A clock was ticking somewhere in a corner of the room. It sounded loud, suddenly, marking the passing of time. He said, ‘I never had much use for Ivan Reynolds, as I said, but he was right about one thing. He told me all one had to do to ruin a man was start a rumour – the suspicion was enough to do the rest. And he was right.’ His smile was practical. ‘I couldn’t let Deacon sit down with a journalist; tell what he knew. I’d given up a good life once already for the man, and I was damned if I was going to see him ruin the life that I’ve got now. I built this life. It’s mine.’
It wasn’t only how he said the words; it was the look behind his eyes that made the coldness start to clutch at my insides. I had been right to fear this man. He might be old, and frail, and sitting in a wheelchair, but the truth was he was just as evil now as he had ever been, and every bit as dangerous.
He said, ‘I had to know how much you knew. The fact that my man hadn’t seen Deacon speak to you didn’t mean you hadn’t talked on the phone, or that Deacon hadn’t written to you earlier. And if you knew the story, then there might be others…people you had talked to. The only way to know for sure was to arrange for someone to get close to you.’
I knew, already, who he’d sent to do the job, but since I wanted it on tape, I said it: ‘Patrick.’
‘Yes.’ The Colonel smiled. ‘I don’t believe he minded the assignment. I didn’t tell him everything, mind you – only that Deacon knew certain details of my past that could cause problems for me, and, indeed, for Patrick. The sins of the fathers, and all that, you know. That was all Patrick needed to hear.’ His smile deepened. ‘Patrick, for his faults, does have a marvellously developed instinct for self-preservation. He was only too keen to help, if it meant keeping out of the tabloids, but of course, even when the boy helps, he’s about as much use as a gun with no bullets. He couldn’t tell me anything, and in the end, there was nothing for it but to invite you down for dinner, so that I could talk to you myself. And then Patrick, in typical fashion, did something quite foolish. He was on his way to Chambers, so he told me, and he saw you on the steps outside St Paul’s, with Deacon, talking, and the only thing that he could think to do was run him down. And with my wife’s car, more’s the pity. I adored that car. It cost me quite a lot to have to sink it in the pond.’ His face was honestly regretful; more upset about the losing of the car than Deacon’s death. ‘So then my wife knew something odd was going on, and when my wife’s alarmed, she calls her Aunt Venetia.’
I could tell from his tone that he hadn’t been pleased. I couldn’t imagine a sharp and powerful woman like Venetia Radburn being satisfied with anything less than the whole story, any more than I could imagine a man like the Colonel being anything but loathe to share the strings with a competing puppeteer.
‘Ironic, really, that I’d been using her for bait to get you down here for dinner, and in the end she took control of that event.’
Ah yes, I thought. The dinner. All those seemingly innocent questions about the accident I’d witnessed, and what the old man might have said. About my grandmother. Venetia Radburn, smiling as she’d poured my wine. And afterwards, when I’d gone up to bed, the sounds of everybody talking in the sitting room below.
‘I felt certain, at the time,’ the Colonel said, ‘that you knew nothing. If you had read Deacon’s report, you’d have known who I was, and you wouldn’t have been so relaxed. No one’s that good an actress. But Venetia wanted convincing, so I arranged one final test. Someone official, this time. Someone you might feel compelled to talk to.’
‘You mean Metcalf.’
‘Who?’
‘The man at my hotel,’ I said.
‘Was that the name he went by? I didn’t know. I told him to choose someone very official, a real Scotland Yard man, in case you should check the credentials. I’d hoped, you see, that even if he weren’t able to find out what you knew, he might be able to persuade you to let Deacon’s story drop, for fear of prosecution. But that didn’t work, of course.’ His mouth quirked. ‘I was told you didn’t take too well to his suggestions. And he also said he was quite sure he’d seen Cavender passing you something, that night in the bar. The very fact that you were meeting with Cavender, let alone accepting documents from him, seemed evidence enough that not only did you know of Deacon’s story, you were working on it, actively, and I’m afraid that rather sealed your fate, my dear. And Cavender’s.’ I’d never known a person speak so casually of murder. For although he hadn’t gone himself to Deacon’s house in Elderwel, to strike the coward’s blow that killed James Cavender, he’d sent the men who’d done it. It had been his plan. His murder. ‘I did think it better to be safe,’ he said, ‘than sorry.’
