by Selena Kitt
As he was preparing to roll it on his cock, she cleared her throat. “I’m on the pill. Don’t worry about it.”
“I do worry, baby.” He said as he continued to roll it. He kneeled on the bed between her jelly legs, leaned to kiss her inner thighs and placed another kiss on her stomach. He lingered there as if he was talking to her womb. When he lifted his head, he was sad. “I’m very sorry about how irresponsible I acted last time. I don’t carry any disease, I get tested every six months.” This was killing the passion and his erection, but since she started it, he felt he had to continue. He placed his hand on her stomach and inhaled. He let out a sigh and spoke. “I want to caress this part of your body when it has a baby inside, but I want it to be on your terms, not because I was careless and got too carried away to put on this stupid rubber.”She turned so emotional that tears started to trail their way down her cheeks. She stood and threw her arms around him. “Thank you for being this considerate.” She kissed him and pulled him down with her. “Now get inside where you belong before I beg for your cock!”
He laughed. “Begging is hot and I would totally love it.” He positioned his cock, held onto her waist and eased into her. A loud groan came from his throat. He leaned lower and she lifted her leg, gripping his firm ass and pushing him inside of her. Moans and the smell of sex filled the room as he thrust into her repeatedly.
“Faster. Faster,” she chanted and lifted her hips to meet his thrusts. He was now fondling her breasts. He loved the view her bouncing tits offered and the sound of their body meeting. He could lose himself in her endlessly and never grow tired of doing it. He took her in his arms and changed the angle to hit her sweet spot better. He enjoyed being this close to her. Balls deep inside of her. Kissing her now hot skin. Licking her everywhere, branding her as his.
“Yes. Yesss!” she moaned. The sensations on her skin ware maddening. They were bathed in a buzzing sensation as they desperately touched and kissed each other. A volcano was preparing to erupt from inside of her. He had such a wicked mouth and his lips were all over her chest. He was lapping at her shoulder one moment, and the next everything went dark. She must have had an orgasm because her throat was dry and she had just screamed. Her core was liquefying and she was floating on waves of pleasure and release. Ryan was chanting something while licking the muscle on her shoulder.
She struggled to catch her breath as he continued to pump her with abandonment.“Mine,” he groaned as he went still and his shaft pulsated with a violent release.
Holding her so tightly against his body gave Ryan serenity. He didn’t know if it was from marking her with his sharp teeth or because he was so tired he could probably pass out this same moment, his cock still deep in her warm core. Regardless of how he felt, he got up and prepared both of them for a great night of snuggling.
Chapter 12
I met Celine only three weeks ago. The night I discovered she was indeed pregnant with my cub was the night I almost lost it. I lost control of everything and all I wanted was to tear everything apart and my bear wanted to tear me apart for what I wanted to do. I remember walking to her door and preparing to go in. It happened about one week and a half after I met her. The moment I reached the door, my senses were assaulted by her maddening lily aroma combined with something new. That triggered my bear and the motherfucker of a beast almost smirked at me. Don’t get me wrong. I’m the happiest man in the world. I’m also the most terrified of them all. If she finds out what I am now, how will I ever be able to hug my cubs, play with them and keep them safe?
Deciding he had to put some distance between them and find his brother, Ryan allowed the connection between him and his twin to burst open. His brother was there for him for some strange reason. His brother never kept their connection this open. This was something new, but all Ryan had patience to think about now was his own problem. He headed for the nearest forest, running like a madman. It wasn’t very close, so he had some good minutes to go through everything in his head one more time. His brother’s bear was close. He could feel it. The other animal was restless with worry, but calm below the surface. He focused on images he could send his brother to explain the situation, but he was such a mess that he couldn’t even do it. His bear was satisfied that his mate was carrying his cubs now and it enraged Ryan how little control he had over the animal.
As soon as he reached the forest, his bear wanted to be free, to roam the forest as it pleased, but Ryan kept the leash tight.
“What happened, Ryan?” Adam said as he made his way to his brother who was now sitting down, holding his head. They were identical twins and they had decided to wear their hair the same length and style ever since they were little. It hurt Adam to see his brother in such bad shape. Ryan looked like a broken image of himself.
When Ryan looked up, his face was distorted and his change was on its way. His voice was more a roar than a human voice, but he closed his eyes and opposed the change. Adam could see how pale his brother was. He decided it was wiser to sit somewhere near him rather than try and touch his brother. “You’re only hurting yourself by denying your bear to take control,”he whispered. Adam wasn’t afraid of his reaction. He knew he was stronger because of his connection to his inner bear.
His face muscles were rigid. “I can’t trust my fucking stupid bear. He’s crazy. He took over my body, got her pregnant and I couldn’t do anything else but sit back and watch how he gave her orgasm after orgasm, filling her with my seed until he was sure she would be pregnant soon. She’s mine and I’m not sharing her with the beast.”
