Beg For You
Rocktown Ink, Book One
Sherilee Gray
Copyright © 2019 by Sherilee Gray
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Editor: Andrea McKay
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Beg For You - Sherilee Gray - 1st ed
ISBN
Kindle: 978-0-473-48499-6
Epub: 978-0-473-48498-9
Contents
Also by Sherilee Gray
About Beg For You
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Epilogue
About the Author
Also by Sherilee Gray
Also by Sherilee Gray
Rocktown Ink:
Beg For You
Sin For You
Meant For you
Knights of Hell:
Knight’s Redemption
Knight’s Salvation
Demon’s Temptation
Lawless Kings:
Shattered King
Broken Rebel
Beautiful Killer
Ruthless Protector
Glorious Sinner
Merciless King
The Smith Brothers:
Mountain Man
Wild Man
Boosted Hearts:
Swerve
Spin
Slide
Axle Alley Vipers:
Crashed
Revved
Wrecked
Black Hills Pack:
Lone Wolf’s Captive
A Wolf’s Deception
Stand Alone Novels:
Breaking Him
About Beg For You
Ten years. Ten endless years I've waited to destroy the man who tore my family apart. But I never thought I'd get the chance... until his daughter walked into my tattoo parlour, looked me in the eye — and had no damned clue who I was.
I never planned on falling for Cassandra Deighton. She's silk scarves and manicures. I'm scars and rage. Yet I can't resist when she begs for more, my ice queen who burns with enough heat to sear the soul.
I need to end this. Before she finds out who I am. Before she gets hurt.
But I'm not the only one with secrets. We both have our scars, and if the truth comes out, we could lose everything...
Chapter One
Cassandra
Rocktown, Montana
If my father ever found out about this…
Nerves had rioted inside me during the thirty-minute drive from Springhaven, and they didn’t appear to be letting up.
I doubted very much that any of my father’s friends would be visiting Rocktown—the small town was not a place “our kind of people” would ever be seen dead in—but I still found myself glancing over my shoulder.
I reached for the door then dropped my hand again. Dammit. I’d been standing here like an idiot for close to ten minutes.
I stared at the fluorescent blue sign hanging above the tattoo parlor’s door: Rocktown Ink—then flinched when the music coming from inside was turned up so loud the glass door vibrated. It was giving the thumping bass coming from the dive bar across the street a run for its money.
The door of the place—The Lucky Mule, going by its own glowing sign—opened then closed with a crash and someone laughed, voices carrying over. I gripped the strap of my bag tighter as wind blew through me off the surrounding mountains.
God, I was positive I could hear my father’s disapproving voice booming all the way from our ranch. Just the thought of him had my hands sliding down the sides of my designer skirt and up to my hair, making sure nothing was out of place, perfect, as was expected.
I gritted my teeth.
Stop it, Cassy.
I was twenty-six years old, for God’s sake. I chose what I did with my body. Nobody else got to have an opinion. I was done being someone’s puppet. Done being guilted into attending functions, schmoozing with my father’s associates, and playing the charming, dutiful daughter.
Just…done.
Today the real Cassandra Deighton stood up. Well, at least, here’s where she began, where the road to finding her began.
I had no control over my father’s thoughts or feelings. But I could do this, for me.
There was no erasing the memories of that day, the most painful day of my life, but I could transform the ugly reminder I carried on my body into something else, something beautiful.
The only time I felt alive was when I was riding, the cool wind on my face and in my hair, at one with my horse Tierra as we cantered across our property, or what was left of it.
I wanted that feeling, needed to experience it in other aspects of my life. I was more than the scars on my body.
God, I felt like a caterpillar stuck in a cocoon, never fully growing her wings, restrained, confined, desperate to break free. No, I wasn’t going to run off and join a circus or have an affair with the hot mechanic who serviced my car—not that I’d know what to do with him if the opportunity arose—but that wasn’t the point. The point was, I could…if I wanted to.
I stared at the artwork taped to the windows again and took a steadying breath. Whoever drew these was extremely talented. They were nothing like the pieces I displayed in my gallery, but they were equally impressive in their own way. My father would have said they were tacky and cheap…
Enough.
This time when I put my hand on the painted wooden doorframe, I pushed it open.
Heavy rock hit me as I walked in, the bass moving through my body, right to the soles of my feet. Another wave of apprehension swept over me, gnawing at my confidence as I took in the room. It was small but brightly lit. There was a worn leather couch by the window and a glass counter opposite filled with jewelry. The walls were covered in more of that amazing artwork—pictures of the work they’d done here, some faded like they’d been there years, others new and bright.
