by BWWM Club
“I’m sorry Bianca, I…” Alex muttered, a look of chagrin crossing his face.
Bianca waved it off as if it was nothing, “It’s okay, it’s not like you knew what I was going to say. After last weekend, I don’t blame you.” She responded, moving closer to him on the couch.
They sat that way for a little while, neither of them saying anything. Alex captured her hand in his and drew small circles around the top of it with his thumb. The motion was oddly comforting. Bianca wanted to say something, but felt like she should wait for his response to her revelation first. She was surprised he didn’t have more questions, unless he was just waiting to ask them until he made more sense of it in his head. The feeling was mutual. She had several hours to digest the information and still she couldn’t believe it. Her certainty about what she should do was wavering back and forth, especially since Alex showed up.
Finally Alex spoke, his jaw set with determination, “So what did the doctor tell you were your options?” He asked, his eyes suddenly clear and taking charge. Bianca liked this side of him, although she felt like she could take care of herself, especially since she had been doing it for years.
Taking a deep breath she began, telling him everything the doctor said and all of her options. Tears threatened to spill as she finished, and Bianca swallowed a large lump that had formed in her throat. She did enough crying, now was time for action. Another deep breath and the lump dissolved, and Bianca knew what she had to do even if it was difficult.
*****
Alex listened patiently as Bianca explained her situation. If she waited too long she wouldn’t be able to have children, but if she wanted a child now she would need a sperm donor. Or she could freeze her eggs. It all made his head spin. The strength with which she dealt with this whole thing amazed him. On several occasions while she reiterated the doctor’s words she had looked as if she was going to cry, only to clear her throat and sound composed again. Alex wanted to be the shoulder for her to cry on but he wasn’t sure what she wanted him to do. Did she want him to step back so she could fulfill her dream of motherhood? Alex had come over here with the intentions of telling Bianca he wanted to be with her and he wasn’t going to let her run from him. All of this threw a wrench in his plans.
Literally scratching his head with no idea how to proceed, Alex watched Bianca as she paused, the look of unshed tears appearing in her eyes again. He wanted to reach for her, to pull her into his chest and never let her go. He wanted to tell her it would all be okay. But he didn’t know that for sure. A fleeting thought struck him but he pushed it away. It was a crazy idea and he wasn’t sure she would accept it. They had just met, they barely knew one another. Shaking his head to rid himself of the crazy idea, Alex watched Bianca. She appeared to be lost in thought. Hopefully her thoughts included him and a future for them. Although Alex doubted that with her current situation there would be room for him in her life any longer.
*****
Bianca watched Alex, what was he thinking? Mustering the courage to speak, Bianca cleared her throat again, another large lump dissipating.
“I think we need to talk about a few things,” Bianca stated, sitting up straighter so that she wouldn’t lose her nerve.
A look of hurt passed across Alex’s face and she almost lost her nerve. She had to end things if she wanted to proceed with her plans to have a child. While talking with Alex her options became clearer. Initially the sperm donor idea seemed ludicrous, but after hearing it again she realized it was her only shot at utilizing the time she had left to become a mother. This way she could finish her teaching degree and then have a baby. There would be no ambiguity about the future or if she would be able to have a baby in a few years when she finally met someone. Even if Alex was the one they were so far from the ‘starting a family’ portion of their relationship that the risk wasn’t one she was willing to take. Alex would understand if he really wanted her to be happy.
“I really like you, Alex, but if I’m going to be able to carry out my dream of becoming a mother, we can’t pursue this relationship.” Bianca finished quickly, spitting the words out as if they had a vile taste.
The wounded look passed across Alex’s face again before he spoke, “I wish it didn’t have to be this way, Bianca. I’ll be honest and say I’ve never felt this way about anyone else before. I had hoped we could have something real.”
He looked away from her and Bianca’s heart ached. For a moment she almost took it back, almost gave up the need to be a mother; a need that she had since before she knew what it was to have children. No, she couldn’t. As callous as it sounded, she knew there would be other men.
