A lump of wet snow slapped her face; another smacked her shoulder. Little clods rattled through the trees above them and bounced out over the edge. A cloud of fluffy snow misted her face. The roar was deafening.
A flow of thundering white sluiced over the ledge above. They drove through it, like running through a waterfall. Behind her, a tree trunk bounced on the trail, spinning out over the precipice. They just cleared the leading edge of the bulk of snow.
The men of the Imperial Order behind were not so lucky. The plunging snow, charged with timber and boulders, cascaded down with ever-gathering power. They were swept away in the tumbling white death. The fury of sound muffled the screams of men it carried away, rolling them into the pounding slide, burying them alive.
Kahlan sagged with relief. They could not be followed now. The pass was entombed.
The panting men slowed, but they couldn't slow too much, or they would freeze. Their pace kept them warm. Their feet, she knew, despite being wrapped in white cloth for a little protection, were not warm. They had given her their best effort. They had given the Midlands their best effort. Many had given their lives.
Kahlan was so exhausted from lack of sleep, as well as the fatigue of battle, along with the emotional drain of fright, and the effort required to use her power, that she could hardly stay upright. Soon, she told herself, she could rest. Soon.
She patted the hand on her stomach. 'We made it, soldier. We're safe, now.'
'Yes, Mother Confessor,' he whispered groggily. 'Mother Confessor, I'm sorry.'
'For what?'
'I only killed seventeen. I'm sorry. I promised myself I'd get twenty. I only got seventeen,' he mumbled.
'I know heroes of battle, decorated men, who have not bested half that number in combat. You have made me proud. You have made the Midlands proud. Feel only pride, soldier.'
He mumbled something she couldn't understand.
She patted his hand again. 'You'll be to help soon. Hold on. You'll be fine.'
He didn't answer. She looked behind, down the trail, and saw only white, and heard only silence. In the distant, dark mountains, a wolf yipped.
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A short time later, on a high plateau, they reached the camp. The men ahead in the line were already wrapped in blankets as they shivered around fires, warming their feet. Some were pulling on their clothes under the blankets. More men threw blankets around the men coming in ahead of her and tended the wounded. Some of the wounded were groaning in pain, feeling it for the first time, now that the heady furor of combat and escape had evaporated. She began to feel a throbbing in her lip.
In the flickering light of small fires, she could see Prindin and Tossidin, some distance away, running around searching the new arrivals. When they saw her on the horse, they both sighed with relief, giving her twin smiles.
Captain Ryan, dressed in a D'Haran uniform and with a bandage around his left hand, ran over. Other men took the reins, and yet others extended their hands to take the man behind her as she held him by an elbow, lowering the limp form down.
Prindin ran to meet her, her mantle in hand. He stood, holding it open for her, waiting for her to dismount so he could put it around her shoulders. He grinned at her.
Without moving from the saddle, she slowly extended her hand. 'I have had enough eyes on my flesh to last me the rest of my life. Throw it up here!'
Prindin shrugged self-consciously and tossed the mantle up to her. Tossidin swatted the back of his brother's head. Silence fell over the gathered men. They all looked away in embarrassment as she put the mantle around her shoulders and tied it.
She slid down, finding her legs barely up to the task of holding her. She used the sword still in her hand as a cane. She had to pause a moment until everything stopped spinning. She glanced to the man lying in the snow at her feet.
'Why isn't someone helping this man? Don't just stand there, help him!' No one moved. 'I said help him!'
Captain Ryan stepped closer to her. He kept his eyes on the ground. 'I'm sorry, Mother Confessor. He's dead.'
Her hand tightened into a fist. 'He's not dead! I was just talking to him!' No one moved. She beat her free fist against his chest. 'He's not dead! He's not!'
Everyone looked away. No one said anything. She finally glanced at the men around the small fires, at all the hanging heads. Her hand fell to her side.
'He killed seventeen of them,' she said to Captain Ryan. 'He killed seventeen of them,' she said louder, to the rest of them.
Captain Ryan nodded. 'He did well. We are all proud of him.'
She watched the faces as they all finally came up. 'Forgive me. All of you, please forgive me. You have all done a good job.' The fury had gone out of her. 'You have all made me proud. You are heroes, in my eyes, and in the eyes of the Midlands.'
The men brightened a bit. Some went back to eating, while others started passing around tin bowls and spooned beans from pots on the fires. Some tore off chunks of flat camp bread to dunk in the beans.
'Where's Chandalen?' she asked as she pushed her feet into the boots Tossidin handed her.
'He went with the archers. I imagine that he's probably shooting arrows into D'Harans right now.' Captain Ryan leaned toward her, as the brothers moved away, and lowered his voice. 'I'm glad these three are on our side. You should have seen them taking out the sentries. Prindin, especially, is like death itself, with that troga of his. It was eerie, the way they were first here, and then over there, and you never even saw them move. I never heard a thing. They just appeared with the sentries' uniforms.'
