by B. B. Hamel
I gasped as he pressed himself back inside me. He began to fuck me again, and I held on to my breasts, barely able to think as entirely new sensations flooded me from the new angle.
I watched his face, his handsome, rugged face as he fucked me.
“Come on my cock, girl,” he said. “Come for me. I want to make my fucking wife come on my thick cock. I love watching it slide in and out of your tight cunt, filling you up.”
“Keep going,” I whispered. “Keep going, Nash. Keep fucking me.”
He pressed his thumb against my clit, and I threw my head back, gripping the sheets above my head, pleasure rocking me. He fucked me harder, deeper, sweat covering our bodies, pleasure rolling through my skin. Every inch of me was on fire as he fucked me, and everything was right, everything was perfect.
And then the orgasm burst through my spine.
My whole body tensed, my muscles contracting, as the incredible wave of pleasure blew through me.
“That’s right,” he said. “Come for me, girl. You fucking drive me wild.”
I came hard and fast, my whole body clenched. He didn’t let up didn’t slow down, just fucked me mercilessly. He held onto my hips and pulled me tight, slamming his cock inside me, fucking me rough, hard, deep. He had no mercy for me, and I didn’t want any. All I wanted was his strong body dominating mine, fucking me deep, making my pussy his.
And my pussy was his. Every inch of my body was his. His cock filled me, and I knew I was his as the orgasm rocketed through me.
“Fuck. That face sends me over the edge,” he grunted, and I watched as he stiffened.
“Fill me up, Nash,” I moaned. “Come inside me. Come in my pussy.”
“Fuck,” he grunted, slamming into me. I watched as he came, his whole body stiff, grunting his pleasure into me.
He slowly finished and collapsed onto the bed next to me.
“That was what I needed,” he grunted. “Nothing like good sex after killing a man.”
I laughed. “Don’t be gross.”
“Sorry.”
I pressed my head against his chest and felt his heart beating, his breath moving in and out of his lungs.
“Why did that happen?” I asked softly.
“There are a lot of crazy fucking people in the world.” He paused. “It won’t happen again.”
“How do you know?”
“It won’t,” he repeated more firmly.
I nodded. “Okay. I believe you.”
The horror of earlier was still lingering at the edges of my mind, but for some reason I felt so much better already. Just having him near me, touching my body, it made me feel right.
Ever since it had happened, he was the only thing I could think about. Not how horrible it was seeing him kill that man, or the fear I felt for my life and his, but how badly I wanted to touch Nash, to kiss him.
It wasn’t even to thank him for saving me. It was just pure need.
I snuggled closer to him, and he didn’t move. We just stayed there, silently breathing together, looking up at the ceiling, sweat drying in the cool air.
30
Nash
I woke up, not sure where I was or what time it was. For a few seconds the room was completely unfamiliar.
And then I realized I was lying naked in bed next to Selena. She was clearly still asleep too.
I checked the clock. It was after seven, and the sun had already set outside. The insanity of the day came back to me slowly.
I could see that bastard’s face as he held the gun to Selena’s head. I could see him as I pulled the trigger, the surprise in his eyes.
I rolled over onto my back and looked at her. She stirred but didn’t wake, her breathing deep and even. The sex came wafting back into my memory, her body, the way she came. My cock was already getting hard again at the thought of her so close, her body bare.
I didn’t know what was happening to me. I’d never felt this way about someone before, never would have risked what I had earlier for someone. In the moment, all I had been able think about was keeping her safe.
And in some ways, that fucking terrified me.
There was a light knock at the door. Selena took a sharp breath, and I put a hand on her back. “It’s okay,” I said softly.
“Who is it?” she asked.
“Not sure.”
“What time is it?”
“Around seven.”
“Oh. We slept for a few hours.”
“Yeah,” I said, getting out of bed. I slipped my pants and shirt back on. “Go back to sleep. I’ll deal with it.”
“Okay,” she mumbled, rolling over.
I walked over to the door and looked out the peephole. Livy stared back at me, impatient.
I opened the door and stepped out, shutting it behind me. “What’s up, Liv?”
“You guys okay?”
“Yeah. We’re fine. Selena is sleeping.”
She nodded. “Good. Detectives want to talk to you guys some more tomorrow, but they managed to identify the guy.”
“Who was he?”
“His name was Sam Bish. Apparently he’s been in and out of mental institutions for a long time, though he was supposed to be medicated.”
“Guess he stopped taking the pills.”
She nodded. “Guess so.” She paused, frowning. “You okay?”
“Not the first guy I’ve killed, Liv.”
“I know that, but it’s different when you’re not at war.”
“It wasn’t different,” I said. “It was just part of the job.”
She sighed, looking down the hall. “Yeah, well, I’m glad you’re okay.”
“Is that your way of saying you care?”
“Don’t push it, Nash.” She looked back at me and smiled. “I have other news, actually.”
“What’s that?”
“Your movie. It got the green light. Filming begins in a month.”
I raised an eyebrow, surprised. “Seriously?”
