by Cindy Gerard
He glanced at her again, half expecting her to ask, but she didn’t. Another measure of her intelligence and sensitivity. She knew instinctively that he had to tell this in his own time, his own way.
“I was CIA,” he said, knowing those three little letters were right now painting a picture in her mind of shadowy warriors pushing the envelope of diplomacy and international law.
“We’re not everything the novelists and journalists would have you believe we are. We don’t do all the things you might have been led to believe we’ve done.”
“You save lives,” she said simply. “You serve your country.”
He swallowed, humbled by her absolute, unquestioning belief in his motives and integrity.
“Yeah,” he said. “All that.”
He looked at her then. “It . . . it takes a toll after a while.”
“How could it not?”
He firmed his lips, looked away. This was the hard part. “Service to country isn’t all I inherited from the old man,” he finally admitted.
She was quiet for a while. “You said he was an alcoholic.”
“Yeah.” He looked back at her. She watched him with quiet eyes, no judgment. “And I don’t want to be.”
Her gaze held his, steady and unwavering in the face of what he hadn’t said. That he had a problem. That he wanted to fix it.
“That’s why I resigned,” he clarified, and even now he felt the weight of that decision and the shock wave that had rippled through the chain of command. “I’ve developed an unhealthy relationship with scotch over the years.”
“To help you cope.”
And to help him forget. “I don’t want to use that crutch anymore. I can’t use that crutch anymore.”
“Then you won’t,” she said simply.
He smiled, feeling cynical and weary. “You don’t know me well enough to know that. And I don’t deserve that much credit.”
“This is what I know.” She reached for his hand and folded it between both of hers. “I know that I love you. I know that for you to open up to me this way, you love me, too.”
“I do.” He reached for her and pulled her down until her mouth was a breath away from his. “I do love you. More than life.”
“Damn,” she whispered against his mouth. “I’m going to cry again.”
And he was going to spend the rest of his life making sure she didn’t ever have a reason to cry again.
“SO WHAT TOOK you so long?” Carrie teased as she wiped her hands on a napkin.
They were naked in the middle of her bed. Still working on slaking their desire for each other, refortifying their energy with a bucket of take-out chicken.
“To come for you? The guys and I had a little unfinished business to tend to.” Cav set the bucket aside.
She settled into his arms like he’d had a place for her there forever. “The guys?”
“Reed, Green, Colter, and Black.”
Her eyes went all soft and adoring. “You went back to the mines.”
“I told you I wouldn’t forget about those people.”
He couldn’t save the world. He’d thought he could once, but he knew better now. He could save those starving, abused souls who’d been enslaved at the Myanmar ruby mine, though.
And thanks to this woman, he might even be able to save himself.
“Thank you,” she whispered, pressing soft kisses along his jaw line.
“The pleasure”—he rolled her beneath him, thanking good fortune that she’d come into his life—“is all mine.”
When she fell asleep a little while later, he simply laid there and watched her. She was smiling. At peace.
So was he. He’d made the right decision to come to her.
He still had no idea what his future held. After years of service, that should have been unnerving. But now he had Carrie by his side.
Haven. Yeah. It was right here, he thought, drifting off to sleep. Right by this woman’s side.
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KILLING TIME
Available February 2013 from Pocket Books
Chapter 1
Lima, Peru
El Tocón Sangriento—the Bloody Stump—was a back alley, low-rent cantina that hadn’t changed in clientele or décor since Mike Brown first set foot in the dump eight years ago. The class of women, however, seemed to have catapulted to new levels.
The sun had been down less than an hour when he turned his back to the cracked, smoky mirror, a shot of pisco in one hand, a time-worn jack of hearts in the other. He slid his aviator shades to the top of his head and proppedhis elbows behind him on the edge of the scarred bar Then he watched the dance floor with interest as one particular woman, who had caught his eye when he’d walked in two hours ago, moved sensuously to the rhythm of a slow, Spanish guitar.
