Seraphim
Jon Michael Kelley
Evil Jester Press
New York
Copyright © 2012 by Jon Michael Kelley
All Rights Reserved
Evil Jester Press
Ridge, New York
No portion of this publication may be reproduced, stored in any electronic system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or otherwise, without written permission from the authors. This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any actual person, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Edited by Peter Giglio
Cover art by Brandy Kelley
First Digital Edition
For Ramona, my dearest and most lovely companion.
And guardian angel, to be sure.
Acknowledgements
The following people have my eternal gratitude, for without their encouragement this novel would still be smoldering in a wicker trunk. My mother and father, Joan and Charles Kelley, who, having raised me, know very well the guises evil can take, subtle and otherwise. Barbra Schilling, who graciously gave me the time to write it. Brandy Kelley, who supplied the inspiration while in utero. Charles Day for his tremendous ability at being the nicest guy you'd ever want to meet. And Peter Giglio, editor extraordinaire, true lapidarian of text—and also one hell of a nice guy. When he's not diluting my most purplish of prose, that is.
“Not for a moment dare we succumb to the illusion that an arch-type can be finally explained and disposed of…the most we can do is dream the myth onwards and give it a modern dress.”
– Dr. Carl Gustav Jung
Prologue
Eli Kagan was a maker of angels.
He appeared worshipful on bent knees, bowing over his creation. A deceiving pose, as Eli paid reverence to no one. Besides, the body that lay before him was only a caricature, a parody of faith. A cherubic pawn in a game he’d just recently been invited to play. Still, she was exquisite; stark and porcelain-fragile against these wild environs, a coastal region of the Pacific Northwest so untamed as to define primordial. But it was perfect in its seclusion, this chosen site. And even better for its loftiness.
An opportune place to test one’s wings.
Some sixty yards ahead loomed a wood of Douglas fir, its jagged canopy now seared golden by the rising sun. Down below, within the olive drab, sashes of fog drifted along the ground, snagging upon the fern and verbena.
Eli smiled. Not so intangible after all.
He continued to watch the streamers anguish among the verdure. Floundering like the ghosts of drowned kittens reenacting their last, struggling moments of life.
Something moved just then, to his left, behind the tree line. The silhouette of a large dog, glaring at him, its eyes unnaturally aglow inside the murky perimeter.
Cautiously, Eli rose to his feet. The animal continued to stare, head hung low, ears pricked. If Eli didn’t know any better, he’d swear it was a wolf. He picked up a stone and flung it at the voyeur. The rock fell way short, but the animal inferred its meaning and skulked back into the trees.
The thrown rock, or perhaps the dog itself, had disturbed a murder of sleeping crows, and, bursting from the wood, they protested the encroachment.
Beneath these sounds, his angel stirred, then finally opened her eyes.
Far out on the ocean, nature seethed. Storm clouds, darker than the fleeing night, heaved and roiled; entrails bulging from an eviscerated horizon. Behind them, nearly two-hundred feet below, waves lunged at the crag. Huddled along the rocks, cormorants braved the harsh surf with admirable indifference, their long, hooked bills aimed like trumpets at the approaching storm, ready to herald its arrival.
The air was sharp, honed by the misty updrafts shearing the rawboned cliffs.
His angel faced the sunrise. A dab of light had begun to creep along the upper fringe of her left wing, like a wary mouse edging along a baseboard. Soon, the sun swelled across both wings, bringing to them a luster that was almost…phantasmagorical.
Eli brought the Nikon to his face, aiming at the appendages that had been sewn deeply, securely, into the soft flesh of her back. Through the lens the feathers assumed a grainy texture, some of the larger, more loosely-fitted ones lifting on the gathering breeze.
Her eyes were the color of the water below, a frothy blue, the desperation within them equally savage. She was naked, except for the thin nylon rope that bound her wrists and ankles, tainting her otherwise virtuous image. But this was necessary, as was the duct tape that covered her mouth.
Angels screamed, Eli knew. Screamed loud.
She winced as the flash of the camera blinded her, her cries muffled behind the tape. Her head whipped to the right, then left, then right again, as if each blast of light were the backhand of a raging mother. The rope cinched and braided her flesh as she struggled, as did the heavy monofilament cross-stitched along her back. Eli wondered just how intense was her pain, but decided that it was endurable, and perhaps in these last moments nearly coveted, because it undoubtedly reminded her that she was still alive.
After all, children were loath to give up the ghost, ten-year-old girls being no exception.
He then reached into his knapsack and withdrew a jagged-edged piece of stained-glass.
*****
Summer was in full swing in Rock Bay, Massachusetts, all the shops and cafes along Chelsea Street open, their frontages dressed snugly for the tourist season. And it was especially brisk today, the bright midmorning sun and warm temperatures inveigling hordes of shoppers.
Rachel McNeil cupped the corners of her eyes, leaned forward, and peered through the window of Wayfarer’s, an emporium full of choice antiques, most of them nautical. The window display was an old Faber trunk dressed up as a treasure chest, overflowing with spoofed regalia: strings of pearls, gold and silver bullion, gem-encrusted goblets...
