By the time I reached the typewriter I’d glimpsed the paradox. Even the supernatural-story writer who believes what he writes (and I’m not saying I don’t) isn’t prepared for an actual confrontation. Quite the reverse, for every time he fabricates the supernatural in a story (unless based on experience) he clinches his scepticism; he knows such things can’t be, because he wrote them. Thus for him a confrontation would be doubly upsetting. It would at least force him to re-think all his works. Is this desirable? From the self-completion angle I suppose it is. At any rate, I’m going. “Go up and be with him,” she said — it must be the cemetery on Mercy Hill.
Tomorrow.
EU
(Undated, unaddressed)
I don’t know what
(Foregoing deleted, does not appear on carbon; page apparently withdrawn, carbon attached, reinserted into typewriter) Nonsense. Of course I can write about it. The very fact that I can write proves that I’m still functioning.
I took the bus up Mercy Hill at the height of the day. Few things moved; flies and pedestrians crawled, and the workmen climbed sluggishly on the skeletal school. At the intersection with Dee Terrace I saw the house; it seemed swallowed up by grass, forever isolated from its surroundings.
I want to get this over. The caretaker directed me down an avenue, and when I reached — No. Description of graveyard. Why write as if this were my last page? Willows, their branches glowing stippled curves, were spaced carefully toward the Hill out of which the cemetery was carved; in the Hill itself were catacombs, black behind ivy or railings, and above stood the hospital, a grey reminder of hope or despair. What awful iron juxtaposed hospital and graveyard? The avenues were guarded by broken-nosed angels yearning heavenward; one showed a leprous patch where her left eye and cheek had sloughed away. Urns stood here and there like empty glasses at a sick-bed, and a young woman was kneeling with a wreath at a shining memorial; I wonder how long before she shakes him off? And then, toward the catacombs, I saw the new headstone and its bed of pebbles. They gleamed behind the high sun. I read Franklyn’s name and the framing dates, and waited.
It eventually occurred to me that I didn’t quite know what I was waiting for; not in that sunlight. Yet the air had hushed. I paced around the grave, and the pebbles shifted. My shadow had moved them. I’m still capable of an anti-climax! My God. I thought: Franklyn is alive down there — or perhaps no longer. Then I saw a possibility. I looked back down the perspective. The young mourner was passing through the gates. I lay down on the grass and put my ear to the pebbles. They ground together, then there was nothing. I felt vilely uncomfortable. Suddenly I realized that I was visible all the way down the avenue to the gates. I went hot all over and scrambled to my feet.
And on the way up I heard something. Something. If only I knew. It’d be better if I had something to confront, anything but this uncertainty which sucks the confidence from me. It could have been the foreman at that school calling over the noise of riveting. Or it could — yes, must write — it could have been someone imprisoned, paralyzed, summoning a last muscular spasm, screaming thickly for help and beating his fists in the dark as he was dragged downward, downward…
I couldn’t run; it was too hot. I walked. When I reached the school the girders were rippling in the heat-haze, as if they were alive. I wish I hadn’t seen that. No longer could I trust the surface of the world. It was as though it had been instantaneously revealed to me that there were countless forces awake in everything, invisible, things lurking in daylight, shifting, planning — What had they built into the school? What would stalk unseen among the children?
I walked. Of course I was visualizing too much, but I could imagine, I could feel the pavement thin as ice, ready to engulf me in a world where life crawled. I sat in the parks. It was no good; I didn’t know what watched from the trees; I didn’t know how many of the passers-by might be masked, agents not of this world, preparing the way for — what? Who had Franklyn left behind? The peril of the writer: he can’t stop thinking. He may survive by writing, but he doesn’t really survive. Why am I no — mustn’t give in — I wandered until dark, found a cafe, I don’t remember. I was in a deserted street of shops with one red window lit above a darkened store. I don’t know why, it seemed evil. Franklyn’s hall, I suppose.
So I came back and typed this. The street is empty; only the shadow of the streetlamp seems to move. The window opposite is dark. What may be there, waiting?
I can’t turn round. I stare at the reflexion of the room behind me. The reflexion — like a framed photograph about to be split open by something climbing forth. When I’ve written this I shall turn round.
