Outside the beach house, she washed her feet off, rinsing away the sand before she went inside. She could hear Brenda talking on the phone. When she walked into the house and met her mother’s eyes, her stomach clenched as her mom mouthed the word “Hank” and handed her the phone. She took the phone with a feeling of dread. She tried to hold on to the hope she’d had moments ago, but it seemed to have washed away, just like the sand from her feet.
“Hello, Hank,” she said, her voice barely audible.
“Uh-huh,” Hank answered. “I’m calling because I can’t find anyone to cover your shift tomorrow, which I told you might happen. So I hate to ask you to come back early, but you knew that was a risk, and I’m sure you want to keep your job. I told you to be prepared to be here tomorrow.”
She thought about Avis’s call. She had warned her it might happen, but Macy had decided not to worry about it, counting on Brenda and Avis to somehow smooth things out. She didn’t think God was going to let this happen. Did trusting Him mean she believed only the best would happen to her all the time? It was that kind of thinking that had caused her to turn away from Him when she’d lost her dad.
Do you trust Me? The question came again, this time without the benefit of a beautiful beachscape in front of her. Was it possible God was going to keep talking to her? She hoped so, and she hoped she wasn’t crazy for listening.
She held the phone for a moment, thinking about her revelation and how she’d felt so hopeful. Did going back mean she would lose that hope? Was the beach the only place she could feel close to God? It was time to find out.
“Macy? You there?” she heard Hank asking.
“Yes, sorry. I just … I thought my mom was going to give you a call.”
“Nope, haven’t heard a word from her. Is she going to volunteer to do your shift for ya?” Hank laughed at his own joke.
“No, I just thought she was going to … never mind.”
“Well? Can I expect you tomorrow morning for work?”
She sighed. God had brought her this far. He’d painted so many beautiful pictures for her these past two weeks. She had to trust that this was somehow going to be another one. “I’m sorry, Hank, but no. If it means I lose my job, I lose my job. I can’t come back early, not until we’ve finished this vacation.”
Her heart was pounding as she ended the call. She walked to her room and sat down, dropping the phone into her lap and staring at it for a moment. Then she reached for the guest book on the nightstand and flipped through it, stopping at the drawing of the little girl—of her—tossing crusts of bread at seagulls. She ran her fingers over the picture, feeling an odd mixture of joy and sadness, of letting go, and yet, in a whole new way, of holding on.
She walked out to the porch and gripped the railing, taking deep breaths as she thought of what she’d just done. She’d effectively just told Hank to stick it. She’d just quit her job in spite of the bills she had to pay, in spite of the child who depended on her. This time the word that came to mind wasn’t exceptional. It was irresponsible. She heard the sliding glass door glide along the track and footsteps coming up behind her. “Don’t tell me everything’s going to be okay,” she said. She spun around, expecting to see her mom.
“Okay, I won’t,” Buzz said.
She rolled her eyes. “Sorry. Thought you were Mom.”
“She wanted to come out here, but I asked her if I could instead.”
Macy raised her eyebrows. “Okay.”
“So you quit?” he asked, taking a seat at the rickety picnic table that had been on the back porch for as long as she could remember. It wobbled under his weight and Macy elected not to join him.
She leaned against the porch railing instead, her hands gripping it tightly. “Yep. Stupid, huh?”
“Not at all.”
“How can you say that? I don’t have a job, and I’ve got a child to support.”
“The guy’s way off base, expecting you to come back from vacation at a moment’s notice. He doesn’t deserve to have you working for him.”
Macy shook her head. “Be that as it may, I need that job.”
Buzz held up his hand. “You know how I met Nate?”
She narrowed her eyes at him. “What does Nate have to do with this?”
He smiled. “Just go with it.”
“Okay, no. Nate didn’t share that information with me.”
“Well, if you remember from when you were a little girl, I didn’t have anything to do with God. Darren and I used to have these … debates about it.”
