The sorrel horse had taken a long nap by the gnawed fence-rail, and the cool air after sundown made him impatient to be gone. The two friends jolted homeward in the gathering darkness, through the stiffening mud, and neither Mrs. Trimble nor Rebecca Wright said a word until they were out of sight as well as out of sound of the Janes house. Time must elapse before they could reach a more familiar part of the road and resume conversation on its natural level.
“I consider myself to blame,” insisted Mrs. Trimble at last. “I haven’t no words of accusation for nobody else, an’ I ain’t one to take comfort in calling names to the board o’ selec’men. I make no reproaches, an’ I take it all on my own shoulders; but I’m goin’ to stir about me, I tell you! I shall begin early to-morrow. They’re goin’ back to their own house,—it’s been standin’ empty all winter,—an’ the town’s goin’ to give ’em the rent an’ what firewood they need; it won’t come to more than the board’s payin’ out now. An’ you an’ me’ll take this same horse an’ wagon, an’ ride an’ go afoot by turns, an’ git means enough together to buy back their furniture an’ whatever was sold at that plaguey auction; an’ then we’ll put it all back, an’ tell ’em they’ve got to move to a new place, an’ just carry ’em right back again where they come from. An’ don’t you never tell, R’becca, but here I be a widow woman, layin’ up what I make from my farm for nobody knows who, an’ I’m goin’ to do for them Bray girls all I’m a mind to. I should be sca’t to wake up in heaven, an’ hear anybody there ask how the Bray girls was. Don’t talk to me about the town o’ Hampden, an’ don’t ever let me hear the name o’ town poor! I’m ashamed to go home an’ see what’s set out for supper. I wish I’d brought ’em right along.”
“I was goin’ to ask if we couldn’t git the new doctor to go up an’ do somethin’ for poor Ann’s arm,” said Miss. Rebecca. “They say he’s very smart. If she could get so’s to braid straw or hook rugs again, she’d soon be earnin’ a little somethin’. An’ may be he could do somethin’ for Mandy’s eyes. They did use to live so neat an’ ladylike. Somehow I couldn’t speak to tell ‘em there that’t was I bought them six best cups an’ saucers, time of the auction; they went very low, as everything else did, an’ I thought I could save it some other way. They shall have ’em back an’ welcome. You’re real whole-hearted, Mis’ Trimble. I expect Ann’ll be sayin’ that her father’s child’n wa’n’t goin’ to be left desolate, an’ that all the bread he cast on the water’s comin’ back through you.”
“I don’t care what she says, dear creatur’!” exclaimed Mrs. Trimble. I’m full o’ regrets I took time for that installation, an’ set there seepin’ in a lot o’ talk this whole day long, except for its kind of bringin’ us to the Bray girls. I wish to my heart’t was to-morrow mornin’ a’ready, an’ I a-startin’ for the selec’men.”
The Passing of Sister Barsett
MRS. MERCY CRANE was of such firm persuasion that a house is meant to be lived in, that during many years she was never known to leave her own neat two-storied dwelling-place on the Ridge road. Yet being very fond of company, in pleasant weather she often sat in the side doorway looking out on her green yard, where the grass grew short and thick and was undisfigured even by a path toward the steps. All her faded green blinds were securely tied together and knotted on the inside by pieces of white tape; but now and then, when the sun was not too hot for her carpets, she opened one window at a time for a few hours, having pronounced views upon the necessity of light and air. Although Mrs. Crane was acknowledged by her best friends to be a peculiar person and very set in her ways, she was much respected, and one acquaintance vied with another in making up her melancholy seclusion by bringing her all the news they could gather. She had been left alone many years before by the sudden death of her husband from sunstroke, and though she was by no means poor, she had, as some one said, “such a pretty way of taking a little present that you couldn’t help being pleased when you gave her anything.”
For a lover of society, such a life must have had its difficulties at times, except that the Ridge road was more traveled than any other in the township, and Mrs. Crane had invented a system of signals, to which she always resorted in case of wishing to speak to some one of her neighbors.
