He shot up in bed, his breathing labored while his eyes adjusted to the muted shadows. The dream hovered, refusing to be banished. He wasn’t on his cot. He was in a room, a room that carried the lingering fragrance of a woman. A woman. A woman curled on her side, shivering as though she were packed in snow.
Reality crashed in on him and he leaned nearer to her. “Ashton?”
Her breathing came in short gasps, followed by a hacking cough. He touched her shoulder. Her nightgown was drenched, and beneath it he felt the heat of fever. “Ashton, tell me what to do.”
“Leave. I … can … tend to my needs.”
“The bloody hell you can.” He tossed aside the covers, scrambled out of bed, and hurried to her side. He reached for the buttons on her nightgown. Her fingers closed over his.
“No, please leave.”
“It’s bloody stuffy in here. Who closed the window?”
“I did. I woke up and you were asleep, so I closed it. It’s a rule. Mother’s rule. Night air is unhealthy.”
A thousand curses rumbled through his mind. “You need fresh air, but I can’t allow it in until you are dry. I’m going to remove your nightgown.”
“It’s improper.”
“I’m your husband,” he reminded her as he lost all patience and tore the gown in two. She screeched, frantically trying to hide what he’d just revealed, but had no time to notice. He grabbed the top blanket and began to gather the sweat from her body.
“Please, I can dry myself,” she pleaded, her voice small and frightened.
“I can do it more quickly and efficiently. As for your modesty, I shall return it to you once you are no longer shivering.”
He grabbed another blanket and wrapped it around her. Leaving her in the bed, he stumbled through the darkness, cursing when his shin hit the object he was seeking. He shoved the rocking chair to the window, tore down the draperies and flung open the window.
He crossed the room, and as gently as he could, he lifted Ashton into his arms. “You need fresh air.”
“But Mother warned me—”
“I don’t give a bloody damn about your mother’s warnings. If I’m on the verge of suffocating in this room, how can you not be?”
He carried her to the rocker, dropped into it, and cradled her against his body. “You’re fevered.”
“It’ll pass.”
“Has this happened before?” he asked, wishing that his voice didn’t sound like that of a panicked schoolboy. He rubbed her back and arms briskly, trying to work up a measure of heat to stop her shivering. How could she shiver when she was fevered?
“Yes,” she finally answered, her teeth clicking together.
“Does David know?”
“No, and please don’t tell him.” With a violent shudder, she collapsed against him, nestling her head within the crook of his shoulder. “It always passes.”
Gingerly, he felt her forehead, grateful for the coolness that greeted his touch. She no longer shivered or coughed. All that remained were the shallow breaths that barely caused her chest to rise and fall.
He took a deep shuddering breath and relaxed against the chair, gently rocking while he held her more snuggly against him. The cool night air seeped into the room. It did not yet hold the heaviness of summer, but it was crisp and clean. Perhaps he was wrong and it would do more harm than good, but for right now, he was content with her stillness. He released a slight chuckle.
“What’s so funny?” she asked quietly.
“I have done many things with many women, but I have never done this.” Although his mind began to weave possibilities. If he were to turn her so she faced him, her legs straddling his thighs … he closed his eyes and fought back the images. The last thing his innocent bride needed was to feel against her thigh the direction of his thoughts. “Why have you not told David of these episodes?”
She sighed. “Because he would hire a nurse to sleep in the room with me, and the last of my independence would be forfeited. I’ve had so little in my life that I treasure the smallest liberties, and sleeping alone is the greatest of those at the moment.”
He opened his eyes and met her gaze. “You should have told me the truth about why you wanted me to leave. I had no desire to relieve you of your independence.”
“I’m glad you stayed. I didn’t feel like a prisoner even though you held me in arms that seemed as strong as iron. When I first awoke, I watched you sleep. You do it with such ease, as though you have no demons to haunt you.”
He smiled sardonically. “It is only in sleep that the demons do not torment me, so I always welcome it.”
He watched as she studied his face and the furrow between her brow deepened. “What if they are wrong about consumption?”
“In what way?”
“They say it is a disease of the family. Yet neither my parents nor David has ever showed signs of it.”
“Surely the physicians know its cause.”
“They don’t know everything.”
Pain sliced through his heart, for she could not have spoken truer words. They had not known how to stop the disease that took Clarisse. “What is your theory on its cause?”
She averted her gaze. “It lives inside my lungs. It seems to me that it could easily escape with each breath I release, and if someone were close enough to take my breath into their bodies—”
She shoved against him. “You shouldn’t hold me so close.”
Pulling her back, he banded his arms around her. “It’s a bit late to worry about that now, don’t you think? Especially after I kissed you.”
She swiveled her head. “I didn’t breathe when you kissed me.”
“It was that good, was it?”
She smiled timidly. “You arrogant man. You know it was heavenly.”
He combed his fingers through the strands of hair that had loosed from her braid. “Are you in pain?”
“No, I hear that frightening aspect comes later, near the end.”
“Why did the physician predict you would die this winter?”
