by Anne, Melody
Alexa hadn’t realized she’d been holding her breath since her little speech and with the closing of the door she let all the air out of her lungs. She wanted to run after him and tell him to come back, that she was sorry to be so rude. The look on his face killed her, and she had the gnawing fear she would never see him again. What had she done? Was it the right thing?
“It was the right thing for me,” she said firmly to herself. She slowly picked up the plates of untouched food and carried them to the sink, scraping the uneaten food into the disposal. As she turned it on and watched it disappear down the drain, she said again, “it was the right thing for me.”
* * * * *
“You did WHAT?” Tahleah was clearly stunned.
“Listen, Tahleah,” she said with warning in her voice, “don’t ever do that again. Don’t EVER let a complete stranger into my house, or anyone for that matter without my permission. Do you hear me? That had better never happen again.”
“He may be gone for good now,” said Tahleah, ignoring her. She was clearly exasperated.
“I can only hope so,” Alexa looked down the counter to the spot where Cayman usually sat. It was breakfast, and his chair at the counter sat empty.
“Oh for crying out loud, Alexa! What were you thinking! How could you let a fish like that get away? I saw how you looked at him. I thought if I let him in there you might just acknowledge those feelings and give it a go. I can’t believe you chased him away.”
“Believe it. I feel great.”
“No you don’t. You can’t even decide if you did the right thing. It’s on your face plain as day.” Tahleah stomped off in a huff.
Alexa wondered how Tahleah could know her so well. Still, there was a clear void inside her and no amount of stomping, fussing or being hard to live with was going to change it.
Just then Keith came through the door and headed to his seat. He stopped when he saw her and said, “Why, Alexa, what’s wrong? You look like you lost your best friend.”
“Oh good grief! Have you been talking to Tahleah?”
She grabbed the coffee pot and a menu and followed Keith around to his booth.
“Well, no, did she quit?” he asked, obviously confused.
“No, she didn’t quit, but I told that Ham and Eggs guy to buzz off and leave me alone and now she thinks I missed out on the opportunity of a lifetime.”
“And you’re not so sure she isn’t right.” Keith smiled, turning his coffee cup over.
“No, I’m absolutely sure I was right and---“
“Don’t play those games with me, young lady,” said Keith, “I’ve been around too long, and don’t have that much time left that I would enjoy the game now. You liked him, and you know it.”
Alexa dropped dejectedly down in the seat across from Keith. “Did I really blow it? I can’t fall for anyone again, Keith. I really can’t.”
Keith chuckled and looked down at his empty coffee cup.
“How old are you? Twenty-six? Twenty-eight max? Don’t you think that’s kind of a long time to be alone? You may have to do that ‘kissing-the-frogs’ thing for a while, but you don’t have to sleep with every frog you kiss, and you don’t have to expect every one of them to turn into a prince. But you could at least enjoy yourself along the way. I need some coffee.”
Alexa sighed and reached across the table to pour the steaming coffee into his cup.
“I can’t, Keith. I mean it; and I don’t want to. I don’t want to deal with another human being in my life.”
“Yes, you do.” He said with determination.
“How do you--How could you even remotely know that?”
Keith looked at her across the table. He picked up his coffee cup and took a slow sip, then put the cup back down on the table and stared into the dark liquid.
“I know that because there isn’t a human being on the face of this earth that doesn’t need to be loved.” He looked into her eyes. “You’re not betraying the memory of your father, nor are you giving in to a life you swore you’d never want. Be human Alexa; live again. Square your shoulders, take a deep breath and give it a go. It’s a ride you can stop at any time.”
She set the menu down in front of him and squeezed his hand.
“Thanks.”
“For what? Free advice from an old codger? What’s that worth?”
Alexa laughed and headed back to the front of the diner. She walked around the end of the counter and put the coffee pot back on the warmer.
She was standing with her back to the front door when the bells sent out the warning that someone had come in. It was him, she knew it was him and she couldn’t bring herself to look.
She felt the warmth of his body move in behind her, leaning into her.