Absently flipping the playing card back and forth between his fingers, he squinted through the tobacco and marijuana haze at the dark-haired Latina beauty stirring up trouble and testosterone with the seductive sway of her hips. She was way too hot for this dive. And while he didn’t have a clue why she flashed her flirty smile his way, he wasn’t going to question his good luck. Just like he wasn’t questioning the reason he was tying one on like there was no tomorrow.
He tossed back the shot and exchanged it for a full one from the neat row of soldiers lined up on the bar behind him. Screw the fact that he’d been clean and sober for 364 consecutive days . . . a record he never seemed to beat. Today, like every other July 15 since Operation Slam Dunk had gone south, he was getting flat-ass drunk.
The end of days. That’s how he thought of the debacle in Afghanistan eight years ago.
Sobrietus interruptus. That’s how he thought of his annual commune with alcohol and self-pity.
He was holding a postmortem. Throwing a pity party. Conducting a wake for the friends who’d lost their lives eight years ago. For the life and career he’d lost.
Hell, call it whatever you wanted—a guilt trip, grief, suppressed rage, self-destruction—he didn’t give a rip. It was happening. The only new wrinkle in his yearly bender was that it was starting to look like he might also get laid.
Talk about poetic justice. He was already fucked up in the head . . . might as well make it a clean sweep.
Eyes on the prize, he slammed back one more shot, pocketed the bullet-ridden playing card, touched the unlit cigarette tucked above his right ear for luck, and pushed off the bar stool. Then he tried like hell not to stagger as he walked unsteadily across the room toward the spicy little enchilada who seemed to only have eyes for him. Big dark eyes. A little sleepy, a little slutty, a lot interested.
Damn, she was something. Centerfold something. A petite, hot mess of raw sexuality. Long, satiny black hair escaped in sleek, bed-mussed strands from the silver clip she’d used to secure it in a loose knot on top of her head. Elegant neck. Smooth, bare shoulders. A lot of soft, caramel skin. And that red bustier—its B cups not having a lot of luck harnessing a generous pair of Cs—worn with black spandex pants that stopped at her ankles where the straps of her four-inch stilettos took over and played hell with the fit of his pants.
“Hey, gorgeous,” he said. Because she was. And because he was too wasted to come up with anything original. He moved in close—crowded the hell out of her personal space—and the way she slid up real close and cuddly told him that she was totally fine with the invasion.
“Hola.” She smelled sweet and musky and sexually charged as she tipped her head back with a bold, inviting smile and pressed those amazing breasts against his chest. “Nice bling.” A long-nailed fingertip—slick, shiny, red—tapped the diamond stud in his left ear, then lingered at the tip of his lobe.
“Nice, um”—he let his gaze slide down to that magnificent cleavage before easing back to her face—“smile.”
She laughed and tilted her head to the side in blatant invitation, giving him an even better view of all that d
ewy, soft flesh.
“Wanna take this somewhere private?” Might as well cut straight to the chase.
The lady knew what she wanted. “Thought you’d never ask,” she said, her English laced with a sultry, lyrical Spanish accent.
Her hand was small and hot—like the rest of her—when she took his and led him toward the back door. He followed like a love-struck puppy, mesmerized by the smell of her hair and the sway of her hips and the way her sparkly purse hung from a silver chain looped over her shoulder and rhythmically bumped her gorgeous ass with every step she took.
Outside, the alley was already shadowy and as dark as the desire that ripped recklessly though his groin. Somewhere in the back of his mind, a warning bled through his lust-induced fog, telling him to slow the hell down, reminding him that if he hadn’t been so drunk, he might have asked a few more questions. That maybe, if he added two and two together he might come up with something other than fournicate.
Just because he wanted her to be a working girl, that didn’t mean she was one. And just because he was drunk, that didn’t mean he should let his guard down. He started to rethink this entire proposition . . . but then she leaned back against the wall, gripped his T-shirt with both hands, and pulled him flush against her.