“Seriously. Congratulations, Nash. You’re about to make a lot of money.”
I laughed, shaking my head. “It’s happening so suddenly.”
“That’s how it works.” She looked down at her phone, frowned, and looked back at me. “So, they want you to be a consultant.”
“What’s that mean?”
She shrugged. “You’ll probably sit around and tell them if something looks stupid. And they’ll probably ignore you, but you’ll get a nice fat paycheck on top of what you’ll already make.”
“Can’t really say no then, can I?”
“The publisher wants you to go,” she said slowly.
I nodded. “Okay. That’s settled then. I have my marching orders.”
“Don’t be annoyed, Nash.”
“Not annoyed.” I leaned against the door. “Might be nice to stay in one place for a while. Selena might like it better.”
“She’ll come?”
I grinned at Livy. “She is my wife after all.”
Liv smiled back. “Whatever you say. Look, I have to go. Take the night off. We’ll talk tomorrow morning.”
“Sounds good.”
“You sure you’re okay?”
“Fine, Liv. Thanks.”
She nodded once and then turned and walked off. I was surprised by how much Livy seemed to care; I hadn’t been sure she had it in her. People could surprise you sometimes.
I turned back to the door and swiped my keycard, unlocking it. The light was on inside and Selena was in the bathroom. Fully dressed, unfortunately.
“Who was that?” she asked.
“Guess.”
“Our lovely handler?”
“Exactly.” I walked into the bathroom and wrapped my arms around her. She smiled as I kissed her neck.
“What did she want?”
“Good news,” I said.
“What?”
“My movie got the green light.”
“Nash!” She turned around and kissed me. “That’s great.”
“They want me to come act as a consultant. Filming starts in a month, so I guess we’ll be going to L.A. soon.”
She smiled. “That’s amazing.”
“We’ll stay in one place, won’t have to travel around. Have you been there before?”
She shook her head. “No. Never.”
“You’ll like it.” I kissed her, pulling her roughly against me. “Now, I have something else I want from you.”
She smiled. “I think I can guess what that is.”
I pressed my lips against her ear. “Get used to it,” I said.
I kissed her hard, not a fucking care in the world.
31
Selena
I woke up early, my body tired and sore in a good way. Nash was still sleeping next to me as I climbed out of bed and went into the bathroom, shutting the door.
The night before flashed through my mind. We hadn’t left the bed, and he’d been insatiable. We stopped only to have some room service. He wouldn’t keep his hands off of me, his fingers so incredible, his mouth all over my skin, his cock deep between my legs.
I shivered, smiling at the thought of him sliding in and out of me, over and over, his strong hands rough on my hips.
Nash Bell. The biggest asshole in the world, my fake husband. I didn’t know what was happening between us, or where any of this was going, but I knew I wanted to be with him. I wanted to go to L.A. and see what happened. Maybe things wouldn’t work out, maybe we’d end up getting a divorce for real. Maybe he just wanted to fuck me until he was done with me. I didn’t know. But I wanted to find out.
Because I was falling for him, deeply and crazily.
I sighed, looking in the mirror. I was trying desperately not to think about what had happened with that crazy guy, but I kept getting flashes of his face. I could feel the gun pressed up against my head and feel my heart hammering in my chest, fear spiking through me.
I took a deep breath and let it out.
It was okay. Nash was in the other room, and I was safe. He wasn’t going to leave again, and if he did, he’d come back. He always came back.
Just then, my phone began to ring. I nearly jumped out of my skin, but I quickly ran out of the bathroom and grabbed it off the dresser. Nash stirred and looked up at me. “What time is it?” he grunted, but I didn’t answer. I didn’t recognize the number, but the area code was from my hometown.
“Hello?” I said.
“Hi, honey. It’s Mom.”
“Hey, Mom,” I said, walking away from Nash. He was watching me too intently. I went into the bathroom and shut the door. “What’s going on? I didn’t recognize the number.”
“Sorry to call so early.” She sounded stressed and tired. “I’m calling from the hospital.”
My breath caught in my chest. “Dad?” I asked.
“I think you should come home.”
I could hear the pain in her voice. I could hear it in her voice, knew what was happening, but I couldn’t believe it.
He had looked bad the last time I’d seen him, very bad. But I didn’t think we were at this point, not yet. We were so far away from this point, years away. I hadn’t even gotten their money yet.
“Why?” I asked, knowing the answer.
“He’s doing a lot worse than I’ve been telling you,” Mom said. “I’m sorry. I didn’t want to ruin your new marriage, but it’s pretty bad. That’s why we came to visit you guys. We weren’t sure if we’d ever get another chance.” She paused for a second. “Sweetie,” she said, choking slightly, “you need to come home.”
I felt my whole body freeze. The world stopped moving around me.
I stared ahead and couldn’t think.
My mom kept talking, but I didn’t really hear what she was saying. I couldn’t pay attention, couldn’t make the words make sense. I could only think, over and over, about how my dad was dying. He was dying in the hospital.