“Go out with me, just once,” he whispered in her ear. “If you’re miserable I won’t ask you again. Promise.”
Alexa softly put down the coffee cup and paused briefly. She turned to him, placing her hands on his magnificent chest.
“I’m sorry I’ve been so rude. You made that incredible breakfast for me and I didn’t even so much as thank you. I’m…I’m truly sorry.” Her eyes reached deeply into his, searching...questioning.
“Yes, I’ll go out with you. Just don’t be expecting anything more than a date.”
“Ha!” laughed Cayman, “Are you questioning my most noble intentions?”
His laughter was music and it made her smile just to hear it.
“Yes. Yes I am. Now move it and let me get to work.” She pushed him gently to the side and turned to pick up a menu. Cayman walked around the end of the bar and sat down in his usual place.
“I’ll have the #3 with coffee.”
* * * * *
That evening Cayman picked her up and they drove to the ‘famous’ ponds to throw a few rocks. Alexa laughed when she heard where they were going and what they would be doing.
“I have to warn you,” she said playfully, “that was always my favorite date with my dad and I have a pretty good record at rock skipping.”
“Not as good as mine, I’ll wager,” he grinned back. “I’ve got the record for my high school of eight.”
“Eight kids? That’s not a very big high school. Where’d you grow up, anyway?” she teased, knowing full well what he’d meant.
“Very funny. Eight skips. That’s good and you know it.”
She smiled slyly at him, “Eight? Really? Well, that’s small stuff for me. My record is ten.”
He pulled into the gravel parking lot and parked the car.
“No way! You couldn’t have gotten ten. That is impossible. No way.”
He got out and came around to her door and opened it. As she stood up his hand went to the back of her neck and he pulled her into a kiss. He slid his hand down her back, to her waist, pulling her whole body into his.
Alexa wanted to run, she wanted to run so far no one would find her, but that kiss… She couldn’t deny the warmth it sent rushing through her body.
“You’ve got to stop doing that,” she said, “or I won’t be responsible for my actions.”
“I’ll take full responsibility for any actions you want to blame on me.”
With her last ounce of emotional strength, she moved away, her hand lingering in his.
The ponds were nestled amongst the beautiful fir trees native to the area. There was a small beach all the way around them with trees and brush lining the beach. Popular for camping and hiking in the height of the summer, the ponds drew people from all over the area. Not many outsiders used them, as it was pretty much a secret kept by the locals. It was beautiful and refreshing; a wonderful place to come and spend time thinking…but not tonight.
The two of them threw rocks until their arms felt like they were going to fall off, both competing against the other, trying for the longest skip. Alexa won with five.
“Wow. I must really be out of practice. And it looks like you are, too.” She laughed at their feeble scores.
They sat down on a
couple lawn chairs Cayman had in his trunk. Everything was still wet from the day’s rain and if they hadn’t had chairs they’d have been soaked in minutes. No rain fell while they threw their rocks and chatted with each other, though, which made the evening even better.
“So, where did grow up?” Alexa tipped her head and looked at Cayman.
“Down the road about two miles, in Sultan.” Cayman responded
“Really? Where have you been for this past year? I’ve never seen you around before.”
“Working, mostly, out of the country.”
“And what do you do for work?” Now it was her turn for a piqued curiosity.
“I’m a spy for the government,” his eyes twinkled with the tease.
“Really? Like for the FBI?”
“I’d tell you but—“
“Then you’d have to kill me. Yeah, I’ve heard that one before.”
“Dang it, I thought I had you with that one. You’re not from Washington, are you?” Cayman asked her, smiling.
“Nope. I grew up in Page, Arizona,” she said proudly.
“Page? I’ve never been there. What’s it like?”
Alexa thought for a moment. “It’s beautiful. Not quite in the desert, not quite in the mountains. It was the perfect mix. I loved it there and all the places my dad and I would go. It seemed like there was something new to learn anywhere we went. We never had to travel far from home because there was so much to see right there.