She smiled, impressed. Some merchants had it down to a science. Rounding out the exhibit was an old US Navy diving helmet, tagged “Mark V, 1918.” Its copper luster shone like new, and fresh strands of seaweed had been draped here and there for effect—just as had the very real human skull grinning at her from behind the helmet’s hinged front-glass.
Gawd.
She stared back at the ghoulish diver. “Typical man,” she mumbled. “Crimp his hose and he panics and dies.”
Rachel was a native of Rock Bay, but this morning she felt more like a tourist on the last day of what had been, for the better part, a wondrously long and rewarding vacation. But now it was time to leave. Tomorrow, her husband’s new job would steal them from this quaint seaside town, her home since birth, theirs for the past two. And had it not been for the recent and totally unexpected news of her pregnancy, then having to move to Los Angeles might have felt more like a new beginning and less like infanticide.
She was already afraid for the new life inside her. It was a prowling fear, circling her unborn like a lioness. And this fear was not, contrary to her husband’s theory, borne of those Hansel-and-Gretel-like operas that every mother, expectant or otherwise, fantasizes from time to time. No, the anxiety that she’d been experiencing for the past two days, since having left the clinic with her wonderful but surprising news, was in no way, she firmly believed, the fallout from such musings. She had to admit that LA’s infamous reputation had provoked in her all sorts of morbid scenarios, but this was something different. Something that continued to fester within her, still vague but persistent, as if it too were an embryo developing at its own torpid pace, content to let time determine its gender.
There was something else, too; lurking. A feeling of…what? Precognition? Was that the word?
She wished she could abort this dread, meet it with a
coat hanger—then yank.
Her former psychiatrist, no doubt, would have identified this fear as a latent side-effect from the loss of her first and only child, four years earlier. Guilt that’s lain dormant, she imagined him saying, now suddenly awakened from its long hibernation by the news of your pregnancy.
The Freudian fuck.
The guilt. It had nearly crippled her for good. It had taken everything she had and everyone she knew to help her survive the first two years following her daughter’s death. Jessica had died of SIDS. And there was absolutely nothing she could have done to prevent it. But for so many months afterward she’d been convinced otherwise. If only she had shown more responsibility as a mother, her baby girl would still be alive. She should have seen it coming, should have laid her down differently in the crib that night, should have not wrapped her so tightly in that blanket, should have been there next to her, listening for her every breath.
The “Should Haves,” she thought, sequel to the popular “What Ifs,” now playing at a theater near you!
Oh dear lord, the guilt.
She nodded. Of course. That had to be the reason for her plaguing anxiety, the fear of losing this child as well.
Okay, so the Freudian fuck might have been right.
That explanation held for a few moments, then surrendered to doubt. No, no, there was something else, something...
Her reverie was broken when a figure emerged from the dusky interior, materializing on the other side of the glass like a ghost from the ethereal. The store’s proprietor, a gaunt, plucky old man in crisp white Cracker Jacks, had obviously caught the faraway look in her eyes and mistook her for a pining tourist. He grinned as he curled an index finger, inviting her in.
Creepy. Rachel politely smiled, then moved on.
She paused in front of Confection Alley, a thriving little candy store owned and operated by one of her old high school classmates, Darlene Schwartzenburger, who was later rescued from that rambling moniker when Aaron Jakes, a successful entrepreneur from Salem, came along and swept her off her feet. But before Darlene Schwartzenburger-Jakes got her chocolate-covered mitts on the place, it had originally been, and for so many years, Clive’s Clippers, as evidenced by the barber pole out front, still drilling away. Back in high school, Rachel had thought of Darlene as a real class-A bitch. Still did, actually. But that wasn’t the reason why she’d never so much as sampled any of Darlene’s famous fudge. Rather, it was the thought of biting down into one of those rich, creamy morsels and finding a relic hair from some fisherman’s oily scalp meandering between the walnuts.
Here, the warm, ambrosial aroma of freshly pulled taffy was fighting for sidewalk space with frying onion and cilantro from an adjacent pub. These smells instantly triggered in her an exceptionally strong feeling of déjà vu. Yes, she had been here before, on this very sidewalk, in front of this very confectionery.
She turned wistfully toward the water, to savor what she had for so long taken for granted. To do what she’d intended: pay homage.
The bay glittered golden in the morning sun, as if the bullion of some far-flung and long-sunk armada had magically attained buoyancy and floated to its surface. Gulls bobbed and cawed above the wash of a departing lobster boat. Lovers strolled hand-in-hand along the boardwalk, and whale watchers waited eagerly in line for the next tour.
Deep in her chest, leaden memories slipped through the bottom of a frail pouch and fell slowly into a melancholy abyss.
It felt almost treasonous to have forgotten.
Yes, she was going to miss this town, this ocean; perhaps even more than she feared.
Lifting her face, she allowed the salty breeze to wash against her neck, her cheeks. She’d be leaving behind only a few acquaintances, no true friends, and a sales position at Michael’s Department Store (a job she hadn’t needed to keep after her marriage to Duncan McNeil, but had kept all the same). There would be no family begging her to stay. Her mother and father had long been deceased, courtesies of a drunk limousine driver in Vermont, and she had no brothers or sisters. The only living relative of any consequence was an aunt in Portland, Maine—and it had been, what, eighteen years since she’d last seen her? At her parent’s funeral?