“Because winter months are the hardest on me. Summer comes and I feel better, but last winter he truly didn’t expect me to survive, so he says this year will be my last.” She cradled his cheek. “What if I have given you this disease?”
“I can think of better wedding gifts.”
She hit his shoulder. “Do not make light of my fears.”
Cradling her face, he studied the lines that had not been shaped by happiness. Her parents had obviously protected her to the extremes and now her brother was determined to carry on in their stead. “Ashton, I learned long ago that there is much in life I cannot control. Worry does not alter them.”
“But you could die because of my stupid dream. It was a child’s wish, not a woman’s. I’ll worry constantly—”
“You are not to worry about me at all. I do not fear death.” He trailed his thumb across her cheek. “Do you?”
“I don’t fear the dying or even what awaits me beyond. I think I simply regret all that death will deny me.” She smiled softly. “Although it did give me you, didn’t it?”
His stomach clenched at the warmth in her eyes. “Only temporarily, Ashton. Until the stagecoach arrives tomorrow.”
He hated watching the light dim in her eyes, but by God, he had played his role of groom and more.
She curled her head into the nook of his shoulder until her face became lost in the shadows. “Thank you, Christian, for traveling with me into the night.”
His throat tightening, he held her closer and continued to rock her until she fell asleep, a woman who would die with a child’s innocence and his family’s name carved on her headstone for eternity.
He could not decide if it would be a tribute to dreams or a mockery of them.
The blanket slipped from her bare shoulder and a moonbeam captured the perfection of her small breast. Her smooth pink nipple fascinated him. Usually by the time he had removed a woman’s clothes, passion had hardened it into
a little bud. The temptation to run his tongue over it and feel the bud form in his mouth was almost more than he could bear.
The breeze gently brushed over them, and he watched her nipple pucker. Yet the temptation remained. What had he given her this day? Nothing really.
An opportunity to dress up and play a part. A few dances. A kiss. A tuck into bed. The opportunity to sleep within his arms.
And now he rocked her as though she were a child. Gingerly, he brought the blanket back over her shoulder and tucked it securely into place until her tempting flesh was hidden from his sight. Unfortunately, he could not erase the image of it from his memory.
*
The knock sounded at precisely eight o’clock . Kit chuckled as he slipped the last button of Ashton’s dress through its loop. “Your brother is timely.”
Ashton turned slightly and smiled at him. “He doesn’t want to miss the stagecoach.”
She bid David to enter. Kit leaned against the dresser and crossed his arms over his chest, taking pleasure in David’s indignant expression.
“Good morning,” Kit said cheerily.
“There was certainly no reason for you to slip back into the room this morning,” David said.
“There certainly wasn’t.”
David glared at him. “You never left, did you?”
“That answer rests between my wife and myself.”
“Your wife?” David snarled.
Kit held up his hands. “My bride. If she came to this bed a virgin last night, then she is still one.”
“You doubt that she did?”
“Oh, David, calm down,” Ashton scolded. “Can’t you see he enjoys riling you?”
She reached for a ribbon. Kit took it from her and picked up the brush. “Allow me.”
His body ached in every spot imaginable. A rocking chair did not make a fine bed. He never thought he would have preferred his cot to a woman in his arms.
He brought her hair back and tied it in place with the ribbon. Black. He would send her some colorful ribbons and perhaps a letter or two just to keep in touch.
He extended his elbow. “Shall we see about breakfast?”
She slipped her arm through his. “David, stop frowning. You can escort me downstairs as well.” Kit walked beside her to the door.
“How did you sleep last night, David?” Kit asked as she wound her arm around her brother’s.
“Poorly.”
“Glad to hear it.”
“Kit,” Ashton chastised.
“This marriage was his idea, and I rather enjoy the thought that he lost some sleep over it.”
“He didn’t hold a gun to your head,” she scolded as they descended the stairs.
No, she had held something much more lethal—joy in her eyes.
He pulled out her chair and waited until she was settled before taking his chair beside her.
“Land o’goshen,” Mrs. Gurney said as she came out of the kitchen. “I wasn’t expecting to see the newlyweds down here. I had planned to take something up to you later. You gonna be living here now that you got a wife, Marshal?”
Kit cleared his throat and took his napkin. “No, Mrs. Gurney.”
She placed her hands on her hips. “You can’t expect Mrs. Montgomery to sleep on that old cot in the jail.”
“You need not worry yourself, Mrs. Gurney,” David said. “Ashton is going to return to Dallas with me. My wife is expecting a child and has need of her.”
“Her leaving so quick don’t make much sense to me. I reckon the marshal was just stakin’ his claim then.”
“Yes,” David murmured.
Mrs. Gurney returned to the kitchen, and Kit watched as Ashton took her usual small portions of food.
“Actually, Ashton will not be returning to Dallas with you,” Kit said as he scooped up some eggs.
David’s fork clinked as it hit his plate, and Ashton turned to Kit, a deep furrow in her brow.
He smiled warmly even though his mind screamed that he was carelessly adding fuel to the fire of misbegotten favors. “Every bride should have a wedding journey. I’ve decided to take you to Galveston .”
Joy flashed into her eyes, then diminished. “But you have responsibilities here.”
