He had a nice walkaway, that was for sure.
I zoned out for a bit, and didn't realize Xavier had gotten up until they were both in the kitchen. I couldn’t hear what they were saying, but their words seemed a little more heated than normal. A little more bite.
They caught me looking at them. Xavier came over, his smile not quite reaching his eyes. Again. He bumped noses with me. "What's up, sugar? We didn't tire you out enough?"
I let my finger trail over his perfect eyebrow. Why did men always get the perfect eyebrows and eyelashes? "Believe me, I was tired. I just wanted to be alone for a moment, that's all."
He pecked my forehead again. "Take all the moments you need, sweet." Then he slipped away to the main area, where he turned the TV on low and spread out a little. I wondered if he meant to wait up with me or what.
Sometimes I liked to sit by myself and wait a spell. Jay and Xavier kind of let me do that every now and then, because they knew I needed my space. But maybe they didn't realize just how much space I might need.
I didn't know how long I zoned out, but when I looked over, they were speaking low, heads close together. At first I was intrigued, because they looked like they might have kissed. I almost hoped they would. I would have been all about that.
They noticed me noticing them again, and it was almost like they hushed themselves. Like they didn't want me to hear what it was that was going on between them.
"You ready not to be alone?"
I shrugged, ignoring the tension in the air. I also decided to ignore their growing erections. "I dunno. You gonna make it worth my while?"
They both broke out into slow smiles. "What do you mean, lovely?"
I propped my chin in my hand. "I mean clearly you've shared me before, but have you ever...?" I looked meaningfully at them, waggling my finger.
They laughed knowingly. "Every now and again."
"You want a show, lovely?" Jay asked.
Did I?
I nodded slowly, crossing my legs and settling my cup in my lap as if I were about to deliver a really professional interview.
They started with a quick kiss, while they looked at me. And then they started kissing for real.
Oh my.
I didn't think they would actually do it. And like, not joking or anything. But full on lip-locked action. With tongue.
I swallowed hard and squirmed in my chair, nipples puckering up, tingles shivering over my body.
They started for each other's dicks, fingers sliding, fists engulfing. Slowly at first and then gaining momentum.
Yeah, I couldn't handle it anymore. I stood abruptly, teacup rattling in its saucer, robe ripping away from me. I didn't care who did what, but I knew I wanted to be between them.
I approached them and they immediately embraced me, sharing me as they each sucked a nipple. Hands crept up my legs until they got to the juncture of my thighs. They both massaged my wet slit, the competing swirling and plunging inside me thrilling.
I hissed when one of them grazed a nipple with his teeth.
"You want us inside you?"
"Yes," I breathed out. They were still working me with their fingers, pushing me toward new heights.
I didn't know what to think about how comfortable they were with each other's bodies, how familiar they were with each other. But then, of course they were. They were partners long before I met them. I wondered if they ever missed being with each other like that.
I dug my fingers into their hair. "More. Please."
"Not yet, lovely, not yet."
We shifted until I was straddling Xavier's lap. He seemed like he needed a little more love today than Jay. Maybe I was wrong, but he seemed the one seeking validation more.
I bounced on him, the pressure building.
They spun me around so that I sat astride Xavier with my back toward him so he could play with my clit. "Come on, Jay, let's give our sweet a little licking."
Jay licked my nipples, nipped where my skin buzzed to feel him, and I swooned when he pressed his lips against my clit.
Xavier was on a razor's edge because he didn't want to come just yet. He chanted it enough, like his own personal mantra: Not yet, lovely, not yet.
With how gone I was, I felt physically incapable of stopping even if I tried. I was so wet and needy, I didn't know how he was still hard.
He sounded like he was straining at least, so that was something.
He sank his teeth into my shoulder and I immediately came, deep and intense. They shifted me up before the tremors stopped, worked through all my juices and added lube, and settled me so that slowly but surely, X was penetrating between my cheeks. He tugged backward and Jay pushed me into Xavier’s chest as I was adjusting, and then filled my needy sex.
That feeling of being full overwhelmed me.
At one point, Xavier was doing the fucking for both us as I moved up and down Jay's dick. The feeling of both of them inside of me made me unravel faster than I thought. I tried to hold on, to feel the pleasure and bask in it, but I couldn't stop.
"Yes Mia, do it."
"She's so tight."
They spilled inside of me at almost the same time. It was amazing being between them, a sandwich of flesh in their living room.
They took me to the shower and J promised to massage me and give me some aftercare. It turned into another heated session where they took turns fucking me while I was spread eagle on my stomach, since I was too limp and boneless to move.
Jay even offered to tie me down, but Xavier was opposed to it. They changed the subject quickly. I didn't want to touch it, but it seemed like I’d discovered something that Xavier wasn't open to. He didn't seem to like the idea of me being tied down, or bondage in general.
Which was only odd, since he was perfectly fine with sharing me with another man, even another woman, and yet seemed to draw the line with bondage.