There were also two foster families, but she’d cut all ties with them long ago, estranged by the frequent lashings of a Baptist preacher, then later followed with her “deflowering” by a respected city councilman and his accomplice wife.
She had her share of ugly memories and had been more than infrequently haunted by them, mostly at night, back when her husband was “on the job.” But ever since he’d begun keeping normal hours, most of them spent healing, those haunts had depreciated into the occasional—if not even playful—bump and rap.
And now her opportunity had come to uproot and see the world from a different angle. It would be a warped perspective, no doubt, given the view from LA, but she’d come—albeit grudgingly—to accept that destination. Her sense of destiny had been invigorated, she had to admit. As far back as she could remember, she’d felt fated. Not for fame, necessarily (although she wouldn’t turn her nose up at the offer), but definitely something eventful.
Perhaps even pivotal.
But then, she figured everyone must have those kinds of delusions, at least to some extent. Without a sense of self-importance a person would languish in darkness and eventually succumb to the emptiness, to the meaninglessness of it all. She’d been there. Oh boy, had she ever. Fortunately for her, though, her knight in shining armor had finally arrived and would very soon be saving her from ever having to visit that murky kingdom again.
But…Los Angeles?
A year earlier, two bullets had nearly cost her husband his life. He’d been a homicide detective with the Boston Police Department. But now—thanks to those fortuitous bullets—they would both be leaving for LA tomorrow morning. His new job would be teaching Police Science to “a bunch of wanna-bes.” And she was more than thankful for his career move. Cops’ wives were destined to lay awake nights, waiting for the phone to ring, or that knock at the door in the small hours of the morning. But the vast majority of them could always expect a warm body to eventually come sauntering in, at least one free of serious injuries. Rachel, however, had been one of the few exceptions, having gotten that knock at the door, a uniformed officer behind it, fidgety beneath his grim errand.
But her husband had survived, and it did her heart well to know that he would never wear a badge again—knock on wood.
But…Los Angeles?
Growing up, she’d always dreamed of becoming an actress. But reality had chipped away at that boulder of a dream, as it eventually did the fancies of most girls, until, finally, there was nothing left but a hopeless pebble.
She smiled then, remembering that she never had to walk far before it’d shift around and dig into her heel, that pebble. She was quite often reminded of her unique attractiveness; was told that she had the good looks of a movie-star. Not beautiful, not gorgeous—but damned cute. And it wasn’t just men who told her that, but women, too.
She brightened. Why not, she thought. Hollywood, here I come!
As she continued walking, the cobblestone sidewalk was eventually replaced by gray planking as she neared the boardwalk.
In front of the Swashbuckler, the most popular restaurant in town, a line had begun forming for their elaborate seafood brunch buffet. The sign hung above a medieval door and gangplank, with a smaller one below declaring, ‘Arrr! The Finest Grub and Spirits This Side of Martha’s Vineyard, Mates!’ She’d eaten there many times. The food was fine, but not so as to be the envy of every chef between here and Cape Cod, she was sure.
She continued on, smiling as she passed the waiting patrons.
This end of the boardwalk was closest to the water, and the cool breeze made her nipples hard beneath the gossamer material of her summer dress. She blushed, feeling a bit ashamed for not having worn at least a camisole beneath something so sheer. There were more than a few men
glancing, some lingering a little longer than manners would have allowed. She liked the attention, she had to admit, in a coquettish sort of way. Not only was she “damned cute,” but was still shapely despite her years (a decrepit, cane-toting twenty-six), and the tragedies that are notorious for accelerating them.
Oh, yes, the tragedies...
Snap out of it, girl! she mentally slapped herself. You’re turning your stroll down memory lane into a roller coaster ride to hell! Stop feeling sorry for yourself and count your blessings, for Christ’s sake!
Yes, of course, she thought. My blessings.
“I’m going to have a baby!” she whispered excitedly, as if that news were still only minutes old.
God, she was feeling…peculiar.
More powerful than a whim, a sudden, inexplicable impulse made her back up, then take a left down another walkway—one she normally strayed from—that led to a haven of tourist shops.
She passed a smelly bait store, then a glass blower whose specialty was miniature masted ships, whales and hummingbirds, then another vendor selling beautiful sea shells, as well as other less attractive carcasses of marine and shore animals, then a clam shack, this one favored for its “Yards” of beer...
Next was one of those Old West photography studios where women got dressed up like saloon whores, and men as any one of your average sheep-herding, shit-kicking, tobacco-chewing, bandoleer-wearing cowboys. And every single person, she realized, had still managed to come out looking totally counterfeit; the lens wasn’t fooled by the twenty-first century twinkle in their eyes.
A particular photograph stopped her. She peered in. A little girl, whom Rachel guessed to be nine or ten, was dressed up in a calico pinafore and bonnet, the woman next to her in suede chaps, spurs, gun belt and cowboy hat.
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