'You should see them do that out in the open.grassland, in broad daylight.' Kahlan looked him up and down. She managed a small smile. 'Quite handsome. You wear it well.'
He pulled at his shoulder. 'I don't know how they wear this heavy mail all the time.' He fingered a slash in the leather. 'But I was glad to have it on.'
'How did everything go? How many men did you lose?'
'We got nearly everything we went after. In these uniforms, we didn't have to do much fighting. Hardly anyone noticed us, except the ones we killed. We only lost a few men.' He glanced back over his shoulder. 'Looks like you caught the worst of it. I took a rough count as you came in. We lost close to four hundred of the thousand swordsmen who went in.'
She stared past him, at the men around the fires. 'We came close to losing them all.' She brought her attention back to the captain. 'But they did themselves proud. The drivers, too.'
He cradled his bandaged hand. 'From the ones I talked to, I don't think many took less than ten of the enemy, and many took a lot more. We took quite a chunk out of the Order's hide.'
Kahlan swallowed. 'They took quite a chunk out of ours.'
'Did the men do like I told them?' he asked. 'Did they keep trouble away from you?'
'They kept the enemy so far from me I couldn't tell you what they looked like. I'm afraid I wasn't able to add much honor to your sword, though it was a comfort to have along. I pray you will at least be honored that I carried it in battle.'
He frowned, leaning to the side, trying to get a better look at her face in the firelight. 'Your lip looks cut.' He glanced at her warhorse as the men were taking the tack off. That horse is covered in blood. You're covered in blood, too, aren't you?' It was an accusation, not a question.
Kahlan stared off at a fire. 'Some drunk threw something at me. It cut my lip. That wounded soldier I was bringing in bled to death on my horse, and on me.' Her eyes drifted among the young faces around fires. 'I wish I could have done half as well they. They were magnificent.'
He grunted suspiciously. 'I'm just relieved to see you.'
'Is everything else in order? The archers, the cavalry? We must make the best use of our opportunity while they're drunk and sick with the poison. We must make the most of this weather, too. We can't let up for a moment. One lightning strike after another. No engagement. Glancing attacks, always from a different place.'
'They all know their jobs, a
nd are waiting their turn. The archers should be finished soon, then the cavalry, then the pikemen. We're ready for their sentries, when they send them out. Our men will sleep in turns, but from now on, the Imperial Order will get no sleep.'
'Good. These men need rest. In the morning, it will be their turn again.' She lifted a finger to the captain. 'Remember the most important thing.' She quoted her father, '"The weapon that most readily conquers reason is terror and violence." Don't forget that. It's the tool they use, and now we must turn it on them.'
Prindin came back into the firelight. 'Mother Confessor. My brother and I made you a shelter, while we waited for your return. We have your clothes there, and hot water, so you may wash yourself if you wish.'
She tried not to show how eager she was to wash off the reek of war. 'Thank you, Prindin.'
He held his arm out, showing her the way to the small clearing. The brothers had built a roomy shelter of balsam boughs covered over with snow. She crawled through the low opening to find candles inside. The snowy ground was covered with a mat of boughs, too, giving the shelter the pleasant aroma of balsam. A steaming bucket of water had just been set next to hot rocks placed in the center. She warmed her fingers over the rocks.
The brothers had made her a warm and snug home for the night. She could have wept at their thoughtfulness.
Her pack was there, and her clothes folded in a neat pile. Kahlan took off her necklace, the one Adie had given her, the one with the round bone. It was -the only thing she had worn into battle. She clutched it to her cheek a moment before she washed it. It reminded her of the one her mother had given her.
She dunked her whole head in the bucket, washed her hair, and then methodically washed the rest of herself. It was only a sponge bath, but it still felt wonderful to wash off the blood, and the feel of the hands. She had to force herself to think of other things as she washed, to keep from being sick. She thought of Richard, thought of his boyish smile that never failed to make her grin, thought of his gray eyes that could look right into her. When she finished washing, she lay down, drying her hair on the rocks.
She desperately needed sleep. She still hadn't recovered her Confessor's power since using it on the one-eyed man, Orsk. She could feel the emptiness in the pit of her stomach, a hollow where the power belonged. It would be a while longer until it was restored. She wouldn't be able to shake the sick, dizzy exhaustion, though, until she had sleep.
She longed to lie down in her bedroll and sleep. It had been so long, and she was so sleepy. But she couldn't. Not yet.
She put the necklace back over her head and then laboriously pulled on her clothes. From her pack she recovered an unguent and spread it on her cut lip. When she replaced it, she saw the bone knife Chandalen had given her, and tied it around her arm again.
She was so tired she could hardly force herself up, but she had something to do before she slept; she had to be with her men. She wouldn't let them think she didn't hold their interest highest in her heart. They had offered their lives; the least she could do was show her appreciation, on behalf of the Midlands.