I wouldn't judge. I hadn't tried it before, so it wasn't like I was missing out on anything. Besides, they were both so accommodating, it wasn't like they didn't already do everything I asked them to do to me.
I let them tuck me into bed. This time I was tired enough that any anxiety or worry was washed away with their fervent kisses.
I WOKE TO WHISPERS.
I had odd panic attacks, anxious memories that got to me. I didn't know where I was for a moment; I even had a weird lingering flashback that I was back in my tiny, shoebox apartment from before. All the times I felt like frenemies were talking about me behind my back came to me. And then I realized that I had nothing to worry about because I was in a safe place with people who loved me and friends who were supportive.
I even had an awesome roommate.
So why the flashback?
My brain finally registered that the people talking were Jay and Xavier. And they were talking about something personal.
"Still. I can’t believe you let her do something like that and didn't even invite me."
"But it was barely even kink, X. Just a little whipping, barely any pain."
"Jay..." His voice was almost a growl, and not in a good way. It was basically just on this side of threatening. It made me sit up.
They were never mad at each other. Tired, yes, but never mad. Had I upset them? Was I the cause of it?
I got out of bed to track them down.
"I don't want you scaring her off. We almost lost her last month. I will not lose her so soon."
"We won't lose her."
"Then why did you feel the need to hide it?"
"Maybe because I didn't feel like I was hiding anything. That I was just fucking my girlfriend's brains out and then taking her dinner. Besides, I know you slept over at her place the other night. Don't tell me that you didn't do that on purpose."
There was silence.
Did that mean that Xavier really did manipulate things so he could spend the night with me? Not that I minded, of course, but I didn't think it was a big deal. Wasn't that the point of our arrangement? That I would be able
to spend time however I wished with the both of them?
I never expected them to feel...jealous.
I didn't want them to think I was eavesdropping, so I stepped back and opened the bedroom door a little more obviously, closing it loudly behind me. By the time I padded out to the kitchen wearing nothing but my robe, they were all smiles and toast and coffee.
If I hadn't heard anything I would have thought that this was our normal breakfast together, complete with warm touches and smiles.
"What's wrong, lovely?" Xavier brushed my hair back.
“Nothing, sorry. I was staring off into space.”
He searched my face. I tried to push back all the other thoughts and just focus on the present. On his beautiful blue eyes staring back at me. He trailed a finger down my cheek. "You probably need to catch up on sleep."
Snort. "Well, whose fault is that?"
Jay brought over a fresh cup of coffee for me. "I claim responsibility." He kissed me full on my lips. "I need to catch an appointment soon. Shower with me?"
I flushed, and not just from the hot coffee. Man, would I ever get over the fluttery feeling I got when I was around both of them? "Okay," I said, voice thready.
He nipped the tip of my nose before kissing it. "You are of course welcome, X."
"Don't worry, I have more than enough time with Mia. You go on."
I skirted around what seemed like a taunt. For good measure, I kissed Xavier, who slipped a naughty hand in my robe and massaged the tight bud of my clit. Liquid heat rushed to my core until I was moaning against him.
He chuckled. "Now, now, it's Jay's turn. I'll have you once he's gone." He made a show of licking his fingers, which made my stomach clench some more, then slapped my ass as I ran after Jay.
THE SHOWER WAS ALREADY steamy when I popped in.
"I thought you'd gotten lost," he said as he came to me, lifting me up so I slid against his wet body, kissing me messily.
Between Xavier's warm-up and that greeting, I was about ready to pop.
"You're already wet. What were you doing before you came here?"
"I just gave Xavier a little kiss. He had a roaming hand."
"He didn't get you off already, did he?"
"No, he left that for you."
"Good."
He kissed down my body. Questions that had bubbled up died in my throat as he took my nipple in his mouth. His sucked it until the pressure made it like he was sucking my clit at the same time, the pulsing sensations were so strong. I didn't know how he was able to do it, but I shook from being brought to the edge of pleasure.
"Jay, please."
"Not yet, lovely. You will come when I say you can."
Those words along were thrilling, like a jolt to my clit.
I squirmed and he noticed. "Not before I say." Then he took my other nipple, his hands teasing along my hips, my ass, tangling in my hair. He did everything he could to avoid my clit, until everywhere his mouth touched made me throb with anticipation.
I was wild with it, and when I knew I couldn't take it anymore, when I knew I would just rub myself like some junkie needing a fix, he chuckled deep in his throat and dropped to his knees, burying his face between my legs.
I screamed with all my strength. My throat was hoarse but still I cried out in desperate waves. I couldn't help it; the relief was staggering.
I didn't notice when Jay positioned me so that I was bent over and he slammed into my from behind. I didn't notice that Xavier had joined us after all and fucked me from behind too. Not until I was sandwiched between them did I come back inside my body, did my head finally stop spinning.
Xavier held me up from behind, touching between my legs while J looked on. His cock was hardening again. "How do you want her?"
"I want to fuck her one more time."
Xavier kissed me where I liked, right under my ear lobe, making me shiver. "She likes that too, don't you, my lovely?"
