by Ira B. Nadel
97 “We have among us adepts”: LC, “We are getting to know the police better,” 1965 [2–3], LCA.
98 “and if it gets by”: LC to JMcCL, 1 March 1965, McM.
99 “written the Bahgavad Gita”: LC to JMcCL, 20 March 1965, UT.
100 “BEAUTIFUL LOSERS”: LC, UT.
101 “You have been”: BL 149.
102 “a man is writing this”: BL 102.
103 “how to treat”: LC to MMcN, 27 April 1965, c.
104 “As far as the prologue”: LC to CS, 10 July 1965, LCA.
105 “my fast has been”: LC, prose fragment, 1966? UT.
106 “Canada with the Maple Leaf”: anon., 30 December 1965, McM.
107 “honest-to-God”: Leslie Fiedler, 17 January 1966, UT.
108 “It astounds and baffles”: JMcCL, 15 June 1965, McM.
109 “for a brief period”: LC to JMcCL,? August 1965, McM.
110 “Fiend of the Kaballa!”: LC to JMcCL,? August 1965, McM.
111 “the book I hold”: LC to JMcCL,? August, 1965, McM.
112 “exhibitionism I argued off”: LC to JMcCL,? August 1965, McM.
113 “Canadian critical opinion”: LC to JMcCL,? August 1965, McM.
114 “if you can get”: LC to JMcCL,? August, 1965, McM.
115 “Driven by loneliness and despair”: LC, prose fragment, 1965, UT.
116 “I lost my only carbon”: LC to MMcN, 4 August 1965, c.
117 “Live forever”: telegram to LC, 29 March 1966, UT.
118 “a fantasy wrapped”: Robert Fulford, “Leonard Cohen’s Nightmare Novel,” Toronto Star (26 April 1966) 27.
119 “the story concerns”: Miriam Waddington, “Bankrupt Ideas and Chaotic Style,” Globe Magazine (30 April 1966) 17.
120 “i give the book of Cohens”: bill bissett, “!!!!,” Alphabet 13 (June 1967) 94.
121 “it’s the best thing”: LC in S. Lumsden, Weekend Magazine (12 September 1970) 24.
122 “most of the people”: JMcCL to George Renison, 21 April 1966, McM.
123 “because you”: JMcCL to LC, 9 May 1966, McM.
124 “calling it”: JMCCL, to LC, 9 May 1966, MCM.
125 “It is pleasant to think”: Robert Fulford, “Leonard Cohen, the TV Star,” Toronto Star (28 July 1966) 31.
126 “I thought it was time”: Fulford, Toronto Star (28 July 1966) 31.
127 “is no substitute”: “These notebooks,” ph 61.
128 “So you’re the kind”: “So you’re the kind of,” ph 11.
129 “How can I use the gull’s”: “The stars turn,” ph 40.
Chapter 7
1 “bounded out of the room”: S. Djwa, The Politics of the Imagination, A Life of F.R. Scott 290.
2 “Do you know”: Sid Katz 12/24/95.
3 “In hindsight”: LC in William Ruhlmann, “The Stranger Music of Leonard Cohen,” Goldmine 19 (19 February 1993) 13.
4 “I felt very much”: LC in Williams, Crawdaddy (March 1975) 55.
5 “Once I hit”: LC, Goldmine 13.
6 “rich in character”: LC 5/11/94.
7 “iron regard”: LC 5/11/94.
8 “on a lot of involuntary trips”: LC, “Idiot’s Delight,” 6/13/93.
9 “Once upon a time”: LC concert tape, Amsterdam, 30 October 1980.
10 “Are you looking for someone?”: LC, Oslo Norway, 2/13/88.
11 “She had this deep”: LC, “Idiot’s Delight,” 6/13/93.
12 “I finally got it right”: LC, “Idiot’s Delight,” 6/13/93.
13 “KILL COOL”: LC in Mojo (September 1994) 58.
14 “professionaly tortured”: vf 3/2/95.
15 “I am so impatient”: LC, Journal (March 1967) LCA.
