by Glenda Larke
Kaneth twitched the letter from his hand, glanced at it and handed it on to Nealrith. "This time he's making sure Jasper knows."
"That's mine," Jasper said in agonised protest. "It is addressed to me." He stopped. Then, "This time?" His gaze shifted from one to the other as his mind raced in disbelief. They had known she was alive and hadn't told him?
"I'm sorry," Nealrith said when he had finished scanning the sheet. "Kaneth, see that the apothecary Bankor that's mentioned here is dealt with."
Kaneth nodded and walked away. Ryka watched him go, biting her lip, then walked briskly after him.
When Nealrith went to continue up the steps into the hall, Jasper-outraged-stayed where he was. "This time? You knew?" he accused. "You already knew that he had Terelle?"
Nealrith paused and turned back. "Not at first. But a while back Taquar tried to send you a message, and it was intercepted. He said he had her, but we had no way of knowing whether it was true, so we didn't tell you. There is no question of your leaving Breccia, Jasper," he added gently. "The idea of you going back to Taquar is unthinkable. You know that."
"She is my-my friend." The only one I've ever had.
"I know. And I'm sorry. I'm sorrier still for her."
Jasper took a shuddering breath. Sandblast them all. She is nothing to them!
Aloud he said, "You don't understand. I made her a promise. I said I would look after her." He shoved his hands behind his back so Nealrith did not see his fists clenching in anger. "I had a little sister once. I promised myself that no one would ever harm her. And they slaughtered her in front of my eyes, throwing her around from spear to spear until she wasn't recognisable as anything but a piece of meat. And I had a brother taken as a slave. I made myself another promise about him, too. I promised I'd free him. I'm very good at making promises, Lord Nealrith. I'm just not good at keeping them. Do you understand what that's like?"
Terelle, ah, Terelle-be brave. I haven't forgotten you, I swear.
"Look." Nealrith took him by the shoulders and roughly turned him to face the entrance hallway, where Granthon's litter had just arrived and the Cloudmaster was laboriously climbing out. "He should not have gone to the temple today. But he needs to be seen. People need to know he is still alive, still able to read the prayer of sacrifice as he did today. His presence gives them hope and comfort, so he went. And now he will go back to his room and call up another cloud for you to move. That's what sacrifice is, Jasper. That is what is required of us all."
"It's not my sacrifice I'm worrying about. It's all the people who trust me to fulfil my promises to them, only to have me discard them as if they are no more than zigger fodder. Do you know what that's like?"
"Of course I do! Iani has been closer to me than my own father-and look what we did to him. And to Moiqa. Their whole city!" Nealrith's voice cracked. "I pray every day that the Sunlord will forgive me, Jasper, because I can't forgive myself. I have so much blood on my hands I don't know how I can ever wash them clean."
They stood there in the entranceway, staring deep into each other's souls. Nealrith put a hand on Jasper's shoulder, and Jasper felt the message there. A seeking of understanding, a request for respect, a sharing of pain so deep that it was inexpressible any other way. Jasper knew Nealrith wanted a sign from him, a sign that he understood what they shared.
He withheld the indication.
Nealrith took a deep breath. "If I were to send anyone except a rainlord to free Terelle, they would simply die in the attempt. Taquar's guards use ziggers, remember. And I can't afford to send a rainlord. Not now. Not when our own safety is in jeopardy. If I had sufficient rainlords, I would send them to the defence of Qanatend and other cities, not to rescue a single young woman in Scarcleft."
"Then I will ask this of Granthon."
"I forbid you to worry him with this."
"Today in the temple, Granthon proclaimed me a stormlord, Nealrith. You cannot forbid me a voice. Besides, it is still your father who rules the Quartern, not you."
Nealrith drew in a sharp breath, but it wasn't anger Jasper saw on his face; it was grief, that and despair. "Speak to him, then. It will make no difference to the outcome. Your friend Terelle must look after herself. For you to put her safety before your own would be a terrible misjudgement of what is important. The life of no individual can be more important than your safety, Jasper. None. You are the only hope for the Quartern. Don't you understand that?"
