by Jane Feather
“Well, neither do I,” she said in a fierce undertone. “For the last three years I have always taken part in Crighton’s discussions with my grandfather—that’s my habit and I’m not changing it.”
Her pointed chin jutted at him, the wide, generous mouth set in a taut line, every inch of her slender frame bristling with anger and determination.
“In this instance I’m afraid you must,” he said, curtly now, anxious not to prolong this any further. The lawyer must be wondering about the whispered colloquy. Firmly, he stepped back and closed the door in her face.
Theo stared in disbelief at the heavy oak timbers. Her hand lifted of its own accord to raise the latch, but some voice of caution stopped her in time. She couldn’t cause a scene in front of the lawyer, and she knew that if she barged into the room, there would be one. Sylvester wouldn’t yield simply because she put him in an embarrassing situation.
Seething, she swung on her heel just as Foster appeared with a tray of decanters and glasses. Three glasses—it wouldn’t occur to him that Lady Theo would be banned from the book room.
Flushing with anger and mortification, she stalked outside into the sunlight. What was going on? What outstanding matters did the lawyer have to discuss with the earl? Was there something she wasn’t to know about?
Theo was not suspicious by nature, but she had a logical mind, and she could see no logical reason for Sylvester to ban her from the discussions. She took part when they talked with the bailiff and the estate agent; why should the lawyer’s affairs be any different?
Without making a conscious decision she went back into the house, her steps taking her into the library.
The earl’s book room was a small corner office adjoining the library at the side of the house. Sometime long ago in the history of the manor, presumably during one of the many religious and political persecutions that had raged across the country, a Belmont had blocked the inglenook in the library fireplace, creating a small but adequate hiding place that abutted the book-room fireplace.
Theo had discovered it as a child when playing hide-and-seek with her sisters and Edward one Christmas Eve. She’d never expected to put it to such good use.
She pressed the catch in the granite slab inside the vast empty fireplace, and the stone swung creakily inward. It was dark and musty, the air smelling thickly of soot and wood smoke. It was an insane thing for the Countess of Stoneridge to be doing, she thought, but it didn’t prevent her from slipping into the cramped cavity. She was going to come out black as a sweep.
She left the slab a little ajar, seeing no reason to enclose herself in blackness. It was her house and she wasn’t doing anything illegal—merely somewhat disreputable.
Lawyer Crighton’s voice came clearly through the stone, pedantic and ponderous, joined by Sylvester’s deep tones full of impatience at the lawyerly long-winded precision.
They were talking about the will.
“Now that you’ve satisfied the late earl’s conditions, my lord, I have pleasure in handing over to you the documents relating to the estate,” Crighton said.
Conditions? What the devil was he talking about?
“I now have title, free and clear, to the entire estate?”
“As of your wedding day, my lord.”
Cold crept up Theo’s spine. A graveyard coldness. She pressed closer to the stone.
“The late Lord Stoneridge’s private fortune passes into your hands since you’ve complied with his condition, but under the terms of the will, you must set up trust funds for the three remaining Belmont girls.”
“It’s understood.”
“I have the papers here, my lord. If you’d sign each one … on the line at the bottom. Thank you … and I’ll witness your signature.”
“The estate is to provide them each with a dowry of twenty thousand pounds.” Stoneridge’s voice was reflective, as if he was reading the fine print. “A generous dowry.”
“Indeed, my lord, but one easily afforded by an estate as wealthy as Stoneridge.” The lawyer sounded a little bristly.
“Quite so,” the earl responded in his level tones. “With such a dowry Clarissa should have no difficulty finding a husband. And I daresay Edward Fairfax will welcome Emily with even more enthusiasm. They’re personable girls…. Even young Rosie behind those spectacles hides a certain charm.” There was a hint of laughter in his voice as he said this.
Theo was feeling sick, her hands tightly clenched, the nails biting into her palms. She wasn’t sure she understood what she was hearing, and yet she knew she did.
