Besides, he didn’t ever have to pull a trigger. Not when he had a team of mercenaries to do it for him.
There had been nothing for the Kingmaker to gain from it, and worse, Synek’s instinct had stopped Iris from being able to put a bullet in the back of his head.
Instinct.
He had been trained to put the Kingmaker’s life above all others. He was paid for the privilege. Synek had chosen that instead of doing better by her.
The safe house came into view, this one far more heavily guarded than where he and Iris were staying. Even the thought had his hand twitching.
He had gone two weeks without smoking a cigarette—hadn’t even felt the impulse—but now, he was reaching up for the spare he always kept behind his ear, except this time there was nothing there.
No little stick of nicotine to blur the edges of his anger.
“We’ll find somebody else,” Winter said as she drove them up the twisting hill, unaware that he was already counting down the seconds until they were at the very top.
And the closer they came, the quieter Synek’s thoughts grew.
Focus. He would need to focus for what he was about to do.
“There’s always somebody else. A witness. The person who actually did the killing. Whoever or whatever, I promise I’ll help in any way I can. Just … just don’t do something stupid. Don’t do anything rash.”
Once they parked, Synek pulled a pair of cuffs out of his pocket, careful to keep his hands low and out of her sight. As furious as he might have been with bloodlust rushing in his veins, he wouldn’t keep making the same mistake.
He wasn’t going to risk her too.
“If we—”
As she was turning, he grabbed her wrist, fastening a cuff to her wrist and locking the other one around the steering wheel.
“What the hell are you doing?”
“Bullets don’t always have names, little miss. I wouldn’t want a stray one to hit you.”
Because even as his thoughts were clear, they wouldn’t stay this way. He wouldn’t always be in complete control of himself. He wouldn’t always see who was waiting at the other end of his gun because if someone stood in his way—and he knew that she would to save him from himself—he couldn’t risk what he might do.
“You’re not …” She looked from him to where they were and the implications behind it. She hadn’t realized she had driven him to the one place he really didn’t need to be. “You can’t. He’ll have you killed and then what? You think she would want you to die? Synek, you’re not thinking clearly.”
Maybe he wasn’t.
But he was rectifying a mistake, and that was all he cared about.
“I’ll try not to kill your Romanian.” The closest thing to a promise he could manage.
He was halfway out of the truck when she screamed his name, yanking uselessly at the cuff as if that might loosen its hold on her. He shut the door against her cries of protest and the panic in her voice.
“Syn, you didn’t …”
One of the guards, a man whose name Synek didn’t know and had never bothered to learn, was still talking as he came around the car, his eyes widening when he saw his state. But he didn’t have to know the man’s name to remember him from his time with the Den.
Right now, he was just an obstacle.
“Move,” Synek said before he pulled the gun from the holster at his back, the silencer already firmly attached. “Or be moved.”
“Losing your mind again, Syn?” the man asked with a smirk, making the foolish mistake of turning his nose up.
Synek shrugged. “Probably.”
It took two seconds for the man to realize his mistake—the two seconds in which it took for him to aim at the man’s face and pull the trigger. Winter was screaming, he thought, her voice muffled behind the steel and glass she was stuck behind.
He didn’t look back as he stepped over the man’s body and shoved open the door, startling the man standing on the other side. A heartbeat passed as he looked at Synek in surprise before his gaze dropped to the gun he was holding.
His fight or flight instincts were kicking in, adrenaline pumping through his veins. There was a simple gold band on his finger, one Synek noticed only because he started to reach for his weapon but wisely seemed to think better of this before he quickly shuffled to the side.
The others who guarded these halls and formed a line to the room where the Kingmaker was waiting weren’t so lucky. They all chose to take a stand, and Synek had no problem showing them the error of their ways.
And the more he killed, the more his mind broke apart.
He couldn’t feel anything anymore. He was lost to the carnage.
By the time he got to the last man standing, the same one who’d smiled and laughed as he whispered stories in Iris’s ear about him, Synek dropped his gun and pulled out a knife, letting the blade turn end over end in his hand.
Every emotion flickered across the man’s face. Fear replaced by anger replaced by animosity and finally, for whatever fucking reason, the man looked smug. As if he knew a secret Synek didn’t.
But Synek didn’t care enough to figure out why. Instead, he launched his blade across the floor and watched it sink into the man’s chest. Three long strides and he was across the room, yanking it free before he shoved it into the side of the man’s throat, waiting until his shocked gaze lifted as he fought to breathe before giving it a hard twist.
His heart didn’t speed up.
He wasn’t disgusted at all by what he had done, or even the number of people he’d cut through.
Synek didn’t care about anything anymore.
The Kingmaker was exactly where he expected him to be, seated behind a polished oak desk. Had his collared shirt not been untucked and stained with both dirt and blood, Synek might have wondered if they had both been there when his facility was breached.
Not even three hours ago, the man had looked as if he was on the razor’s edge. Not because of the ex-governor and his taunts, but because of the woman he’d been staring at right before he pulled the trigger. It seemed he was the only one not thinking of the right person.