16 “Everything serves his work”: Yafa Lerner 12/17/94
17 “the perfect Aryan ice queen”: LC in Scott Cohen, “Leonard Cohen,” Yakety Yak (NY: Simon and Schuster, 1994) 164.
18 “I saw this girl”: LC, October 1974, in D. Thompson, Beyond the Velvet Underground (London: Omnibus, 1989) 29.
19 “macabre face”: David Antrim in 1966 in Thompson, Beyond 30.
20 “the screeching ugliness”: Paul Morrissey in Thompson, Beyond 31.
21 “secret marriage”: Richard Goldstein in Thompson, Beyond 17.
22 “in those days”: LC in Thompson, Beyond 29.
23 “I was lighting candles”: LC, Mojo (September 1994) 58.
24 “Terrible day”: LC, Journal, 15 March 1967, LCA.
25 “poet maudit ca. 1890”: LC, Journal, 15 March 1967, LCA.
26 “It’s a pity if”: LC, prose fragment, UT [1].
27 “the creator of the Black Photograph”: LC, prose fragment, UT [1].
28 “My work among other things”: LC, prose fragment, UT [2].
29 “perplexed by her conversation”: LC, “Comme un Guerrier,” Throat Culture 61.
30 “Completely disregarded”: LC in Robin Pike, “September 15th 1974” Zig Zag, The Rock Magazine 5 (October 1974) 48.
31 “I put my hand on”: Mojo (September 1994) 59.
32 “Once in my room”: LC in Thompson 29.
33 “She said she loved”: LC in Goldmine 13.
34 “I’m really in the middle”: LC in “The John Hammond Years,” CBC Radio, October 1986.
35 “Roman Catholicism, Buddhism, L.S.D.”: LC in Gaby Goliger, “Leonard Cohen,” Echo 1 (16 December 1966) 13.
36 “just speak from the center”: David Kaufman, one of the three visiting students, reporting Cohen’s statement 1/12/96.
37 “You got it, Leonard”: LC in “The John Hammond Years,” CBC.
38 “hypnotic effect”: John Hammond, “The John Hammond Years,” CBC.
39 “Leonard set”: John Hammond, “The John Hammond Years,” CBC.
40 “Leonard, we know”: Walter Yetnikoff in Goldmine 20
41 “a compassionate lapse”: LC, “The John Hammond Years,” CBC.
42 “Leonard always needed”: John Hammond, “The John Hammond Years,” CBC.
43 “pillows of sound”: John Hammond in Goldmine 14.
44 “linear, should be smooth”: LC in Goldmine 15.
45 “The songs and arrangements”: LC, SLC.
46 “unguessable”: Buffy Sainte-Marie, “Leonard Cohen, His Songs,” Sing Out 17 (1967) 16.
47 “It’s like losing”: Sainte-Marie, Sing Out 16.
48 “lost in New York City”: LC, “Notes,” BLC.
49 “What do you think?”: LC 11/14/94.
50 “I sort of felt”: LC in Jack Hafferkamp, “Ladies and Gents, Leonard Cohen,” Rolling Stone (1972) rpt. in Songs of Love and Hate (New York: Amsco Publishing, 1972) [2].
51 “the stories of the street”: “Stories of the Street,” SLC.
52 “It was the only time”: LC, Mojo (September 1994) 59.
53 “our most sophisticated singer”: LC in Rowland, Musician (1988) 98. Dylan as Cohen: Yakety Yak 13.
54 “Well, I think”: LC in Adrienne Clarkson, “Leonard Cohen, A Monster of Love,” Take This Waltz 25.
55 “pace runners”: Joni Mitchell 8/26/94.
56 “the extension of our friendship”: LC 11/14/94.
57 “They showed me the film”: LC, Yakety Yak 165.
58 “James Joyce is not dead”: “Cohen Overwhelms Listeners With Prose, Poetry, and Song,” Introspectrum, Buffalo State University (11 April 1967) [1].