I toyed with the strap of my bag then gripped it so tight the leather dug into my fingers. I’d never in my life been to a place like this. I had no idea what to expect. What was expected. I hated this feeling of being out of my depth, unsure.
“Hey there, sweetheart.”
I jumped, and spun around, then got annoyed with myself for my overreaction. I curled my lips up in what I hoped was a friendly smile and not a grimace, aiming it at the young blue-haired guy standing in front of me, while doing my best to battle the nerves erupting in my belly like mini firecrackers. “Hello.”
He was probably in his early twenties, maybe even late teens. He had a lot of facial piercings, and tattoos covered every bit of exposed skin.
“You in the right place?” he said, a smirk curling his lips.
“Um…” Maybe this wasn’t such a great idea. My determination of a moment ago sta
rted to wane. Surely there was somewhere else, somewhere less…less…this.
“You looking to get some ink?” he asked, brow hiked high, eyes scanning me from head to toe. He licked his lips. “We don’t get many women like you in the shop.” His eyes slid over my designer outfit again, right down to my shoes then back. “You sure you wanna mark up that pretty skin of yours?”
Too late for that. “Well, I…” I refused to take a step back, even when my body demanded I did exactly that. Coming here had been a stupid idea. Maybe I could get someone to come to the guesthouse at the ranch? Were there tattoo artists that made house calls? I cleared my dry throat. “I was just…I, um…”
“Don’t be shy.” His smirk turned into a grin as he strode toward me.
“I’m not…I’m…”
His fingers curled around my elbow and he led me to the couch before I knew what was happening. “Someone will be with you in a bit.” He waved his hand at a stack of folders. “You can check our guys’ latest work in these.”
I stared at the stack, curiosity getting the better of me. “You’re not the tattooist?”
“Nah, apprentice. For now, I just do piercings.”
Relief loosened the knot in my belly. No way would I let this kid anywhere near me with a needle of any kind. “Right. I’ll take a look. Thank you.”
He winked but didn’t make a move to leave, staring at me intently again. He tilted his head to the side. “You’re from Springhaven, right?”
“Yes.”
His gaze grew intense, something shining through that made me shift in my seat. “Slumming it, huh?”
“No…I just…”
“Okay, let me guess.”
“Guess what?”
“What you’re here for.” His gaze slid up my calf to my thigh. “You want a butterfly inked on your hip? No, a heart?”
I frowned up at him and shook my head. “No…”
“A quote?” He tapped his lips with the tip of a finger. “Something about love? Forgiveness? Something inspirational perhaps?”
“No.”
His eyes were sparkling, glittering down at me. The smug little shit was making fun of me. He’d pegged me instantly as some stuck-up rich girl in the mood to do something reckless to piss off Daddy. I was used to being judged, being found less than. Well, I was done with that as well.
I straightened my spine and forced a smile to curve my lips. Subtle jabs, insults masked as something else weren’t new to me. My world was full of sharks, but I could bite back when I had to.
“Actually, you’re right,” I said. “I was thinking a quote might be nice. What do you think of”—I lifted my hand and pointed to my middle finger, curling down the ones either side—“Go screw yourself, right here?”
His eyes widened for a second, then he barked out a laugh. “Little Miss Springhaven’s got teeth.”
The curtain just down from the counter slid open right at that moment, and I twisted toward it. A woman walked out—though that seemed too plain a word for her. She was striking. With the way she was dressed, the way she swung her hips, the knowing smile on her lips, I knew instinctively no one would tell her what to do. This woman knew what she wanted, and I bet she went after it, too.
Jealousy spiked through me instantly.
I was staring at her, awestruck by her obvious confidence, the self-possession she exuded, when her eyes dropped to my hand and my middle finger. It was still saluting Mr. Blue Hair, who had been in front of me a second ago but now…wasn’t.
“Excuse me, bitch?” she said, charging in my direction. “You did not just flip me off.”
I quickly dropped my hand, shaking my head. “Oh, sorry! No. I wasn’t doing it to you, I was doing it to…” I glanced across the room and pointed to the little prick who was now leaning against the counter, still laughing. “Him.”
“Gloria,” an extremely deep, rough-as-gravel voice called behind her.
My gaze slid to the source of that bone-melting rumble.
Holy mother of God.
The other woman stopped in her tracks and turned back around.
A man stood across from me in the curtained doorway. He was tall, his head brushing the top of the doorframe, and he was big, everywhere. His arms and neck were covered in bright tattoos, and though I couldn’t see them, I knew the rest of him would be as well. The T-shirt he wore was plain black and fit his monster chest and shoulders in a way that hid nothing. This man had a lot of muscles. In fact, I was pretty sure he was all muscle. My gaze dropped before I could stop myself, checking out the rest of him. His long legs were encased in black denim, heavy black boots on his feet. He was…terrifying. Huge.