“I don’t dare,” I have just said aloud.
Where can I go where I don’t sense movement behind the scenes?
(Unsigned)
THE INTERLOPER
When Scott entered the classroom it was as if a vacuum-jar had been clamped over the class. Thirteen conversations were truncated; thirty boys stood, thirty folding seats slammed back; a geometry set crashed, scattered; John Norris coughed nervously, falsely, wondering if Scott had heard him saying seconds before to Dave Pierce: “The Catacombs at lunchtime, then?” Scott’s gaze froze about him. “All right, sit down,” said Scott. “I don’t want this period wasted. He sat. The congregation sat. Homework books were flurried open. John sensed Scott’s haste, and pincushions grew in his palms; he thought of the solution on which everyone else agreed; he lived for the arrival of the Inspector in the afternoon, when Scott surely couldn’t take it out of him.
“Answer to the first one. Robbins?” On the bus that morning, during breaks in the dawn game of musical window-seats, they’d compared solutions. (“What’d you get, Norris?” “34.5.” “You sure? I had 17.31.” “So did I.” “Yes, I did too.”) The pins stung. “Correct, x = 2.03 or — 3.7. Anybody not get that? Any questions?” But nobody dared stand unless so ordered. “Next. Thomas?” Thomas stood, adjusted his homework, gave vent to a spurious sigh of desperate concentration. Scott drummed a stick of chalk, swept down in dusty robes on Thomas. “Come on, lad, you can’t dither in an exam. 27.5 is the answer, isn’t it?” Thomas beamed. “That’s right, sir, of course.” “No, it isn’t, you blockhead!” Scott strode behind Thomas to peer at his homework, drove his knuckles into Thomas’ kidney with an accuracy born of years of practice. “Wake your ideas up, lad! Fuller, can you show Thomas how to think?”
The exam in six months, possessing Scott with terrifying force. The Inspector’s visit, driving Scott to fury at being subdued in the afternoon. Oh, God, John prayed, don’t let him ask me question five. “That’s it, Fuller. Go on, sit down, Thomas, we don’t need you as class figurehead. Hawks, what have you got for the next one?” The class next door roared with laughter. Foghorn Fred must be taking them, the English master, John’s favourite, who let him write poetry in class sometimes when he’d turned in a particularly good homework. Silence. Laughter. John was jealous. Scott was behind him somewhere, pacing closer: “Come on, come on, Hawks!” Further down the corridor cracked the flat sound of a strap. Some of the masters you could come to terms with, like the art master; you had only to emulate the skunk to get rid of him. But Strutt, the gym master — he’d have your gym-shoe off for that. And you couldn’t do much about Collins’ geography class — “Spit” they called him, because sitting on his front row was like standing on a stormy promenade. Yet no class was so suffocated by fear as Scott’s. One lunch-hour when John had been writing poetry Thomas had snatched his notebook and Scott had come in and confiscated it; when John had protested Scott had slapped his face. Dave Pierce had told John to protest to Foghorn Fred but he hadn’t had the courage. Next door Ford’s class laughed. Further off the strap came down: Whap! Silence. Laughter. Whap! Whap! WHAP! John felt Dave’s eyes on him, deploring. He turned to nod and Scott said: “Norris!” He stood. More moist pins stabbed. On the still air hung chalk and Scott’s after-shave. “Yes, sir,” he stammered.
“Yes, sir. The fi
rst time I repeat myself it has to be to you. Question five, Norris, question five!”
The Inspector. The Catacombs at lunchtime. Foghorn Fred always called him “Mr Norris”. None of these could comfort him; fear twinged up from his bowels like wind. “34.5, sir?” he pleaded.
“Norris — Thomas I can understand, because he’s an idiot, but you — I showed you how to do this one on the board yesterday. Don’t tell me you weren’t here.”
“I was here, sir. I didn’t understand, sir.”
“You didn’t understand, sir. You didn’t ask, sir, did you? You were writing poetry about it, were you? Come out here.” Scott cast his robes back; chalk whirled into the air.
John wanted to shut his eyes, but that wasn’t permitted; the class was watching, willing him to represent them in the ritual without shaming them. Scott pulled John’s left hand straight, adjusted it to correct height with the strap. He aimed. John’s thumb closed inadvertently. Scott flicked it aside with the strap. The crowd was hushed, tense. The strap came down. John’s hand swelled with hectic blood.