She hadn’t realized how incredibly homesick she was until she started talking about the area. She missed her home, and her life there.
They sat in silence taking in the beauty of the pond. The sun’s rays were softly streaming through the breaks in the clouds and dancing on the surface of the water.
A movement to the left of them caught her eye and Alexa glanced in that direction. She saw someone standing on the shore, hands in his pockets, staring directly at her. He must have seen her look at him because he suddenly turned and disappeared into the bushes.
“What the--” Alexa was up and running toward the spot with Cayman in hot pursuit.
“Alexa! What are you doing? Hey! There are cougars up here, you know.” He was gaining on her and finally grabbed her arm, pulling her to a stop. “Where are you going? Was the date that bad?”
Alexa was in no mood for a joke. She tried to be calm but instead she began yelling at Cayman.
“It was my dad! I saw him again. He was here at the pond. I know it was him.”
“You didn’t say your dad lived here. Does he live in Startup?”
“No, actually,” she said taking a deep breath and trying not to sound sarcastic, “according to my records, my dad has been dead for going on two years.”
Cayman let go and stared at her like she’d lost her mind.
“You’ve seen him before today?”
“Yes, outside the diner, it was the same day you showed up.” Alexa was looking in the direction she’d seen him standing, nervous, anxious. “He was standing outside the window, in the rain staring at me. It was him, I know it was him! It was him.”
She nearly whispered the last words of the sentence as her arms fell limply to her side and she leaned hopelessly against Cayman’s chest, sobbing.
“I’m so sorry, Alexa. Someone is playing a cruel joke… You have to understand that.” Then tenderly he asked her, “You have to think about it. Why would your dad do something like this, Alexa? From what you’ve said he was a devoted father, not someone who would pull some cruel hoax on his only daughter.”
She pulled back and looked up at his face.
“I’ve thought this through a hundred times since I first saw him that night.” Looking down she wiped her eyes and then looked up at Cayman. “I know he’s gone. I saw his casket, watched them put him in the ground. It was a closed casket service because he’d been shot in the face…by my then fiancé.”
“Oh, Alexa, I’m so sorry. No wonder you were so distant. I had no idea. I wouldn’t have come after you like I did if I’d known.” His arms wrapped a little tighter around her. She could feel his sadness mix with her own and felt the warmth of knowing someone understood her pain and loss.
“Of course you didn’t. How could you? It’s not your fault. It’s not my fault. It’s just the way it is, and that was my dad.” She pulled slowly away, her hands lying softly on his chest. “It was my dad that night in the diner and it was my dad just now.”
Cayman hesitated for a minute before speaking.
“Let me look into this, Alexa. It’s…well…it’s kind of what I do. Let me make some calls and see what I can find out. I’ll take you home now, it’s almost dark.”
Alexa hadn’t even noticed the dimming evening light. Together they walked back to the car, arms around each other. As he opened the car door, Alexa turned to him.
“I had a great time, Cayman, really. I appreciate your kindness and your willingness to help me out. Thank you.”
“My pleasure, little lady,” he said in his best John Wayne voice. It was a horrible impression, but it made her smile.
They rode most of the way home in silence, each lost in their own thoughts. They were approaching the diner when she turned to him.
“Would you walk me up? I’m feeling a little shaken right now.”
“I’d be happy to.”
Cayman parked on the empty street beside the diner. They walked around the back and she put the key in the lock and they went in. As they climbed the stairs inside the back of the diner, they heard footsteps above them. He touched her arm softly and they stopped.
“Does anyone live up here besides you?” he asked quietly, his muscles tense.
“No,” she whispered looking up the stairwell, “no one.”
“Wait here,” he said softly. “I’ll come back for you. Don’t move.”
He tiptoed up the remaining stairs. She heard a shout and then scuffling. Before she could move to a safer position a man came running down and pushed her out of his way, sending her flying down the stairs to the landing below. The last thing she saw was the concerned face of Cayman repeating her name as he knelt over her before everything went black.
“Alexa! Alexa! Can you hear me? Alexa…
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