“Now, for Lady Stoneridge’s jointure,” the lawyer was continuing. He cleared his throat in his irritating fashion, and Theo could imagine his glancing around the room in search of inspiration. “Perhaps her ladyship should be a party to this aspect of the discussion, my lord?” It was a diffident suggestion.
“There’s not the slightest need for her ladyship’s participation,” Stoneridge declared curtly. “Anything she needs to know, I will explain to her myself.”
Theo was submerged in a deadly rage. Still, she couldn’t put words to what she suspected—it seemed impossible.
As of your wedding day. Free and clear title to the estate, as of your wedding day.
She continued to listen as the lawyer enumerated the statistics of her jointure. It was generous in the extreme. If she outlived her husband, she would be a wealthy woman in her own right. And when she had children, they would be the beneficiaries of that wealth. But Stoneridge wasn’t laying down these terms out of his own generosity; Mr. Crighton was dictating the terms to him.
This was her grandfather’s doing.
She was the currency for Stoneridge to inherit the estate, but by doing so he had to accept obligations that her grandfather had laid upon him.
Her grandfather hadn’t abandoned them.
But what had he done to her? What had he done to his favorite granddaughter? He’d tied her body and soul to a man she now loathed with a repugnance beyond description. A man who’d deceived and manipulated her. A man who’d trapped her into a marriage that ended her independence, that destroyed all possibility of other choices for the future. With his smooth serpent’s tongue, the Gilbraith had persuaded her mother that he was a generous and honorable man who would fulfill obligations to his wife’s family for family and duty’s sake.
But he didn’t have an honorable bone in his body. He was a liar. A greedy liar.
Numbed but fascinated like the rabbit circled by the fox, Theo listened to the end of the discussion, although nothing more illuminating was said. But she had the picture, and she was convulsed with rage that blinded her to anything but the need to bring this repulsive sham of a marriage to an end, to tell that loathsome, deceiving manipulator what she thought of him.
And through her rage she heard his voice from days past promising that he would never take advantage of her passion. That she could trust him to share her passion and lose himself in lust as she lost herself. And he’d been lying through his teeth. She’d given herself to him in all honesty and trust, and he’d possessed her with cold-blooded greed … using her, using her passion.
It was all she could do to slide quietly from her hiding place, close the slab, and go to her room to wash the traces of soot from her hands. Her face was deathly pale in the looking glass, her eyes blank with a pain so deep, it was like a knife in her vitals. For the first time in twenty years her sense of who and what she was, of her own worth in her own world, was destroyed. All her life she’d been indulged and praised. She knew herself to be useful; she knew her talents. But now it was gone, trampled into the dust by a stranger who’d walked into her life and taken everything meaningful from her.
“WHEN YOU HAVE business with me in the future, Mr. Crighton, we will conduct it in town,” Stoneridge said, rising from his desk to indicate the interview was over. “A letter to me requesting a meeting will be sufficient. I anticipate being in London quite frequently, so there will be no difficulty in dea
ling with these matters in your own offices.”
Lawyer Crighton looked uncomfortable. “I trust I haven’t intruded, my lord. But it’s always been my custom to make these quarterly visits in person … to pay my respects …”
“No … no.” Sylvester waved him impatiently into silence. “I appreciate the courtesy, but it will not be necessary to repeat it, you understand.”
“Yes, my lord … of course, my lord,” the lawyer muttered unhappily as the earl pulled the bell rope.
“Have Mr. Crighton’s gig brought around, Foster,” the earl instructed when the butler appeared.
So there was to be no invitation to dinner, and he’d been offered only a glass of claret—a glass, moreover, that had not been refilled. Circumstances had certainly changed at Stone ridge Manor, and not for the better, the disgruntled lawyer decided, picking up his hat and gloves from the table in the hall.
The earl accompanied him to the front door, where he shook hands briskly, and then turned back to his book room without waiting to see Lawyer Crighton into his gig. He was aware he’d dealt somewhat brusquely with the man, but he was too anxious to get him out of the house before Theo reappeared.
