He rolled like dead weight onto the grass.
Laura grabbed his arms and arranged them over his head, grasped them hard. Pulled. He barely moved.
She realized she needed to keep the fire from getting to the roof. She ran to the faucet, which was near the untouched side of the house, and aimed the hose at the roof. Heard cars coming. Aware of vehicle parts twisted and burning on the road. Aware of Christine’s body face down on the ground. Aware of Jaime lying in the grass.
He would be in shock. He needed a blanket.
She dropped the hose and ran to her Yukon, which was still intact.
Locked.
Her keys in the house. Her cell phone in the house.
Cars coming from the Latigo, the main ranch house. Sirens in the distance.
Suddenly, an engine roared close by. A car accelerating, the sound receding as she got someone to aim the hose at the roof and looked around for a blanket.
Laura found herself staring in the direction of the retreating taillights. All these cars coming to the fire. Who would go at a time like this?
Far away, taillights winking out in the darkness.
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
What Laura thought about that nightmarish night, and the next day, and the day after that, as she went through the motions of her now-shattered life, what she thought about was this: The mamba had come for her at last.
The black mamba had come for her, and it had almost killed her. But in failing to destroy her, the mamba had killed Christine Lujan instead.
That was the thought that hounded her as she went through the days after the explosion. It was what woke her up at night, the only vivid image she had from the fire and the aftermath, Chris Lujan lying facedown in the dirt beside the burning car. That image was the one continuous loop that ran through her mind, the only one that mattered in a parade of gray, dull, insubstantial thoughts and acts that consumed her waking hours.
Christine Lujan had died in her place. The mamba had gotten the wrong Broken Wing Sister.
Jaime was hospitalized with burns over forty percent of his body. The morning following the explosion, Laura called Jaime’s detective sergeant, Rudy Valenzuela, to ask how he was. He told her Jaime was in the Burn Unit at St. Mary’s Hospital. He told her Jaime’s vocal chords were damaged and he could only communicate by writing on a pad. He used the terms hydrotherapy, vacuum-assisted closure techniques, and therapeutic laser for pain. Laura understood the basics of these techniques, but didn’t want to think about it—her mind kept flying away. The main thing, as she understood it, was to avoid infection.
She also understood this: It was still possible Jaime might not survive.
No one but his immediate family could see him. That didn’t stop Laura from driving out to the hospital and sitting in the waiting room.
A few times she saw a middle-aged woman and two young women going in and out of the Burn Unit on the fourth floor. The first time she saw them, she felt like slumping down in her chair. She doubted Mrs. Molina would know who she was anyway. Not by sight.
It was possible that Mrs. Molina didn’t know of Laura’s culpability. But Laura knew, and that was enough. She had been the one to attract evil to the Molina family; she had been the one who had attracted Sean Grady.
Three days after the explosion, Laura finally thought to call Detective Toch about Grady. She didn’t know why it hadn’t occurred to her before. She put it down to shock.
When she was finally able to reach Dave Toch, Laura got another shock.
“He skipped,” Toch told her.
“What do you mean, he skipped?”
“Well, we’re pretty sure he skipped.”
“He fly to Canada?”
“We had those tickets in our possession. But he’s gone. So’s his girlfriend. For all we know, they went to Mexico. It’s a straight shot to the border.”
“When was this?”
“He’s been gone since last Wednesday.”
The car-bombing was on Friday. “Why didn’t you call me?”
“We’ve been busy here.” He paused. “Sorry about that.”
Sorry about that.
Laura put the phone down, unsure of what to think. Had he planted the bomb before he left? Why would he choose Jaime’s car? The only other explanation: It wasn’t Grady. Laura had been sure it was Grady, that he’d followed Jaime and Chris to the ranch, thinking Chris was her.
Positive that Sean Grady was the mamba.
Another thought came to her. If Grady wasn’t the mamba, then who was?
St. Mary’s Hospital had gobbled up the surrounding desert in its growth over the years. But here and there in the hospital were tiny squares of ground open to the sky, rocky grottoes with religious statuary. Laura spent most of her time in one grotto in the company of a plaster Virgin. Laura wasn’t a religious person, but she believed in God. She figured that praying to Mary for Jaime’s life was as good a use of her time as any.
She did not go in to work. This was not her choice; she was on leave. But it didn’t seem to matter much.
Laura found she couldn’t make the most basic decisions. She knew she needed to make arrangements to move Calliope closer to where she would live, but didn’t know where, because she didn’t know where that was. She did rent a storage facility near DPS, packed boxes, rented a van, and moved furniture—and she did it until she fell into bed exhausted every night.
Whoever had tried to kill her had succeeded more than he would ever know. He had killed something inside her. She had no home, she had no job to speak of, she had no initiative—there was nothing left.
Nothing but guilt, which pressed down on her like a blanket, smothering everything else. She knew in her heart that because of her, Chris Lujan was dead. Someone had mistaken Chris for her.
She spent her nights in a guest casita at the ranch. Laura knew this was temporary, but she still wasn’t prepared for a visit from her old high school friend and landlord, Mark Hewitt.