Jasper came close to slamming a clenched fist into Nealrith's jaw. He halted the movement in time, and let his anger explode in words instead.
"Even if she was just ordinary, she's in trouble because she helped me. That makes me responsible. On top of that, I have been trying to tell you that Terelle is important. Perhaps even more important than I am. You just aren't listening."
"There is no such thing as magic, Jasper. I don't know what you saw, but it was just trickery."
"You think I am lying?"
"No, just misguided."
"Oh-a fool, then."
"You are being ridiculous."
Jasper choked back his words. He could not trust himself to speak.
"Do I have your word that you will not try to leave Breccia City in some misguided attempt to rescue her?"
Jasper hesitated, gritting his teeth in angry frustration. Citrine, Mica, now Terelle. Was he bound to betray everyone he had ever cared for? "Yes," he snapped, his bitterness spilling out in words. "You have my word. Without me, Granthon would not manage another rain cloud. Without me, there would be no rains anywhere. I know my value. It's a pity you can't recognise hers."
"I'm sorry," Nealrith said again.
Jasper snorted and walked into the hall. Grief spilled from his every pore, and every step felt as if it left its imprint of pain behind. The beat inside his head repeated the same words over and over: betrayer of friendship, betrayer, betrayer…
CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
Scarpen Quarter Scarcleft City Had she screamed? She couldn't remember. If she had, then the sound would have been lost in the noise that saturated the air anyway. A deep groaning from a tormented earth. Screams of naked terror from outside. Crashing, creaking, cracking. Unidentifiable explosive sounds. Things falling, bursting, breaking. Then the candle tumbling, going out, so that when the outer wall crumbled, she saw it only as a darkness that disappeared into choking dust.
When it was all over, she continued to lie where she had fallen, unable, in her shock, to move. Everything was suddenly awfully, unnaturally quiet. Dust settled around her, coating her skin with grit, sifting into her hair and silting through her clothes. She moved then, to cough, to retch, to grope around for a cloth so that she could cover her nose and mouth. She found her bedcover, already ripped by a falling shutter, and tore a piece from that.
When she had control of her breathing, she was able to think. Yet her thoughts made no sense. What had happened?
In the distance, someone shouted into the silence. There was another far-off crash. She lay and thought about it, forced her wits to work. The building. Something had happened to Scarcleft Hall. Part of it had fallen down, that was it. There was a hole in the wall. She had no idea why, and didn't want to know, but one idea was as clear as water in a cistern: she had to get out while she had the chance.
She scrambled up, coughing in the swirls of powdered mud-brick. In the darkness she couldn't see much, and the air was as thick as a spindevil wind full of desert dust. She groped her way over to the dayjar, toppled but still stoppered, in the corner. The idea of leaving her prison without a supply of water was tough to accept, but there was no alternative. The jar was too heavy and cumbersome to lug far, and she didn't have a water skin. She found her mug and poured herself a drink, and then another and another, until she could drink no more. Extravagantly, she used the last to wash away the grime and wet the cloth that covered her face. Once that was done and she could breathe more easily, she felt around for what was left of her paint jars and brushes. There was no way
she would leave those behind. She made a bundle of the rest of the bedcover and tucked the painting things, Russet's paintings of her, Viviandra's mirror and a spare suit of clothes into it. Everything was covered in dust.
Only then did she feel her way along to where she had seen the outer wall crumble. Fine dust particles still hung in the air, making her cough. She could feel it in her nasal passages, in her throat, abrasive, choking. If she looked upwards, she could catch glimpses of stars where once there had been a windowless wall. The outer side of her room no longer existed.
She stared into the darkness at her feet and could just make out a slope of rubble extending downwards. It was steep and unstable, and she couldn't be sure how far it went or where it went or how safe it was, but she held on to the image she had in her mind of her shadow on a wall on the thirty-sixth. She would escape unhurt. She must. Gingerly she slid a foot outwards onto the tumble of mud-brick blocks.