She shook her head with resolve, but her voice came out a degree shakier than before, “I can’t, Alex. I had hoped you’d understand. We’ve just met and it could be years before we would be ready to have our own children. I don’t have years.” Bianca sighed, the pain of loss in her chest weighing her down. How could she feel loss for a relationship she didn’t even have?
The anger and sadness that clouded Alex’s handsome face vanished at her words. Something she said must have got through to him. He must finally understand.
“Well, there is one more option that we didn’t consider, you know.” Alex smiled at Bianca as if they were harboring some sort of inside joke.
Bianca frowned with confusion, “I’m not sure what you’re getting at. I told you all of my options. Not one of them is conducive to us having a relationship at this point.” She claimed with sadness.
Alex shook his head, the smirk firm on his face, “Isn’t it obvious, Bianca?”
He stood pulling Bianca into his arms. With a movement so quick, Bianca had little time to react, Alex met her mouth with his, his tongue pushing at the entrance to her lips. Passion enveloped Bianca, but besides that she didn’t understand what Alex was saying. All thought escaped her, however, when Alex delved deeper with his kiss, entwining his tongue with hers. He stroked her tongue with a motion that mimicked sex and Bianca groaned into his mouth. Their conversation from moments ago seemed frivolous, as heat spread from Bianca’s core through her whole body. Her pussy pulsed with need, moisture escaping the swollen lips and wetting her lace thong panties. She vaguely remembered an important conversation, but all she felt now was lust. Bianca threaded her arms around Alex’s neck and plunged her hands into his soft, shaggy hair, tugging him closer to her. Another groan of pleasure escaped her mouth as Alex’s hands encircled her waist and pulled her flush against his body. The hard length of him pressed against her stomach through his jeans and the feel of it increased her arousal. There was a nagging feeling in the back of her mind that she should stop, that this wasn’t what should happen right now. That’s right, she had other plans. Baby plans. But this felt so right. Their whole conversation from before flooded back and Bianca pulled away from Alex with a sigh of resignation.
Shit!
“I-I can’t,” She muttered, disentangling herself from his embrace.
“But don’t you see, Bianca? We can. That’s what I was trying to tell you.” Alex smiled stepping closer to her again. Bridging the gap that she had just created between them; both physically and emotionally. His hands gripped her waist as he stared deep into her eyes.
Bianca gasped as the realization of what he was saying just occurred to her. He was asking her to carry his baby.
Chapter 4
Bianca looked at Alex; she wasn’t sure what to make of his revelation. For the fiftieth time she thought about how they were practically strangers. And he wanted to have a baby with her!
“We can’t. We shouldn’t.” She mumbled, pulling away from him.
Bianca began to pace around the room again, her mind racing. The part that scared her the most was that she was actually considering his offer. No, it was crazy. Wasn’t it?
“Bianca,” Alex interrupted her frenzied thoughts. He sidled up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist.
Bianca’s heart
fluttered, her stomach was a riot of butterflies. She wanted to tell him no. That she had a plan. Other plans. This didn’t make sense. But, he was making it so difficult. His large hands spanned her size six waist and she yearned to lean back into him, to be enveloped by his scent; leather, soap and male. The heat from his large body behind her seared her back and Bianca’s emotions were in turmoil. Shaking her head to clear her raging hormones, Bianca spun from his grip.
“No, this isn’t a good idea,” She asserted, walking across the room, away from his touch. If he touched her again she might give in.
“Give me one good reason why?” Alex asked. His gaze was intense as he stared her down from across the room. Those blue eyes of his turned stormy and she knew he was getting frustrated.
“We’ve just met. How do I know this will work? What if we spend more time together, and I’m already pregnant and we find out we don’t like each other? Or we have nothing in common?” Bianca wrung her hands with anxiety as she spoke.