The afternoon was wearing late, one day toward the end of summer, and Mercy Crane sat in her doorway dressed in a favorite old-fashioned light calico and a small shoulder shawl figured with large palm leaves. She was making some tatting of a somewhat intricate pattern; she believed it to be the prettiest and most durable of trimmings, and having decorated her own wardrobe in the course of unlimited leisure, she was now making a few yards apiece for each of her more intimate friends, so that they might have something to remember her by. She kept glancing up the road as if she expected some one, but the time went slowly by, until at last a woman appeared to view, walking fast, and carrying a large bundle in a checked handkerchief.
Then Mercy Crane worked steadily for a short time without looking up, until the desired friend was crossing the grass between the dusty road and the steps. The visitor was out of breath, and did not respond to the polite greeting of her hostess until she had recovered herself to her satisfaction. Mrs. Crane made her the kind offer of a glass of water or a few peppermints, but was answered only by a shake of the head, so she resumed her work for a time until the silence should be broken.
“I have come from the house of mourning,” said Sarah Ellen Dow at last, unexpectedly.
“You don’t tell me that Sister Barsett—”
“She’s left us this time, she’s really gone,” and the excited news-bringer burst into tears. The poor soul was completely overwrought; she looked tired and wan, as if she had spent her forces in sympathy as well as hard work. She felt in her great bundle for a pocket handkerchief, but was not successful in the search, and finally produced a faded gingham apron with long, narrow strings, with which she hastily dried her tears. The sad news appealed also to Mercy Crane, who looked across to the apple-trees, and could not see them for a dazzle of tears in her own eyes. The spectacle of Sarah Ellen Dow going home with her humble workaday possessions, from the house where she had gone in haste only a few days before to care for a sick person well known to them both, was a very sad sight.
“You sent word yesterday that you should be returnin’ early this afternoon, and would stop. I presume I received the message as you gave it?” asked Mrs. Crane, who was tenacious in such matters; “but I do declare I never looked to hear she was gone.”
“She’s been failin’ right along sence yisterday about this time,” said the nurse. “She’s taken no notice to speak of, an’ been eatin’ the vally o’ nothin’, I may say, sence I went there a-Tuesday. Her sisters both come back yisterday, an’ of course I was expected to give up charge to them. They’re used to sickness, an’ both havin’ such a name for bein’ great housekeepers!”
Sarah Ellen spoke with bitterness, but Mrs. Crane was reminded instantly of her own affairs. “I feel condemned that I ain’t begun my own fall cleanin’ yet,” she said, with an ostentatious sigh.
“Plenty o’ time to worry about that,” her friend hastened to console her.
“I do desire to have everything decent about my house,” resumed Mrs. Crane. “There’s nobody to do anything but me. If I was to be taken away sudden myself, I shouldn’t want to have it said afterwards that there was wisps under my sofy or—There! I can’t dwell on my own troubles with Sister Barsett’s loss right before me. I can’t seem to believe she’s really passed away; she always was saying she should go in some o’ these spells, but I deemed her to be troubled with narves.”
Sarah Ellen Dow shook her head. “I’m all nerved up myself,” she said brokenly. “I made light of her sickness when I went there first, I’d seen her what she called dreadful low so many times; but I saw her looks this morning, an’ I begun to believe her at last. Them sisters o’ hers is the master for unfeelin’ hearts. Sister Barsett was a-layin’ there yisterday, an
’ one of ’em was a-settin’ right by her tellin how difficult ’t was for her to leave home, her niece was goin’ to graduate to the high school, an’ they was goin’ to have a time in the evening, an’ all the exercises promised to be extry interesting. Poor Sister Barsett knew what she said an’ looked at her with contempt, an’ then she give a glance at me an’ closed up her eyes as if’t was for the last time. I know she felt it.”
Sarah Ellen Dow was more and more excited by a sense of bitter grievance. Her rule of the afflicted household had evidently been interfered with; she was not accustomed to be ignored and set aside at such times. Her simple nature and uncommon ability found satisfaction in the exercise of authority, but she had now left her post feeling hurt and wronged, besides knowing something of the pain of honest affliction.
“If it hadn’t been for esteemin’ Sister Barsett as I always have done, I should have told ’em no, an’ held to it, when they asked me to come back an’ watch to-night. ’T ain’t for none o’ their sakes, but Sister Barsett was a good friend to me in her way.” Sarah Ellen broke down once more, and felt in her bundle again hastily, but the handkerchief was again elusive, while a small object fell out upon the doorstep with a bounce.