59 “I cannot sing unless”: Sid Katz 12/24/95.
60 “guitar playing”: Sid Katz 12/24/95.
61 “None of you guys”: Marty Machat, Goldmine 11.
62 “strictly an underground celebrity”: William Kloman, “I’ve Been on the Outlaw Scene Since 15,” NYT(28 January 1968) D21.
63 “on the verge of”: NYT (28 January 1968) D21.
64 “When I see a woman”: NYT (28 January 1968) D21.
65 “I wish the women”: NYT (28 January 1968) D21.
66 “have a pathological tone”: NYT (28 January 1968) D22.
67 “rediscover the cr
uxcifixion”: NYT (28 January 1968) D22.
68 “on the alienation scale”: Donal Henahan, “Alienated Young Man Creates Some Sad Music,” NYT (28 January 1968) II: 21. “Pity”: Maclean’s (February 1968) 72.
69 “Cohen suffers”: Richard Goldstein, “Beautiful Creep,” Village Voice (27 December 1967) 18.
70 “the environment”: LC in Alastair Pirrie, “Cohen Regrets,” New Musical Express (10 March 10973) 66.
71 “I never married”: LC, Musician 98.
72 “The thing died very quickly”: LC, Musician 98.
73 “What is Scientology?”: JM 8/26/94.
74 “Did you ever go clear?”: “Famous Blue Raincoat,” SLH.
75 “My new laws”: “Why I Happen to be Free,” PH 60.
Chapter 8
1 “had catlike characters”: Lailios to author 9/12/94.
2 “God, when I see”: LC in Barbara Amiel, “Leonard Cohen says that to All the Girls,” Maclean’s (18 September 1978) 58.
3 “I fear we are to be”: LC 5/11/94.
4 “Leonard, don’t say”: LC 5/11/94.
5 “to make us laugh”: he, People 13 (14 January 1980) 57.
6 “Diamonds in the Mine”: SLH
7 “I moved there”: LC, “Comme un Guerrier,” Throat Culture 62.
8 “As long as someone”: Suzanne Elrod, People (14 January 1980) 57.
9 “I leave to several”: LC, “The Pro,” Nashville Notebook of 1969, LCA; also see “The Pro,” DLM 187.
10 “What do you want?”: Bob Johnston 10/29/94.
11 “a musical bodyguard”: Charlie Daniels 11/3/94.
12 “to make his voice”: BJ 10/29/94.
13 “Leonard has always had”: BJ 10/29/94.
14 “The voice is uncertain”: LC, “Notes,” BLC.
15 “created an atmosphere”: LC, Goldmine 16.
16 “read the Zohar”: LC, Journal [1969], LCA.
17 “Sometimes I need you naked”: “You Know Who I Am,” SFR.
18 “seems to return me”: LC, “Notes,” BLC.
19 “Like a bird”: “Like a Bird on the Wire,” SFR.
20 “I would stare out”: LC in Paul Zollo, “Leonard Cohen, Inside the Tower of Song,” SongTalk 3; 2 (1993): 31.
21 “three guys”: SongTalk 3: 2: 31.
22 “Who are you?”: LC in Paul Williams Crawdaddy (March 1975) 52.
23 “Forget everything I said”: Crawdaddy 52.
24 “not only serious”: Vincent Canby, “McCabe and Mrs. Miller,” NYT (25 June 1971) 17.
25 “delivered sotto voce”: John Simon, “An Appalling Plague has been Loosed on Our Films,” NYT (19 September 1971) 11: 13.
26 “like Villon with frostbite”: Time (25 January 1993) 57.
27 “Show me”: Steve Sanfield, “The Inner Passage,” Zen and Hasidism, ed. Harold Heifetz (Wheaton, Ill.” The Theosophical Publishing House, 1978) 223.
28 “Nice song”: LC in Sanfield, Zen and Hasidism 233.
29 “What makes Leonard Cohen”: Columbia Records advertisement 1969.
30 “May I respectfully request”: Vancouver Province (7 May 1969) 14.