But before he could focus solely on the Kingmaker, the Wild Bunch were there, two on either side of him, their gazes all a mix of contempt and fury. Synek was getting damn tired of people looking at him as if he was crazy. As if the carnage around him could be lain at anyone else’s feet but the Kingmaker.
“You get one warning,” Synek said, his voice flat, his gaze slicing over to Nix. “Move.”
“I understand that you’re upset,” Nix said, and unlike the others, he didn’t show his emotions. “But let’s not regress to our baser urges.”
Synek wasn’t listening. Instead, his gaze had gone back to the Kingmaker who could very well see the body in the hallway as a pool of blood tracked into the room. He didn’t have to explain why he had done what he’d done, or even why he had a gun pointed at the man’s head.
“This what you wanted, yeah? You wanted me to kill for you, yeah? How d’you like my offering?”
Every person in this room knew what Synek was capable of. They knew, just as well as the man who boldly stared him down, that it would only take a second before the man’s life was ended no matter what they wanted to do.
They all had their talents, the mercenaries of the Den.
Red was the sniper. Celt, a master thief.
And even before she had an assassin guarding her back, Calavera had been a master manipulator.
But Synek … he wasn’t brought into the Den because they thought to make him a better man. He was brought in because of what he could do with a knife in his hands. There was no conundrum inside him when he needed to kill, or at least, never at the moment.
His guilt and need to drink the memories away came later.
For now, he just wanted blood on his hands.
“Be very sure of what you’re doing right now, Synek, because you won’t enjoy how I respond.”
“I told you I needed him alive,” Synek said, taking a step closer. “I made that really fucking clear, didn’t I? And you have the nerve to stand there looking down at me because you knew, didn’t you? You found an out.”
It was the carelessness on his face that irked him the most. Because he knew that expression, even wore it often, and that was the face of a man who still thought he was in charge of the game.
But he seemed to be the only one who finally understood what was happening as Calavera asked, “What are you talking about?”
“You really think either of them give a fuck about each other?” he asked, gesturing between the Wild Bunch and the Kingmaker. “No, but see, he has something they want, isn’t that right? Since Belladonna is holding their mate, they’ll do whatever he wants so long as that means they get to him first.”
At some point, though Synek didn’t know when, the Kingmaker had come up with a new strategy. He had known the way Synek would respond to the ex-governor’s death—he’d accounted for it. Which only meant that to save his own arse from the threat coming at him, he had to turn to them for help.
None of them, Synek realized, truly mattered to the man in front of him. They were all just pawns used to do his bidding. It suddenly became clear at that moment that in the grand scheme of things, Synek didn’t matter.
Not to the Kingmaker.
Calavera looked as if she wanted to respond, to say something in defense of the man he was currently staring down, but she couldn’t. There were no words, and more, she probably finally saw the same truth he had.
“I can tell you now, mate,” Synek said as he kept his gun pointed at the Kingmaker while staring down an obviously furious Fang. “He won’t. His promises are worth fuck all.”
“And what promise is it that you feel I haven’t fulfilled?” the Kingmaker asked with a tilt of his head. “The promise that I’d give you freedom and an opportunity to get away from those you hated the most? Is that the promise that I didn’t keep because considering you’re standing here threatening me, that only shows you that I have.”
“I needed him alive,” Synek said between gritted teeth, but there was no chance of him calming down. He was too wired. Too angry. He needed to hurt something the way he’d inadvertently hurt Iris.
“Did we strike a bargain, Synek?” the Kingmaker asked, his tone dripping with condescension. “Did I agree to let him live to aid in whatever doesn’t concern me? I think not. You signed a contract—my fucking contract—and if that means you serve my interests above your own, then so fucking be it. Understand me, I don’t owe you, or her,” he said with a gesture to Calavera, “or him” —this to Skorpion—“or any of the fucking lot of you a goddamn thing.”
The Kingmaker came from around the desk, holding his head high with all the arrogance of a king. “So tell me, Synek, what use do I have for you now?”
He had broken his contract. Not that Synek gave a fuck about that. Pulling a gun on the man was practically seen as an act of war.
But he didn’t care.
He didn’t give a single fuck.
He shook his head. “None,” he answered honestly. “But you better be ready to fucking die if you think you’re going to pull a weapon on me, that I promise you.”
“I—”
“Won’t touch him,” Winter said, her eyes wide and panicked, her chest rising and falling with the rapid breaths she was taking. “I won’t let you.”
The Kingmaker looked at her. “And how would you think to stop me?”
“Bangkok, Beijing, Berlin, Barbados, Bosnia, and those are just the B’s. Anything happens to him and I’ll take it all,” Winter said with all the ferocity of a mercenary. “You will be the Kingmaker with no money, I can promise you that.”
Tensions were high in the room, only made worse when Winter moved to Synek’s side, causing the Wild Bunch to lower their weapons. But as they did, she put a hand over his gun—the same hand that still had a handcuff around her wrist—and forced him to lower his as well.