“’T ain’t nothin’ but a little taste-cake I spared out o’ the loaf I baked this mornin’,” she explained, with a blush. “I was so shoved out that I seemed to want to turn my hand to somethin’ useful an’ feel I was still doin’ for Sister Barsett. Try a little piece, won’t you, Mis’ Crane? I thought it seemed light an’ good.”
They shared the taste-cake with serious enjoyment, and pronounced it very good indeed when they had finished and shaken the crumbs out of their laps. “There’s nobody but you shall come an’ do for me at the last, if I can have my way about things,” said Mercy Crane impulsively. She meant it for a tribute to Miss Dow’s character and general ability, and as such it was meekly accepted.
“You’re a younger person than I be, an’ less wore,” said Sarah Ellen, but she felt better now that she had rested, and her conversational powers seemed to be refreshed by her share of the little cake. “Doctor Bangs has behaved real pretty, I can say that,” she continued presently in a mournful tone.
“Heretofore, in the sickness of Sister Barsett, I have always felt to hope certain that she would survive; she’s recovered from a sight o’ things in her day. She has been the first to have all the new diseases that’s visited this region. I knew she had the spinal mergeetis months before there was any other case about,” observed Mrs. Crane with satisfaction.
“An’ the new throat troubles, all of ’em,” agreed Sarah Ellen; “an’ has made trial of all the best patent medicines, an’ could tell you their merits as no one else could in this vicinity. She never was one that depended on herbs alone, though she considered ‘em extremely useful in some cases. Everybody has their herb, as we know, but I’m free to say that Sister Barsett sometimes done everything she could to kill herself with such rovin’ ways o’dosin’. She must see it now she’s gone an’ can’t stuff down no more invigorators.” Sarah Ellen Dow burst out suddenly with this, as if she could no longer contain her honest opinion.
“There, there! you’re all worked up,” answered placid Mercy Crane, looking more interested than ever.
“An’ she was dreadful handy to talk religion to other folks, but I’ve come to a realizin’ sense that religion is somethin’ besides opinions. She an’ Elder French has been mostly of one mind, but I don’t know’s they’ve got hold of all the religion there is.”
“Why, why, Sarah Ellen!” exclaimed Mrs. Crane, but there was still something in her tone that urged the speaker to further expression of her feelings. The good creature was much excited, her face was clouded with disapproval.
“I ain’t forgettin’ nothin’ about their good points either,” she went on in a more subdued tone, and suddenly stopped.
“Preachin’ ’ll be done away with soon or late—preachin’ o’ Elder French’s kind,” announced Mercy Crane, after waiting to see if her guest did not mean to say anything more. “I should like to read ’em out that verse another fashion: ‘Be ye doers o’ the word, not preachers only,’ would hit it about right; but there, it’s easy for all of us to talk. In my early days I used to like to get out to meetin’ regular, because sure as I didn’t I had bad luck all the week. I didn’t feel pacified ‘less I’d been half a day, but I was out all day the Sabbath before Mr. Barlow died as he did. So you mean to say that Sister Barsett’s really gone?”
Mrs. Crane’s tone changed to one of real concern, and her manner indicated that she had put the preceding conversation behind her with decision.
“She was herself to the last,” instantly responded Miss Dow. “I see her put out a thumb an’ finger from under the spread an’ pinch up a fold of her sister Deckett’s dress, to try an’ see if’t was all wool. I thought ’t wa’n’t all wool, myself, an’ I know it now by the way she looked. She was a very knowin’ person about materials; we shall miss poor Mis’ Barsett in many ways, she was always the one to consult with about matters o’ dress.”
“She passed away easy at the last, I hope?” asked Mrs. Crane with interest.
