenly, once again the prisoner felt the

  stab of the piercing eyes that had followed him out of his dream. “The

 

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