“I have not taken a holiday in three years. The town can live without my presence for a few weeks.”
“I’m not sure this is wise,” David said in a low voice.
“Since you arrived, nothing we have done has been wise, but we have set our course and we must follow it,” Kit said.
“How long would we stay?” Ashton asked.
“As long as you wish.”
“Ashton—” David began.
She met her brother’s gaze. “I want to see the ocean.” She turned her attention back to Kit. “But are you sure? You’ve already done so much.”
“So I shall do a little more. What harm can come of it?”
*
CHAPTER 9
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“Oh, Kit, it’s beautiful.”
His arms crossed over his chest, Kit leaned against the wall near the open door that led onto the balcony where his wife stood in the distant corner, her hands wrapped around the railing as she stared out to sea. He wondered how many women had done the same, waiting for husbands to return from their ocean mistress.
He and Ashton had traveled by stagecoach to Galveston , a journey of several days. As each night approached, they had stayed in a different inn along the route. Ashton had not slept well, and he was determined that she would do so while they were here. Sharing accommodations with people seemed to make her uncomfortable.
Upon their arrival in Galveston this afternoon, he’d secured her a room at a hotel. While she’d napped, he’d gone in search of something more pleasing. Fortunately, he’d managed to locate and secure this small cottage on an isolated part of the island. Sand dunes hid it from sight on one side while the bay circled it on the other.
“It looks like the ocean goes on forever,” Ashton said.
“In a way it does, although from time to time, it runs into land masses: islands, England , Europe , Africa .”
She glanced over her shoulder, her eyes filled with delight. “I know the layout of the world.” She looked back at the water. “I hadn’t expected the ocean to roar so loudly, and the keening of the wind makes it seem as though it’s in mourning.”
“No doubt it weeps for all the sailors lost at sea.”
She spun around. “Do you really think so?”
He shrugged. “In truth, I doubt the wind cares that in its anger it has sent many a man to his death.”
“Were you frightened when you traveled here on the ship?”
“Only the day we encountered the sea monster.”
She laughed. “There are no sea monsters.” She lowered her lashes and peered at him. “Are there?”
Smiling, he crossed the expanse separating them. “No, none that I saw. What I did enjoy was watching the dolphins.” He pointed toward the bay. “That fellow followed me all the way from England .”
She turned back around, and he heard her gasp as a dolphin arched gracefully out of the water before diving below the surface. Kit studied the nape of her neck, incredibly tempted to place a kiss there.
“He’s beautiful. How do you know it’s the same one?” she asked.
“I don’t.”
She twisted around, her mouth close enough to his that he could close the gap in less than a heartbeat. The joy in her eyes was incredible to behold. His body was reacting to her nearness with a ferocity that made him doubt his wisdom in giving his bride a wedding trip.
“Why are you making fun of me?” she asked.
Because if he didn’t, he might take her in his arms and kiss her until they both lost their senses. There was something about the salt air, the freshness, the thundering of an ocean that renewed life. He stepped back until he could no longer smell her fragrance. “I’m not making fun of you, sweetling, but the rake within me cannot resist
an opportunity to tease.”
She narrowed her eyes. “How long did you say we’d stay here?”
“As long as you wish.”
“What about the people of Fortune and your duty to them?”
He grinned. “You will grow tired of me long before they realize I’ve gone.”
She shook her finger at him. “Don’t be so sure, Christian Montgomery . I might grow used to your teasing, and then what?”
And then what, indeed? He dared not contemplate that inevitability or the fact that he might grow more accustomed to her presence. He was finding it difficult enough to remember a time when she wasn’t beside him offering smiles and pleasant conversation. As an added bonus, she neither spit tobacco nor cursed.
She returned her gaze to the sea. “I can’t believe you found this cottage.”
“We had a bit of good fortune. I’ve hired a cook to come each day and prepare our meals, but she won’t be here until tomorrow morning, so I’m afraid tonight you must suffer through my poor attempt at a meal.”
She glanced at him. “I’d offer to cook if I knew how.”
“You don’t cook?”
She shook her head. “I’ve always had everything done for me.”
“Then I suppose it’s a good thing that I’ve hired the cook’s daughter to come and clean the house.”
He saw disappointment in her eyes. “It sounds like we’ll have a house full of people. Who else have you hired?”
“Just those two women, and they’ll only stay until we finish dinner. Then they’ll return to their homes.”
“And we’ll be here alone?”
“Yes.” Although he was beginning to fear that aspect of this wedding trip was not the wisest part of his little plan.
“You’ve thought of everything, haven’t you?” she asked.
“I enjoy managing details and leaving nothing to chance.” He tipped his head toward the sky. “The sun will set soon. Let me prepare our dinner, and we’ll eat it here on the balcony so you may continue to enjoy the ocean.”
*
Ashton sat at the cloth-covered table with the ugliest lantern she’d ever seen decorating its center. With the breeze blowing, she knew candles were not an option. She also knew in her head that Kit had not intended the dinner to be romantic, but her heart had hoped. A foolish desire that blossomed daily within her breast.
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