31 “would not conform to”: Vancouver Province (7 May 1969) 14. Also see “Quebec Writers Take Literary Lion’s Share,” Montreal Star (22 April 1969) 22.
32 “C’mere. I want to talk”: Mordecai Richler in Alan Twigg, “The Gospel According to Leonard Cohen,” Georgia Straight 12 (10–17 November 1978) 6; Sheldon Tietlbaum, “Leonard Cohen, Pain Free,” Los Angeles Times Magazine (5 April 1992) 22.
33 “get behind Canada then”: LC 12/29/94.
34 “I have no idea”: JMcCL 7/23/94.
35 “MARITA”: SP 239.
36 “Go your own way”: Hugh Whitney Morrison, at one time married to Marita La Fleche, 11/14/93.
37 “a modern housewife’s lament”: NYT (29 September 1968) 21.
38 “Some were songs first”: K. Murphy and G. Gross, “Leonard Cohen,” NYT (13 April 1909) VI: 36.
39 “When poetry strays”: Ezra Pound quoted by LC in H. Kubernik and J. Pierce, “Cohen’s New Skin,” Melody Maker (1 March 1975) 41.
40 “Leonard Cohen: the poet as hero”: Saturday Night (June 1969).
41 “He acts taller”: Jack Batten, “The Poet as Hero Pt. 1” SN (1969) 24.
42 “a betrayal of mankind”: “Comme un Guerrier,” Throat Culture 62.
43 “I swore by the sunlight”: ES 11.
44 “Seig Heil!”: LC 2/17/94.
45 “captivating self abasement”: Canadian Press wire story, 13 May 1970.
46 “Word gets around”: Tony Palmer, “A Modern Troubadour,” Observer (7 June) 1970.
47 “Mr. Cohen sings”: Michael Jahn, “Cohen and ‘Army’ Sing in Forest Hills,” NYT (27 July 1970) 18.
48 “If you don’t like”: LC 2/17/94.
49 “did the damndest thing”: Kris Kristofferson, Take This Waltz 104.
50 “Leonard Cohen is an old”: LC, “Comme un Guerrier,” Throat Culture 62.
51 “Cohen lays on”: Farr in Jack Batten, “Cohen, the Genuine Article,” Globe and Mail (5 December 1970) 33.
52 “I decided I”: LC in Lumsden, Weekend Magazine (12 September 1970) 25.
53 “The book has been”: LC in Lumsden, Weekend Magazine (12 September 1970) 25.
54 “a symbol of their own”: Dorman 233–34.
55 “absolutely everything”: LC, “Comme un Guerrier,” Throat Culture 62.
56 “I began to believe”: LC, “Comme un Guerrier,” Throat Culture 62.
57 “I fell in love with”: FR [91].
58 “familiar poison, dependence and love”: LC, “Diary, Antigua, August 1973,” LCA [1].
59 “Sometimes I feel”: LC in Lumsden, Weekend Magazine (12 September 1970) 24.
60 “Suffering has led me”: LC in Lumsden, Weekend Magazine (12 September 1970) 25.
61 “You’ve got to recreate”: LC in Lumsden, Weekend Magazine (12 September 1970) 25.
Chapter 9
1 “I had, as the model”: LC, Goldmine 17.
2 “thought I looked like”: LC, “Notes,” BLC.
3 “But the skylight is like skin”: “Last Year’s Man,” SLH.
4 “with each”: LC in H. Kibernick, “Cohen through the years,” Melody Maker (6 March 1975) 13.
5 “the same old droning work”: LC in Pirrie, “Cohen Regrets,” New Music Express (10 March 1973) 66.
6 “European blues”: LC in H. Kubernik and J. Pierce, “Cohen’s New Skin,” Melody Maker (1 March 1975) 41.
7 “the reason I need girls”: LC in Paul Saltzman, “Famous Last Words from Leonard Cohen,” Maclean’s 85 (June 1972) 80.
8 “I’m just reeling”: LC in Saltzman 78.