“Why, I wa’n’t there, if you’ll believe it!” exclaimed Sarah Ellen, flushing, and looking at her friend for sympathy. “Sister Barsett revived up the first o’ the afternoon, an’ they sent for Elder French. She took notice of him, and he exhorted quite a spell, an’ then he spoke o’ there being need of air in the room, Mis’ Deckett havin’ closed every window, an’ she asked me of all folks if I hadn’t better step out; but Elder French come too, an’ he was very reasonable, an’ had a word with me about Mis’ Deckett an’ Mis’ Peak an’ the way they was workin’ things. I told him right out how they never come near when the rest of us was havin’ it so hard with her along in the spring, but now they thought she was re’lly goin’ to die, they come settlin’ down like a pair o’ old crows in a field to pick for what they could get. I just made up my mind they should have all the care if they wanted it. It didn’t seem as if there was anything more I could do for Sister Barsett, an’ I set there in the kitchen within call an’ waited, an’ when I heard ‘em sayin’, ‘There, she’s gone, she’s gone!’ and Mis’ Deckett a-weepin’, I put on my bunnit and stepped myself out into the road. I felt to repent after I had gone but a rod, but I was so worked up, an’ I thought they’d call me back, an’ then I was put out because they didn’t, an’ so here I be. I can’t help it now.” Sarah Ellen was crying again; she and Mrs. Crane could not look at each other.
“Well, you set an’ rest,” said Mrs. Crane kindly, and with the merest shadow of disapproval. “You set an’ rest, an’ by an’ by, if you’d feel better, you could go back an’ just make a little stop an’ inquire about the arrangements. I wouldn’t harbor no feelin’s, if they be inconsiderate folks. Sister Barsett has often deplored their actions in my hearing an’ wished she had sisters like other folks. With all her faults she was a useful person an’ a good neighbor,” mourned Mercy Crane sincerely. “She was one that always had somethin’ interestin’ to tell, an’ if it wa’n’t for her dyin’ spells an’ all that sort o’ nonsense, she’d make a figger in the world, she would so. She walked with an air always, Mis’ Barsett did; you’d ask who she was if you hadn’t known, as she passed you by. How quick we forget the outs about anybody that’s gone! but I always feel grateful to anybody that’s friendly, situated as I be. I shall miss her runnin’ over. I can seem to see her now, coming over the rise in the road. But don’t you get in a way of takin’ things too hard, Sarah Ellen! You’ve worked yourself all to pieces since I saw you last; you’re gettin’ to be as lean as a meetin’-house fly. Now, you’re comin’ in to have a cup o’ tea with me, an’ then you’ll feel better. I’ve got some new molasses gingerbread that I baked this mornin’.”
“I do feel beat out, Mis’ Crane,” acknowledged the poor little soul, glad of a chance to speak, but touched by this unexpected mark of considerat
ion. “If I could ha’ done as I wanted to I should be feelin’ well enough but to be set aside an’ ordered about, where I’d taken the lead in sickness so much, an’ knew how to deal with Sister Barsett so well! She might be livin’ now, perhaps—”
“Come; we’d better go in, ’t is gettin’ damp,” and the mistress of the house rose so hurriedly as to seem bustling. “Don’t dwell on Sister Barsett an’ her foolish folks no more; I wouldn’t, if I was you.”
They went into the front room, which was dim with the twilight of the half-closed blinds and two great syringa bushes that grew against them. Sarah Ellen put down her bundle and bestowed herself in the large, cane-seated rocking-chair. Mrs. Crane directed her to stay there awhile and rest, and then come out into the kitchen when she got ready.
A cheerful clatter of dishes was heard at once upon Mrs. Crane’s disappearance. “I hope she’s goin’ to make one o’ her nice shortcakes, but I don’t know’s she’ll think it quite worth while,” thought the guest humbly. She desired to go out into the kitchen, but it was proper behavior to wait until she should be called. Mercy Crane was not a person with whom one could venture to take liberties. Presently Sarah Ellen began to feel better. She did not often find such a quiet place, or the quarter of an hour of idleness in which to enjoy it, and was glad to make the most of this opportunity. Just now she felt tired and lonely. She was a busy, unselfish, eager-minded creature by nature, but now, while grief was sometimes uppermost in her mind and sometimes a sense of wrong, every moment found her more peaceful, and the great excitement little by little faded away.
“What a person poor Sister Barsett was to dread growing old so she couldn’t get about. I’m sure I shall miss her as much as anybody,” said Mrs. Crane, suddenly opening the kitchen door, and letting in an unmistakable and delicious odor of shortcake that revived still more the drooping spirits of her guest. “An’ a good deal of knowledge has died with her,” she added, coming into the room and seeming to make it lighter.
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