"Yes," I breathed. What kind of magical spell did they have over me?
"What do you want?"
"I want her ass like last night, with you fucking her hard now."
"I think that would be awesome."
They both worked me over. Xavier sat down on the shower bench, teasing my nipples, his hard erection pressed against my back. Jay kissed and teased me too, planting one passionate kiss on Xavier before working down my body.
He lingered over my hot, needy sex, working his talented mouth and tongue in my wet slit, over my tight bud. He slipped fingers in my sex, coating them with my juices and then slipping them up between my cheeks.
I came then and there. I didn't know if I was supposed to; I just knew the pleasure consumed me and I wasn't about to apologize for that.
"Yes, lovely, get it." Xavier lifted me up, and with Jay's help, he guided my center over Xavier's now fully erect cock. I lowered, rocking myself onto him until he was well lubricated.
And then, from on thrust to the next, he sank himself between my cheeks, pushing into me with even pressure so that there was no pain as I adjusted to his size.
When I was a bundle of nerves squirming on top of him, J spread my legs wide and plunged into me. He was without mercy.
As much as Xavier was gentle and held me still on top of his hard cock, Jay slammed into me with mindless abandon. He was like a piston let loose to drive into me with full force.
Even Xavier was affected. "Dammit, Jay, what the fuck," he ground out between his gritted teeth.
And then the heat and friction that Jay was coming at me with—like he would start a literal fire rubbing two hard woods together—ignited within me and I burst from an orgasm so deep it was endless.
Xavier crushed me with his grip. Jay roared above me. And I came again as they exploded.
CHAPTER 6
"OKAY, BUT REALLY, CAN I punch you in the face now?" Kris signaled for more margaritas.
"Now, now, there will be no punching in faces." Amy said. "What she means is that she is happy for you, truly. Her Vitamin O deficiency is making her a little cuckoo, if you know what I mean."
Every one of us knew what she meant. Kris was in a dry spell, like uber dry, which is why I tried to downplay my playtime with Jay and Xavier from her. Which only served to annoy her further.
"I don't need you to tiptoe around me, okay?" Kris said. "Whatever I’m feeling, know that I'm truly ridiculously happy for you."
"If you ask me, I think that X is feeling a little left out," Amy said.
I flailed my hands. "How is he feeling left out? He's always in."
"Well, maybe that's the point. He was always in. Like even before you three became three, he was there. He was your gym buddy, shower buddy...he was the one who was instrumental in bringing all of you together! Like when you were all skittish—" she waved her fingers at me "—he still figured out a way to work it so that he eventually got you all together that night at Jay's spa."
"Oh! And see what happened. Jay invited you to shower sex. Hello, shower sex has always been X's thing," Trin pointed out.
Oh. My.
As my friends talked over their theories about what could be going through Xavier’s and Jay's minds, I realized something that should have been so obvious.
Yes, we were in a kind of polyamorous situation here, but people were still people, and there were still feelings involved, feelings that needed to be acknowledged and validated.
Sitting here and listening to friends talking about it, it occurred to me that either Xavier or Jay always came to me to talk about my feelings to make sure I didn't get offended or get scared away. Xavier most especially.
Every single time.
Not once had I checked on them in any way.
I groaned, making my friends stop in their conversation and look at me. "You guys, I'm an idiot!" I waved away their pleas to the contrary, happy that I had really awesome and supportive friends.
"I have never, not once, gone after either of them. It's always been them coming to me and making sure I was o
kay and not scared or freaked out. Whenever I was stressed, I would hide in my work and push them away. Not once have I really checked in with them, especially not Xavier. Like, of course he'd be feeling weird. I haven't been very open with my feelings. Only sex. I mean, I don't even know what this relationship is supposed to be."
"Well, I don't think they're expecting like a marriage ceremony or anything, if that's what you're feeling," Trin said.
"No, I know it's nothing that major, but I mean...I can't believe that I didn't even think to take their feelings into account, you know?"
"If that's what you're feeling, then totally let them know," Kris said. I nodded.
"Are you feeling better now?" Amy added.
"Yes, so let's talk about Kris's lack of love life."
"Dammit, you bitches!"
We finished our chips and drinks and I laughed the dinner away, grateful I had friends who accepted me.
CHAPTER 7
More emoji: the eggplant, the peach, some hearts....I grinned.
Then he sent a gif. I stared at the image, doing a decent impersonation of the emoji with the big, shocked eyes. I always wondered where he found stuff like that. Mine were always so...tame.
Anyway.
Xavier really didn't like coffee. He drank it but it wasn’t like water or life to him like it was for me. So I bought him a power juice that had more protein and grass than juice. I’d had one before. Once. Not bad, but definitely not what I would consider a go-to refreshing beverage.
I met him in his office.
X was in his warm-ups, but his broad chest and muscles still filled out his top. I tried not to get distracted. He kissed me and nuzzled my cheek. "I love how you look at me."
That was a first time either of them had commented on how I looked at them. "And how’s that?"
"You make me feel hot and superhero-like."
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