“You have to admit there’s a connection between us, Bianca. I told you I’ve never felt this way about anyone else. I doubt in a few weeks, or even months, that I wouldn’t like you.” Alex stalked toward her and Bianca backed up nervously, jumping when the backs of her legs hit the couch.
Bianca sat, since she was already almost on top of the couch anyway. He was right on one account. Bianca also never felt this way about anyone else, especially not in such a short time. But what if she was wrong? Her instincts with men were skewed because of her mother’s track record with men. Bianca stood again, unable to stay still. She caught a look of hope, fleeting as it was, pass across Alex’s face. Could it be that he wanted a child of his own too? A thought occurred to her, seconds before she voiced yet another decline to his offer. She was going to go with a sperm donor anyway. That was the choice she made this evening after much thought. It would be a faceless man who would have no claim to her child except to bring them to life. Why not give her son or daughter a father. A real father. Even if it didn’t work out she was sure Alex was honorable enough to remain in the child’s life. Wouldn’t that be better than raising a child alone?
Nodding her head as she approached him, a final decision made, Bianca conceded, “Okay. Let’s do it.”
*****
Alex spotted the shift in Bianca before she stood. She was thinking hard, and by the time she began to move toward him, he knew she would agree. Trepidation made his heart speed up as she agreed, but Alex wouldn’t change his mind. When he returned home from his last deployment, the moment his feet hit the runway he wanted to reenlist. He was a soldier, a pilot. That was his life for the last ten years. Until he saw Bianca. Her warm brown eyes and beautiful curly hair drew him in. When he spoke to her, her kindness and warmth held him there. This was it. The Air Force may have taken the first part of his adulthood, may have been his family for the last ten years, but he wanted a new life. A life filled with love and family. He had contacted Bianca earlier in the day to tell her about his new business venture. He wanted to share the exciting news with her and let her know he wasn’t going anywhere. When she sprung the news on him about her fertility issues, Alex knew there was only one way to remedy it and keep her in his life.
“Alex? Did you hear me?” Bianca asked, anxiety making her voice take on a high pitched tone.
Alex snapped out of his reverie, “I’m sorry. Yes, I heard you.”
Bianca looked at him strangely, possibly questioning if he was changing his mind. Alex smiled at her to reassure her but she still looked anxious.
“We can do this,” he assured, yet again.
Bianca nodded; she appeared to be trying to make herself appear more certain but Alex saw right through her. Alex reached for her and she didn’t resist or pull away this time. Happy that she was finally coming to terms with their decision, Alex pulled her to his chest. She rested her mop of dark curls against his chest, her breathing slowing. He could feel her heartbeat against his own. Each thump indicated that maybe they were both more nervous about the setup than they were letting on. Alex knew one way to break the ice. He pulled back from her, and she looked at him with confusion. Her expression changed when she saw the storm of lust and arousal pass across his normally clear blue eyes. Alex dipped his head to hers; his heart rate speeding up the closer their mouths came to one another. This was it. He wasn’t going to allow her to stop or pull away. She wanted him as much as he wanted her. He could feel it, could see it in her eyes and hear it in the way she said his name. Their mouths collided; need burning a path to Alex’s rapidly hardening cock. This kiss was more urgent than the last, as if to seal the deal of what they had just agreed too. He didn’t want her to change her mind. And before she could push him away again he wrapped his arms around her middle, dragging her against him and deepening the kiss. Electricity fizzled around them; the intensity of their connection was palpable. Alex couldn’t have stopped now even if he wanted to. And he’d be damned if she would try to push him away again.
*****
Bianca stifled a moan as Alex’s tongue invaded her mouth. This kiss was hot, frantic. Not slow and gentle like the ones before. Bianca needed this. She wanted to erase the pain she had felt hours before at the possibility of her dreams disintegrating before her. She wanted Alex to help her find solace in their decision, which she was feeling less and less anxious about as their passion ignited. She plunged her hands into his hair, crushing her body against his. The hard length of his erection pressed into her belly and Bianca ached to feel him inside of her.