The Kingmaker seemed to be studying Winter, as if gauging the truth behind her remark, but since she was his hacker, he knew she could get to him if she wanted.
“Fulfill your contract,” he said to Synek, his gaze promising retribution. “And then run far from me because there might be a time when the little hacker won’t be able to save your life.”
He turned then, as much of a dismissal as any, but Synek didn’t give him another thought.
Instead, he headed for the door and out of it, stepping over the bodies he’d left behind.
The only thing on his mind now was Iris.
Chapter 40
Iris wasn’t sure when one day ended and the next day began.
Not when she followed the same routine, waiting until her alarm sounded on her phone to get out of bed, grab some food from the buffet downstairs in the lobby of the hotel where she was currently staying, and venturing back upstairs where she allowed herself a few minutes to eat before crawling back into bed and burying her head under the covers.
It was easier this way.
Just existing.
Pretending as if her world hadn’t come to a screeching halt despite her best efforts to keep going.
But no matter how much time passed, no matter how many times she tried to talk herself out of her lonely exile, Iris couldn’t bring herself to do anything but lay there in misery.
Except for Tuesdays.
And the only reason she knew the day was because on Tuesdays, her phone chimed twice, the second alarm telling her that if she wanted to make it to the prison in time for visiting hours, she would need to leave within the hour.
On these days, she dragged herself out of bed, dressed in whatever she could find that was clean, and rode the short trip up to Sing Sing to wait. From the minute visiting hours began until they ended, she waited in the lobby, hoping her father would change his mind and allow her to see him.
She had sent him a letter all but pleading and hoped that would be enough to convince him. It was going on a week now, and he still had yet to answer.
No matter how often she came up here to wait, no matter how many hours she sat alone watching as the clock wound down, her name was never called.
And when those days shifted to night, she found a bottle of vodka and drowned her problems away. It didn’t hit her as well as an expensive bottle would, but it was enough to numb the pain for a short while until she could finally pass out and start the week over again.
Iris rolled onto her side. The bottle she was holding slipped from her fingertips and hit the carpeted floor with a thump. Luckily, she’d had the foresight to screw the cap back on so the alcohol didn’t spill out once it landed on its side.
She sat up after a moment, shoving her tangled hair back out of her face as she tried to muster the energy to do anything. She’d had her anger to fuel her those first few hours after she walked away from Synek. At that time, she was better able to pretend she could fix the colossal fuckup that had become her entire mission over the past eight years.
As soon as she had arrived at this room after checkin, she loaded all the files she had on her father’s case and searched for something else. Some other person or place or thing that could help exonerate her father. There had to be something.
Maybe she had been reading too fast. Maybe she had been too focused on the Spader that she had overlooked a minor detail that could prove beneficial.
Nothing.
No matter how she looked, no matter where she searched.
Nothing.
And with that realization came crippling depression that had sent her into a crying jag she still hadn’t come out of. She hardly recognized the person staring back at her in the mirror.
Her eyes and nose were red and puffy. Her cheeks chafed. Her hair was nothing short of a bird’s nest, yet … she couldn’t bring herself to care about any of it.
It didn’t matter anymore.
Iris was seconds from lying back again and letti
ng her drunkenness take her away when she heard the unmistakable sound of someone knocking on her door.
Housekeeping, probably.
She hadn’t realized when she stumbled into the first hotel she came across just how often the maids appeared to make sure she had fresh towels or sheets if she wanted them.
Knowing they wouldn’t be going away until she answered, Iris climbed to her feet, reaching out blindly for the bed to catch herself before she went tumbling to the ground. At least, she managed to laugh before she stumbled her way across the floor and reached the door just as the person started to knock again, this time more insistent.
“Thank you, but I don’t need—”
Dark eyes found hers, his brow furrowed, and she saw the exact moment when his concerned expression turned to something she always knew she’d hate to see on his face.
She didn’t want his pity.
She didn’t want anything from him.
“Go away, Synek.”
She had meant to say it sternly, to make sure there was no question about what she wanted from him, and that something was nothing.
It was worse because it hurt to see him standing there, as harshly beautiful as he was. He didn’t look happy, though he wasn’t in nearly as bad of a state as she was, and that helped but … she didn’t need to see him right now.
She didn’t need to see him ever.
Not when just his presence mere inches away from her already made her feel better. As if the world wasn’t slowly closing in around her and suffocating her to death. And nothing was worse than wanting to seek comfort from the person she was supposed to hate.
Maybe she wouldn’t be a mess if she could hate him.
He didn’t speak despite her declaration nor did he turn and walk away as she was expecting. Instead, he took a step forward, easily maneuvering her back before she even understood what he was doing.
The door shut in the next second, a twist of the lock, and finally, he slipped an arm around her waist and lifted her without asking to carry her through the hotel suite. She couldn’t get free of him because no matter how she shoved at him or tried to twist her way free, he held fast.
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