“I remember that was the only thing you and my dad didn’t agree on. But as I recall, it still gave you plenty to argue about.”
“Yeah.” He laughed at what Macy could only guess was a private memory. “He used to get so mad at me. Told me that if I died, I wouldn’t go to heaven because I hadn’t prayed to accept Jesus. It all sounded like a bunch of mumbo jumbo to me.”
“You called it hocus-pocus.”
“That I did.”
“And then he died.” Even now, Macy could hear sadness lacing her words.
“And then he died.” His voice echoed her sadness.
They both said nothing for a moment, each one reflecting on what that statement meant for them.
“And after he died,” Buzz finally continued, “I got really bad off. I was about to lose everything because of the choices I was making. I was drunk all the time, kept getting hauled in for drunk driving, drunk and disorderly conduct, public drunkenness … you get the picture.”
“You were a mess.”
“A mess is a kind term for what I was. I’d depended on my friendship with Darren as being some kind of insurance against the very thing that happened to him. If he wasn’t safe then … what would happen to me? I guess I was just hoping to end it all if it was going to end anyway. And then you and your mom and brother stopped coming and … It took years to come to the end of myself, but eventually I did.” He grinned. “The police had something to do with that, I’ll admit.”
“So that’s how you knew what to do the other night with Max.”
“And who to call. Nate wasn’t always the pastor here. He was a volunteer at the church before he became the pastor. And he helped me a lot. His dad was a drunk, and he was … pretty messed up for a while because of it. So now he reaches out to people who are struggling with substance abuse. It’s one of his many talents.” He chuckled. “But he taught me that I didn’t have to let my past define me. And he showed me where I could go for the hope I needed. I loved your dad, but my hope couldn’t be in Darren. Because people just can’t do that for us.”
She thought about her walk on the beach, her discovery of The Artist. “I know that,” she said quietly.
“Then I guess I just want you to know I’m not trying to be your savior. I can’t be. But I can be His hands and feet in your life. I can help you.” He stood up and walked over to her, placing his hands on her shoulders. “I want to be that. If for nothing else than because it’s what your dad would do. So if you need money to make it through while you find another job or if you need a place to stay or … whatever, I just want to offer that to you.” He dropped his hands but his eyes held hers. “I owe Darren a lot. If it weren’t for him, I don’t know that I would be where I am now.”
Brenda slipped out onto the porch and came to stand beside Buzz. “Just think about it,” he said.
Macy nodded. As the first grateful tear leaked from her eye, she felt Buzz’s arms wrap around her. She pictured this moment of the two of them comforting one another. It was yet another picture drawn just for her by The Artist.
“Okay, Avis. I don’t have a lot of time to explain everything, but I have something to tell you, and I didn’t want you to hear it from Hank.”
“Oh, this sounds good,” Avis said, her voice going up an octave. Macy hadn’t heard her so excited since Alexander left Tatiana on her favorite soap opera. Avis loved a good story; that was for sure. “Do tell.”
“Well, I q
uit. Hank wanted me to come back in time for the morning shift tomorrow, and I told him no.” A burst of nervous laughter escaped from her lips. “I still can’t believe it.”
“Well, I didn’t think you had it in you. You’re not exactly the type to throw caution to the wind. But I think it’s just great, honey. Hank needed to be told no.”
“I have no idea what I’m doing. I just know this is what I had to do.”
“Then you did the right thing. Just have faith and keep doing the right thing.”
“I just worry that I don’t know what that is,” Macy said.
“Honey, you know. The trick is to not be afraid of it. And remember, Someone upstairs is watching out for you.”
“Thanks, Avis. What would I do without you?”
“Girl, you don’t want to find out.” Avis cackled. “You tell him he better take care of you. Whoever he turns out to be.” The call ended with Avis still cackling on the other end. Macy thought about what she’d said: “Someone upstairs is watching out for you.” She believed that was true.
twenty-nine
Wyatt swung the car into the parking lot of the restaurant and opened his door with a smile. He walked around to Macy’s door and opened it, leaning down to say, “This place has got a great deck outside that overlooks the water. Thought we could talk. How does that sound?” From inside the restaurant, she could hear Jimmy Buffett singing about grapefruit and juicy fruit.