The casita was beautifully appointed, with Mexican furniture and Peruvian rugs on the new slate floors. It had a kitchenette and a Jacuzzi tub. The guest ranch charged $250 a night, but Mark had told her she could move in there temporarily. Laura saw it as a hotel room. She had two suitcases full of clothes and the personal items she needed to get through the days and nights: toothbrush, hair dryer, all that stuff. The rest of her belongings were being shuttled in boxes to the Stop ‘n Store.
Mark showed up four days after she moved in. She asked him in but he shook his head. He wouldn’t look at her.
“Just came by to tell you that I’ve got a weekend full of guests coming in and we need the place.”
Laura nodded.
“What about the house?” she asked.
“I’m not sure what we’re going to do.” He put his hands in the pockets of his jeans. She noticed he’d developed a paunch since she’d seen him last. “It was an old house. I’m not sure it’s worth salvaging.”
Laura nodded again.
“I’m sorry about this, but we need—”
“It’s okay. It was nice of you to let me stay this long.”
His turn to nod. He looked away, then down at his shoes. “It’s been a bad week.”
Laura drove the area around DPS, which wasn’t the best of neighborhoods, looking for a place to live. Any place—she didn’t care. She spotted a banner stuck on a green hump of lawn in front of some seventies-era apartments. Gray-brown stucco, to match her mood. The banner said “Move-in Special—$95 Dollars!” A furnished apartment rented for $399 a month.
Laura moved in her two suitcases, her toothbrush, her hair dryer and the other stuff.
The bed was too soft, so the first night she slept on the floor. Her body ached when she woke up and that was fine with her. She kept thinking that Chris Lujan would only wish to have a few mild aches from sleeping on the floor.
Laura knew she was depressed. She realized she was flogging herself and that was not doing anyone any good. Didn’t s
he want to go after the mamba? Didn’t she want to know who it was? Why he was after her?
But she couldn’t seem get up any enthusiasm for the idea.
Maybe because she was afraid. Afraid that the next time she grabbed the mamba’s tail, it would get her instead.
As bad as her life was, something stubborn and visceral and grasping inside her made her want to keep it.
One day at St. Mary’s, Laura saw Mrs. Molina come out of the elevators by the waiting room on the fourth floor. She was alone.
Laura stood up from the chair she’d been sitting in and followed Ana Molina around the corner. “Mrs. Molina?” she called.
The woman stopped. She was a pretty woman, compact and strong-looking. As usual, she wore a dress. Laura noticed she always dressed up to see Jaime. Laura remembered from the photos on Jaime’s wall that she favored slacks. But she wore dresses now. Perhaps it was an act of faith, perhaps it was a gesture she made to show Jaime that it was important for her to get up in the morning every day, dress up, and go visit her husband.
“Mrs. Molina, I’m Laura Cardinal. I worked with Jaime.”
“I wondered who you were. I’ve seen you here a lot.”
“I know I can’t see him now, but I’m wondering if you would mind, down the line … when he can have visitors … ” She drifted off. “I wanted to make sure you don’t mind.”
“Why would I mind?” She looked genuinely puzzled.
Laura didn’t know what to say to that.
“Jaime asked about you,” Ana Molina said. “He wrote it on a pad he has. He wanted to know if you were all right. It was one of the first things he asked about—after Chris.”
The emotion Laura felt at that moment was overwhelming. Tears sprang up in her eyes, and she turned away to give them a furtive swipe.
“He knows I wasn’t hurt?”
“He knows. He was so relieved. He said he didn’t want anything to happen to his partner.”
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
Laura was unpacking dishes in her new apartment at the Village Green when she heard a knock on her door. Although the screen was locked, the door was open, because Laura wanted some sunshine in the place. She had not gotten around to lamenting the loss of the hacienda and the desert in which she lived, but that time would come. It was already beginning to show itself in her need for the little slice of sunshine that came through the front door of the apartment.
The visitor was Julie DeSabato.
Laura’s natural caution kicked in. She didn’t go right up to the door, but studied Julie closely. Her body language, the fact that there was nothing in her hands. All she wore was a knapsack purse, the kind Laura herself favored.
“How’d you find me?”
“It’s really kind of a coincidence. I went to the Department of Public Safety and asked if I could get in touch with you—”
“I’m sure you got nowhere.”
“Right. But I was driving back up Tucson Boulevard, and I saw you in the parking lot.”
Laura had spent plenty of time moving boxes from the Yukon up to her apartment. Anyone could have seen her—why hadn’t she thought of that? She unlocked the screen door and let Julie inside. “Would you like a glass of water? That’s all I have.”
“No thanks.” Julie DeSabato sat down on the couch. She wore a Bohemian-type skirt with flounces and a soft-looking top. Lavender and purple with a little gold. Laura wore an old T-shirt and a pair of shorts and flip-flops. Julie DeSabato won the prize in the looks department.
“I came to talk to you about Steve.”
“Your ex-husband,” Laura said.
“He’s my ex, but I still care about him.”
Laura had an ex, but she didn’t care about him. She didn’t even think about him very often.
Julie said, “Do you believe in God?”
Laura just stared at her. Why was this woman coming into her apartment and asking her a question like that?
