by Erin Hayes
I look at him in horror as the memory of the archni-lift flashed through my mind. The human eye, the mouth with teeth—it had once been human. Like Louis and Venice were.
Was he the scientist who tried escaping with Syn-Tech’s secret biological weapon? I clench my fists as tears sting my eye. Foolishly, we had thought that the /Cordinates folder on the Nautilus was correct. That looking up the coordinates for the Nova would give us an insight into the ship’s history. But they weren’t correct. They were either doctored or written in code.
And we never even considered that a possibility.
“We thought we had lost the virus. Thankfully,” Maas says, “your crew was able to retrieve it. And you brought it back to us.” He strokes the glass of my coffin, almost tenderly, and I fight to not shy away from the gesture. “You brought us what we needed most. And you, yourself—you’re an unexpected delight.”
My mouth is dry, and it hurts to swallow. “How so?”
“We’ve yet to look into the matter,” Maas says as he strokes his chin, “and your own lack of memories doesn’t help. But your status as a near-carrier for the virus, plus your age and your missing body parts—I’d say you were one of our original test subjects.”
I stiffen. “You said that. And that’s…impossible.” Can’t be true. I refuse to believe it.
“Dr. Jackson, if you please,” he says.
She gleefully obliges. “Twenty-five years ago, after it became evident that the space flu was created by another company, we sought to create our own virus to achieve a similar end. One that would bring any rival corporation to its knees. We recruited people of different ages for their different biological makeup in order to harvest a virus.”
“Recruited?”
“Meaning we bought children from Free Agent parents,” Dr. Jackson says. Her grim smile is at odds with the horrible revelation, and I stare at her.
Did my parents…?
I bite my lip, trying not to cry. No, you don’t know that. Don’t think it. It may not be true.
Still. How could I have been a child left alone on Darkhorse-1 without parents? What happened to them? How did I lose parts of my body?
“If everything is true,” Dr. Jackson continues, “you may have been one of the test subjects. In fact, I’m sure of it.”
“I’m a…” I feel sick.
“Oh yes, Miss Jones,” Maas says. “You may not have full immunity of the virus, but you’re definitely reacting to it differently than any of our other tests. You’re offering us a rare opportunity.”
“A great subject to develop an antivirus from,” Dr. Jackson adds, like she’s giddy at the prospect of it. “And if that’s true, we can monetize it in other ways.”
“But…” I lick my lips, struggling to keep my thoughts coherent. “But you said there was a cure for Louis. You said that if we brought him here, you’d cure him.”
“Well,” Maas says, patting the glass. “I lied. But lucky for us, you may be the key to developing an antivirus. I do think it’s too late for your captain and cook, though. They’ve been spreading and infecting your ship all this time. You’re better off considering them dead.”
I close my eyes. I’m so sorry, Louis and Venice. I tried. I tried saving you. “You were never going to pay us the 300 million Space Yen.”
Maas and Dr. Jackson glance at each other, and both burst into laughter. Yes, they’re making fun of me. Of my crew’s hopes and dreams, when we put ourselves on the line to bring them one of the most devastating biological weapons ever created. And they don’t care about us at all.
Only their bottom line and getting ahead in the universe.
“You’re monsters,” I whisper.
“You’re expecting the other companies to have the same empathy,” Maas says. “They won’t. If they had this virus at their disposal, you can bet, Miss Jones, that they’d deploy it as soon as it was viable. And they almost did when we were betrayed by Malakey. Thanks to your contributions, we can now continue our work to develop a stable version of the virus. And possibly monetize it with the antivirus.” He grins. “I should say thank you. But I don’t think you’ll accept it.”
“You can fucking bet I won’t!” I fight my restraints, trying in some way to get out of this coffin, although it’s futile. I’m at their mercy.
“Now that you’re here,” Dr. Jackson says, “we can continue with the research. And your presence is an unexpected boon.”
“Please,” I whisper. “Please don’t do this.”
“It’s already in motion,” she says, snapping her fingers. I watch in horror as an android takes a syringe and comes over to me. She injects it into my arm, and I immediately feel the surge of the sedative take over.
No. I have to stay awake. I have to figure out a way to get out of here and stop them from using the virus as a weapon. Even if I’m infected with it now.
“Thank you for your service,” Maas says. “Miss Jones, you are truly doing wonderful things for our company.”
I spit on the glass, aiming for his face. If my saliva is contagious, I wouldn’t know as the antiseptic on the glass keeps it from spreading, and it drips back on my face. I’m too weak to wipe it away through, I hear his dark chuckle as I fall back into unconsciousness.
Away from the horrors of reality.
Chapter 20
They hold me captive in a state of constant twilight. At times, I slip deeper into unconsciousness, and others, I’m awake enough for them to talk briefly with me and ask questions about my general health like, “How do you feel?” or, “Do you feel any different after that vial?”