“Very nice,” she said. The air had cooled off now that the sun had set, and she hoped they could find a quiet corner. She wanted to tell him about quitting her job. Maybe he’d tell her she should stay at Sunset. Maybe they would stare at the water as they planned a beautiful future together. It was the stuff of fairy tales, after all. And even if he wasn’t the artist, the fairy tale didn’t have to end.
He caught her looking at him. “Can I say you look very beautiful tonight?”
She smiled a shy smile, thinking of the dress she was wearing. She’d saved it for a special occasion, a white eyelet dress that flounced at the knee and scooped at the neck, fun and feminine and flirty. She’d found it on sale this spring and had splurged, deeming it her “beach dress” and imagining wearing it with the artist the first time he took her out. She would be tan, and the sun would’ve streaked her hair, and she would feel young and alive and—she had promised herself this—if someone told her she was beautiful, she would just thank them and not dismiss the compliment.
“Thank you,” she replied.
“I’d say the beach life agrees with you,” he remarked, as he steered her through the busy dining room and to the deck in the back. They took seats by the water, and he disappeared to get them drinks. When he came back, he placed her drink in front of her with a flourish and took the seat across from her.
“It’s such a gorgeous night,” she said.
“Just perfect,” he agreed.
They sat in silence for a few minutes, the easy laughter and teasing that had existed between them earlier gone with the setting sun. “Sooo …” He looked at her and took a sip of his drink.
She gave him a smile without showing any teeth. “Sooo,” she responded.
“We seem to have run out of things to say,” he said.
“And so early in the relationship!” she teased. “I hear of this happening to couples, but it’s usually not for years!”
He grinned. “I guess I just don’t know what to say. I really like spending time with you. I’m glad you came over to tell me to be quiet that first day.”
“I wonder if we would’ve met otherwise.”
He pressed his lips into a line and appeared to be thinking. “I’m fairly certain I would’ve seen you. And my dad would’ve gone on and on about your mom and how I needed to meet you. I mean, when fate’s at work …”
She leaned in to tell him about quitting her job but a voice interrupted her.
“Well, well, well. Look who we have here.”
Wyatt’s face lit up as he stood to welcome two women over to the table. “Paula! Stacey! Great to see you!”
Macy closed her eyes in disbelief but recovered quickly as one of them — Paula? — extended her hand.
“I’m Stacey Gore, just like the former vice president, only we’re not related. And this is my cousin Paula Kay Monroe. We used to work with Wyatt.” She pushed Wyatt’s shoulder in a way that told Macy they’d done more than work together. The color rose in Wyatt’s cheeks as he and Macy looked at each other. There was only one extra seat at their table but that didn’t discourage the cousins. “Paula, go get another chair from over there,” Stacey ordered.
Paula obediently went to fetch it, her curls bobbing as she trotted off. She dragged the chair across the deck, making a horrible scraping noise that made other patrons wince.
Stacey sat down closest to Wyatt. “I see you’re still hanging out here, you old dog.” She pushed on his shoulder again. She leaned over to Macy like they were girlfriends from years back. “He loves to bring the ladies here. Don’t cha, Wyatt?”
Wyatt shifted in his chair. “I don’t come here that often,” he said, looking at Macy.
Stacey wasn’t to be deterred. “Hey, Joe!” she hollered at the bartender. “When’s the last time you saw this one?” She pointed demonstratively at Wyatt, who was now more than a little red in the face.
Joe played along. “Uhhh … let’s see. Could it’ve been Saturday night? Oh no, wait. He had lunch here yesterday too!”
Stacey and Paula laughed hard, leaning against each other. Paula smiled at Macy. “Old dog don’t change his tricks,” she said.