“Now, Pierce,” said Scott, “I’m sure you can enlighten your friend.”
A bell shrilled. Ford’s class pelted to the playground, flattening against the wall to file as Scott approached. “Time for a drink, Ford?” he called. John averted his face as he passed, swollen with fear and hatred. “Scott’s not too bad really,” Dave Pierce said. “Better than that swine, Ford, anyway, keeping me in last week.”
Disloyal to his throbbing puffed-up palm, thought John bitterly. “Glad you think so,” he muttered.
“Never mind, John. Did you hear this one? Two men go to a doctor, see — ”
John could guess the sort of thing: he didn’t like to hear it, couldn’t join in the secret snigger at “Edgar Allan Poe”, “oui-oui” and so on. “We’d better hurry,” he interrupted. “You get past the gate and I’ll be under the wall.”
He strolled past the playground; boys walking, talking, shivering in the pale February light which might have been shed by the gnawed slice of moon on the horizon; a group in one corner huddled round photographs, another conferring over homework for the afternoon; beyond, on the misty playing-field, a few of Strutt’s favourites running in gym-suits. On the bus that morning a man cradling a briefcase had offered to help John with his homework, but he was obscurely scared of strange men. He stood against the wall beyond the playground. When Dave’s lunch pass flew over, he caught it and made for the gate.
A prefect leaned against the railings; he straightened himself, frowning, as befitted his position — one day a week for the school spirit, he’d rather be at the pub. Above his head words were scratched on the King George V Grammar sign through the caretaker’s third coat of paint, in defiance of the headmaster’s regular threats. John flashed the pass from his good hand and escaped.
Down the road Dave was waiting by fragments of a new school: a lone shining coffee-urn on a counter, pyramids of chairs, skulls drawn in whitewash on the one plate-glass pane; a plane had left a fading slash of whitewash on the sky. “How do we get to The Catacombs?” Dave asked.
“I don’t know,” John answered, feeling comfort drain, emptying the hour. “I thought you did.”
Heels clicked by in unison. “Let’s follow these girls, then. They’re a bit of all right,” Dave said. “They may be going.”
John drew into himself; if they turned they’d laugh at his school blazer. Their pink coats swung, luring Dave; their perfume trailed behind them — The Catacombs would be thick with that and smoke. He followed Dave. The girls leapt across the road, running as if to jettison their legs, and were lost in a pillared pub between a shuttered betting-shop and the Co-operative Social Club. Dave was set to follow, but John heard drumming somewhere beneath the side street to their left. “It’s up here,” he said. “Come on, we’ve lost ten minutes already.”
Cars on the main road swept past almost silently; in the side street they could hear beneath their feet a pounding drum, a blurred electric guitar. Somewhere down there were The Catacombs — but the walls betrayed no entrance to this converted cellar, reclaimed by the city in its blind subterranean search for space. Menace throbbed into the drum from the rhythm of John’s hot hand. Spiders shifted somnolently in a white web wall within a crevice. A figure approached down the alley, a newspaper-seller with an armful of Brichester Heralds, his coat furred and patched as the walls. John drew back. The man passed in silence, one hand on the bricks. As he leaned on the wall opposite the boys it gave slightly; a door disguised as uneven stone swung inward from its socket. The man levered himself onward. “That must be it,” Dave said, stepping forward.
“I’m not so sure.” The man had reached the main road and was croaking “Brichester Herald!” John glanced back and saw the pub door open. Scott appeared and strode toward them.
“No,” John said. He thrust Dave through the opening; his last glimpse was of Scott buying a Brichester Herald. “That was your friend Scott,” he snarled at Dave.
“Well, it’s not my fault.” Dave pointed ahead, down a stone corridor leading to a faint blue light around a turn. “That must be The Catacombs.”
“Are you sure?” John asked, walking. “The music’s getting fainter. In fact, I can’t hear it anymore.”
“I couldn’t really hear it any more when we came in,” Dave admitted. “Come on, it’s got to be here.” They rounded the turn.
