by Jessa Eden
Warmly,
Jessa Eden
Check out this exciting excerpt from Forever Beloved, the conclusion to Marla and Beau’s story coming out in July of 2015!
Beau:
Jesus H. Christ.
No fuckin’ way was I a dad.
I did not have a twenty-two year old kid walking around.
These were my thoughts as I raced toward the exit of the salon, burst out the door and froze for a stunned second, trying to comprehend the reality of seeing Charlie for the first time.
How could I not know?
How could Marla do this to me?
Breathing was suddenly difficult and I put my hands on my knees, like I had just sprinted a hundred meter race. I tried to grab onto something real as I struggled to find internal steady ground. So I read the signs around me...Frank’s Pet store, Leon’s bakery, Taxes done here, Buy one, get one free.
It didn’t help.
My world had imploded and there wasn’t anything I could do to stop the destruction. I was desperate to get away from the scene of the crime. On autopilot, I walked aimlessly down the row of shops trying to wrap my mind around the fact I had a living, breathing kid running around with my DNA.
Charlie Matthews.
It was like coming face to face with a mirror. Our features were almost identical, except he had Marla’s thick, dark beautiful hair and doe eyes. Everything else was me.
She had named him after my grandfather.
Why would she do that?
The tightness in my chest suddenly expanded, growing so unbearable, I bolted down the corridor of shops in a full sprint, not caring where I ended up. I just wanted to forget everything pressing down on me. I came to a park at the end of the block, my breathing labored as I sat down on a bench, burying my face in my hands.
What the hell was happening?
My kid.
My fucking kid.
I didn’t know what to feel.
Destroyed.
Betrayed.
Grief stricken.
All for the life I was supposed to have with Charlie and his mother.
I couldn’t believe Marla was now the mother of my child.
A child I didn’t know.
A child who had grown up without his father.
I instantly hated that fact.
What was worse was I couldn’t do anything about it.
It was all too much.
I didn’t want to think about what it meant.
So, I did what I did best.
I checked out.
I was on my phone before I could even contemplate what I was doing as I hoofed it back to my car. “Hey, it’s me. I’m having a party. Let everybody know. Bring the good stuff,” I told a concierge of sorts, who could hook up a party in the blink of an eye.
I knew in thirty minutes my penthouse would be full of beautiful people who would only care about the booze and entertainment I offered and wouldn’t give a damn about my emotional issues. Just what I needed.
The chance to forget.
~Beau Shepard
Forever Beloved
Release date: July 2015
Check out other Jessa Eden stories:
Micah, The Fierce Falls Hard For Emma, The Brave
The Whore’s Consummation FREE!
Song List
Take Me To Church~ Hozier
Lost Stars~ Adam Levine
Shine Your Way~ Owl City
Go Slow~ Haim Sisters
Stand Up~ Five for Fighting
Running If You Call My Name~ Haim Sisters
I Got You~ Leona Lewis
I’m Free~ Kenny Loggins
Ghost~ Ella Henderson
Summer Rain~ Belinda Carlisle
What If~ Five For Fighting
I Really Like You~ Carly Rae Jepsen
Style~ Taylor Swift
Thinking Out Loud~ Ed Sheeran
A Sky Full of Stars~ Coldplay
Stay The Night~ Zedd
I Will Lift My Eyes~ Bebo Norman