Better to be safe than sorry. So my grandmother had died. I forced back my anger enough to ask, ‘Why didn’t you just kill me when you had me here, in London?’
The Colonel said, ‘Because I’d complicated things, you see, by bringing Patrick into play, with you. Venetia wouldn’t hear of doing anything to you while you were in England, for fear it might somehow touch Patrick. You must understand, my dear, that Venetia’s had a grand design for both my boys since they were in their prams, and when young John died, well, it all fell onto Patrick. Number 10 Downing Street, that’s what she chose for him, steered him towards. Any scandal that might jeopardise his chances, well, she simply wouldn’t hear of it. As the man you’d been seeing, he might have been questioned had anything untoward happened to you. It was safer to wait, we decided, until you went home. Will you have another glass of port?’ He held up the decanter, as an offering. ‘No? Anyhow, we weren’t successful, were we? Killing you, I mean. And then you disappeared…that gave me a few bad moments, I can tell you.’
‘But you found me.’
‘Yes, that was a stroke of luck. Anne Wood had been in Amsterdam, and seen someone who looked like you. She mentioned to Venetia, when they talked, how much this woman looked like you. She’d thought it odd, too, that the woman would say that she wasn’t Canadian, when she was holding a passport from Canada. She’d read your name, and your plane ticket. So we found out you were headed for Portugal.’ He’d known that I’d be going there to speak to living witnesses, and so he had arranged to have Regina watched, and Roger. When I’d turned up at Regina’s house, they’d followed me from there. ‘You gave them quite a time, I’m told. Who was the young man, with you?’
When I didn’t answer him, he smiled. ‘No matter. Good for you, though. You were always too intelligent for Patrick.’
Coldly, I asked, ‘Where has Patrick been? I would have thought that you’d send him to Portugal, to tie up your loose ends for you.’
‘Good Lord, no. I could never trust Patrick with something like that. No, I brought the professionals in, for all that. I sent Patrick on holiday. Greece. Kept him out of the way for a while, and gave him a chance to calm down. He was too unpredictable. Still is. I can’t say he’ll be pleased to find out you’ve returned.’
‘I’ll be sure to watch my step, crossing the street.’
That amused him. ‘A wise policy.’ Setting down his glass, he searched for something in his pocket. ‘You’ll want to watch your step regardless, I’m afraid, my dear. Oh, you’ve nothing to fear, here, tonight,’ he said, seeing how my wary gaze had followed his movements. He pulled his hand free of his pocket to show me he held nothing more than a packet of matches. But he knew what I’d been thinking.
He said, ‘When I was out in Africa, some of the chaps used to set bait for lion, and hide there and wait till the beasts came in close enough to make a kill. No sport in that. I always liked to do my hunting in the open, where the lion had a decent chance.’
His eyes, on mine, were condescending, making very sure I got his meaning. He was letting me know I was safe, for the moment, because I had come to him here, but that once I went out of this house, went back into the open, the game would be on.
He took a cigar from a box on the table beside him, and lit it, and shook out the mat
ch. ‘I shall miss you, Miss Murray. I mean that. You’ve been a delightful opponent.’
I’d had all that I could stomach of his company. I’d gotten what I came for. ‘Oh, don’t worry, Colonel Cayton-Wood,’ I said, and stood. ‘I have every intention of being the last person standing. I’ll see myself out.’ And though I’d said I’d never turn my back on him, I held my fear in check and did it now, and walked – although I felt like running – out of the room to the echoing entry hall, where, from its shadowy corner, the dragon’s-head walking stick reared up to watch me with evil red eyes as I passed through the front door and slammed it behind me.