He paced the small room for a few minutes, considering his next move. Theo was bound to be annoyed at her unceremonious exclusion from the interview, but now the danger was past, and Crighton wouldn’t drop in unexpectedly another time; he could afford to be as conciliatory as necessary to smooth her ruffled feathers.
He’d suggested duck hunting earlier. Henry had reported that the sport at Webster’s Pond was held to be excellent. Apart from a few poachers, it was rarely hunted, since it was on private Stoneridge land.
Maybe the idea of a competition would appeal to her. He’d never known Theo to refuse a challenge of any kind. The thought made him smile, and as he realized how relieved he was, he understood just how desperately anxious he’d been since Crighton had driven up to the door … was it only an hour ago? A lifetime of living with his despicable secret seemed impossible, but he couldn’t imagine how he could ever tell her.
He moved to the door just as it opened. Theo came into the room, closing the door quietly behind her.
His words of friendly greeting died on his lips. Her face was paler than he’d ever seen it, and her eyes were depthless caverns.
“So, my lord, your business with Mr. Crighton is concluded?” Her voice was strangely flat.
“Cry peace, Theo,” he said, coming toward her, smiling, one hand outstretched. “I know you’ve been accustomed to participating in these discussions, but—”
“But on this occasion things not for my ears were being discussed,” she interrupted in the same expressionless voice. Before he could respond, she continued. “Did you ever consider that I might be too high a price to pay for the estate, my lord? But I imagine no price would be too high.”
“You were listening?” His own face now bloodless, Sylvester stared at her, too stunned for the moment to grasp the full horror of this disclosure.
“Yes,” Theo said. “I was eavesdropping. Nasty habit, isn’t it? But not as nasty as deceit and manipulation, my lord. Did my grandfather know you, I wonder? Did he know what a greedy, dishonorable man he was tempting with his granddaughter’s body?”
“Theo, that’s enough.” He had to take hold of the situation, to stop this dreadful, destructive monologue before something catastrophic was said or done. “You must listen to me.”
“Listen to you? Oh, I’ve listened to you enough, Stoneridge. If I hadn’t listened to you, I wouldn’t be tied to a despicable, treacherous deceiver.”
“Theo, you will stop this instant!” Guilt yielded to anger as her bitter words flew like poison darts across the small room. “We will talk about this like reasonable people. I understand how you feel—”
“You understand!” she exclaimed, and her eyes were now bright with fury. “You’ve taken everything from me, and you tell me you understand how I feel.” With a sudden inarticulate sound of desperate rage and confusion, she turned and ran from the room.
Sylvester remained where he was, his body immobile, his ears ringing with her accusations. There was a dreadful truth to them, but it was a black-and-white truth, one that ignored the complexities of the decision that he’d made. Theo, headstrong, forthright, free-spirited gypsy that she was, drew her world with the firm strokes of a charcoal pencil, no shading, no wavy lines.
Somehow she had to be persuaded to accept her grandfather’s part in all this. Her grandfather had laid out the board, and he himself was as much a goddamned pawn in the old devil’s game as Theo.
With a muttered execration he spun on his heel and began to pace the room, the hateful words pounding with his blood in his veins. Dishonorable; treacherous; deceitful. The accusations went round and round in his head until his brain was spinning with them. A dishonorable, treacherous man would give in to the enemy without a fight. Would see his men slaughtered, would surrender the colors, would condemn the survivors of his company to languish in an enemy jail …
He closed his eyes as if he could block out the dreadful images; he covered his ears as if he could erase the voice of General, Lord Feringham at the court-martial, a voice that made no attempt to disguise the general’s contempt for the man on trial. What price an acquittal when not even the presiding general had believed in his innocence? They’d turned their backs on him in the court when the verdict had been announced….
And now his wife was hurling the same accusations at his head! Her eyes glittered with the same contempt. And it was not to be borne!