Pure sin.
I wasn’t sure what kind—good, like overindulging in chocolate, or bad, like beating a man to a pulp just for looking at him sideways—but I got the feeling he’d be more than proficient at whatever form he chose to undertake. There was no doubt in my mind that this man was exactly what he advertised. There would be no monster lying in wait, hiding under a beautifully tailored suit and a charming smile. If this man had a monster inside him, he wouldn’t bother to conceal it.
My gaze slid to the front of his jeans, to the way the soft denim hugged the impressive bulge there…
I swallowed, trying to get some moisture back in my suddenly dry throat, and quickly looked back up. Half his face was concealed in shadows, but I could see his eyes were dark, almost black, and he was staring back, gaze unwavering. I blinked. Something about them gave me pause—they were familiar? But I couldn’t hold them long enough to work out what it was I thought I saw, and instead I stared at his mouth. A scar slashed through his lips on one side, starting just out from his nose and finishing halfway down his chin.
Gloria sashayed over to him, and I watched in horrified fascination as she plastered herself against him and went up on her toes. He leaned in and kissed her deeply.
Humiliation burned my cheeks and something curled tight in my lower belly, my skin suddenly too hot. He lifted his head and said to her, “Next week.”
Then his dark, extremely intense eyes were back on me. I jolted in my seat. God, I needed to get out of here. I didn’t belong in this place.
And wasn’t that just the story of my life?
I stood, swung my bag over my shoulder, and headed for the door, right behind sashaying Gloria in her skyscraper heels.
“Hold up,” that gravelly, jarringly deep voice said from behind me.
A shiver arrowed down my spine, and I stopped so fast it was like I was tethered to the owner of that rumbling brutal voice. Instead of bolting for the door, I found myself turning around before I could command my body to do otherwise.
He wasn’t in shadow anymore, he’d taken a step toward me, and the scar on his lip wasn’t his only one. Another ran down his cheek. It started at his jaw and carried on up, above his ear and across his skull, leaving a thin white line through his cropped hair.
“You here for me?” he said. “Bull’s not on tonight.”
I stumbled back a step before I could stop myself, like he’d roared the words at me. And what kind of a name was Bull?
He ignored my reaction, the rude way I stared at him, and lifted a hand to the doorframe above. His colossal bicep bulged.
Zaps of electricity fired through my lower belly. What is wrong with me?
One of his eyebrows lifted.
I forced my brain to form words. “No, thank you. I…I don’t think so.”
“Were you here…for a consultation?” His head tilted to the side, and there was no mocking expression on his face, just curiosity.
I was gripping my bag strap so tight now my knuckles ached. “I’m sure this is a…a reputable establishment.” I inwardly cringed at the superior tone of my voice. I had a tendency to hide behind it when I felt threatened, and right then I felt threatened in more ways than I knew how to process. “But I think I’ve come to the wrong place.”
Hester, my grandmother’s nurse, said he was
a specialist. Her daughter Emily had used him before. He looked more like a thug to me. A sexy, scarred thug with arms that bulged with muscle and thighs like tree trunks.
This couldn’t be the right man.
My mouth was dry again.
His hands came up, like he was showing me he wasn’t armed. I got the feeling he had to do that a lot. “Who were you looking for?” he asked.
I opened my bag and rummaged around for the piece of paper Emily had given Hester with the details. I stared down at it and shook my head. Not one for details was our Emily. I looked up at him. “Cal?”
He frowned a little. “That’s me.” Then he just stared at me, like he was waiting for some punchline, like there was some inside joke he expected me to catch onto and roll with.
“Right, well…” Now what? I could leave. I could walk out that door and forget this ever happened. I wanted to. I really wanted to.
If you don’t do this now, you never will.
I’d come here for a reason. This wasn’t some whim I’d woken up with this morning. I needed to do this, for me, for the life I planned to build for myself, the life I wanted to start. And for the past I was determined to leave behind, so desperately it was a constant knot in the pit of my stomach.
You can do it, Cassy. My brother’s voice echoed through my head, encouraging me to take the risk like he had many times before everything fell apart, before the accident.
No, it wasn’t really him talking, but that niggling voice in my head was right.
No one would make me feel guilty, or inadequate, or less than ever again, not Mr. Blue Hair who’d judged me as soon as I walked in here, and not this intimidating wall of man muscle staring at me expectantly.
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