I could see that Jax didn’t approve of what I was saying, but he bit his tongue and didn’t reply. After we were in the room, he pulled me into his arms and kissed the top of my head. “Go take a hot bath. I’m going to find something to watch on television. Hopefully the detective channel will have a show about how to kill your parents and get away with it. Just so you know,” he added. “I’m not going anywhere.”
“You’re insane. A bath sounds like a plan.” Agreeing to relax, was like having to breathe. I needed it to be able to survive.
“With bubbles,” he added.
“Yes, bubbles.”
“And Jax.” He laughed when he said it.
As I walked into the bathroom and put my hand on the lock to fasten it, I backed away. I didn’t need to be scared of Jax, not in any way. Of all the people in my life, I felt the most protected when I was around him. I knew he had a reputation of being a womanizer. I wasn’t born yesterday. A guy that looked like Jax could get just about any girl he wanted. The fact that he was so amused by me left me flabbergasted. Quite frankly I couldn’t understand his attraction. If my life wasn’t a cluster-fuck, today’s events had proven that being around me only brought negativity.
The hot water in the soaking tub was like heaven as I sank down inside of it. A washrag covered my closed eyes while I lay there in the silence of the room. There was only one thing missing in my near perfect moment, and I was a little leery to admit it.
“Jax,” I called out. “Can you come here?”
The door swung open and he entered, as if he were alarmed. “What’s wrong?”
“There’s something missing in here.”
“What? Do you need me to grab something from your bag?”
I shook my head and bit down on my lip.
“Then what?” It only took him a few seconds to figure it out. A huge smirk filled his face as he approached the bubble-filled bath. “Seriously?”
I nodded and scooted back to make room for him. The tub wasn’t huge, by an means, but there was plenty of room for both of us. Jake tugged his shirt over his head, and quickly shoved down his shorts and boxers. Standing before me completely naked, he began posing, making muscles. “What are you doing?”
“It’s my celebratory pose. You like it don’t you?”
I raised my hand out of the water and used my index finger to motion him to join me.
Jax jumped in, careful enough to keep the water from running out. His hairy legs rubbed against mine as he got situated. Now face to face, we sat there, completely naked in the small tub. Jax took his toe and rubbed between my legs. I squirmed, but refused to push him away. “You’d be more comfortable if you put your back against my chest.”
“You just want me to stand up.”
“Maybe.” He grinned.
I started lifting my body using the sides to hold my weight up. Jax closed his eyes, and even covered them with his hands. I admired how much he appreciated me to do something so trivial. There was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to be intimate with this man, so there was no reason to keep him from seeing every part of me.
Being a stripper had gotten easier throughout the months, but I’d never be able to get totally naked. There was a limit to what I was willing to sacrifice for money. This was the only part of me that I kept locked away. Standing up for Jax wasn’t just progress; it was proof that I’d learned to trust again. In a short time he’d shown me that I wasn’t a waste of space. He’d appreciated me, enough to take drastic measures to keep my attention. I couldn’t begin to express how that all made me feel inside.
As I stood up, allowing the bubbles to leave my bare skin, I reached for his hands, pulling them away from his face. “I’m ready for you to see me, Jax.”
His eyes opened slowly, narrowing in on my pussy, and then the rest of my body. He didn’t speak as he took my hand and pulled me closer, kissing me there with his soft lips. His hands came around and held onto the cheeks of my ass. Then he turned his head to the side and held me. It was the sweetest thing I’d ever experienced.
He didn’t go crazy, or crack a joke. He embraced me, out of respect. I couldn’t speak. It was too perfect.
I ran my hand through his hair, causing him to look up into my eyes. My body was trembling, not because I was cold, but more that I was petrified. This powerful connection couldn’t be denied.
Warm tears fell down my cheeks while I tried to grasp exactly what was happening between us. This was something I’d never experienced. “Why are you shaking?” He asked.
“I’m scared.”