Macy forced herself to smile and nod when she really just wanted to get away from these two.
Wyatt caught her eye. “I’m sorry,” he mouthed.
She pressed her lips into a line that was not a smile and forced herself to look him in the eye for a few beats before looking away, in the direction of the water and a crane flying away, taking her fairy tale with it. She knew Wyatt could tell she was upset, but he remained the gentleman in front of Paula and Stacey, making polite small talk with the two women. The minutes ticked by as they talked about different men from Wyatt’s crew, caught up on the latest on Buzz (it seemed everyone knew and loved Buzz), and discussed the sculpture that was being unveiled just down the street on Ocean Isle Beach the next day.
“Wyatt built the scaffold for the presentation,” Stacey informed Macy. “Out of the goodness of his heart. He’s so talented.” She poked him.
Wyatt sloughed off her compliment and mouthed, “Do you want to go?”
Paula and Stacey started talking about something else, leaning into each other and laughing.
Macy nodded at Wyatt, who stood abruptly, silencing both of the women. Macy followed suit. “Well, I better get Macy home. She’s got a daughter who gets up pretty early.”
Paula spoke up. “Hey! Macy and Stacey! That rhymes!” The two of them cracked up all over again and hardly noticed as Macy and Wyatt walked away.
When they were safely in the car, Wyatt looked over at her. “I’m so sorry about that. But their family owns one of my biggest suppliers. I have to be nice to them.”
Macy was feeling snippy. She couldn’t help it. What had started off as such a great evening with so much potential had turned as sour as the lemon drop drinks Paula and Stacey ordered. “Sounds like you’ve been a lot more than nice to that one girl,” she said. She hated the way she was acting, but that didn’t stop her. Stacey with her short skirt and low-cut top and brassy fake-blonde hair: the girl was a walking cliché.
Wyatt turned to her. “Is someone jealous?” He grinned.
She narrowed her eyes at him. “Not jealous, just … disappointed. I really wanted our date to go well.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t know what to do. They didn’t pick up on any of my cues.” Wyatt almost sounded like he was whining.
“Then maybe you should’ve been a little more direct.” She hated how she sounded. She played with the handle of the pass
enger door, pulling it and letting it go without actually opening the door.
He sat in silence for a few minutes, and she rehearsed some way of taking back what she had said, of erasing the last few hours and beginning again. But if anyone knew how hard starting over was, she did. So she sat quietly and waited, hoping he’d save the day by saying just the right thing. Instead he turned the car on and backed out of the parking space. He didn’t ask where she wanted to go, just turned toward Sunset, the place Macy had come to think of as home during the short time they’d spent there. The place that wouldn’t be home much longer.
thirty
There wasn’t much food to put in the cooler as they packed up to leave. The car would be lighter than when they’d come, but their hearts would be heavier with the weight of saying good-bye to Sunset Beach. They each moved slower, not wanting to finish loading the car, which would declare the vacation officially over. Macy glanced around, noting how empty the house looked without Emma’s stray flip-flop cast aside in the den, Brenda’s ongoing novel turned upside down on the coffee table, Max’s random half-filled mugs of coffee left in various locations. She thought about the guest book, tucked back in its hiding place in her closet. A small part of her wondered if the artist would ever come looking for it. She smiled at the thought of returning next year to find a new picture. It could happen, she thought. But she didn’t need it to anymore. That hadn’t stopped her from drawing one last picture. She smiled at the thought of what she’d left behind, just in case. Nate had challenged her to believe in the fairy tale. That picture was one small way of continuing to do so. She could believe in miracles, even when they didn’t come the way she expected or when she wanted.
“Emma, go make sure you got all your bathing suits off the back porch,” she told her daughter, who was pouting on the stairs.
Emma crossed her arms and stuck out her bottom lip. “I. Don’t. Want. To. Leave.” She punctuated her statement with an angry stomp of a foot.
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