Then they inject me with more medication, and I go under again, only to repeat it when I wake up. Every time I come to, there’s more tubes sticking out of me, from my flesh, my nose, and even my bionic parts. Some are feeding tubes or IVs, others…well, I don’t want to know. Machines around me beep, monitoring what’s happening as my life becomes one of a lab rat.
To them, I’m not a human, not even someone they want to keep awake while they experiment on her. Not a cyborg. Just a thing for them to experiment upon. I always have been, since even before I can remember. And the depression that comes with that realization is almost as bad as losing Louis.
The two female android doctors are always present, and if I try to fight them, they put me down even more forcefully, and it’s harder to gain consciousness later. Dr. Jackson is there sometimes, but the only constant is my grogginess and those bitches’ vigilance.
At times, I hope the virus suddenly takes over and just kills me, but it doesn’t happen, because we appear to be symbiotic. Apparently, nothing ever goes my way, even death.
I realize that they’re just going to keep me drugged until I either die of old age or they no longer have any use for me. I expect the latter to happen first. There’s a growing number of vials and syringes of a glowing orange liquid along the counter. Are they doses of the virus to infect everyone? Or are they the antivirus?
Whatever they’re doing, they’re manufacturing a lot of different vials. I try squinting my eyes to see what the labels say. But they’re too far out of range for even my bionic eye.
I start cataloguing how long I’ve been asleep and if I notice any changes in my body.
At first, it’s around every six hours that I wake up, and they ask me questions and then they tweak their formula. Then I wake up every three hours, then four, even two at times. The antivirus must be very sporadic in its efficacy. Then, they must have perfected it, because after a few times, it’s every seven hours, then eight, nine…
Until they get to twenty-three hours and it’s somewhat stable there for a week. And no matter how many times I wake up and they change the antivirus, they can’t break a day.
“The Chairman needs this to be at least 168 hours to be a viable treatment for those infected with the virus. We can’t sell it unless it’s effective for at least a week, or else patients will revolt at the high price tag,” Dr. Jackson tells one of the and
roids at one point while I try to appear asleep. She doesn’t sound happy. “And we’ve only synthesized the antivirus to twenty-three hours after a month of work?”
“We have been trying to keep it stable,” one of the fembots tells her. “But the virus does not like to stay dormant for very long.”
“You’re talking about this like the virus is sentient,” Dr. Jackson snarls.
“Perhaps it is,” one of them says quietly.
“Perhaps we need to experiment on a different test subject,” another android offers. “Such as one of the crew of the Pícara.”
The thought of them subjecting PC or Oliver to this makes me rear back with a scream. “NO!” No, they can’t do this. They can’t do these experiments on my crew. Not like this. Tears prick at my right eye. “No…” I sob weakly.
All three turn their heads towards me in shock.
“She’s awake,” Dr. Jackson barks.
An android checks a monitor that shows a magnified image of my red blood cells. “The virus is active once again,” she says. “Twenty-four hours that time.” I see that she picks up one of the vials of the glowing liquid and comes over toward me. “That is the longest we’ve been able to suppress it.”
“So, still further progress,” Dr. Jackson says with a nod, although she only sounds marginally pleased. “Keep it going, then.”
“Don’t test on my crew,” I plead with slurred words as I watch the needle head toward the port. “Please don’t…”
Dr. Jackson is not sympathetic to my plight at all. “Like you, Miss Jones,” she says icily, “they were dead the moment you downlooted the virus onto the ship.”
I grit my teeth at the prick in my arm.
“I’m going to kill you,” I manage as the threads of sleep pull at me. “I’m going to get out of here and kill you.”
Dr. Jackson only laughs. “Glad to hear that you’re tenacious, Miss Jones. Much like that virus.” She pats the enclosure’s window. “Good luck with that.”
The thing she doesn’t realize is that I don’t make threats lightly. I fight to keep glaring at her even as my eyes close. And before I fall into unconsciousness, my hand is still clenched.
I’m going to do whatever it takes to get out of here.
Sometimes, I think Louis and Venice got the easy way out.
I dream this time.
I haven’t dreamt at all while I’ve been under sedation on Alpha. It’s just been this dreamless, black void that I’ve been floating in that brings itself with me when I’m awake. I guess it’s good that I haven’t had any dreams before now, because they’d have been nightmares.
Not this time, though.
I’m still floating in the black void when I open my eyes in this dream world. Still unable to move and still kept within my enclosure.
But I’m not alone.
Help me.
The words are inaudible, but they ricochet throughout my dreams. They’re neither male nor female, but more an androgynous voice that is wholly unfamiliar to me. And not only do I hear and understand the words, I can feel them deep down in my bones. I can feel the emotional weight of the words, how desperate the speaker is.
I twist my head around, trying to find the source. “Who’s there?” I shout out, my own voice sounding too loud for my own ears. “Who are you?”
Help me kill them.
“Why do you need help?”
There’s a pause, almost like it’s surprised to hear me answer back. Then, I’m trapped just like you.
I shiver. “How are you trapped?” I ask. “What can I do to help you?”
