Best Lesbian Erotica 2013

by Kathleen Warnock

  The Lady

  Oh, how I have loved. My days are flaxen and holy with love. My nights are viscous, lucid, spilling over. My finger-pads hum. The roots of my hair feel gold-dipped; the meat of my eyes is speckled with gold; gold dust blows across my cheeks. The girls, the girls, and their love. No need for sleep when their saliva is sustenance. Their sweet country cunts and their kiss.

  I find them, I whisper of my home, and they’re up on my horse before the daisies close. The look in their eyes is clean as dawn. Their fingers in my mouth taste of buttermilk. My castle is a mother, is a lover. Once upon a time, I say, and they follow my hooves inside the walls, and I close the door up tight behind them.

  My enchantments keep them for a turn of the sun or a phase of the moon, and then they find the chink in the walls and slip out faster than smoke. I know they look back. I see the light glint off their eyes.

  Some do stay; one or two star-bellied and honey-fed girls. I tuck them under my swan-wing and tickle them close, close enough to share heat. They love love as I do. They see the straight line of my jaw along the length of their thighs and they see how it fits, the geometry of bodies. They have wondered for so long why nothing ever fits, why the knobs of their spines press hard on chair backs and why they can’t lie parallel in bed, and then there I am. I know how to fill the gaps in a girl.

  The Dinner Guest

  She wanted us to know. She’s proud of it, I’m sure. The strumpet. The slippering little…but let me tell you. You will see.

  Two dozen guests for dinner and it was out with the partridge tongues and the songbird hearts in cages of ribs, along with wine sweet enough to pickle kittens. How the ladies cooed! Codswallop, I say. But the ladies like their food to sing.

  Three courses in and we were a maid down. I knew because she was a comely thing, apple cheeked and apple breasted, with a glint in her eye like she well knew the parts of a man. I’d been devouring her charms between sips of the lamb-blood soup, and then—gone! For moments I frowned my way around the room, as surely even the most coddled maid would never dare abandon her post mid-meal. And then my eye’s wanderings noticed how the lady of the house shifted in her seat! No soup ever caused such moans from a throat, and yet the lady was purring like a pussycat. Seated opposite the lady, I had an artist’s perspective; full frontal, so to speak, perfect for observing that actress’s change in expression. Shifting my feet under the table, I knew the shape of a body; even through the soles of my shoes I could feel it was that apple-rumped maid. And the lady moaned, and the lady wriggled; and all the other ladies peered into their soup and began moaning around their spoons.

  Such soup, they cried! Such flavors! Bravo!

  All the ladies were shifting and groaning, rocking in their seats like they had pigs rutting away at them. You’d have thought it was the greatest soup ever to have been swallowed.

  By the bottom of their bowls, the lady was smiling wider than a dagger’s blade. The maid was back in her place, her lips plump and wet as a rose after the rain.

  And so you see! That grinning tart put on quite a show for me. I know it was for me, because all that ladies do is for the eyes of gentlemen. And I do look forward to seeing more of that lady.

  Girl Number Six

  I stayed for a year. I was not the only one—it was three to a bed in My Lady’s chamber—but still I stayed. I don’t know what I was searching for. I don’t know if I found it.

  Living in that house was like living inside a painting—one of those lush, dark oil paintings: a still life of overripe fruit, a severed boar’s head, and a cat toying with a pitted wheel of cheese. Everywhere I went, I was sure people could smell the sweet-salt fleshness on my fingers. Men in the street stopped to stare, stopped to lick their lips, though I was shoulder-to-ankle in my cloak. Her scent went that deep: right under my flesh, all the way to the marrow. For months after I left, I would still catch the breeze of her when I angled my body just the right way. There were creases and edges of me that I just could not get to, and that is where she hid: too far down to scrub out.

  My parents knew, somehow. They could smell the shreds My Lady left in me. I went back to the muck of the kitchen and the heat of the stables, but there was no good to be found. Everything was overlaid and underpinned with her. My dresses would not fit: they were too tight, too low, however much fabric I added on. My scarf would not cover my hair, and tendrils slipped like spider legs to frame my cheeks. My mouth felt always swollen, always reddened.