She could not see more than a few paces, and if there were holes she could fall into, if the debris was precarious, if one small misstep meant a fall to instant death-well, she had no idea.
Don't think about it, you sun-shrivelled idiot. One step at a time. Don't think.
Most of the time she crept backwards on all fours, hampered by her pack, feeling with hands and feet for secure places that would take her weight. Once she started a landslip and almost went with it, whimpering in terror; only a piece of firmly wedged stone pillar kept her from a worse fall. All the while, she imagined that there would be a hue and cry, that guards would loom up out of the darkness to catch hold of her. But there was no one. She could hear shouts and screams and cries for help in the distance, but close by, there was only the silence of an eerie solitude. Sandblast it, what had happened?
When she finally scrambled upright on flat ground, she could see a little better. The dust had mostly settled, and there were torch flames and lamps casting light from doorways at the bottom of a set of steps going down to the next level. She continued on, to find herself not far from the sun tower of the Sun Temple on Level Three. It must have lost a few bricks from the top because the edge silhouetted against the sky was jagged.
There were people about, but no one paid attention to her. A woman staggered past with blood in runnels down her face; a man stood, dazed, covered in dust; two or three people grouped around someone lying on the ground. Further along, a family sat huddled together, rocking to and fro like one entity, crying in one voice.
Terelle started to jog, her bundle bumping on her back, intent only on distancing herself from Scarcleft Hall. Speed was not possible; the street was littered with the debris from fallen walls and buildings. A few homes were on fire, the flame-lit scenes a cameo of tragedy and destruction-but Scarcleft's mud-brick structures were strongly built, and with walls as thick as a man's arm was long, most had suffered no more than overturned furniture and broken dayjars. In less-fortunate dwellings there had been deaths. She saw the body of a boy crumpled in his mother's arms. The woman sat in her gateway, rocking back and forth, and her cries skirled through the smoky night air.
Terelle averted her eyes and hurried on.
On the twentieth, water was flowing out of a break in the level's cistern. Reeves and their enforcers were organising people with water jars and other containers to salvage what they could. Terelle ran through a puddle, wetting her bare feet, and shuddered at the waste.
The thirty-sixth level was ablaze long before she arrived. Many people had fled the city altogether, and she glimpsed them standing about in the groves beyond the open gate, waiting for the flames to die down. Within the walls, a few hardier inhabitants tried to salvage what they could-whether their own belongings or other people's was not clear-and a few had simply decided to stay put in order to guard the little they had. The number who fought the fire was smaller still. There was not much point. The larger mud-brick buildings would probably not burn, no matter what happened, while the lean-tos and shanties made of woven palm leaves could never be saved.
Terelle hesitated a moment. The sensible thing to do was follow the exodus and leave the city. To wait out the end of the fire. Yet something turned her feet the other way, towards Russet's room. She had no idea of what she would find and no idea why she felt the need to be there right then. Her feet were leaden, yet they moved of their own accord, past the pot-seller's stand where pots lay in shards, past the corner where the whores usually advertised their wares with deft glimpses of leg or breast, past the rag-pickers' lean-to, which was now no more than ash, to the building where she and Russet had lived. A group of looters ran by, wearing pilfered clothing over their own garments and carrying a cooking pot; by the smell, they had lifted it straight from the stove.
Ba-ba the humpback and his wife, Fipiah, Lilva and her family, Cilla the mat weaver, Qatoo the madman and his son-all were grouped together at the foot of the stairs that led up to the top rooms. Ba-ba looked furious, his wife resigned. Qatoo was naked, as usual, but for once his son was not nagging him to wear his clothing. Instead the lad sat, shaking and wide-eyed with fear, with his arms wrapped around his thin body. Their lean-to-ignited by a flying spark-was burning; a few meagre belongings were piled at the foot of the stairs. The son sat between their most precious possessions: their two dayjars. The rest of the group, still shocked by what had happened, watched the lines of flame consume the sinucca leaves Ba-ba had hung out across the street to dry. The main building remained untouched.