Good-bye, presence of mind.
She was all hot, wet, open mouth and ripe breasts rubbing up against him, her left leg wedging super sweet between his thighs and moving up and down over his rapidly expanding package as he pressed her against the wall with his body.
He groaned and scrabbled for a hold on his sanity. “Maybe we should get a room, wild thing.”
She laughed, a husky, naughty purr, and bit his lower lip. “That comes later, gringo . . . but you’re gonna come right now.”
Holy mother.
When she reached into her purse, another spike of alarm jabbed him out of his stupor.
“Condom.” She flashed that dimpled smile and damn if he didn’t almost weep with gratitude.
What the hell. It was still early but it was dark. He was gone. And all this lush woman’s heat had him hypnotized by the prospect of her doing him right here, beneath the flashing neon QUILMES sign.
He skimmed his palms down her sides, pressed the heels of his hands against her superior breasts, then slid them lower again, gripping her hips and rubbing her against his raging erection.
All the while, she had one hand on her purse, while rooting around inside with the other.
“Damn, sweetheart. If you don’t find that thing soon the party’s gonna be over.”
Just then he got wind of a scent . . . and got sober real fast.
He grabbed her wrist, pressed her harder against the wall, and pulled her hand out of her bag. A loop of thin, stiff plastic dangled from her red-tipped nails.
“Well, now.” He glanced at the flex cuffs. “Speaking of bling. I’m all for kinky sex, but there’s no way in hell you’re going to slap that bracelet on me.”
She wasn’t smiling now.
“And nice perfume, by the way. Eau du le gun oil?” He felt the outline of a pistol inside that sparkly purse. “Shoulda gone for Shalimar, chica. . . the smell of that stuff makes me stupid.”
“That’s not all that makes you stupid,” she muttered and jammed a knee hard into his gonads.
He doubled over with a gasp of pain, helpless to fight her when she yanked his arms behind his back, expertly looped the strip of plastic around both wrists, and jerked it tight.
“We can do this easy,” she whispered close to his ear as he groaned in agony, “or it can go real hard on you.”
Well, of course he wasn’t going to go easy.
He drove a shoulder toward her midsection. She dodged like a pro and he landed on his face in the alley’s pocked, filthy pavement.
By the time he felt the prick of the needle in his neck, it was all over but the headache he knew he was going to have when he woke up. If he woke up.
Which, unfortunately, he did.
CHAPTER 2
When Mike finally came to and managed to blink through the cobwebs clouding his vision, three things registered in disjointed tandem . . . each one worthy of a nightmare.
One—he was spread eagle on his back on a mattress in a room he recognized as standard-fare fleabag hotel. Two—flex cuffs bound his wrists above his head to the bars of an iron headboard. And three—the woman staring at him in stony silence from a chair at the foot of the bed looked vaguely familiar.
And even though the only light in the room of mustard yellow walls and cracked plaster came from a low-wattage bulb hanging from a frayed cord in the middle of the ceiling, he could still clearly see the very familiar Beretta 92FS she held in a confident grip. The gun was his, which not only made him stupid, it made him officially—if not literally—screwed.
Interesting. Sort of. Because there was some good news here. If she wanted to shoot him, she’d have done it by now.
So if she didn’t want him dead, then what did she want? And where, exactly, did he know her from?
He breathed deep. Fought to remember. Anything. Then he snapped to with a painful jolt when a memory as blinding as headlights cut through the fog.
Cantina. Pisco. Hot tamale. with his dick.
He clenched his jaw. Dumb ass. He’d let her get the drop on him. She must have juiced him with something. Yeah . . . he remembered the sting of the needle now . . . then stumbling down an alley, his arm slung over her shoulders, her arm around his waist . . . falling into a cab . . . staggering down a narrow hallway, up a flight of stairs.
Collapsing on a lumpy bed that smelled of mildew and cheap disinfectant and where—judging by the fact that he was still zipped and tucked—he was willing to give pretty good odds that he hadn’t gotten laid.