For a brief moment she pulled back. “Not here,” she breathed, her voice not sounding like her own.
In one swift move Alex lifted her in his arms, barely breaking their kiss. He practically flew up the stairs to her room and she angled her head in the direction of their destination. Without ceremony, Alex tossed Bianca on the bed. She landed softly, feeling empty from his absence. She didn’t have to wait long. Alex covered her with his hard body, pressing her into the mattress. Their mouths sought each other again, their kisses burning with need. Bianca reached for the hem of his shirt, jerking it upwards. Alex took over and tore it away, tossing it to the floor. The rest of their clothes followed suit. Alex tore his jeans down and threw them away with just as much force as his shirt. Before Bianca could move, Alex had her shirt over her head and joining the others on the floor. His frantic hands pulled her leggings off, her underwear with them, and threw them away without a care. Bianca drank in the sight of him, all hard muscles and plains. He wasn’t bulky, but he was strong. Her eyes trailed down his body, from his defined biceps and pecs to his chiseled abs, which she ached to trace her tongue down, following the light colored line of hair to his thick erection. Without thinking, Bianca reached for him, her small hands barely fitting around his girth. Alex moaned with pleasure as she began to move her hands up and down, stroking his silky length.
“If you keep this up, I’ll finish before we even begin,” he growled, gently removing her hands.
Bianca smiled slyly, but let him guide her hands above her head. He pinned her wrists to the pillow with one hand, then lowered his head to her breast. The tiny bud of light brown stood erect as his breath passed over it, her brown skin breaking out in gooseflesh at the action.
“Please, Alex,” Bianca begged, her want for him to touch and lick and fuck her becoming stronger.
“Now it’s my turn to tease,” he mumbled, and then lowered his mouth to her nipple.
Bianca sucked in a breath and arched into him as his mouth closed over the hard tip. He licked and sucked and Bianca moaned, zings of pleasure shooting to her already dripping pussy. Alex gently grated his teeth against her nipple and her back bowed from the mattress again, the pleasure too much to handle. He lifted his head, moving to the other side and giving it the same attention. By the time he was done with her breast, Bianca was panting with need.
“Alex,” she breathed, reaching for him to pull him on top of her.
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bsp; “Nuh uh, I’m not done with you yet.” He muttered, licking a path down to her navel.
The closer Alex moved to her core, the more Bianca panted with lust. She wanted him inside of her, now. But Alex had other ideas. Kissing each of her inner thighs as Bianca trembled under his touch. Her hips surged forward as he moved closer to her center, his tongue following the path of the crease of her thigh. When his mouth connected with the bundle of nerves at the apex of her thighs, Bianca bucked off of the mattress, a scream of ecstasy spilling from her mouth. She was on fire, her body melting like lava beneath his touch. The more he licked and sucked at her clit, the more Bianca melted beneath him. The pleasure was building into an unbearable ache inside, the muscles of her pussy clenching around his tongue as he delved it further inside of her. Alex captured her clit between his lips and sucked, and Bianca flew to pieces, the orgasm hitting her hard. She saws stars behind her eyes, and when Alex moved up over her body she could barely move or breathe from the aftermath.
“I’m not done with you yet,” Alex declared, pushing her legs apart.
Bianca wasn’t sure she could take much more, but she moved her legs as he guided them with his hands. Alex settled himself in between her thighs. She felt his erection pressing against the seam of her pussy, and she fought the urge to move her hips to meet him. Alex moved forward, pushing into her slowly. The lack of speed and force were excruciating, and Bianca couldn’t take anymore. She bucked her hips and Alex took that as a sign to move faster. In one swift move he surged forward, filling her and Bianca moaned with pleasure. Her body stretched to accommodate his size and she’d never felt so full or so wet in her life. Alex began to move torturously slow. Bianca grabbed his ass, urging him on but Alex kept the rhythm. She could feel his muscles straining and realized he was holding back.
“Faster, Alex. Please,” she begged, grabbing onto his ass once more.