It was Cilla the mat weaver who saw and recognised Terelle first. She gave a toothless grin and said, "My, look who's back. You wanna watch it, girl, you and that old man. You are bad smells to the enforcers, and they'll come sniffin' around at your stink again before long."
"Is he here?" Terelle demanded. "Russet?"
"Oh, ay, he is that," Lilva said with a shudder. "Poor Vato died, flattened when part of a building fell on him over there"-she waved her hand at some rubble down the street-"but that bastard of a waterpainter came sneaking back tonight, as untouched as can be, first time we seen him since you left. Came in just after the shaking stopped."
"Vato died?"
"Squashed as flat as a bab fruit sat on by a pede. Saw it happen."
For a moment Terelle could not move. Vato.
No, it's just a coincidence. I mean, it's been almost half a year since I painted him and Shale trod on his likeness.
She went up the stairs, her cloth clamped to her nose to filter out the flying ash. Her feet were driven by an urgency she couldn't comprehend, and her mind was mired in incoherence.
Only once she was outside Russet's room did she come to a halt. Only then did her understanding flood back and her thoughts become her own.
Her shadow was cast on the wall. She had thought to paint herself in the light of dawn, but it wasn't the sun that cast the shadow, it was fire. She had painted a picture illuminated by flame. In reality, her shadow danced on the wall, writhing in tune with the burning of a palm-woven building behind her.
Sweet waters, she thought, and panic saturated her mind. I did this? I caused the buildings to fall, the fires to start? This is what I drew! Oh Sunlord, forgive me, how many people did I kill tonight?
Her panicked horror brought her to her knees. No. No.
The door in front of her opened, and Russet was standing there, framed by the dim light in the room behind. "Well, don't just be grovelling there like a sanctimonious waterpriest," he said irritably. "Come in. Safe enough here. For now, anyway."
She rose and moved forward automatically, her mind still crying out against the truth she did not want to accept. A lamp burned inside, and he waved her over to the table. He was not wearing his colourful wrap, but threadbare worker's clothes. To be inconspicuous, she guessed. She dumped her bundle on the floor and sat down on one of the two chairs; the backs of both were broken. There was a deep gouge in the table, too, a scimitar slash gone awry. There were waterpaintings there as well, rolled up and tied with twine.
"I came back," he said
. "I be thinking ye'd come."
"You knew I'd escape tonight?" she asked, bewildered.
"Painted ye escaping. I painted ye here, too."
"It was so long," she said, and the words sounded distant, unemotional, as if someone else had uttered them. "I thought you must be dead because you didn't paint me out of there."
"Oh, but I did," he said. He undid the twine and unrolled a painting. "See?"
She spread it out on the table, and the colours sprang into life under the lamplight. A barbed mixture of relief and renewed horror shredded any remaining equilibrium as she stared. "You did this? You did this deliberately?"
He had painted a street by night, and a good part of the building portrayed had crumbled into the roadway. She was in the painting, only her face clearly lit, as she clambered over the darkened rubble. "What did you do?" she barked at him, aghast.
He shrugged, his small green eyes mocking her. "Nothing. Nothing without you. No longer be having power to start a quake. Told ye once, not be easy to influence non-living objects."
"A quake?"
"A ground-shaking, hard enough to be bringing buildings down. In Variega mountains it be common enough." He grimaced and gestured at the painting. "Painted immediately after ye were taken."
"What do you mean, you didn't have the power to start the earth quaking? I felt it. It tossed me on the floor, and then the walls fell down." It wasn't my fault. He did this.
"Told ye-be painting this soon after ye be taken. Nothing happened."
She took a deep breath, trying to still the helpless fluttering of a heart that didn't want to hear the truth he would eventually tell her. "You just said you painted me here. Wasn't that enough?"
He shrugged. "Ye be imprisoned. Couldn't be answering the call."
She thought: He's lying. He tried lots of things and none of them worked. Until I did my painting. It was me.
He continued, gesturing at the painting, "So I be thinking of this. A quake with ye escaping."