Clean, her long hair full and shiny once more, and dressed at last in layers of warm clothes and her mantle, she wound her way among the campfires. She listened with serious attention to the babbling stories of some, and the quiet, brief words of others. She spoke with all who had questions, gave smiles of reassurance, and let them all know how proud she was of what they had done. She knelt by the wounded, checking to see if they were warm enough, and laid a hand to their cheeks, giving comfort, and wishing them good health and quick healing. She, too, felt relief when they were calmed by her touch.
At a fire surrounded by ten silent soldiers, one young man was trembling, but she didn't think it was from the cold.
'How are you doing? Are you all right? Are you getting warm?'
Her presence surprised and brightened him. 'Yes, Mother Confessor.' A racking shiver rattled his teeth. 'I never thought it would be like that.' He composed himself, and indicated the others. 'These are my friends. Six didn't come back.'
She held her mantle closed with one hand and brushed the hair back off his forehead with the other. 'I'm sorry. I, too, grieve for them. I just wanted you men to know that you made me proud. You were as brave as any soldiers I've ever seen.'
He chuckled nervously. 'We'd all be dead if it wasn't for you. We were being driven back, hacked to pieces, and then you charged right into the enemy, all by yourself. They all turned their attention to you, and then, while they were confused, we counterattacked. What you did saved us.'
He shook his head. 'I wish I had killed half as many men tonight as I saw you kill.' They all nodded their earnest agreement. He brushed trembling fingers across his face. Thank you, Mother Confessor. If it weren't for what you did, we would all be dead, too.' He gave her a twitch of a smile. 'If I had the choice, I'd choose to follow you into battle over Prince Harold himself.'
'Pretty good with a sword, is she?'
She started at the voice. The soldier turned to see Captain Ryan standing behind her.
'I think she could teach us swordsmen a thing or two. You wouldn't believe what she ...'
Kahlan patted his shoulder. 'Have you had something to eat?'
He pointed to the pot of beans on the fire. 'Would you share some with us, Mother Confessor?'
She almost lost control of her queasy stomach. 'You men eat. You need the strength. Thank you for the offer, but I must first see to the others.'
Captain Ryan followed her away. 'I had thought you might have some trouble handling a sword. The men who unsaddled your horse told me they found dismembered hands and fingers caught in the girth strap, and a few other places.'
Kahlan smiled at men she passed. They lifted a hand or bowed their heads in greeting. 'Have you forgotten who my father was? He taught me the use of a sword.'
'Mother Confessor, that doesn't mean ...'
'Lieutenant Sloan was killed.'
He fell silent a moment. 'I know. They told me.' He put a hand under her arm when she stumbled. 'You don't look so good. Some of those men who were poisoned looked better than you.'
'It's just that I haven't slept for so long.' She didn't tell him that she had also used her power again. 'I'm dead tired.'
Back outside her shelter, Tossidin offered her a bowl of beans. Her fingers covered her mouth as her eyes winced closed. She thought she might faint at the sight and smell of food. Tossidin seemed to understand and took it away.
Prindin put a hand under her other arm. 'Mother Confessor, you must eat, but you need rest even more.' She nodded her agreement. 'I made you some tea; I thought it might be a comfort.' He pointed with his chin to the shelter. 'It is inside.'
'Yes, tea might help settle my stomach.' She gave the captain's arm a squeeze. 'Wake me in the morning, when it's time for the next attack. I'll go with the men.'
'If you're rested enough. Only if ...' She cut him off with a look. 'Yes, Mother Confessor. I'll wake you myself.'
Inside the cozy shelter, she sipped the hot tea, and shook. Her head was spinning. She could only take a few swallows before she fell into the bedroll. She would be better, she told herself, when she was rested. She could feel her power coming to life at last, swelling with its familiar force within her chest.
She curled up under her fur mantle, thinking of the thousand things that needed to be tended to. She worried about the men who were at that moment attacking, and the ones who would go next. She fretted for them all. They were so young.
She worried about what she had started. War.
But she hadn't started it. She had only refused to abandon the lives of innocent people to a sure death. She'd had no choice. As the Mother Confessor, she had a responsibility to the people of the Midlands. If the Imperial Order wasn't stopped, untold thousands would die at their hands, and those who lived would live as slaves to the Order.
She thought about the young women at the palace in Ebinissia. Their faces floated and spun th
rough her mind's eye. She was too weary to weep for them. When they were avenged, there would be time enough to weep.
She seethed with a lust for vengeance. She resolved that she would hound the army of the Imperial Order to their graves. In the morning, she would once more lead her men against the enemy. She would see it through. She would see those girls, and all the others, avenged.
If the Imperial Order wasn't stopped, not only would innocent people be slaughtered, but all magic, good and bad, all the creatures of magic, would perish.
Richard had magic.
Her mind drifted to Richard. And then she did weep, weep in the hope that he would not hate her for what she had done. She prayed that he would be able to understand and forgive her. She had done the best for him, to save him, to save the living. Her tears slowed, finally sobbing to a stop.
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