“I’m asking, because a lot of people believe in God. Most people. If I knew you believed in God, it would be easier for you to get what I’m about to say.”
Laura found herself saying, “Yes, I believe in God. I’m not religious, though,” she added hastily.
Julie pulled her feet up on the couch, her bare toes digging into the couch.
“I don’t know how else to say this, so I just will. Steve saw Jenny Carmichael.”
“I know that. He was the one who found her.”
“No. I don’t mean when she was dead. He saw her when she was alive.”
Laura went very still. Was this woman telling her that Steve Lawson had met Jenny when she was alive? Did that mean he was there when she was killed? Or did it mean that he had met her some time between the time she arrived at Camp Aratauk and when she was killed?
And why hadn’t he told her about it, if it was completely innocent?
“Look,” Julie said. “I’m not saying this right. Maybe it’s because you’re with the police. You intimidate me.”
Laura said, “Try not to feel that way. I’m a person unpacking in a new apartment like anybody else.” She waved her hand at a box of dishes on the kitchen counter. She wished she had her tape recorder, though. It would spook Julie, so she couldn’t do it, but it didn’t stop her from wishing. Wondering if there was any way to get to her tape recorder and turn it on without Julie being the wiser.
“Tell you what,” Laura said. “I have to go to the bathroom—”
“He didn’t see Jenny,” Julie said.
Laura stayed where she was.
“He saw a manifestation of Jenny.”
“A what?”
“A manifestation. Most people would use the word ghost—”
“Her ghost? He saw her ghost? What do you mean by that?”
Julie swiped at a wavy strand of hair. “I knew you’d be skeptical. So was Steve. That’s why he didn’t tell you. Not that he believes in anything like that, because he doesn’t … he didn’t. But he’s got so much pride. He’s always had his feet on the ground—the only thing he believes in is science. In fact, that was one of our problems. He wouldn’t even let the possibility of anything like that seep into his consciousness—”
“Hold on,” Laura said. “You’re telling me that Steve saw a … manifestation of Jenny Carmichael? When was this?”
“You believe me?”
“Not really.” Might as well go ahead and ask, though. “When did he see this, uh … manifestation?”
Julie told her about the girl by the stream bed looking for her book, finding the book later that day, the girl appearing to him again after her bones had been found. About the collar and the puppy.
“He lied to me,” Laura said. “He gave me some bullshit story about looking for granite.”
Julie looked at her. “What would you do, if it was you this happened to?”
Julie said, “Would you have believed him?”
“I don’t know that I believe you.” Laura sat down opposite Julie on the chair that came with the apartment. “Let’s suppose what you are telling me—what he told you—is the truth. Why are you telling me this now?”
“Because I’m scared for him.”
“Scared?”
“The other night, when I met you? We used the Ouija board. I think … I think that a base spirit must have taken over the board because—”
“Base spirit?”
“One of the lower spirits who like to cause trouble. They’re mean-spirited and can be harmful. We should have never invited it in.”
This was sounding more like a Stephen King novel with every new revelation. Laura’s common sense was beginning to reassert itself. Bottom line: This was ridiculous.
Julie said, “I’ve been warned about using the Ouija board. You had to be there, but Steve got very strange. He was talking to someone. The look on his face—you wouldn’t believe he was the same person. He looked so hopeless, as if … I used to work on the Suicide Hotline. He sounded like the people who committed
suicide did. That’s why I came here. I’m afraid for him.”
“What do you think I can do?”
There must have been something in her tone, because Julie stood up suddenly. “I don’t know,” she said. “This was probably not a good idea.”
“You have to admit, this is a little hard to believe.”
Julie stopped just inside the door. “No, I understand. It’s not your problem. I’m sorry to bother you.”
As she stepped out onto the landing, Laura said, “Do you know how Steve got that scar on his arm?”
Julie looked at her. “When he was ten years old, his father came home drunk—that happened a lot. He was mad that his dinner was late, so he grabbed a steak knife and held it to Steve’s mother’s throat and threatened to kill her. Steve fought him for the knife, and that was how he got the scar.”
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Steve wasn’t sure if he and Julie had conjured up another ghost or if there was a man living on his property.
Ever since the incident with the Ouija board, a large part of which was a hole in his memory, he had been seeing the guy he first spotted by the stream bed.
And it wasn’t just Steve seeing things. Jake saw him, too.
Usually, it was when Steve’s thoughts were occupied by something else. Digging out from under his grandfather’s possessions, loading them into boxes, deciding which of them should go to Goodwill and which he should keep—an endless job. Suddenly he’d look up and see the man outside the window, walking by—just a glimpse. Or he’d come around the corner of the house and see the guy standing under a tree. There was the time he was in the house, saw the man sitting at the picnic table, and ran outside. By the time he made it to the corner of the house, the man was gone.
Every time Jake growled, Steve would look around and there the guy was. Just crossing his vision, moving away. Always at a distance, and always with his back turned. By his build, the guy looked to be in his early to mid-thirties, but Steve couldn’t be sure because he never saw his face. He was about Steve’s height and weight—maybe seven to ten pounds lighter. His hair was a little on the long side, just touching his collar.
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