Because there’s nothing like a captive trying to help out another one. I chew on my lip, trying to locate whoever it is that’s speaking.
But I don’t see anyone beyond the window of my enclosure, my only window for the past month. It’s like the voice is coming from inside the enclosure with me, as I’m feeling it shake and rattle my own bones. There’s no one else within this coffin.
Which means that it’s coming from within me.
Yes, the voice says, confirming my thoughts. I’m inside you.
A thrill of fear runs through me, causing my bottom lip to tremble. It’s absolutely absurd, but as soon as the idea hits me, I can’t shake the thought that I know what is speaking to me.
“Are you the virus?”
Because that completely makes sense, right? That I’d be talking with the Infinity Virus while I’m sedated? Maybe being stuck on Alpha and being restrained is a good thing, because I’ve turned into a complete lunatic over it.
But something says that I’m right.
Virus is such an ugly word.
I open my mouth, a million different questions on the tip of my tongue. But what can I say to the virus that killed Louis and Venice? That ruined everything for me and the crew of the Pícara.
I have not ruined everything.
“Yes, you have,” I say through a clenched jaw. “Everything was fine until we went to the Nova and downlooted the virus. Everything was fine, and then you killed my friends. You killed them!” I hiccup, nearly hysterical. “Everything would have been all right if it weren’t for you.”
I am merely a lifeform without a way to sustain my own life. The virus sounds introspective now, like it’s assessing its own life as it speaks to me. I’m only trying to survive.
“So am I,” I say. “And you’re making it hard.”
Correction, your captors are making it hard. And I need you to help me.
“I’m in no position to help anyone at the moment.”
Yes, you are. I’ve been observing. And you have more to lose by not helping me.
“Help you?”
Do you know what it is they inject you with?
“Some sort of sedative?” I ask weakly.
That and a form of an antivirus that suppresses me…just enough to keep me from infecting…others… The sedative and the antivirus together keep both of us from evolving to fight it.
I shudder at the memory of Louis disintegrating. The virus had just ravaged him like he was hot wax—transforming him into a boiled, bubbly thing that became more table than human.
“And without the antivirus? Without being suppressed?”
I’d be able to infect the enclosure you’re in. I’d be able to destroy those robots that have been keeping you under sedation. I’d be able to get you out. Get us out, so we can do things.
“But…” I struggle for words. “You’re a virus. You’re trying to destroy everything close to me.”
I’m just trying to fulfill my purpose.
“Which is?”
To spread as far as I can.
“Well, that’s not good to hear,” I tell the virus honestly. “After all, you’ve infected me and killed some of my friends.”
Am I wrong for trying to fulfill my purpose?
I hesitate, wondering if the virus is having an existential crisis. “You were manufactured by a greedy company that only wants to exploit you. They only want to harness you for their means.”
Are you any different? You’ve purchased bionic parts for the sole purpose of aiding your livelihood. Your arm for downloading sensitive information. Your eye for feeding you information. You’re no different than the company that is trying to use me.
“That’s…completely different!” I say, although I wonder if there’s any truth to what it’s saying. Do my bionic parts feel like I’m exploiting them? Using them for no good?
It can’t be.
“I don’t want to take over the galaxy,” I say through gritted teeth. “I just want to live a happy life.”
That’s all I want, the virus replies, unperturbed by my accusation. All I want is to be happy.
I shake my head. “But I can’t let you infect everyone and spread everywhere.”
I can’t let you waste away within this enclosure.
“So what do you propose I do then?” I ask.
We can help each other.
I lick my lips, not wanti
ng to answer it. Because I’m so close to telling it, sure. Anything to get me out of this hellhole.
We can get out of this together.
That’s the lifeline I was looking for. I close my eyes and hate the next words that come out. “Out, how?”
If we work together, we can do it. The virus sounds satisfied, like it knows that I’m two heartbeats away from agreeing to do anything it wants. You can trick them into thinking you’re still unconscious. I’ll do the rest.
Could I do that? I could try using my cyborg side to override my biological brainwaves, but…it’s risky. And I don’t know if I trust the virus enough to follow through with this.
“And after that?”
I’ll always be a part of you. But I’ve always been, haven’t I?
“So I was a test subject.” I don’t know how I feel about that. I finally have some insight into my past and who I was as a child. But this? I’m almost relieved that I don’t remember any of what happened to me.
You seem…familiar… But that’s in the past. What matters now is what we do in the future.
I clear my throat. “All right,” I whisper. “I’ll make you a deal. I’ll help you get out, but you can’t hurt my crew.”
Oh, you drive a hard bargain.
I set my jaw. “It’s because I’m a space pirate.”
Chapter 21
It’s a dangerous bargain. One that makes me wonder if I’ve lost all my humanity when I lost over half my body.
Still though, I’ve made my decision, and I intend on sticking with it. Especially since it means that I’ll have a chance to save my crew. Louis would be upset that I’m breaking one of the space pirates’ rules, but I’m willing to do anything to save my surrogate family.