He strode out of the room, hardly knowing what he was doing. “Where’s Lady Theo?”
Foster, crossing the hall, paused, looking startled at the violent edge to the abrupt question. What he saw on the earl’s face had him stumbling over his words in his haste to answer. “Abovestairs, I believe, my lord. Is something wrong?”
The earl didn’t reply, merely stalked past him and took the stairs two at a time. Foster stroked his chin, frowning. The slamming of a door resounded through the late-afternoon stillness of the house. The butler knew immediately it was the door to the countess’s apartments. Something was badly wrong, and for once he was at a loss. Should he interfere? Send Lady Theo’s maid up on some pretext, perhaps? Go himself? He waited, but stillness had settled over the house again. Uneasily, he returned to the butler’s pantry and the silver he was cleaning.
Theo gazed, white-faced, at her husband as the door crashed shut behind him. “Am I to be granted not even the privacy of my own room?” she demanded with icy contempt. “I realize the entire house belongs to you, Lord Stoneridge. I suppose it’s too much to expect—”
“Theo, stop!” he ordered, his eyes on the bed where an open portmanteau lay. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
“What does it look like?” She pulled a nightgown from a drawer and tossed it into the bag. “I’m going to the dower house. The one part of the estate you didn’t manage to get your thieving hands on!” Her voice was thick, and angrily she dashed tears from her eyes with her forearm before hurling her ivory-backed hairbrushes and combs on top of the nightgown.
She didn’t look at him and didn’t see his expression as she continued, blind in her rage and hurt. “The dower house was left free and clear to my mother, and not even a deceitful, treacherous liar would be cowardly enough to storm into the house of an unprotected woman.”
The repeated insults finally unloosed the crimson tide of rage, and Sylvester fought to hold on to his anger even as he determined to compel her retreat. “By God, you’re going to take that back,” he stated. “That and every other insult you’ve thrown at me in the last hour.”
“Never!” she retorted, shifting her stance imperceptibly, her eyes sharply focused, calculating his next move.
Sylvester came toward her, his eyes blazing in his drawn countenance. Theo snatched her hairbrush from the portmanteau and hurled it at him. It caught him a glancing blow on the sh
oulder. He swore and ducked as a shoe followed the brush and he found himself in the midst of a veritable tempest of flying objects as Theo grabbed whatever was to hand—cushions, books, shoes, ornaments—and flung them at his head.
“You goddamned termagant!” he bellowed as a glass figurine flew past his ear and crashed in a shiver of crystal against the wall. He lunged for her, coming in low, catching her around the waist, lifting her off her feet before she could counterattack.
Theo cursed him with the vigor and fluency of a stable hand, and he realized that until now he’d only heard the tip of the iceberg when it came to his wife’s vocabulary. In other circumstances the realization might have amused him.
Theo found herself in the corner of the room, her face pressed to the wall, her hands gripped at the wrists and pushed up her back, not far enough to hurt, but coercive, nevertheless. Sylvester’s body was against hers, holding her into the corner so she had no space, no possibility of independent movement.
“Now,” he said, breathing heavily in the aftermath of that struggle, his voice hard with determination. “Take it back, Theo. Every damn word.”
She threw another savage oath at him. Tensing her muscles, she tested her strength against the physical wall at her back. She could feel the rigidity of his body, a barrier as hard and invincible as a wall of steel. At her movement he brought one knee up and pushed it into her backside, pressing her even more securely into the corner.
“Take it back, Theo,” he repeated, softly now, but his intention still as hard as agate. “We aren’t moving from here until you do so.”
He could feel her resistance as pulsing waves emanating from the taut body, and he concentrated every fiber of his being on winning this battle of wills. He knew on the most primitive level that he could not tolerate his wife’s contempt. He’d endured a lifetime’s worth of scorn and opprobrium from men whose opinion he valued, men he’d counted as friends and colleagues, and he didn’t think those wounds would ever close.