I don’t know how long I sat there for.
But eventually I found myself looking up at Nash, his face blank. He was gently lowering my hands and taking the phone away. I stared at him, in total shock. “I have to go home,” I said to him.
“I know,” he said.
And when he hugged me, I couldn’t stop the tears. I cried against his chest and he didn’t say a word.
It took a few hours before I could get myself together enough to think coherently.
“Don’t worry about the flight,” Nash said. “I’ll take care of it.”
I was packing my stuff frantically, practically throwing it all into my suitcase. I was barely paying attention to him.
“You’ll be on the next flight. You’ll get back as soon as possible.”
I nodded. “Okay.”
I was moving in a daze as Nash watched me, silently appraising me. I had no clue what he was thinking, or what I was thinking, or what was going to happen. I could only think about my dad, my poor sick dad.
I had never really imagined I’d lose him. I knew he was sick, knew he was bad, but it still never seemed real. You never imagined something like that could happen to your invincible father. I still could see him laughing as he taught me how to throw a baseball, how to ride a bike, how to fish. He used to take me to a stream near our house and let me cast out, even though we never caught anything. He was always smiling, always laughing.
I couldn’t imagine never hearing his laugh again.
“Selena,” Nash said. “Hey.”
I looked up at him. “Hey.”
“You were staring off into space.”
“Sorry.”
He checked his watch. “We have to get you to the airport soon.”
“Right.” I threw some more things into a bag. He took my first suitcase downstairs and came back ten minutes later to grab my second one.
“Ready?” he asked. “Next flight is in two hours. We can get you there if we leave now.”
“Ready,” I said.
We walked out of the room and down the hall. Livy met us outside, standing near the town car.
“Selena,” she said, “I’m so sorry about your dad.”
“Thanks,” I said.
She took me by the shoulders, looking at me seriously. “If I can ever do anything for you, please, tell me and it will get done.”
I blinked, surprised. She’d never given me much attention or even acted like she cared that I existed, and now she was saying that? I didn’t understand her and probably never would, but it meant a lot.
“Thanks,” I said.
She nodded and then turned away. I climbed into the car and Nash climbed in after me.
The ride to the airport went by in a flash. One second we were leaving the hotel and the next we were pulling up outside of the terminal. There was so much I wanted to say, so much I wanted to tell Nash, but none of it was coming out.
It was like my mouth was glued shut, or maybe full of marbles. I couldn’t make words come out, even though there were so many words I wanted to speak.
I wanted to tell him how I felt. I wanted to tell him how much he meant to me. The words were there, on the tip of my tongue, but I couldn’t find them.
And then he was standing there with my bags, looking at me. I climbed out of the car.
“Ready?” he asked, frowning.
“Yeah,” I said.
He hugged me.
I had to say it.
“Come with me,” I blurted out.
He stood back, staring at me.
“What?”
“Come with me,” I said more softly. “Please. Come with me.”
“Selena,” he said.
I hugged him tight and wouldn’t let myself cry. I wasn’t going to cry.
“Selena,” he said again, “I have to be in Los Angeles. We’re leaving tomorrow. If I don’t show up—it’s part of my mission.” I could hear the pain in his voice.
“I get it,” I said.
But I was empty inside in that moment.
“I can’t come,” he said.
> I pulled away from him. “Okay.”
“I’ll see you again soon,” he said. “Really soon. You can come to L.A. when you’re ready.”
“Okay.” I was already looking away from him, already feeling like I was the biggest idiot in the world.
“You’ll be okay,” he said.
“Sure.” He stared at me, but I took a step away. “See you later, Nash.”
He nodded. “See you.”
I walked away, even though it was the most painful thing I had ever done in my life.
He stood there for a second and then got back into the car. It pulled away.
I felt like a piece of me pulled away with that car.
I knew he was going to leave eventually. I knew there was nothing I could do about it, that he’d pay me my money and we’d be finished. After all, I was never really his wife.
He was married to his job. He wanted to get back into combat, and in order to do that he had to go to Los Angeles. He had to follow through with his promises, play the good soldier, and maybe he’d get rewarded.
There wasn’t any room for me in his plan. I was just a tool after all.
A minute later, I turned and walked away.
I gathered my ticket, got in line at security, and then flew home.
32
Nash
One Week Later
Los Angeles was a fucking shit hole.
I leaned back in my chair, on my third whisky, staring out across the buildings. I was sitting out on the balcony of my hotel room suite, and nothing felt fucking right.
Liv wasn’t kidding when she said my job was going to be sitting around watching. They didn’t give a fuck about my opinion at all. They had plenty of other consultants and writers and contractors, each with their own agenda, and I was just another face in the sea. Sure, it was my fucking story they were trying to tell, but what the fuck did they care about that?
And so I sat there all day long, collecting my check, because that was my mission.
My fucking mission. Livy assured me that my publishers were happy, but we both knew the fucking truth. My “publisher” was my fucking commanding officer, and this whole thing was just one bullshit ruse to create another propaganda tool for the government.