He pulled me down into his arms, until my back was flat against his chest. “What are you scared of,” he whispered into my ear while his head rested on my shoulder.
“Falling for you.” It was hard to admit it out loud. One week had passed since we first began seeing each other. Was it possible that we could develop something this intense in that little amount of time?
“Don’t be scared of me. I’d never hurt you. I swear I wouldn’t.”
I turned and kissed him passionately, expressing my utmost appreciation for everything he’d done. “I trust you.”
His nose rubbed against mine. “I can’t believe this is happening. You make me want to be a better man.”
We kissed again, this time savoring each other’s tongues as they mangled about. The way he held me close, the little sounds that escaped him, the electricity that we created together, it all fueled my desire. I needed him, and it was time to stop refusing. I wanted to fall, because I knew he’d be there to catch me.
“I want to be with you,” I whispered against his mouth.
Our eyes met as he asked, “Are you sure?”
“I’ve never been more sure about anything in my life.”
“I don’t know if I’ve ever made love before, but I know that’s what it’s going to be when I’m with you, Amber. You’re so worth the wait.”
As hypnotized as I was in the moment, I managed to laugh. “It’s only been a week.”
“Is that right? It feels like years.”
His urgency was poking me, but I refused to move. This intense embrace was genuine, and heartfelt. This wasn’t like other guys I’d been involved with. Being with Jax felt like something I wasn’t ready to admit, yet I knew it was there already, just waiting to be explored. “Is this what it feels like to be in a mutual relationship, because if it is, I don’t think I’ve ever been in one before.”
He played with my chin and kissed me softly. “I’ve been in one serious relationship, and we both know how it ended. I wasn’t looking for another one, but baby, you’ve got me so fucking messed up over you. You couldn’t get rid of me if you tried.”
“It’s a good thing I don’t want you to go anywhere.”
“Hopefully we’ll be able to get out of this tub, because once the water gets cool the Jaxinator might need to go into his hidey hole. He doesn’t like being cold.”
I stood up, shocking Jax with my boldness, and extended my hand for him to take. “Take me to bed or lose me forever.” It was from a movie I’d seen a zillion times.
He rolled his eyes. “I can’t compete with Goose. God rest his soul.”
“The fact that you know that turns me on, Jax.”
Instead of letting me help him up, he took his hands and placed them on my legs, sliding them in the direction of my hips. His face was right there, in front of my most private area. I watched him narrowing in and parting his mouth. Then I felt him there, kissing me again while sliding his wet lips over my tender skin. “I’ve dreamed about doing this to you.” He looked up at me watching him. “About tasting you.”
I tried to keep composure, though it wasn’t without a lot of effort. The more he kissed and teased me with his mouth the faster I was losing the ability to think.
The second I felt his tongue entering me, my knees began to buckle. This wasn’t like his fingers exploring me. This was his sensual muscle, taking me to new heights. His precision was well-practiced,
and he knew exactly where to lick. I dug my hands into his hair, keeping his head from backing away. Jax held onto my ass using his nose and whiskers to add pleasure. He sucked on my clit, pulling, and twisting it between his closed teeth. I cried out, unable to fathom that something could feel this good. He knew he had me where he wanted me, and I refused to fight it. This was what I held out for. The perpetual feeling of being overwhelmed with satisfaction, without fear. This was what Christian felt when she was with Ethan, and probably why Reese couldn’t resist Jake. I finally understood, and it only helped this sensual moment become one of the best experiences I’d ever had. “Tonight is about me and you, Amber. Nothing else matters, do you understand? There’s no parents, no school, and certainly no ex’s. We’re alone, and nothing is going to stop us.”
“Okay,” was all I could say.
Jax helped me out of the tub, laying a towel on the floor so I wouldn’t slip. We didn’t dress, because it wasn’t necessary. When our feet reached the bed he turned around to face me and took my hands into his. “I don’t know the first thing about being romantic, but I’ll try my best to make you happy tonight. Above all I want you to know that if you feel uncomfortable, at any point, you just say the word and I’ll stop.”