9 “Oh boy, we get to do”: LC quoted by BJ 10/29/94.
10 “Once I was walking”: LC in Burr Snider, “Leonard Cohen, Zooey Glass in Europe,” Leonard Cohen, The Artist and His Critics, ed. Michael Gnarowski (Toronto: McGraw-Hill Ryerson, 1976) 61–62.
11 “One got the feeling”: Roy Hollingworth, “Leonard Cohen,” Melody Maker (1 April 1972) 14.
12 “I have no more songs”: LC in Hollingworth 14.
13 “Should we not try some?”: LC 10/24/95.
14 “Like the Eucharist”: LC 10/24/95.
15 “Is this All?”: LC 10/24/95.
16 “There are nights”: LC in Dorman 259.
17 “Trying to maintain”: LC in Dorman 242.
18 “life was art and God was music”: Jennifer Warnes 5/13/94.
19 “to squeezing memory and vocabulary”: FR 86–87.
20 “pious moods”: FR 87; originally a journal entry dated 26 July 1972, LCA.
21 “You ask me how I write”: FR 87.
22 “It took me eighty poems”: Saltzman 79.
23 “because I have the feeling”: Saltzman 80.
24 “what alone matters”: IL, inscription in LC’s copy of ES dated 4 December 1972.
25 “Partner in Spirit”: LC, cancelled dedication
, DLM, LCA.
26 “the Lion of our Youth”: LC, cancelled dedication, DLM, LCA.
27 “To the late Robert Hershorn”: “Dedication,” RS.
28 “I can’t seem to bring”: LC, “Robert Appears Again,” Writing Away, The PEN Canada Travel Anthology, ed. Constance Rooke (Toronto: McClelland & Stewart, 1994) 54.
29 “It was a tricky time”: LC 5/12/94.
30 “It began”: LC in Paul King, “Love, Zen and The Search for Self,” Vancouver Sun (30 June 1983) L6.
31 “I can’t get”: LC 5/10/94.
32 “Bring friend”: LC 5/10/94.
33 “It’s going to hurt”: LC 5/10/94.
34 “the revenge of World War II”: LC 5/10/94.
35 “Even as we lie here”: “O darling,” ES in.
36 “I dreamed about this”: LC 5/11/94.
37 “How do you realize”: LC 5/11/94.
38 “Where are the poems”: “I’d like to read,” ES 14.
39 “In many ways”: LC Goldmine 18.
40 “welcome to this book”: “How we loved you,” ES 115–16.
41 “Come down to my room”: “Come down,” ES 84.
42 “Why don’t you”: “You are almost always,” ES 82.
43 “the 15-year-old”: “the fifteen-year-old,” ES 97.
44 “I am no longer”: “I am no longer,” ES 24.
45 “write with compassion”: “The silly girl,” ES 39.
46 “Each man”: “Each man,” ES 122.
47 “I have no talent left:” “I have no talent,” ES 112.
48 “It was like dipping”: LC in Roy MacSkimming, “‘New’ Leonard Cohen opens up his thoughts,” Toronto Star (22 January 1975) E16.
49 “I’m thirty-eight years”: LC, autobiographical fragment (1973) LCA.
50 “While she suffers”: FR 88.
51 “Listening to gypsy violins”: FR 88.
52 “fighting over scraps”: FR 89.
53 “the mad mystic hammering”: Daphne Richardson, “Notes,” LS.
54 “In the House of Honesty”: “Seems So Long Ago, Nancy,” LS
55 “I’m too old”: LC in Twigg, Georgia Straight 24.
56 “I just cannot stand”: LC to Roy Hollingworth in Melody Maker (14 February 1973) reported in “Leonard Cohen Quits his Musical Interests Will Stick to Writing,” Toronto Star (15 February 1973) 32.
57 “no longer … to be tangled up”: LC in Toronto Star (15 Feb 1973) 32.
58 “I never did retire”: LC in “Leonard Cohen: A Sad Poet Gets Happy,” Toronto Star (30 June 1973) 34.