FRIDAY, OCTOBER 6
There were benches set along the Thames embankment, in the shadow of Westminster Bridge, but I stayed standing. I set my back to the river, so that I could see both the traffic that rushed past in an unceasing current of its own along the busy street beyond the footpath, and the people strolling past Westminster Pier, where I was standing. They were mostly people on their way to work, or tourists checking the times of the boats to the Tower of London, Kew Gardens, or Greenwich.
There were just enough people about so that I could feel safe, without feeling myself overwhelmed. And two benches downstream, Nick and Margot were sitting, pretending an interest in feeding the pigeons and reading the paper, respectively.
The autumn morning air was cool and damp, and rich with car exhaust, and diesel from the river boats, and the decaying scent of fallen leaves on pavement. The forecast called for rain, and I could smell that coming, too, and see the gathering of grey cloud further east, above the river.
Clear and ringing, loud above the noise of traffic, Big Ben chimed the quarter hour and left the last note hanging, pure, reverberating in the air. I heard the hard, approaching sound of footsteps, and I turned my head.
I recognised him right away. He seemed to have more difficulty spotting me. I’d given up on my disguise – I wasn’t wearing glasses any longer, and I’d chopped my hair last night, myself, with scissors, so the red roots would show through. If Colonel Cayton-Wood enjoyed the sport of hunting, I’d decided, he would get no joy from me. I’d stand and face him in the open; take his victory from him. I refused to be a fugitive for ever.
I’d given my description on the phone, to Sergeant Metcalf, but he sounded less than sure. ‘Miss Murray?’
I nodded, accepting the handshake. ‘Sergeant Metcalf. Thanks for coming.’
Cautious habit made me pull back, keep my distance. I was taking a risk, I knew, meeting him, even in public. Instinct told me he was what he said he was – an uninvolved policeman. And from what the Colonel had told me last night, the real Metcalf – this man standing next to me now – was an innocent victim of stolen identity. But I knew full well I couldn’t believe all the Colonel had told me last night. He was good at deception. And I didn’t know, for certain, Sergeant Metcalf wasn’t on the Colonel’s payroll.
If he was, then what I was about to do was meaningless.
Even if he wasn’t, it was very likely meaningless as well, although at least, then, whoever the Colonel had hired to follow me, watch me, would see what I did here this morning, and with whom. That might, if I was lucky, make the Colonel stay his hand.
At any rate, I had to meet with Metcalf, and accept the risk.
And Metcalf, to his credit, didn’t look the least bit threatening. He was a large man, broad-shouldered, broad-faced, with patient eyes, set deep, surrounded by creases. He looked like a big country farmer, plain-dealing, good-humoured, instead of a policeman. It was probably, I decided, an impression he’d have cultivated, making people feel at ease enough to open up to him. In interrogations, he’d have been the one who got to play the good cop.
He’d put his hands back in his pockets, respecting my withdrawal, and the glance he angled down at me showed genuine concern. ‘You’re not too cold out here? My office isn’t far.’
‘I’m fine, thanks.’
Nodding once to show he understood, he asked me, ‘Have you been in London long?’
‘Not really, no.’
‘I must say, I was quite surprised to hear from you. Not at all the way I’d thought to end my week.’ He smiled. ‘I’m glad to see you’re well. We’ve all been worried.’
‘“We?”’
‘The Toronto police, and myself. They’ve kept me informed, as a courtesy, because of my…well, my involvement, if you like. Although I’m still not certain how I got involved.’ His smile made deeper creases round his eyes. ‘I suppose it began with that message you left on my voicemail. Yours was the second message I’d received that day, from someone whom I’d never met, who talked as though we’d spoken. The first was from some chap who said he’d just remembered one more detail of the accident he’d witnessed, that I’d questioned him about. He didn’t leave his name – just said the driver of the car must have been tall, because the seat was quite far back. And that was that. I hadn’t a clue what he was on about. Then you called, apologising, and again, I knew we’d never talked. You left a name, at least, though. And a number. In Toronto, where I’d just arrived, myself; so I decided that I’d better try to find out what the hell was going on.’ He paused, and then concluded with, ‘Except I never got the chance to ask you.’