“I appreciate that.”
He lifted my hand to his lips. “Do we make love now, or have pancakes first?” His smile was irresistibly contagious, and I didn’t even mind that he’d broken the mood. He knew I needed to be comfortable, and that was his only goal.
I sat down on the bed and pulled him alongside of me. “I’m not hungry for pancakes, Jax. It’s been over a year since I’ve been with someone. I vote we have sex now, and then maybe after pancakes, if being with me is good enough to want seconds.”
He chuckled and shook his head. “Woman, when are you going to see what I see when I look at you? Not only are you gorgeous, probably the sexiest woman I’ve ever seen in my life, but you’re smart, and you’re fragile. You need me, which makes me want to protect you. There’s nothing about you that would deter me. I’m in this. I told you that already.”
“It’s too good to be true.”
“No, it’s not. We’ve both suffered. Maybe it’s time we get to be happy.” His lips connected with mine, as he pulled me on top of him. I could feel his strong arms holding me tight, but I didn’t feel trapped.
“What if we’re rushing?” I was stalling, because I needed him to be sure.
“I’ve never wanted another woman like I want you. That’s the truth. I could fuck you like the other’s I’ve been with, but I don’t want to. With you I’m going to take my time, because it’s important that I memorize every single detail of this.” He brought his fingers up and ran them over my lips before kissing me again. “It’s not every day that a man gets to be with the woman of his dreams.”
I was putty in his hands at this point. There was no going back. We were about to make love. Two people with little experience on the subject were about to embark on a journey together, not knowing where it would lead us, and I wasn’t at all scared.
Chapter 30
Jax
Her beauty intoxicated me, sending me into a drunken stupor each time we touched. This wasn’t someone I wanted to rush it with. No, with Amber I needed to take my time, savoring every single inch of her bronzed skin. Her hair dripped down over her exposed breasts, making me salivate with anticipation of licking it off. I took one nipple into my mouth, sucking hard until the skin turned pink. As I pulled away I watched her shove back in my direction, as if to silently ask for a repeat embrace. The harder her tips became, the more attention I wanted to give to them. Using my tongue I flicked each one, nibbling on them. Little cries escaped Amber’s lips as I continued enjoying her supple breasts. I suckled her tiny nipple, trapping it again in between my teeth.
Before moving downward, I lifted my lips to brush them against hers. “I love how your nipples are so sensitive. Damn, it turns me on so much.”
I spoke of what I was doing as I did it. “My lips traipse down your abdomen, set on a course for your beckoning pussy. I need to taste you again; to feel the smoothness of your shaved box as I breathe you in.” I was right there, admiring what I was about to go town on. “I need to suck on this clit.” My mouth came down and slurped it in, tugging with just enough pull to cause her to react. Then I fastened my mouth around the lower lips of her labia, invading her pussy with my tongue.
Amber cried out, digging her hands into my hair and pulling on it. She didn’t know that I got off on the pain associated with rough sex, and I couldn’t tell her. She was still too fragile. This moment was all about her. For the first time in my life I wasn’t being selfish about sex. It was another reason why I knew this woman was something special.
While my tongue moved in a circular motion around her clit, Amber’s body began to buck. Louder noises were being cried out as she succumbed to an orgasm. Her tantric juices covered my mouth, and I lapped them up, devouring every last drop.
Once I knew she was recovering, I kissed her inner thighs, wiping my face off as I coasted up her skin. Amber clamped her legs around my ass, lifting me to face her faster than I could move. Our lips brushed and I pulled back to watch her tasting herself as she licked them. “You like that don’t you, beautiful?”
She bit down on her lip as I came in for another kiss. Her hands began wandering down my back at the exact moment she used her strength to flip us around.
There she was, straddling me with her natural tits staring me back at me. I took one hand and rubbed her swollen pussy again, making sure she was well cared for. “How are you doing up there?”