“You and the bear are one and the same. If you keep denying how important he is to your wellbeing, you’ll just end up hurting yourself and your mate in the process,” Adam said with conviction.
“Mate? You don’t believe in that soul mate crap mum mentioned in her letter, do you?”
“I do now. You know I told you about meeting Anna on the same night as you met Celine. How much of a coincidence that is, I have no idea, but she is all I have ever wanted in a woman. The problem is I thought I had my bear under control, just like you.”
Ryan’s face was slowly going back to normal, a clear sign he had calmed down. He remembered meeting Anna at the restaurant a few days after that night in the club. He had even called her his brother’s mate. He had been sarcastic about it, obviously.
Adam continued. “I was only denying how wise the animal is and how it can choose the best for me. My nightmares, Ryan… those blue eyes I kept dreaming of. They belonged to her. To her! Can you imagine I was so messed up to believe I could find my own happiness, when my bear had already met his mate, my mate and was trying to make me see it?
“You’re serious, aren’t you?” Ryan said with resignation in his voice.
“Yeah, man. I met her more than seven years ago, but probably I just convinced myself she wasn’t my style. I did that a lot actually. And now she’s mine. She matches me in strength and connection too. And I feel whole again. How ironic.”
Ryan sighed and hugged his brother, patting him on the back. “I’m happy for you, brother. I am. How did she take the news that you’re a shifter, though?” Ryan asked not out of courtesy, but because he was really interested. That reaction was what he feared most in life.
Adam put some distance between them and laughed so hard that the forest birds left their nests. “She thought it was mostly a joke, but I think I got to her pretty fast because she accepted the mating mark that same night. She was scared after seeing my bear, but we silently agreed that we needed to be together. She agreed to be my mate, so I mated her. It hasn’t been a fun ride ever since because she is stubborn, but we’re working on it. We’re making our life together as shifters work.”
“I’m so screwed. Celine’s going through a lot. She’s been sick since Wednesday. A week now. I couldn’t convince her not to go to work without telling her,” Ryan mumbled.
“What do you mean? She doesn’t know she’s pregnant? You haven’t told her?”
> “No, I wasn’t sure, but tonight I noticed that her scent changed and my bear is sure. I can’t explain how I know and Janet told me a human pregnancy is detected after at least a month, so I’m not going to risk telling her. The only thing I can do is be there for her.”
His brother didn’t know the truth about his ex-wife. It was better to keep things in the dark. Nobody knew what happened to her but Ryan. It was better to tell them she died in a car accident than share the truth with everybody. That she had discovered he was a shifter. Her rejection had hurt so much that he barely recovered from that experience. He had been with women since then, but those decisions hadn’t been the best of choices.
That night was eye-opening for Ryan. He was going to be a father. His mate was afraid of trusting him. She had no clue he was a shifter. He didn’t know what her reaction would be when she found out. He had to keep her in the dark for as long as possible and for that he had to control his animal. His former strategy of ignoring his bear side wasn’t working anymore, so he decided to bond with the animal. He couldn’t understand why Adam thought the bear was wise and made the best decisions. His ex-wife, Joana, was testimony of that. Things didn’t go well when a human woman found out her husband was part animal.
* * *
Celine’s pregnancy was tough on both of them. Little than a month had passed when Janet forced Celine to admit she couldn’t ignore her state much longer. Their trip to the doctor only resulted in a list of tests. Celine was terrified of needles, but Janet was decided to discover what the problem was. The doctor said it was probably anemia. Janet suspected something else, so she called the only person who could clarify things, Ryan.
“Tell me my best friend is not pregnant, you dumbass!” Janet shouted.
Ryan put considerable distance between his sensitive ear and the phone. He lowered his head as if Janet was right in front of him. “She is,” was all he could say.
She was expecting him to deny it, but when he didn’t, she just sighed. “You knew? Why didn’t you say anything?”
“I can’t be the one to tell her. The doctor has to, Janet. She doesn’t know what I am.”
“Why don’t you tell her? Oh, shit! This is about Joana, isn’t it?”
“I don’t want to talk about it. If you want to do something for her, you can get her a pregnancy test and be there for her.”
“It’s going to be different this time, big guy. Celine is not your ex-wife.”
He nodded. She wasn’t. That didn’t mean he was going to tell her and watch it all go down the drain. And take him with her this time too. “I know.”
“You don’t plan to tell her?” she asked.
As long as I can keep it a secret, I will. I hope you can respect that. I didn’t mean for this to happen, but I’m very happy it did. I want her. She makes me feel alive and whole again. I’m not very good with words when it comes to her. I intend to propose as soon as possible, so don’t spoil that for me.”
* * *
Celine’s pregnancy symptoms weren’t the usual nausea, throwing up and being bitchy, which were associated with a human pregnancy. Instead, she had a permanent cold and a sore throat, connected to a nasty cough and frequent fever, to top it all. Nobody but Janet suspected anything. She went to work, took more vitamins and natural medicine and almost bathed in chamomile and green tea.