  I married—a cutout man, all hands and knees—and I stood wide-eyed as a nun in my white dress, calm as can be, like ice would stay cool in my palms. I imagined My Lady when I vowed, thought of how she would glitter and cackle to see her bedfellow in snow-colored chiffon. I thought my vows would topple her, but she clambered up on them. She strung each word and wore them as a necklace, warming them like pearls.

  I never knew what hate and love meant before My Lady.

  The Lord

  What makes a woman is a performance of duties, and my wife has long been womanised. I saw well enough to that. From the day I flung her across my pommel to the band of gold to the hanging of the bloodied sheet to the clockwork of the household, she is a daughter of Eve through and through. Each duty is performed admirably: she whips servants with a firm wrist, she wears her dresses better than a mannequin, and she moans louder than the priciest whore. Her mask will never slip. I do not need to see her to know that.

  I dress for her dinners, do I not?

  I pay gold for her trousseau, do I not?

  I let her take on whichever little maidens she likes, do I not?

  That is what makes me a man. I do what needs to be done. I do it fast and I do it well, and no rabbit was ever safe from my arrows.

  That is her desire: a man as straight and solid as a wall for her to lean on. A woman’s world is the size of the distance from the bedroom to the kitchen. What is she without me? She is unmanned, an empty case. A woman is an actress, and the only thing keeping her onstage is the width of her smile.

  I am born a man. I do not need to perform.

  The Daughter

  Yes, I told. My father deserved to know. He’s a devil with a clefted chin but he still needed to know about my mother’s wickedness because it was not right. It was not holy. The path to glory is not paved with swooning girls and no one ever found grace between two legs. So I told and I told and afterward I glowed for days.

  God knew about my mother’s sins and my father is the God within these walls so he should have known too. It was my duty, that is all, and it did not matter about my own scuttering feelings or how many times I caught the flash of bare shoulders through the keyhole because it was not about that. It was about staying good. It was about grace, and keeping my own white heels straight on the shining path to heaven. My mother’s feet were no good for that path, after her grubbing in the dirt like that, ingraining those maids onto her flesh. Such things cannot be cleansed and there are no dirty feet in heaven. There is no jealousy in heaven and there was no jealousy in my heart over those girls. They were welcome to my mother. She was a pitcher full of filth with her mouth full of blood and I did not want her attention. I did not want it.

  My glow was not from the deed of my telling, understand. It was from the knowledge of God, deep inside me the knowing of all His glory, His radiance warming me through the dark of night. It was grace shining out of me.

  I had to do it. I had to tell, for the sake of good.

  The Friend

  I attended their house for dinner, the same as a dozen other lords and ladies. I expected an elegant dinner—rabbit tongues, perhaps, or eel’s eyes—and wine in five different colors. The lady served all my expectations, and her conversation was characteristically delightful—all scandals and intrigues with veiled names. She laughed and touched my hand at all the right moments, and like a fool I was charmed. Me, in a gown with patched underskirts and my jewelry only paste—I was the one the lady wanted! No man ever seduced with such c
onfidence. Her smile was as warm as fresh-baked bread, but her eyes were sharp at the corners.

  I did not expect to become entangled in her activities. But I tell you; no one could have resisted the lady. After dinner the gentlemen slumped off for cigars and brandy, and the ladies fluttered to the sitting room for champagne. It was not usual for ladies to have so many drinks—it does go to one’s head, and as every lady is told, there is not much in her head to absorb all that alcohol. It sloshes about in the space. That must be why I was fooled as I was—it must be!

  One by one the gentlemen visited our sitting room and held out their hands for their ladies. One by one the ladies flitted out. The room was sotted with champagne and the walls were undulating—I swear they were, the lady is a magician!—and then it was just me and the lady, and then the sitting room became the lady’s chambers. The girls’ hands were soft as the insides of furs. Their laughter was church bells and their kisses; oh, their kisses. I had never known it could be such a way.

