Breathless
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Sonny rested her forehead against Lara, “Thank God,” she sighed.
“I don’t ever want to beg you to fight for me again,” Lara warned. “It should come naturally to you.”
“Got it.”
“Now take me to bed and do filthy things to me,” Lara said dropping her voice an octave. “Remember, I’m still angry with you – but I really need you right now.”
There is always more intensity in make-up sex.
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Sonny was done with this round in Sweden ten days later. She had a firm offer from the newly launched business. They wanted her to head the operations and had offered her a five percent stake in the business plus a hefty salary. It was a fantastic offer.
“You must be amazing at your work,” Lara said proudly, tracing Sonny’s hairline with soft fingers. They were both finally back in Kyse. Lara had two weeks before filming started. The first four months were going to be in Canada.
She’d also heard from Punk that Nasir, the director and writers were adamant that they wouldn’t make Jasma and Panna Dai without her. They were prepared to shelve the movies. So that looked like it was going to work out too.
She and Sonny were more aligned, more entwined than ever before. Their work and distance were still creating challenges, but they were both determined to not succumb to it. Long distance relationship sucked, but they refused to let the distance and busyness get better of them. It was difficult and they had to remain constantly mindful about not letting out their frustration with the circumstance on the other – though they whined about missing each other more and more. They knew they had to find a better solution sooner than later.
“Babe, if I accept this offer, I will have to be in Sweden for five years,” Sonny said flatly.
“What?!”
“Yes. You’ll be all around the world filming, attending festivals and I won’t be able to really fly out to wherever you are because a start-up requires 24x7 attention. I’ll probably be working most weekends.”
“Oh!” Lara said in a tiny voice. “But we can find a way, right? We will, won’t we?”
“We’ll probably not see each other for months on end,” Sonny stated.
“You know even these weeks are really hard on me,” Lara confessed, in a small voice.
“They’re really hard for me too,” Sonny admitted.
“Sonny, what are we going to do?” Lara asked, her lower lip trembling.
“I don’t know,” Sonny said wearily.
“Is this the end for us? Or a long intermission – of five years?” a tear leaked down Lara’s cheek.
Sonny shook her head. “No,” she said, her voice lacking confidence.
“When do you have to get back to them about this?”
“Four days.”
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a to z
Subdued silences marked the next two days. They watched movies, did yoga, walked on the beach but a sense of dread, a sense of foreboding hung over them. There was a sense of an ending. An ending of something that neither of them were willing to let go.
When they made love, it was with desperation. Clinging on to each other with a vigour born of anxiety.
On the third day, they were sitting in the garden at pqrst in the evening. In exactly the same spot that they had sat on the day that they met. Holding – clutching – hands.
“I’ve decided not to take the offer,” Sonny stated.
Joy sparked lightning fast in Lara’s eyes. “But it’s a great project,” she pointed out the obvious.
“You know, Lara, I’d retired. Mentally at least. I was only taking on projects because they were interesting and I enjoyed them. A plus was also that they got in good money, but that wasn’t the driving reason for me,” Sonny paused. She looked at Lara thoughtfully. “You remember asking me whether I was happy?”
“You’d said you’re content.”
“I’d also said that at some point in life I figured out that I wasn’t going to get the one thing that I needed to be truly happy.”
“I remember.”
“You never asked me what that one thing was.”
“Yeah, I never did,” Lara said wondering why she never thought of asking. It was just that they were both flowing with their feelings. With the newness of their relationship. With the deepening of their feelings. With the promise to togetherness. She also remembered Sonny telling her, ‘You’ve moved me from ‘content’ to ‘happy’…for the first time in my life, I’m happy’. “But I know at some point you told me that I’d moved you from being merely content to being happy.”
“Exactly! Babe, all I wanted in life was love. I wanted to be allowed to love with completeness and passion and I wanted to be loved. You are that for me. You are my happy. I don’t need anything else.”
“This project…”
“Is tempting but not worth it to me. What am I going to achieve at the end of it? More money? I have enough. I want you…I want to be with you, jaan. You are everything to me.”
Lara couldn’t help herself. She got up and curled into Sonny’s lap. “But I’m going to be travelling all around the world. It will be a nomadic life. There won’t be a home for almost three to four years.” Lara had to air these concerns. She’d bagged Jama and Panna Dai so her schedule had just got rougher.
“Home can be a place. It can be a memory. It can be a feeling. It can be a longing. It can be a wish. For me it is you. I don’t want to steal time with you anymore. I’ll travel everywhere with you and if some less demanding project comes up, I’ll take that on.”
Lara heart clenched “You’d really do that for me?” she said, all childlike.
“I’d do anything for you…for us.”
“I didn’t even know this was an option,” Lara looked at Sonny wonderingly.
“I don’t know how we thought there could be any other option,” Sonny countered with a smile.
“Honey, will you handle my company?” Lara asked, “You may just need to physically be there for a week every two or three months.”
“I can oversee it with your inputs, but I’m not knowledgeable enough to actually run it,” Sonny said.
“I can’t ask for more,” tears shivered at the edge of Lara’s eyes as she leaned in to kiss Sonny with her heart on her lips.
“We need to go from here,” Sonny said huskily, breaking the kiss. “Let’s go home so that I can do nasty things to you,” she gave her adorable lop-sided smile.
“Take me,” Lara smiled back radiantly.
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