Nothing helped.
Of course, some days were better than others, but her condition didn’t improve. She didn’t suspect anything. The only unusual behavior was that she wanted to be outside as much as possible.
This was the second weekend she couldn’t stand being in the city and longed to be up in the mountains.
Surrounded by dense forest, Ryan’s chalet was kind of isolated from the rest. It was the middle of August, so the forest was starting to change color and the golden light filtering through the trees gave the front area of the chalet this mystical vibe to the place. It was so peaceful that Celine dreaded leaving the place. Relaxing in a hammock Ryan had put up for her between some trees, Celine sunbathed in the afternoon sun. This bloody cold made it difficult for her to breathe, but being at such high altitude relieved the pressure somehow. Lying down helped a lot. The swaying of the hammock was forcing her eyelids to slowly close. She didn’t have anything else to do but relax.
Ryan was preparing the barbecue. Soon his brother, his fiancé and their friends would be there to meet Celine. He had waited for so long to introduce her to his “tribe”, as they called their shifter community because of how Celine felt and especially because Anna’s transition had been quite unpredictable. Now he felt Celine was ready. She seemed more confident in their relationship and he wanted her to feel welcome before he proposed. He was planning not to tell her about being a shifter. He knew it was a mistake, but he couldn’t find any way of saying this.
This man is so sexy I could eat him and not get tired of it. After everyone is gone I might have some ideas about that. Only looking at him calms me down. Who would have thought I would go for so long without my fake friends? I’m scared I made him a priority, but the butterflies in my stomach when he looks at me –just like now- and cracks a devilish smile; give me the reassurance that I might have done the right thing in choosing to let him into my life. He hasn’t missed a night of sleeping next to me. Sometimes it would be my house, sometimes his. The location isn’t that important. The fact that he is so responsive to my every need and seems to already know what I want before I want it makes me melt. My favorite thing about Ryan is how at ease he makes me feel. Around him as a man, around other people as he introduces me to his business partners as his love. The way my name comes out of his mouth. He does pay attention to the small things. I’m still getting used to that. Getting used to being important to someone like that. You might say it’s just the effects of being at the beginning of a relationship and that’s probably true, but there’s something about the way he carries himself in the world that says so much about this man. Did I mention the flowers? I didn’t? Sorry then, he introduced me to the world of flowers. He calls me his lily. He says I smell and I am as elegant as one. I know that’s not necessarily true, but if I keep hearing it more times, I might start believing this. I also can’t believe how addicted I’ve become to his chalet. It’s like I’m catching up for all the time I have avoided coming here. And the man is a sex machine! And a professional cuddler. I think I just invented a new job! I never thought watching a man – my man – supervising a barbecue could be so arousing. I think he moved that grill over there on purpose, just to give me a better look of his ass. Evil cuddler!
Celine was nervous about meeting his friends. She had already met Adam, Ryan’s twin brother, and Raddler, their friend who owned a farm up there in the mountains – the place where Ryan bought the meat, fruit and vegetables he needed for his restaurant – but she had yet to meet Anna – Adam’s fiancé –, Alex and Leon, who were the managers of the Outdoor complex his chalet belonged to. Adam had been so warm with her. It was strange looking at two separate Ryans. They were identical. She made a mental note to remember that Ryan was the one with the green t-shirt. It was more like a private joke. She could recognize Ryan from the two of them anytime. He always had this naughty look for her that made her panties wet instantly. It was like he could see right through her. Since he had taken the weekend off he had a day’s stubble. That was a rare thing for him because he preferred to shave daily. She couldn’t believe her ears when she found out how old he was. He looked so much younger. Nobody gave him more than thirty when he was really thirty five. She had nothing to complain about it, though. She didn’t care about it actually.
She liked Raddler. He was such a funny guy. He even said she smelled like Ryan. His jokes were strange sometimes, but she wasn’t close to many men, so she just filed his sense of humor into the mountain-men-jokes drawer and moved on.
Ryan was aware she was watching his every move. He couldn’t believe he was so lucky to have found such a strong woman. And she w
as the mother of his cub. He hoped she would accept him one day if she found out he was a shifter. He was also aware his brother was close. His bear was reaching out for his twin. He sent his brother yet another warning. They had already talked about his situation. All of them actually. Everybody knew Celine was pregnant and they had sworn not to say anything. His friends didn’t get why Ryan chose to handle things that way, but they could sense his fear and especially his anxiety, so they didn’t push it.
The first to arrive were Alex and Leon. They brought more beer. As if they didn’t have enough of that. Ryan had stocked up on everything, including Celine’s favorite chocolate, which she now had an appetite for, since her taste buds seemed to have recovered from the cold faster than her sense of smell.
“Man, the smell is killing me. I’m so hungry I could eat the grill too!”Alex joked, as they shook hands.