She smiled and ran her hands through her hair, letting it all fall down over her breasts, leaving only her nipples exposed. My mouth watered watching the way she was rocking her body over mine. “I’m ready Jax.” I already knew she was. I could feel the wetness against my stomach as she grinded that ass.
“I need to get protection, baby.”
Amber scooted off of me so that I was able to locate my wallet. It took two seconds for me to realize that I hadn’t brought one with me. Instead I’d left it in my car, back at the ranch. “FUCK!” I yelled. “Shit, shit shit!”
Amber got up her knees, totally distracting me from my freak out for a second. “What’s wrong?”
“They’re in my car. I didn’t think this would be happening yet. I’m not prepared.”
She sank down on her ass, looking disappointed. I joined her on the bed, sitting down next to her. “I’m sorry I ruined the moment.”
“You didn’t.” Amber crawled behind me and kissed the back of my shoulder. Her hands began massaging each side, while she placed tender kisses around my ear lobe. She whispered into my ear. “We don’t have to stop, Jax.”
I turned to face her and saw the desire in her eyes. “No. I’ve never had sex without protection. Not even with Reese.”
“I see,” she said as she looked away sadly.
I should have stood up and got dressed, or climbed under the covers to prevent from being close to her, but I couldn’t budge. There she was; the most stunning woman on the planet, and I was giving her the cold shoulder. She’d made all of this progress to be shut down by a sap like me. “It needs to be perfect, Amber.”
“I’ve spent practically my whole life running from things I couldn’t change, Jax. I’m tired of playing it safe. For once I want to grasp what’s in front of me and be happy. I was tested last year. I’m clean. You know me. I haven’t slept with a lot of people.”
“It’s not you I’m worried about.”
“I get it.”
She started to move away and I couldn’t bear it. “Oh hell, where are you going?”
“I’m going to put some clothes on so I’m not torturing you.”
“You dressing is torture. Get back on this bed with me, please.” I sighed and looked into those baby-blues. “There’s a first time for everything right?”
She nodded. “I guess.”
> “Do you still want me to make love to you, Amber? I need to hear you say that it’s okay? I’ll do my best to pull out. I’ve never had to do it, so it’s going to be a challenge, especially with you.”
Amber grinned. “So I’ll be your first?”
“I know, it’s a shocker.”
“I admire a man who sticks to his rules.”
She kissed me eagerly, and I savored the way her lips still tasted like her pussy. “Oh yeah, well this guy is falling apart when he’s with you. Next my man card will disappear.”
She giggled. “Don’t worry. I like how tough you are. We don’t have to proceed, Jax. We’ve waited this long.”
I laid her down on the bed on her back and lifted one of her feet, kissing her ankle. “You’re the best thing that’s happened to me in a long ass time. I want you more than I’ve ever wanted another woman, I’ve already told you this. If you want me to make love to you, let’s do it right. I’ll go all-natural, full steam ahead.”
“If you’re the conductor what am I?” She inquired.
“You’re my precious train, and I’m here to tune you up before we get started on this all night ride.”
I took both of her legs and spread them wide, crawling up between them. Amber bit down on her plump lip as she reached up and pinched one of her nipples. I ran my hands up her inner thighs, stopping only when I got close to her pussy. It glistened in the dim light shining through the curtain, beckoning me to give it more attention.
Her moans emanated as I applied pressure to my rubbing. I played around, spreading her lips and memorizing the space I was about to invade with my engorged cock. With one thumb I rubbed it over her clit, getting an immediate reaction from her. She was still sensitive, telling me I didn’t need to work hard to prepare for what was to come. Two fingers slid inside of her opening, squishing around in the soaked remnants of the orgasm I’d given her earlier. Imagining her tight walls surrounding my dick was making it throb. I yearned to fill her, but knew it was too soon. She needed to be caressed, and admired some more first.
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