A wan blue glow narrowed away into dimness. Slowly a perspective formed; a long stone passage, faintly glistening, too narrow to admit them abreast, perhaps turning in the distance — somehow lit by its own stones, luminously blue. It lured curiosity, yet John grasped Dave’s arm. “This can’t be it,” he said. “We’d better not go on.”
“I am, anyway. I want to see where it leads.”
“Wait a minute,” John said. “I just want to go back and see — ” But he couldn’t pronounce his inner turmoil. He was already frightened; they might get lost and not be back for Scott’s class this afternoon. If Dave wanted to go on, let him. He was going back.
He turned the corner of the stagnant blue light and plunged into darkness. The moistness of the air hinted of lightless underground pools; the only sound was the sliding of his heels on slimy stone. He reached the wall ahead, the door. There was no door.
One fingernail, exploring, broke. He bit it off. His left hand, still sore, flinched from the wet unbroken stone. Suddenly alone and threatened, John fled back into the blue twilight, slipping in his own tracks. Dave was not waiting.
“Oh, God,” John moaned. His eyes adjusted. Far down the perspective he made out a vague shape vanishing, its shadows suppressed by the unwavering light. He hurled himself into the corridor, arms scraping the stone, the archway hurling by above him, a turquoise spider plummeting on an azure thread, winding itself back. Globules beaded the brick; still plunging headlong, John brushed his forehead with his hand. Ahead the figure halted, waiting. “The door’s shut. We can’t get out,” John panted, sobbing for breath.
“Then you’ll have to come with me,” Dave said. “There must be another way out of this place, whatever it is.”
“But we’re going downward,” John discovered.
“I know that. So we’ll have to go up again somewhere. Maybe — Look!”
They were still walking; they had turned another bend. The passage twisted onward, glowing. John tried not to look at Dave; the light had drained his face of blood, and doubt glinted faintly in his eyes. On the stone floor wisps of cobweb, tinted blue, led to another turn. And in the left-hand wall Dave had seen an opening, foreshortened. He ran to it; John followed, robbed of The Catacombs, seeking a way back to Scott’s next class, to the Inspector. Dave faced the opening, and the doubt in his eyes brightened.
It was an opening, but a dead end: an archway six feet high, a foot deep, empty except for filaments of cobweb which their breath sucked out to float and fall back. Dave peered in, and a spider as large as a thumb ran from a matted corner
. He threw himself aside; but the spider was empty, rattling on the stone.
John had pressed past to the next bend. Another downward twist; another alcove. He waited for Dave to join him. The second alcove was thick with cobwebs; they filled it, shining dully, shifting as Dave again took the lead. The boys were running; the light congealed about them, the ceiling descended, threads of cobweb drifted down. A turn, an alcove, webs. Another. Glancing sideways, John was chilled by a formless horror; the cobwebs in the alcove suggested a shape which he should be able to distinguish. But another fear burned this away like acid: returning late for Scott’s class. “Look, it’s widening!” Dave shouted. Before John could see beyond him, they had toppled out into an open space.
It was a circular vaulted chamber; above their heads a dome shone blue through webs like clouds. In the walls gaped other archways, radiating from the circular pool in the centre of the chamber. The pool was still. Its surface was a beaded mat of cobwebs like a rotting jewelled veil. “I don’t get it,” Dave whispered; his voice settled through the air, disturbing shining airborne wisps. John said nothing. Then Dave touched his arm and pointed.
Beyond the pool, between two archways, stood a rack of clothes: hats, caps, a black overcoat, a tweed suit, a pinstripe with an incongruous orange handkerchief like a flag, a grey. They filled John with nightmare horror. “It must be a tramp,” he said desperately.
“With all these things? I’m going to have a closer look.” Dave moved round the pool.
“No, Dave, wait!” John skidded round the pool in pursuit; one foot slipped on the pool’s rim. He looked down, and his reflexion was caught by cobwebs, jewelled with droplets, swallowed up. His voice vanished into corridors. “It’s past one now! You try one passage and I’ll try another. One of them must lead out.” Immediately he realized that he would be alone in his corridor among the matted alcoves; but at least he’d diverted Dave from the suits.
“That’s the best idea, yes. Just wait till I have a look at these. It won’t take a minute.”
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