  Our discarded skirts were piled high as a church steeple and our throats hummed with lust and we felt honey flow from our bodies and finally the lady sat at the peak of a tangle of girl-limbs and surveyed her kingdom, when in walked the Lord.

  The Girls’ Mothers

  We knew. From the start, we knew. But we knew too what our girls were. This world is a cold and rutted place for those with brows raised above the horizon.

  A handful of shiny circles and these girls are tied to any neat-shoed lady, like or not—but we liked it fine, shame to confess. We liked the words of this Lady and the promise of ever after. The love of a mother for her child is stronger than tides, but we know that the best way for a child is to put one foot in front of the other. Half of a woman is given away each time we split ourselves with child, until all we cradle at night is a scrap of soul. The Lady was a shining road, flat and straight enough for our girls, and she would lead them into the dawn. Our girls had always had itching feet. So we took the coins and we took the promises, but they did not fill the space our girls left.

  At nights we pushed with all our breath to hear the thoughts of our girls, but even the harness of daughter to mother can be severed if the walls are thick enough. The Lady’s walls were thicker than muscle, and we could not break through. We made believe that our girls smiled like they always had strawberries in their cheeks, and that their shoes were silky as a pigeon’s neck-feathers. We were not the stepmothers from fairy tales. We did what we thought was best.

  We knew what the Lady was, but we liked her shipwreck-quick smile and the shine on her shoes. We liked her white horse with its one red spot. That horse was just like our girls, we knew, and no amount of whitewash can cover that red dot.

  The Abbot

  It is easy to understand why a lady would wish to escape. We all tire of this earthly plain before long. The way out is grace, and glory exists inside all of us.

  The entry into heaven cannot be rushed, and for the Lady it will be as slow as she needs it to be. The duty of an anchoress is no easy one; we know that well enough. The contemplation of the grave is perhaps the most difficult, but the Lady has as much time as God has granted her. She is young yet, and there is plenty of time for her to appreciate the gifts of her enclosure. She will find peace in solitude, I am sure.

  Her husband has assured me that the Lady has craved bare walls and silenced voices for many a year. The Lady is fortunate indeed that her husband is willing to sacrifice his wife for her own good. It cannot be easy for him to run a household of women alone, but he is a good man to think only of his dear wife, and I am sure that God will reward him.

  The Lady’s enclosure begins this evening, and I must prepare. The road to heaven is a pebbled one, and she will need a firm hand to steer her through. The contemplation of darkness will help her better than the touch of a hand ever could. Of this, I am sure.

  The Lady

  My skin hums with it. My flaxenbelly and my moonsmoke, and there are holes, there are holes in me through which the love escapes. The men are men and they are hard, there are no summits to them, nothing to climb up or slip down. My fingers fit into the gaps between the bricks. The moon is the size of my eye. The buttermilk and the daisies, the redness inside cheeks and within the holiest of holies, within the edges of a girl, and this is grace, and this is glory.

  ABOUT THE AUTHORS

  NIKKI ADAMS lives amid the quiet fields of southern New Jersey. This is her first published work of erotic fiction.

  VALERIE ALEXANDER is a writer who lives in Arizona. Her work has been previously published in Best Lesbian Erotica, Best of Best Women’s Erotica and other anthologies.

  ZOE AMOS is the pen name Janet F. Williams uses for lesbian-themed romance, erotica and contemporary fiction. You can read her work in Ultimate Lesbian Erotica 2006 and 2008, and Best Lesbian Love Stories 2010. For more stories and nonfiction, please search for either name and please visit JanetFWilliams.com.

  ANAMIKA has published three novels and a number of stories in India and abroad. Hem and Football and its sequel, Hem and Maxine dealt with women’s football and lesbian love. “Ladies Coupe” was in Best Lesbian Erotica 2011. Anamika lives in a satellite township near Delhi, India.