A boat chugged behind us, its bow turned upstream. Metcalf watched it for a moment, and then asked me, ‘I assume you’d met with someone else, who said that he was me?’
‘Yes.’
‘When was this?’
I told him, giving him the details I remembered
He took it in, frowning. ‘I see.’
‘So when you turned up at the hospital in Toronto,’ I finished, ‘and somebody mentioned your name, all I knew was that you weren’t the man I had talked to in London.’
‘And that’s why you ran. You thought I was the one who was playing a part.’
‘I didn’t know what to think. I was in shock, still. I just knew that something was wrong.’
With another nod, he said, ‘That was a queer chain of events, that night. I was having drinks with my Canadian counterpart, talking over my presentation, when I overheard the call come in and recognised the address. So I asked if I could see you. If I’d known that I would frighten you, I would have stayed away.’
‘No, it was good that you came to the hospital, really.’ If I hadn’t seen him and realised that something was rotten, I wouldn’t have gone into hiding, wouldn’t have changed my identity, wouldn’t have been on my guard. I’d have stayed where I was, in the open, a nice easy target for Cayton-Wood’s killers. ‘I’d be dead, if you hadn’t,’ I said to him bluntly, and tried to explain.
It took time.
When I’d finished, he looked past my shoulder to the looming outline of the Houses of Parliament, rising on the far side of Westminster Bridge. Thoughtfully, he chewed his lip. And then he said, ‘It won’t be easy, mind, to bring a charge against a woman like Venetia Radburn.’
‘No. I don’t imagine that it will be.’
‘But you’ve got it on tape, you say? This man’s confession?’
‘Yes.’ I closed my fingers round the hard case of the tape, and pulled it from my pocket. Held it out. ‘It’s just a copy. I’ve made others.’
He folded the tape into his large hand, and smiled. ‘You’re a very resourceful young woman, Miss Murray.’
‘I’ve had to be.’
‘Trust no one, is that it? Well, not to worry. You’ve had a hard few weeks, but it’s all over now. Just leave it in our hands, and we’ll take care of things.’
I didn’t share his confidence.
He said, ‘This chap who said that he was me, the one you met when you were here in London, can you tell me what he looked like?’
‘I don’t know…middle-aged, average height, sort of bland.’
‘Would you know him again?’
‘I doubt he’d look the same again.’ That would be my greatest problem, I imagined, in this game that Colonel Cayton-Wood was playing
: I’d never know who he might send against me.
Metcalf, mindful of my wariness, said, ‘Well, perhaps when you’re back in Toronto, you might spend a bit of time working with one of the police sketch artists, to draw me a face. Give me something to go on.’ He added, ‘I shouldn’t imagine the Toronto police will give you any trouble now.’
‘No.’
There was nothing more to say. He wished me luck, then, and I shook the hand he offered me, and said goodbye, and watched him walk away. He vanished with the crowd into the dark mouth of the underpass that crossed beneath the busy street. I stood, my back still to the river, till Big Ben had chimed another quarter hour, before I turned and slowly walked towards the bench where Nick and Margot sat.
‘That’s done, then,’ Margot said, as she looked up at me. ‘Do you think he’ll do anything with what you’ve given him?’
‘No,’ I said honestly. Scotland Yard was, after all, a part of Whitehall, and even if Metcalf were on my side, I had no faith in his being able to take the case against Cayton-Wood any farther than it had been taken over half a century ago. Some things, I reasoned, didn’t change. The players might be different, but all governments were dinosaurs, resisting evolution.
It was a good thing, I thought, that Metcalf was not my only hope.
Nick stood, stretching. ‘So it’s back to Shepherd’s Bush, then, is it?’
‘No,’ I said. ‘There’s one more stop I have to make.’
The rectory at Elderwel stood silent, its shuttered windows watching as we parked in the shade of the steeple of St Stephen’s Church. Nick didn’t get out of the van, but he watched in his turn as I walked the short distance to let myself in through the lychgate.
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