He squinted and framed her between his boot tips, trying to get a read on where this was going, who she might be. But she’d stacked her deck rock solid with the three c’s—cool, calm, and in control. Her unwavering gaze wasn’t giving anything away. He could still smell her above the sour, low-rent hotel room odor, but gone was the sultry temptress with the bed-mussed hair. She’d pulled all that black silk into a sleek, utilitarian ponytail and bound it snug at the nape of her neck. She’d also replaced her “slut suit” with a blinding white T-shirt, tight jeans, and a pair of lace-up leather boots that had seen a fair share of wear. And yet, if you overlooked the gun, she was still damn sexy—in a kick-ass, GI Jane, ball-breaker kind of way.
But sexy didn’t hold much sway right now. Too bad he hadn’t realized that half a dozen shots of pisco ago.
So . . . was she local policía? No. That didn’t fit. He’d be locked in a cell by now, most likely beaten, more likely dead. Besides, his nose was clean this trip. And despite the Rambo-ette persona, she didn’t have enough sharp edges to be a hard-nosed cop. Not that he hadn’t been fooled by dangerous curves before.
Extortion? Good luck, chica. His plane was the only thing he owned of any value and that was hocked up to his eyeballs. Woman scorned, then? Did he know her from somewhere? Had he done her wrong? That didn’t fit either. He wouldn’t have forgotten a face or a body like hers.
So . . . what? What did she want?
Nothing good. The only thing he knew with any degree of certainty was that so far, he didn’t much like her agenda.
“Tell me what happened in Afghanistan,” she said without so much as a blink and with absolutely zero warning.
His heart stopped.
Afghanistan?
Why had she asked him about Afghanistan? And what happened to her Spanish accent?
And oh, hell, no, he didn’t like her agenda at all.
Eyes narrowed, he searched the face that had turned his mind to mush and landed him in this fix. Nothing computed. Nothing but the knot tightening in his chest, tripping a defense mechanism that demanded he not let her see him sweat.
“So.” He focused through a blinding headache. “You’re one of those.”
A finely arched bro
w lifted. “One of those?”
“One of those women who likes to talk before she does the big nasty.”
She gave a small shrug of her shoulders. “I’ve got more needles. You want another one? Go ahead. Keep giving me crap.”
He didn’t have much more crap to give. He was running on empty here. His mouth was bone dry. His head spun. And then there was the obvious. He tested the cuffs with a disgustingly weak jerk. The plastic dug painfully into his wrists.
He gave her a squinty-eyed look that was all for show. “You got a name? Or should I call you Mata Hari?” He had a sick feeling he’d want to call her a lot of things before this was over.
She sat back with a sigh and crossed her arms. His Beretta—a little over two pounds of cold steel nestled snug against her left breast—presented an image he would not soon forget. Neither would he forget the scent that stirred in the stagnant air when she moved.
“The only thing you need to know about me, fly boy, is that I’m the person asking the questions. Now tell me what happened in Afghanistan. Tell me about Operation Slam Dunk.”
The look on her face and the authority in her voice suggested that she already knew.
That couldn’t be. No one knew about OSD. No one was supposed to know. Not his family. Not his friends. And sure as hell not this woman who stared at him like he was week-old road kill.
He dragged his gaze away from her chest and smiled to hide his panic. “That would be a big go to hell.”
She leaned forward and gave him a cold, calculated once-over that made his gut tighten. “Fine. Then I’ll tell you.”
He shot her his best “I could give a rip” grin and kept up the pretense of a man who didn’t suspect his past was about to come crashing down around him in an avalanche of shit. “Since I’m what you call a captive audience, go ahead, sweetheart. Knock yourself out.”
• • •
“Hola, señor. I need a room, please. One night only.” Jane Smith—per her passport—deliberately spoke in less than perfect Spanish as she set her utilitarian duffel bag on the floor at her feet and her Lonely Planet guidebook on the check-in desk in front of her.