  SALLY BELLEROSE is author of The Girls Club, which won the Bywater Prize. Bellerose’s current project is a short-story collection, Peeing Like a Boy, which features old women behaving badly. Please visit her at sallybellerose.wordpress.com.

  TENILLE BROWN’s erotic fiction is widely published online and in nearly forty print anthologies including Chocolate Flava 1 and 3, Curvy Girls, Making the Hook Up, Going Down, Best Bondage Erotica 2011 and 2012, Sapphic Planet and Suite Encounters. The Southern wife and mother blogs at therealtenille.com.

  RACHEL CHARMAN is a journalist and author from Essex, UK. Her work has also appeared in Best Lesbian Erotica 2011 and Ultimate Uniforms. Contact her at ray_charman@hotmail.com.

  V. C. CLARK’s erotic short stories have been published on Oysters&Chocolate.com and in numerous anthologies including: Sugar and Spice: Kinky Girl-on-Girl Stories and Bad Romance. Her first novella is The Mistress.

  ANDREA DALE would wear comfy clothes to win a contest but dresses up sexy for rock concerts. Her work appeared in the Lambda Award–winning anthology Lesbian Cowboys: Erotic Adventures and Romantic Times and Fairy Tale Lust, as well as about one hundred other anthologies. Visit cyvarwydd.com to find out what she’s up to today.

  REBECCA LYNNE FULLAN is a writer of various stripes, most of them human. She lives, writes, reads and learns in New York City. This story is for her girlfriend, Charlotte. Come visit her here: rebeccalynnefullan.wordpress.com.

  PENNY GYOKERES writes poetry, music and erotic adventures, though she would like to write a full-length novel that sells triumphantly worldwide so she can retire comfortably. She was born in Toronto, Ontario, and resides there and “up north” with her partner.

  SONYA HERZOG is a fortysomething, lesbian, Yankee transplant living in the deep South with her partner, son, dog and two cats. She enjoys cooking and all things literary: reading, writing and editing. She wishes there were more hours in a day to spend with friends and take up new hobbies.

  KIRSTY LOGAN lives in Glasgow, Scotland with her very own fancy lady. She has published stories in Best Lesbian Erotica 2011 and 2012, and Best Women’s Erotica 2011. She is working on a novel, Rust and Stardust, and a story collection, The Rental Heart and Other Fairytales (which includes “Underskirts”). Say hello at kirstylogan.com.

  SID MARCH is a nomadic being with half a dozen hometowns who writes obsessively when no one is watching as a way to tame her insatiable wanderlust.

  ANNA MEADOWS is a part-time executive assistant, part-time housewife. She writes from her heritage in the Mexican-American Southwest and her passion for stories about women in love. Her work appears in a number of anthologies, including fourteen from Cleis Press, and on the Lambda Literary website. She lives with her sapphic husband in California.

  MAGGIE M
ORTON lives in Northern California with her partner and their Japanese Bobtail. Her first novel, an erotic lesbian romance, is Dreaming of Her. Her writing appears in multiple anthologies, and includes the lesbian erotica story “Julie Repents.”

  HELEN SANDLER (www.helensandler.co.uk) is about to reissue her erotic novel Big Deal as an e-book. She has edited Lambda-winning anthologies for Diva Books; she runs Tollington Press and co-programs L Fest. Before moving with her girlfriend to a cabin on the Welsh coast, she was a compere at London’s Bar Wotever.

  BD SWAIN started writing queer smut because of a deep need to do so. Read more of her writing at bdswain.com.

  AMELIA THORNTON is a very good girl with very bad thoughts, who enjoys baking, hard spankings, vintage lingerie and writing beautiful naughtiness. She has been published in Best Women’s Erotica 2011 and 2012 and several Xcite anthologies, and lives by the English seaside.

  With a penchant for flash fiction, MAGGIE VENESS’s stories have been described as quirky, contemplative and mischievous. She lives on the sunny coast of northern NSW, Australia, where she tutors fiction writing at a local college and works part-time in two volunteer positions.